Fertility Appointments and Beyond: Electric Boogaloo

@tinkerbell098 aw thats nice :) hopefully you feel up for breakfast tomorrow too, I've got everything crossed that they call you early with good news! Ooh I thought about doing that but I havent got any tests 🤣 did it work?!

@beckyCarlos yes taking the cannula out didn’t hurt for me either, but going in OMG!! My mum gave me some food last night to have today so that’s a treat 😃 if I feel a bit better today might go for breakfast at a cafe we both love. Really nervous for that phone call tomorrow morning.
aww bless you! I know I feel sad every time I see parents with young kids like in the park as if would I ever have that? It’s really depressing and been a long journey. Never seen a BFP in my life so I tested the trigger yesterday to even see what it would feel like. Failing at TTC is just so heartbreaking and IVF is a whole new level! Lots of love to you and hope you’ll pull through this X

@tinkerbell098 jeez that sounds stressful! 5 is a good number!! Have you got a nice takeaway on the cards for tea? Im so hit and miss with cannulas, last time the sister blew a vein on my right hand, but on the left it went straight in and didnt feel it or leave a mark. Yesterday it was rushed af, I got cannulated on the table by the anaesthetist, and it hurt like arse, nurse took it out when I left (which weirdly didnt hurt) and lo and behold the vein has gone 🙄 if it helps, in my experience it only hurts for anout 24 hours unless you catch it or something, but it will look bad for about a week as you get all the colours of the rainbow!

@thislittlebird I felt genuinely nothing on cyclogest 🙈 but after my first (unofficial) test, I did start feeling ill if my belly was empty (nothing like I expect 'real' morning sickness to be though, just a hint of something). So I'd have been on cyclogest for maybe 7 days at that point?

Im feeling much better today, although I did cry in the Coop 🤣 a mum was talking to her baby how I imagine I would (narrating the whole shop, talking about their plans) and the bloody camera of the self service machine got it in all its glory 🙈 honestly. Walking past all the kids going to primary school was fiiiine. Le sigh.

@thislittlebird sorry forgot to answer your question- he wasn’t given a choice, was asked to produce sample at home before we arrived at the clinic. They didn’t even take it off us until an hour after we arrived so we were just keeping it under the coat trying to keep it warm so the tiny bit we did have wouldn’t die 😂😂

Thanks girls. Still feeling a bit groggy. They collected 5. I won’t know until tomorrow how many were mature/fertilised. It was such a stressful morning just getting there and with the sample. The cannula really hurt and now the hand is so painful and bruised and a weird colour.

@thislittlebird hope they sort out the invoice soon for you. That sounds so stressful! No experience with cyclogest, not getting your hopes up, but those symptoms sound very close to pregnancy symptoms. When is test day or are you going to test early?

@beckyCarlos hope you’re feeling a bit better today X

@99pctpractice its truly shit isnt it.
@jeaniej thank you x x x hope you're doing ok!
@thislittlebird omg thats amazing! Good on you for asking! You get nothing if you dont ask after all. Take that energy and channel it in to dealing with your cheeky rob dog clinic! Surely as you say there should be a small difference at best, not a whole round?!
@tinkerbell098 oh no, hope it gets better! I know men dont have to do much, but I expect that turns into this huge pressure of 'this is the ONLY thing I have to do and I cant even do it'. Hope youre both doing ok now, hopefully not too long to wait for you x

Today is not going well so far! OH must have been so under pressure couldn’t produce a sample and he tried second time and got a teeny weeny bit. This delayed us by 20 mins (was asked to produce sample at home). Also there was no parking this morning so OH dropped me off to go find alternate parking. Currently in the waiting room. Hope he’s got some in there! Really nervous!

@beckyCarlos I'm so sorry, you poor thing 😢
Sending lots of hugs xxx

Oh @beckyCarlos I am so so sorry. My most recent egg collection i woke up to them telling me that they had got no eggs, but they then took me back in an hr later and got 6 (all duff, so didn't do me much good anyway, but I can't tell you how much I appreciated the effort of the consultant in taking me back in and trying again). I sobbed and sobbed before and during them taking me back in until the anaesthetic hit. It's so bloody unfair and traumatising. We're also now on the donor egg train, just figuring out the best way of going about it to try to minimise the chances of more failed cycles along the way... sending lots of big hugs your way.

Thanks @tinkerbell098 (don't worry, this wont happen to you!) and @thislittlebird (have you heard from the interviews yet?)

Realistically I'm already moving on, I've known this was a possibility since August 2021, and our first round EVERYONE was surprised I got an embryo and pregnant, so needing to look at donors isnt a surprise and I'm doing ok with it (and a lovely lovely friend has offered and I am blown away by that). It just SUCKS. Like, I've never done anything patricularly risky, I eat well, I'm healthy, I've always tried to be a good person (although I do have a wickedly dark sense of humour - cue hysterical laughing at the picture in the room in the clinic where people go to cry of a family of 4 flying a fucking kite 🤣🙈) and it is NOT FAIR. But you ladies know that unfortunately. Bah humbug.

Not at work till Tues at the earliest so plenty of time to relax and feel. And have red wine. And my mum was coming up on Monday anyway so she'll force me up and out and cheer me up in the way only mums can. Onwards and forwards, after a few days of tenderness x

@beckyCarlos I'm so so sorry you've had a crap day. That is really frustrating :( I hope you are doing something nice and you have some support. Really big hug and really hope you can work out next steps with your clinic. Lots of love XX

Well that did not go well. The anesthetist was late. I had my cannula put in on the operating table. I had some sedation but not enough that I didnt feel and remember each and every vaginal injection given. And there was no egg in my follicle. Zilch. Nothing. The follicle was giving off all the hormones, my lining was thickening etc. The consultant had a very compassionate chat before I left but fuck me the wind has been knocked out of me. We'll have a review (not sure what they can say past 'your ovaries are fucked') and look at egg donation options in the meantime. Eugh. This is not where I wanted to be today.

@beckyCarlos good luck for today! Thinking of you X

@Tinkerbell098 @beckyCarlos eek, it's getting really exciting for you both! Fingers and toes crossed for you both x

I have had an absolutely grueling couple of days in work. I have been managing an office refit (lots of builders etc etc) which started this week, my new boss and bosses boss have visited. I organised three office events in two days (catering and tech sorted for all) and took a group of senior leaders out for dinner last night .. and this is all on top of my actual job which is super intense 🙃

And on top of it all... My bosses sprung a 30 minute interview on me, for which I had 15 minutes to prepare... Fuck me!!! My brain is ready to explode. I didn't sleep last night with everything buzzing in my head... So an interview was bad timing. Hope I didn't fuck it up 😅 😱

Post Northisterone period is due imminently. Baseline scan is on Friday. Urgh... I need this week to be over!

@tinkerbell098 flicking between excited, nervous, scared, happy..! Its really hard to explain to anyone without experience of it how you can feel so many conflicting things at once. I've done minimal work today, had myself on do not disturb all day, just trying to be chill

@beckyCarlos fingers crossed for yours too. How are you feeling about it? Hope you are having a relaxed day today.

Aw @tinkerbell098 thats amazing! Fingers crossed some of the 6 catch up as well. That is intetesting, must be what they're hoping for 😊 x

@beckyCarlos got 8 in the range they want. 6 very tiny ones. I've just had a call to say I would need another dose of menopur this evening before the trigger which is a bit odd, but maybe they're trying to get some of the smaller ones to grow a tad.