TTC after miscarriage thread 13 💕🌈✨💛

@emhope a few of us on here have had the same, it's heartbreaking when you realise it's just a dodgy test opposed to a early pregnancy. I don't test early for this reason now as I always get indents. Oh totally. I feel very alone on this journey, DH is the 'sperm donor' and is no way as invested in this journey as me. Does he want another child? Yes but he isn't consumed by it. I often feel quite alone in this process and suspect many other women on this forum feel the same.

@bunnykins123 thanks 💕 I can’t believe the tests can do that, I have always been lucky in a way I guess as never had that before. It’s heartbreaking to think you have finally got that BFP and then it’s not…

How does everyone else find this TTC journey and pregnancy loss impacts your relationship? Although my partner isn’t the best with emotions I thought we had a pretty strong relationship but I think it’s all really starting to take it’s toll 😔 After the potential positive and then negative yesterday I wasn’t in a good way, had a big cry when OH got back from work and cried again before I went to bed…and his response was ‘why are you crying?’ And then he started saying he can’t do this anymore with my behaviours being up and down each month! And that it’s all too much and feels like I will only be happy when I replace the baby (didn’t say he wanted to stop trying but it very much felt that way)
I don’t really know what to do… I can’t help the disappointment and upset each month it doesn’t happen… I am hoping he just had a bit of an outburst but I am starting to feel very alone in all this 😢 does anyone get the same? I do feel like the TTC has taking over my life but I can’t switch off my overwhelming desire to be pregnant again

@emhope I'm so sorry it was a bfn. I have had cracking bfps after a few hours of leaving the tests. It totally sucks and adds to the anxiety when you get a questionable test. Big hugs from me 💕

Well AF was due Weds, my cycles are usually 28 days, but this was first period since MC, all I'm getting are BFN's 😪

no temping as I’m a terrible sleeper so I find it unreliable.
almost 2 weeks since epu. We’ve only dtd once as I thought it’s probably better to wait for af otherwise I won’t know when I can test from, and it’s pointless trying if I’m still positive, I don’t think I’ve ever been more desperate for af to come

@Mannymoomin I just looked it says 10 on the cb website for the weeks indicator 😳 maybe they've changed them 🤷🏼‍♀️ I did take a screenshot but apparently it doesn't want to come up on my pictures 🙄 I think if the ic are still obviously positive I would be ringing the EPU how long since you've been in touch with them? As for this cycle I think you've just got to dtd every 2/3 days and hope for the best do you temp at all?

@mummatara how awful having to go through mc twice, once is bad enough, it’s going to be so hard not to be anxious on the next bfp.
I haven’t been back for more bloods, I was discharged after confirming no RPOC and just told my hcg will go back to pre pregnancy levels, just slowly

@mummatara I’ve got the normal CB digi which are 25 (I was desperately reading the instructions to check) it’s the early ones that are sensitive to 10.
I’ve used IC and frer, even the IC are obviously positive and I find them difficult to read. Never have I ever wanted a negative test more

@Mannymoomin I actually looked the cb weeks digi the other day as I'm currently testing down from second MC and I thought they were sensitive to 50 but actually they are sensitive to 10 so don't feel disheartened as they are actually quite sensitive supposedly 🤷🏼‍♀️ I know the feeling all too well when you think it's been a week why isn't it any different 🙄 what else are you using to test? Just IC? Have the EPU done any further bloods?

I don’t know if it’s worse not being able to track ovulation because of the false positives they’ll give, first cycle after mc is well and truly a wtf cycle

@mummatara wonderful, as if it couldn’t get any more difficult 😂
I didn’t test for over a week as it’s horrible seeing a positive when you know it’s not, I expected the line to be faint today but it’s still really in my face, and to top it off I hoped the CB digi would be negative, but my hcg is obviously still above 25 to get the 1-2 weeks

@MrsC2018 gosh aprils a very hard one for you. This second pregnancy was due 19th April so I'll be with you on that one. My first was due 16th Dec so not long until I get to go through that awful day ☹️

@MrsC2018 sorry ds jolted me 🤦🏼‍♀️ that's such a man answer is what I was going for

@Mannymoomin ahhh yes @bunnykins123 tells me exercise, green tea and lots of water helps flush it out 😍

@MrsC2018 😂 that's such a man

Well, it's a no from us for the ovusense too. Husband's take on it is that we'll just have loads of sex 🙈 couldn't think of a rationale for it beyond meaning we're having sex at the right times but that won't wash as it means less 🤣 going to go with his more relaxed approach and see if we can catch again soon. April is going to be a difficult month for me, first miscarriage was 8th April and due date of the last one was 9th April. Ideally need to be pregnant by then I think, so we'll see how relaxed I am in a couple months!

@emhope im sorry, the hope is just a killer. The due date grief is real. I was 12 weeks with another pregnancy for mine and still sobbed for the baby I'd lost. They're not replaceable and we're always going to ache for what we've lost at times, even when our arms are full

@Mannymoomin after my first MC I didn't get a negative test until 6 weeks after. I got my period at 5 weeks and the negative test the week after 🙄

@Mannymoomin that’s so fustrating, mine did take a couple of weeks to come down after everything was gone too which annoyingly seems normal

That was nearly a week and a half ago though

@ChloeN yes they’ve checked for RPOC and nothing. Just said it’s likely to be hcg taking a while to come down

@Mannymoomin have you had to be seen again at the hospital for still having positive tests? Xx

I’m now 5 weeks since miscarriage at 8 weeks, stopped bleeding 4 weeks ago and only had the occasional brown discharge since.
I just tested today and I’m still getting positives and 1-2 weeks on CB digi, this wtf cycle is crazy, I haven’t bothered testing for Ovuation as I just have no idea what stage my cycle is at

@Babydustmamma yep! It looked really good tbh and convenient that you can use it for lots of other things! Xx

@emhope what a f*cker! So sorry ♥️

@ChloeN is that the apple? Oooh wicked!

@Babydustmamma im on a ttc Facebook group and people mentioned it was accurate at confirming ovulation for them and after a few cycles it seems to predict it too!

@mummatara i always buy things with such good intentions that’ll help me exercise and lose weight, never does 🤣

@emhope oh I’m so sorry lovely, I really had hope that it was something for you 😔