Anyone testing around April 19th? My 2ww is just starting.

welcome @AmyD54321 and @Sarahmayo

How is everyone doing today? I'm 5dpo and just had tiny spots blood when I wiped. I've got a LOT of work to try and get done before the end of the day and now my brain is in hyper mode thinking about concieving. Surely this is too early for implantation spotting?? Maybe there's something wrong, my luteal phase has been short recently so I wondering if I am spotting due to hormonal imbalance, or maybe I have polyps again?.

Also. Weird dreams last night- I didn't know until last night I heard music in my dreams before but I was definitely dancing a long to an orchestra at a very weird party, sort of Bridgerton-esk (and I've never watched an episode) I'm clearly cracking up. :D

@ArcEnCiel2022 I love a good negative picture mmm if I edit this and make it brighter there might be a line😂 not a good habit 😅

Absolutely disgusting treatment from that hospital btw

@MrsGrealish I didn't even take pictures of my negatives as there was no doubt, they were so white. I tried to look at them under different lights, etc. 😂 Even coming back to them a bit later to see if maybe I could have missed the line (even though I knew that if there was something it would have been an indent...)

I completely understand what you mean about the physical pain 😔 it must be such a shock after seeing a heartbeat. I never saw any heartbeat as I didn't have an early scan (next time I definitely will, my GP told me they will offer it to me if I want). The first one I miscarried before I even arrived to the hospital, when they scanned me and said "I'm sorry I don't see anything" I couldn't believe what was happening, I was not prepared at all for that (you can never been prepared anyway), but I never thought it would happen to me. The worse was that I understood that they were considering 3 possibilities: miscarriage, ectopic, or the 3rd was that I had never been pregnant and was inventing/lying!!! Hopefully when they had the blood test result they could see I had some HCG and had been pregnant. I couldn't believe they even considered that, so awful! Second time was even worse because I was so confident that everything was ok as I had really really strong symptoms from the beginning. They suddenly stopped around 11 weeks and I started bleeding. I still hear the voice of the doctor telling me "I'm sorry there is no heartbeat"...

Anyway, I hope we get our rainbows very soon 😊🌈

@GoT1904 I feel nauseous too at the moment after my lunch, and I'm thinking "what if..." It's way too early, I know, probably something was not too fresh in my sandwich 😂😅

Since this morning I have a kind of feeling, like I know I'm pregnant. Please don't remind me I said that when I show you my negative tests next week 😂

@GoT1904 my boobs ache today! At 4/5 dpo I know this is just progesterone 😅

@ArcEnCiel2022 oh I started testing at 8dpo too and have so many negative tests saved to my phone. Once I start there's no going back😂

I'm sorry about your losses too ❤️ ❤️because mine was unplanned I didn't expect to feel the way I did. But when it was over my heart actually ached. Like physical pain. I had a scan at 6 weeks with a heartbeat so I must have grown attached.

Anyway not meaning to bring the thread down (sorry) but fx this is the month we get our rainbows 🌈 💕

@GoT1904 that sounds fun! 😊 Your house must be so animated when you have all the children! I bet it will be nice to enjoy a quiet night!

@Graceybaby Nice plan for tonight as well! 😊

Tonight I think we will have a meal out as well with our friends. I don't think I'll last too long though, I feel exhausted and tomorrow we are off to spend the weekend in London with them (it's their first time visiting the UK!)

@MrsGrealish 😂😂 when I started my cycle I was like this time I don't test before 12dpo (last month I started at 8...), but now I'm debating between 8 and 9 😅 and I don't know which of the pretending or actual dpo I'll choose 😂
I'm sorry for your loss, I had 2 miscarriages last year at 7 and 11 weeks, it was devastating, one of the worst moment of my life...

@GoT1904 wait for it DS20, DS19 and DD15. Honestly thought I was done til I miscarried an unplanned pregnancy this time last year at 8 weeks. Absolutely nearly ruined me. Took me the rest of the year to talk DH into trying again and here we are!

@ArcEnCiel2022 I've absolutely no idea when to test. I'm thinking no earlier than 10 dpo but is that the pretend 10dpo or the actual 10dpo😅

@MrsGrealish exactly 😂 when are you planning to test?

@ArcEnCiel2022 you sound exactly like me! Premom app says 5 dpo but I'm saying 3/4 dpo. Lying to myself so I don't early test😂

@GoT1904 are you planning something nice for your childfree night?
I don't have any symptoms at the moment, just really tired, but I'm always tired on Friday anyway!
I want to believe I'm 5dpo because I don't want to test too early, but a part of my brain keeps thinking, maybe I'm actually 6dpo if I've ovulated on Saturday when I had the pain, and not on Sunday, and in that case I could test 1 day before I planned 😅

@GoT1904 it's like such an age gap for me between 3 and 4 mind I hope baby does just fly out 😅 DS2 flew out DD (number 3) labour was just horrible. I'm 39 so hoping reproductive system remembers what to do 😊

Thanks @GoT1904.. I hope so!

I have no real symptoms, boobs are slightly tender again but probably just the fluctuating hormones!

We also have a childfree night tonight! Off out for a nice meal, be nice to take my mind off TTC for a little while, although we'll probably just talk babies still ! My OH is more broody then me! :))

Thanks @ArcEnCiel2022 That's what I've been telling myself, the egg would have still been around either way so I'm sure it was fine! Hopefully I can be more prepared next cycle.. I was unsure of when/if I'd ovulate so we weren't really focusing on when we DTD!

x

Thanks for letting me join!

@ArcEnCiel2022 IF I conceived my due date would be 29 December but I usually go early..

@Graceybaby cycle 4 baby number 4 and I'm freaking out a little because I had an early peak on CD10/11. So I didn't DTD much before. Im just feeling really tired atm not much else. No stabbing pains . Just exhaustion.

I'm 4dpo today... I know looking for symptoms is never a good idea but I can't help it. Well, I feel absolutely nothing apart from Pms cramps, although earlier than usually. This is so emotionally difficult 🙁

@Graceybaby I think the ovulation is happening only after the peak opk? And then the egg stays something like 24 hours, so I think you're fine even if you ovaluted on Saturday!

@Graceybaby that's interesting, I don't think I've felt that I when I've been pregnant!

@GoT1904 yes I open my app every morning to check my dpo too, but I perfectly know without that as it's all I'm thinking about at the moment 😂 5dpo today!

Hi @MrsGrealish ! You would have a due date around Christmas like us I guess?!

Starting to have a freak out this morning and doubting our chances at all.. keep wondered if we DTD at the right time? Think it's because I saw a post about when ovulation happens in relation to EWCM and a positive OPK could mean you've already ovulated?!

I had EWCM on Friday but Saturday was when I had the most EWCM and also first thing that morning I got my first positive opk.. we didn't DTD at all in my 'fertile week' leading upto that, we only DTD that Saturday evening and the Sunday morning.. What If I ovulated on Saturday and we DTD too late?

Ughh.. why do we torture ourselves... Guess I'm just starting to try and prepare myself for the disappointment.

Ughh.. my minds