TTC after miscarriage thread 12 🌈✨💛💕

I am going to try my best to capture a good quality photo but I know phone messes them up..

@lovenaps i dipped the easy@home ones in water to see if they have indents, would that not work? Xx

Went to have a quick chat with DH and he does not think it is positive. He said it is probably just an indent. Really wish I could show it here properly. Men are not good at squinting at sticks 😅
He won't believe until it gets darker. Really don't know what to do with all this and I feel alone in this.

@lovenaps we really do, it's so sad. Thank you for sharing yours too ♥️ please don't stop sharing and don't apologise at all. That's what this group is for, we support each other.
That sounds really promising re your test!! I have everything crossed for you lovely, keep us updated 🤞🏻

So much happening here today not sure I've kept on top of it all 🙈 I've had super back ache the last two days which I had before bleeding started so I'm wondering if it's going to start up again I wish it would make up its mind I don't think I can go on for weeks and weeks stop start bleeding that would just be eurgh 🙄 I haven't bled for 5 days now so would be odd

@HJA87 sorry for your losses lovely it's not easy when they come one after the other 💕

@LuckyMoonstone I think that test looks a bit fainter be interesting to see what level you're at now

@Indianna2006 def post a picture ❤️ can't believe how fast those weeks have flown 🙈

@lovenaps hopefully it's the start of something for you 🤞🏼post the tests if you want some extra line eyes

@MrsCristianoX hope you're ok lovely 💕 men can be very insensitive without meaning to xx

@HalWin2221 Thank you ❤

@TheBirdintheCave my phone quality is rubbish, I will upload if/when they get darker but lines will probably be even less visible on the phone. Just feeling really anxious... I had a think about left sided pains to try and remember when they started and from what I remember, they got more intense probably 4-6 days ago and I understand that it must be something unrelated- so no longer concerned about that.

The brand I was complaining about was e@h, I think they're based in US, I e-mailed them this morning just so they could look at that batch thinking more people might be affected. They replied within 15 mins, on a Sunday, really can't fault them at all when it comes to communication. I still think yesterday's could've been an indent as it did not have pink in it I think... Today's one seems to have a tiny bit of pink.

Just really waiting for DP to go to the bathroom, he does seem to be a bit annoyed with me and I can't blame him though. He struggles when I hit the rock bottom and I totally understand it might not be easy for him to live alongside me then. I understand he must be feeling anxious so at the moment he is keeping himself to himself. We will probably both be very cautious for some time now.

@lovenaps we definitely don’t need a break from you! Keeping my fingers crossed! 🤞🏽

@lovenaps Can we see the tests? :D

@Mariabombia thank you so much for sharing that you have similar experiences. And you are very right, both parties are involved in the process and both people are grieving... I think us, women, we tend to blame ourselves a lot.

@bunnykins123 thank you! They said to ring them if I haven’t had a call by 6pm.
I am bleeding more this morning but to be honest I use the term bleeding loosely. It’s quite dark and has stuff in it 😳 sorry haha. But I hope the ‘stuff’ is the last of whatever this is leaving my body

I am very sorry if I come across as a drama queen here. I can give you a break from myself if needed as my constant complaining might be draining people.

I want to share something else from today if that's okay. So I spoke to the company and they said that indent is meant to disappear if the test is done properly. I decided to take another test today (SMU) just to check what happens now. There is still a line, I think it actually has some pink in it... I used the same urine sample to test with another test that detects 20 MIU/ML, there is also a super faint line (fainter than the one with 10 MIU/ML as it should be).
Waiting for DH to go to toilet so I can try it on him just to make sure it is NOT an indent... I could be around 9-10DPO today.
Slightly shitting my pans as I've been having left-sided pains recently but I had them last month too.. And I think the month before! Just less intense last month but it is still not super bad.
If this a pregnancy please let it be a happy and healthy living baby ❤🙏🙏🙏

@Indianna2006 Definitely post a photo! :D

@lovenaps 15dpo now.

@bunnykins123 If I hadn't had the O pains and hadn't been temping then that's what I'd be thinking too 🤷🏻‍♀️

I've added my chart. Two temps had to be discarded (the # ones) as I woke up with fevers on both of those days due to a cold. I didn't temp days 9, 10, 12 and 13.

@calimc83 & @FfayeN how're you both getting on ♥️

@HJA87 so sorry to hear that :( sending you such a big hug. Hope you're being supported xx

@lovenaps aw love :( I'm so sad to read your post from last night , so sorry you feel like that. I honestly understand how you feel, the amount of times I've says to dh he's be better off without me because of all of this. The thing we need to remember is no one is at fault in this brutal process and both parties are grieving. I am exactly like this though, I blame it all on myself ❤️ hope you're feeling a bit better today.

@lovenaps how many dpo are you? Have you tried with a FRER or different brand? I sometimes take the test apart to be able to see if it’s indent or actually a line 🙈 obvs not with strip tests though, hope you’re ok!

@LuckyMoonstone keeps my fingers crossed you get some news that means you can move on today! 🤞🏽

@HJA87 same due dates are just so cruel! You're so right to be saying it feels so unfair.
Thinking of you today ❤

@lovenaps going from sobbing to numb to sobbing again 😥I think when it happens once you think ok bad luck but when it keeps happening it just feels so unfair as I’m sure a lot of you have experienced. Doesn’t help that someone in the very close family just announced they’re due when I would have been due had it worked out last month. Feel so bad for DH too. I told my family early this time because it was hard to hide the emotions last month so now I have to give them the bad news too😩

@HJA87 I'm so so sorry to hear of your 3rd loss. Big hugs 💕

@Indianna2006 I feel like I need to print off your words! I always feel really positive after reading your posts 💕 honestly, best of luck tomorrow - I'm totally routing for you (I know it'll be a fab scan!). I can only speak for me, but please do post pics. I'm quite the 'nub theory expert' so will have a crack at the sex of your baby if you want a guess!

@calimc83 hi lovely 👋👋👋 I'm okay, plodding along. Still consumed with it all but hey, what can you do. DH is having dna frag test next week and I'm having a hyfosy at the end of my next period. From there it'll be a decision about when to go ahead with ivf I guess. So gutted we are at this point but I'm just not sure if trying naturally is worth it due to my high NK cells. I wish I understood more about it but articles are so conflicting online. How are you doing? When's your 20 week scan? Will you find out the sex? Xx

@TheBirdintheCave oh hun it's so frustrating what that happens. What cd day are you now? My guess is that you O'd later than you thought.

@MrsCristianoX I totally know how you feel when you see a peak come and go with no attempts. I guess you just need to keep telling yourself that the reasons you aren't attempting this month is for the good of your health and then when you get back to it, hopefully that will kick start everything again.

@LuckyMoonstone best of luck today! I really really hope the HCG is going down 🤞 keep us updated!

@curliegirlie so nice to hear from you! How have you been? Does DH know you have had a few attempts in your fertile period?

@HJA87 how are you feeling? ❤

So the pregnancy test company said that indents disappear when tests used correctly... Hm... Clearly not always.