TTC after miscarriage thread 12 🌈✨💛💕

Hi @emhope sorry you've been down about everything- completely understandable!

I have been exactly the same. I'm on cycle 7 post MC and it just feels like a lifetime ago. I didn't use OKPs this cycle. I did temp, but just because my cycles are super irregular, and I stopped that once ovulation was confirmed. It has actually been really nice-I actually forgot the other week what CD I was on!

I feel a lot more content this cycle, so even if it's a no-go, I think I'm going to keep like this for a little while as I have managed to think about it less. No doubt I'll change my mind again soon though!

@mummatara very true and I suppose if there is anything in there you might need something to help get it out anyway! Tbh my epu told me to lie next time I got pregnant and say I had pain so I got an early scan, so they probably won’t mind a little fib from you🤣🤣

Hi everyone, not been on for a while and now too much to catch up on 🙈 but hope everyone is doing ok 💕

I’ve not been great after getting AF again (now on CD7) and been in a bit of a low place…decided no OPK’s this cycle and have even deleted all my period tracking/conception apps. Honestly just feeling completely hopeless and really feel like I will never see those two lines again. Has anyone else got to around 6/7 cycles and felt the same?
One positive is my scan appointment came through for next week which should be right around ovulation so be good to check everything at that time I guess.

@ChloeN it's only a weeks difference and I don't think they will offer to do anything else unless a scan shows anything left in there 🤔 tbh the bleeding may still start again you never know 🤷🏼‍♀️ it likes to keep me guessing 😂 in which case if I'm still bleeding next week then I'll just wait another week and ring if positive

@mummatara yeah Id just tell them it was a little earlier how are they to know, unless they make you have medication or surgery since it’s been a while?

@LuckyMoonstone I think it looks slightly lighter 🤞🏼hopefully by the time you do your blood test it will be all gone that's the vibe I'm putting into the universe today ❤️

@Luna57 lots and lots of people have said in my various forum/Google readings that vaginally can irritate the cervix and they did it rectally. Yours is obviously very sensitive already so they might not be helping. Glad the test was strong that's an excellent sign

My temp is now down the pre O. Bleeding went back to spotting last night and stopped completely again today not even a hint of anything when I wipe. I'm tempted to ring EPU next week if my test is still positive( let's face it it's going to be😂) and tell them it's been 3 weeks it's positive as I would really like a scan to check for retained products I think that's just what's worrying me atm that nothing significant has come out yet and it's still in there. Next Tuesday would have been 3 weeks since my scan and I didn't need to let them know when I started bleeding for all they know it could have started that day not a week later do you think that a bit too cheeky 🙈

@bunnykins123 my first bleed came around maybe a day after me and dh had sex. We’ve only had sex 2/3 times from bfp I told him I was too scared he’s scoop the baby out. He said last night he feels to blame for the bleeds which is stupid because they’re still happening now. I finally bit the bullet and done a pregnancy test. It’s still very positive (same as control easy@home strip) even with diluted urine so I’m right in thinking this bleeding isn’t a miscarriage otherwise it would be getting fainter? I’m absolutely exhausted today and I’m worrying now the fresh bleeds have taken a toll on my iron levels.

@bunnykins123 thank you, me too! Can’t believe how long this is dragging on for

@Luna57 I always took it rectally as I read quite a few people had problems with discharge and bleeding when vaginally. I'm fairly sure that the nodules would be the pessary irritating your lining, I wouldn't worry.

@TheBirdintheCave I think that's a great way to look at it. You hear of women all the time falling pregnant when their partners have low motility etc. I think there is a (expensive 😬) vitamin called proxseed which is meant to be good.

@LuckyMoonstone I'm so hoping the numbers have gone down on Sundays blood test!

I figured it can't hurt to give it a go and could be quite helpful for low sperm motility as it's cutting their swimming distance a little 😂

@theblueflowers maybe the bleeding will hurry it up a bit now. Although it’s currently following the same pattern as yesterday- one red bleed and then just dark/brown for a few hours after

@TheBirdintheCave ah I'm sorry, never easy. Hopefully the fertilily will be just the thing you need.

@LuckyMoonstone it does seem lighter, but so frustrating that it's going down so slowly!

@bunnykins123 next blood test is this Sunday @@TheBirdintheCave yeah I do think maybe todays is a bit lighter? I was hoping for a bigger jump though!

@TheBirdintheCave i feel like everyone uses it rectally maybe I should give it a go instead. I’ve already got it in for the day so I’ll give it a go tonight and see if it makes a difference. I’m not sure it’s helping or if it’s causing my cervix to still be bleeding. I’m on day 5 of light bleeding. No cramps or clots 🤷🏼‍♀️

I do notice some nodules on my cervix sometimes but as they're not there all the time I'm pretty sure it's a hormonal thing. Could the swelling be from the pessaries? I took mine using the... other... entrance so I don't know what the side effects would be for vaginal use :/

Yeah he's been taking all manner of things (vitamin C, selenium, Wellman conception, cod liver oil) to try and improve it but there's no miracle cure for motility or even any supplement that's proven to help improve it :( Fortunately, he has A LOT of sperm (according to the last analysis) so I try to look at it as even though only 16% of his sperm are any good he produces far more than the average man so maybe it evens out a little? :/

@LuckyMoonstone I feel like today's is a little lighter compared to last week.

last night when i was putting my pessary in I noticed my vagina is really swollen and has all wee lumps inside, it’s tender too. I’ve never noticed these lumps before I asked dh and he said he’d never felt them before. I haven’t let him near me in a while so I think the only way to know if they’re new is to get him to check but I couldn’t think of anything worse right now 😂 has anyone who’s a cervix checker ever noticed if this is the normal anatomy for the vagina or have I another problem to add to my growing list 🤷🏼‍♀️ 😂

@LuckyMoonstone at what point do you need to get another blood test taken? They look quite similar, maybe the one today is a bit fainter. I so so hope they are just slowly coming down 🤞

The one on the white background is last weekend, the other one is today

@bunnykins123 yes and I can’t tell if it’s lighter or not 😕 definitely not as light as I wanted it to be. Had no bleeding at all through the night, but it has come back a bit this morning bright red. I kinda wanted it to be heavier, so I could feel more confident that it was an AF type bleed! Let me find the pics of the tests to compare

@TheBirdintheCave urgh I'm sorry. Bfn is the hardest. Is your DH on any sups for his spermies? The fertility seems to have good feedback on here! I tried this cycle - put it up and honestly felt like it got lost in the void of my cervix 😂

@TheBirdintheCave sorry to hear😔 just a crap feeling isn’t it!

BFN for me today so I am officially out :( Next month we'll be using the Fertilily and getting my husband a sperm analysis to see how everything stands there. Fingers crossed it's not dramatically worse from the already terrible position we were in three years ago.