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Ready · 21/01/2008 11:59

Tested this morning. BFN. But still on CD32. Time will tell. But realistically, if the cramps I am feeling were pg related then surely there would be enough hormone detectable for a test? So looks like the game is up.

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3catstoo · 21/01/2008 11:09

Hi City.

Yes feeling very naughty, but enjoying the attention. I feel like a teenager again!

Ready, I hope you are OK. AS City says, Hugs either way.

cityangel · 20/01/2008 23:44

fingers crossed Ready big hugs either way as tomorrow is Monday and nobody likes Monday's still you like the rain so maybe you're a big wet Monday fan!

3catsoo you naughty bunny! still sounds like you're in control I hope things get better with dh

Right off to bed soo tired

3catstoo · 20/01/2008 18:34

Sounds promising Ready.

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Ready · 20/01/2008 12:08

I don't actually mind the rain City but I am hankering after a holiday somewhere warm, but that's more cos I haven't had one for 3 years.

3cats, the shepherds pie was beans and carrots and parsnips - it wasn't overly tasty - the topping was the best bit Hope you are ok? Sounds like you are dealing with some confusing emotions at the moment.

I am useless today, all I can think about is why my period hasn't arrived yet, despite strong twinges. Confused.

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3catstoo · 20/01/2008 09:09

Sorry, I was on the wrong page, so missed the post about the shepherds pie not being good.

3catstoo · 20/01/2008 09:08

Any news Ready?

How did the veggie shepherds pie go? What did you put in it?
If you like beans and lentils Delia does a great shepherds pie recipe in her veggie book (has goats cheese mash which does it for me).

Not really sure about the current situation.
I'm not cheating on DH (as such) but might as well be. It's more text teasing going on with a male friend (who is a bit of a b*d, well a huge one actually!).
I'm not doing the teasing. I think it's just cheap thrills on his part. I just haven't told him to bugger off (that's what's out of character). It won't come to anymore than this but still naughty I know.
Had I not been feeling so cp about myself and if DH had been paying me more attention, I would not have responded. I was flattered and excited .

Dangerous, I know.

Fingers crossed for you.
No idea what day I'm on. Must look it up. As we're only bding at the weekends it's very unlikely to result in anything. Not stressed about it though. I think the other stress has taken my mind off ttc .

cityangel · 19/01/2008 22:55

Fingers crossed honey

Is anyone else fed up with all this rain. Is it too early to be looking forward to summer or holiday? I just want to be outside on a balmy summers day reading the paper drinking a large glass of white wine..... heyho

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Ready · 19/01/2008 17:40

The vegetarian shepherds pie was not great. Not that I cooked it wrong, just that it wasn't a patch on proper lamb mince so think that the less-meat drive might not last very long

How are you both? I am still waiting for CD1, lots of crampy niggly sensations, which is normal for me, pre-men. So not optimistic. But hoping I am wrong

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cityangel · 18/01/2008 19:27

Good luck with your cooking Ready
Fingers crossed for you this month
I really hope the job stuff works out... sounds like you could be a chef if not!

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Ready · 18/01/2008 19:14

How are you???? Sorry it has taken me 2 days to post - most unlike me
How are you doing? Well, I won't pry (despite being very intrigued ), but if something is bugging you, and you are acting out of character, then it could well be stress that is causing your outbreaks. Hope something improves for you soon. Be it the spots, or the situation, or both

Not got a date for the interview yet, starting to be a bit concerned. But trying not to think about it.

I am CD29 (usually 28 day cycles, but do have the odd longer one) and have had AF type cramps, so fully expecting CD1 tomorrow, but a tiny part of me keeps putting forward the suggestion of being pregnant. Nightmare. Why do I torture myself?

Anyway, enough of the ramble, I am attempting a vegetarian shepherds pie for dinner - never made it before, and not 100% convinced it is going to taste nice. Trying to eat less meat at the moment

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3catstoo · 17/01/2008 12:50

Ready, Are you feeling any better today hon?

It annoys me when I feel that way but just can't stop it.

I am using Lancome products.

It could be stress. There is something bugging me at the moment (not a good thing and can't really share the details as it's a bit naughty (well alot naughty really )totally out of character for me too).

Hope you are having a better day today. Have you heard about the interview yet?

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Ready · 16/01/2008 21:29

Sorry to hear that the antib's are not doing anything 3cats. Tut. Is it a stress thing do you reckon? Might explain why the antibs are not doing anything. What skincare products do you use? I used to use Clinique and then suddenly one day my skin erupted, so I changed and since using LizEarle is has got way better. Sometimes I wonder if our skin needs something new??
I have been up and down, emotionally today, I hope I snap out of it soon, because I am annoying myself

Hope you are ok City

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3catstoo · 16/01/2008 11:21

Hi Ready, you mope away. Goodness knows I mope for England.

Feeling fine.

Antibiotics not doing a thing. I'm spottier now although I think Ov is imminent. DH still not reaching for the drawer but he's been too tired. I'm feeling more frustrated than anything. I think my sex drive has returned with a vengance .
Not good when DH is too tired or away for the night.

Must dash. Will come back later to catch up.

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Ready · 15/01/2008 21:42

3cats, how are you doing? Are you enjoying your break from the stresses of ttc? And how are the antibiotics working out for you? You?ve been quiet, I hope my moping hasn?t made you run for the hills

City, I am doing a creative writing course, and really enjoying it. I like the idea of my own business, but don?t really know what. But then to be honest, in my field the pension is good, and the maternity benefits too, so I would be daft to become self-employed unless there was something that really grabbed me. I guess I am just having a low point at the moment. Thanks for all your thoughts though and taking time to give me a lift

We will go back to the gynae in a few months, once things are a little more settled, indeed. Although, not really sure what other tests there are??? I guess the real thing is assistance, and I am just petrified of that.

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cityangel · 13/01/2008 18:04

Moping is fine everyone gets down.

Maybe you could part time study for a career change so that if you settled you could go for it. Or go for a career that's freelance that could allow you to work from anywhere. Or maybe your own online business!

Maybe in a few months even if you're moving about you could look into fertility checks and options again just in case they missed anything before or have any fresh ideas?

I hope you find something fun to do to take your mind off things... maybe a new hobby or evening classes... photography, jewelry making...

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Ready · 13/01/2008 17:47

Well, that is obviously a great idea, and certainly something I would love to do. The only snag is that we are liable to move around at pretty much no notice due to dh, as I am sure you understand. So that makes it difficult to commit to anything. For now it seems that just getting any job to keep my brain active is the best I can hope for. I guess I just need something to focus my mind and stop me thinking about ttc and babies and ftc.
Sorry for moping. Honestly, it's wrong for me to complain so much. I know that I have it good in life really. Someone slap me

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cityangel · 13/01/2008 16:45

ramble away I love rambling!

If there's not too much pressure financially maybe think of your dream job or something you find really interesting to target. I'd love to do something I actually enjoy rather than just doing it for the money?

Its good to get a decent agency as then the better paid more reliable roles come along. Good luck!

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Ready · 12/01/2008 00:25

Thanks for the advice City There is a city not too far from where I live, and a couple of big towns - so will have a look about for some good agents. Thankfully there isn't any pressure financially speaking, but just from a challenging my brain, I need something.
I have a bottle of chenin blanc chilling in the fridge ready for next week, if CD1 rolls around then I fully intend to indulge. I was going to have some tonight, but then thought if I did turn out to be pregnant [pah-unlikely] then I would be cross with myself - so just put it on ice for a few days. T'is hard going. I am up and down really - the optimism that I am known for (not just on MN) is waning that is for certain, and I don't like myself when I have negative thoughts - but it's been a lo-oong time since we started trying.

Anyway. Enough of my melancholic ramblings. Night night x

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cityangel · 11/01/2008 23:56

Ready done some temping before. Best thing is to find a good agency, or work out which major employers in your area have preferred temping agencies then go for it! I only really have London links I can post, but there are loads online.

Its good to register with them in person as a lot of the online applications can be overlooke d because of high volumes. Then just call them lots of they can be all talk but never get back to you.

I hope you're not feeling too down about ttc. I found it hard when there was no reason and it didn't happen. On the positive side age is on your side, but I know exactly how it feels when you are ready and it isn't happening.

I recommend doing any of the following before you may choose not to

eat all non recommended foods brie/ parma ham/ rare steak/ sushi ... because you can
and have some wine for me :0)

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Ready · 11/01/2008 19:49

I am trying not to lose heart, but 17 cycles in, if I don't get a + this month I will be gutted. Without being too graphic we have given it our best shot this cycle - the effort has to pay off eventually doesn't it
Chewing painkillers! Eurgh. That's amazing. Poor you not being able to swallow them whole.
It has rained here all day long too, so I think you are right, a washout weekend.

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3catstoo · 11/01/2008 19:39

Great news City. Have a fab evening.

Ready, never tempted, so no help I'm afraid. Hope you get good news next week.
Don't lose hope in ttc. I have everything crossed for you. Huge hugs.

I have to chew painkillers (yuk yuk yuk) the dissolvable ones make me want to throw up even more than the taste of chewed paracetamol.

I think it's going to be a wet weekend. It hasn't stopped raining all day.

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Ready · 11/01/2008 17:30

Sorry I wasn't about yesterday, a busy bee

City - lovely news that the scan went well. How very exciting!! Hope you are having a great time this evening!! Celebrating with orange juice. I have had a few drinks in your honour (before ov)

3cats - I still think you are right to take a break, I mean, if dh doesn't reach for the drawer then just go with it, but if he does, then just enjoy yourself and relax. Hope your skin improves
I am CD23 (had to check) and veering between wildly optimistic and downbeat and pessimistic. I guess I don't have to wait too long to find out. I dunno, I guess with every month that goes by and we don't succeed, it feels less and less likely to ever happen without some kind of intervention. Sigh.
How do you take painkillers then? Dissolvable tablets? Eurgh. I had to have them for a throat problem once I love the banana flavour antibiotic syrup makes me think of my childhood

Should hear wether or not I got through the initial stage and got an interview or not, hopefully next week. Then I guess the interview will be a couple of weeks later. So in the mean time I am thinking about doing some temping. Either of you ever done any?

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cityangel · 11/01/2008 14:00

Hi guys scan went well so fingers crossed. Thanks for all your support.

3catstoo good that the tablets are ok to take for bd just in case. I have all fingers/toes crossed for you!

Ready let us know about the job.

Have a great weekend.

3catstoo · 11/01/2008 09:09

Morning,

Have a lovely day all round today City.

My GP called me yesterday to say that the antibiotics he had wanted to give to me only come in tablet form (I am a total wimp - I have never been able to swallow tablets so have to have liquids instead). So now I will have the one I've already had, which is safe for ttc.
Will still probably chill this month though.

How are you Ready?

xxxxxx