TTC after miscarriage thread 12 🌈✨💛💕

@Luna57 ❤️

@Mariabombia McDonald's ❤️ don't even 🙈
That's why epu exists..it's nerve racking phoning but they are normally so lovely and understand the worry. Keep us updated. My trust does offer a scan but I know everywhere is different Xx

Both cardiologist and neurologist said to me ttc was no issue. It's just with the 2 miscarriages it's taken longer than it should have. And I've been reckless with my diet. So my fault for the break in ttc 🙁

Thank you everyone for their reassurance I have made peace with what may happen, I can’t control the outcome. I might be quiet on here for a while because I feel like I’m just sounding like a broken record with this on and off bleeding. But then again I might need some questions answered as no one else knows about this pregnancy. Every so often I feel like I should tell my mum she’s so supportive and we’re super close but I really don’t want to burden her with grief. Feel like dh is feeling stressed and worried with it all too and the closest person he could talk about this to is his sister which isn’t great as her ivf failed a few weeks ago and although she would put her feelings aside for him it just wouldn’t be fair to put this on her as well

@MrsCristianoX hope they will offer something when I call them or reassure me in some way. I'm stressing because it's turned browny colour this aft argh :( not all day but patches. hope it's normal

@MrsCristianoX forgot to tag you 😘

Sorry I meant I'm feeling rubbish as in stressed rubbish. I think I may be more hormonal than usual so that's probably not helping the worrying. I'm going to call epu in the morning to ask about this browny yellow discharge. I'm worried it's blood :(

Ahh I know what you mean, it's actually so nice to eat healthy consistently, I start craving veggies after a few days of bad eating. Can't beat a pizza and maccys though lol. Xx

@LuckyMoonstone Ugh it's such an agonising waiting game for you! I really hope it'll all be clear for you soon.

@HalWin2221 I'm around 5+2 or so, hopefully we'll see something on the scan this coming week.

@Mariabombia I think the yellow discharge is normal? I want to say it needs to turn yellow to form the mucous plug to keep little bean in. Does your trust offer a reassurance scan?

@Mariabombia feeling like rubbish in the early weeks is good so I've everything crossed for you❤️

I'm good. Just finished AF. Feel like a new women after 3 days of healthy eating! I'm pretty disgusted with myself for letting myself eat rubbish for so long Xx

@MrsCristianoX 5 weeks , I feel rubbish :( how're you doing love?

@Mariabombia I'm sure you are so stressed.. and it is stressful. How many weeks are you now?

@LuckyMoonstone I did ovulate with a blood level of 84 but OPKs were useless (ovulation confirmed by a scan)

Hope everyone else is doing ok..I feel like I've missed so much Xx

Hcg has gone up but only from like 79 to 82, so in the space of a whole week that’s bugger all difference really. So they’re giving me another blood test in a week. Which is annoying to drag it on even longer but it does give me hope that it’s going to start dropping. I said to DH, it could be that it rose during the week and now it’s dropping off, so I could’ve Actually missed the peak if you get what I mean. I feel like if it was a proper ectopic pregnancy large enough to potentially rupture then my levels would be going up much more. Christ they’re gonna end up just leaving me to it and I’m going to be sort-of pregnant forever 🤣

Thanks ladies, it's gone more browny yellow this afternoon so I'm freaking out a bit :(

@Luna57 sorry the scan wasn't very reassuring but positive that they can see something and they're monitoring you and putting you on cyclogest. I don't think everyone sees a heartbeat at 6 weeks so try to keep positive, it's still so early ❤️❤️❤️

@RaliaMusca great news about doubling HCG! How far along are you now? 4 weeks?

@Luna57 oh really sorry it wasn’t more conclusive for you. This is the issue with these early scans at 6 weeks ish. Sometimes they cause more worry for a few days until further reassurance.
but I don’t think panic yet. I have had a heartbeat at 6+1. But I think it’s 50/50 at about 6 weeks ish whether one will be present or not. If you take the smaller measurement of 6+2. Then 48 hours can make a difference and in 2 days there could be a heart beat. There was a fetal pole she could measure. So that’s positive.
2 weeks seems a long time to wait tho doesnt it 🙈

@LuckyMoonstone oh bloody fingers crossed hey 🤞🏼🤞🏼 Come on hcg! Piss off lol xx

@RaliaMusca good news on the doubling hcg!

@Luna57 oh I'm sorry it's not given the reassurance you were looking for. I've taken cyclogest - they are actually pretty easy to use. 1 in the morning, 1 before bed. I prefer up the back passage, MUCH easier and less leakage (if you do go with the hoo-ha, be warned you will get discharge and it stains your underwear so wear old ones). If you go up the back passage, your poo will be a bit white, do not be alarmed!

@Luna57 oh lovely, I'm sorry the scan wasn't very reassuring. The uncertainty is very difficult and two weeks is a long time to wait. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you!

I finally got my blood test results and my HCG has doubled in 48 hrs from 1070 to over 2000 so that's looking good. Bleeding has stopped and I did a cheap pregnancy test this morning which was darker than the control line. But I'm still not convinced after that clotty bleed two days ago. I'm having a scan next week though when I'll be 6 weeks so hopefully an answer then. Although I know I also won't be reassured until I can see a heart beat

I’ve now brown discharge again so I’m really hoping that’s the end of the bleeding for a while. I’ve been on google which I know I shouldn’t but seen a few people saying their baby’s heartbeat wasn’t detected til 7 weeks+ so maybe I’ve a bit of hope 🤷🏼‍♀️ Was only a small little blurry blob. Has anyone used cyclogest pessaries before? I feel like I read on here somewhere someone recommended using them rectally instead of vaginally as they kept falling out?

@Mariabombia yellow discharge sounds perfectly normal to me, I’ve had it too

@Luna57 it’s really positive that they can see something and the dates match up, but i bet it’s still going to be a very anxious two weeks for you. We’re here for you to unload all your worries x

just had my bloods done, might get results today but if not then tomorrow. Please please please be going down!!

@Everythingzrosie good luck today, hoping DH is on form

@Luna57 it's so hard. Wait and see wait and see. So sick of waiting and seeing

We DTD last night. Unprotected. I mean I'm CD6 so I know I'm not fertile yet but it seems DH forgot? I'll have to speak to him ffs

@Luna57 sorry you didn’t get the answer you was hoping for :( glad they are rescanning you in 2 weeks then! Have they offered that as a reassurance scan due to previous MC? Still keeping everything crossed for you!

@Mariabombia i think they are all normal feelings to have, especially after a MC. Hope you’re being kind to yourself!

I’m not sure how the scan went. Measurements from the scan were between 6+2 and 6+4 weeks. Looking back those dates would coincide with when I felt O pain on my left side about 4 weeks ago but I didn’t think it was O pain at the side and she was able to see the cyst on my left ovary where I ovulated from. But my pregnancy tests were far too positive for a week after ovulation surely? Only thing, she couldn’t see a heartbeat she didn’t seem worried there was nothing there yet. But I feel a heartbeat should be seen from that GA with transvaginal? I’ve 2 weeks of cyclogest and back again in 2 weeks for another scan to make sure things are progressing. All in all I’m not very hopeful. Scan was really sore as well. I haven’t lots of bleeding anymore it’s on and off but still no pain. She said the bleeding could be many things hormones, sex or could be a mc starting. Just feel so deflated.

@calimc83 @bunnykins123
honestly I'm just shitting it about everything. Feel so anxious. I darent have sex at all, go to the gym, go for long walks , see certain people as I'm scared about catching a bug/virus, have a bloomin bath 😢

I was walking around for ages shopping yesterday & I got this yellow discharge and last week I did after going to Pilates. i just feel like I want to wrap myself up in bubble wrap for 9 months. I know i'm being over the top but honestly I can't seem to help it because of the mc. Had a big chat with dh about it last night and he's feeling the same. I think we're both just so terrified :(

@Luna57 good luck today 💕 I hope all goes well.

@Mariabombia I've had it both in pregnancy and not in pregnancy. I think it's yellow due to progesterone. Totally normal though!

@mummatara you did well! I had 3 glasses on Friday night and felt like death yesterday...