TTC

I want to say that I'm a super nice person that's happy for them, but the reality is, I usually just make excuses very quickly to get away from that situation.
That being said, I've found recently I've been much more open about my fertility struggles and I even said to someone the other day "I'm so glad you've been blessed with this miracle, but some of us are not nearly as lucky, so you'll forgive me for not demonstrating the same response as everyone else."
It's always going to be a challenging situation.
Do you have anyone you can talk to about how you are feeling? I talk to my husband a lot, but I also find seeing a psychologist during these difficult time has been very helpful.

@Goldengoose6491 oh love, I'm so sorry you are feeling this!
I'm almost too afraid to test these days, if I ever do conceive I'll probably be 5 months gone before I have the courage to test!

@Goldengoose6491
If its any consolation, even within Australia we haven't been able to see family. The state my mums side of the family live in locked their borders to the state I live in so this is the first time going there in over 2 years! It's crazy.

Honestly, the next person that tells me to relax is going to get the full effects of just how NOT relaxed I am. My acupuncturist said I'm only a 5/10 on the stress scale according to my pressure points, but I feel like it's at least a 12/10 emotionally 😂

I havent, but I will definitely look her up!

I didn't track my BBT this cycle, but im going to start again from next cycle. AF is due in 3 days so I'll start from CD1.

It's strange how it works in different countries. We don't do MRIs (to my knowledge) for endo unless someone has had it show on an ultrasound, but it often won't show on ultrasound if you are only stage 1 or 2. I wonder if MRI is different? We just have lap surgery as Gold standard for diagnostics. I've had 2 surgeries now. I'm only stage 1 though so mine still doesn't show on ultrasound, but even at stage 1 there can be fertility issues and debilitating pain depending on location. Mine was mostly around my left ovary which is always super painful when I have my internal ultrasound 🙃

Honestly, I'm at the point of trying anything, so even if the acupuncture is only going to help my stress, I'll still keep going because who doesn't like to be pampered and having soothing music and aromas for an hour once a week 😍

I'm always such a nervous wreck during TWW, I'm hoping acupuncture will help with relaxation.
No, unfortunately not. My symptoms have continued getting worse and I'm worried they'll tell me I need another surgery before we start IVF (of we get that far)
Oh, we've been married 2 years. Sorry, I didn't phrase that very well. My family couldn't attend the wedding because of covid. So this is the first time seeing them in 2 years, and the first time seeing them now that we are married. My grandmother asks everytime she calls when we'll be having a baby and I really took out my anger on her last time. I'm usually very pleasant and tell her we are having a hard time and to please stop asking as it has a huge emotional toll and last time I just couldn't contain it anymore and told her to stop being a nosey Nelly and just because she had 6 kids very easily does not mean it is easy for me and she needs to stop asking.
She then said the thing I hate the most.... "just relax, and keep trying"
Ugh. 2 years of frustrating BFN's and emotion roller coasters with the hope zone is not fun.
Side note - did anyone ever listen to the UK podcast BFN - TTC, fertility, infertility and IVF? It started back in 2018 I've only just found it but I'm loving it! Based in Aus though so some of the info is a bit different to how it works here.

Hoping it's okay for me to also jump in because oh boy, the loneliness of this journey is something else!
Been trying naturally for almost a year. Tried all the diets, exercise, supplements, teas - now we're onto acupunture as a last attempt before we see our fertility specialist in 16 weeks to discuss IVF.
Back story - I have endometriosis (2 surgeries thus far), a mild form of cystic fibrosis (TMI so tracking cervical mucus is difficult when there is always a lot) but all my other tests/ultrasounds have been normal. All hubby's test have been normal also. Regular periods, regular ovulation, but I am going to start doing ovulation tracking again from day 1 of my next cycle with BBT and dipstick tests - had to stop because I was getting so depressed everytime my monthly would arrive. Have given up caffiene and alcohol completely so I definitely get those looks whenever we go out with people whether is be brunch, lunch or dinner.
AND, to top it all off, next week I get to go and visit my family who I have not seen since before the wedding and being the only grandchild married.... well, you can imagine the questions I'm going to get.

@BettyM90 yes do another either tomorrow or the next day! Best of luck! Those tests are terrible for indents, but I really hope it is something for you!

@Peonies94 thank you for looking :) I didn’t know if I was staring at it for too long and going crazy! I have got another first response so will take that in the morning and see…that test wasn’t with FMU. I’m not too sure how many DPO I am as my cycles have been a little all over the place x

@BettyM90 I see the shadow of something faintly but can’t tell of it has colour/is an indent! Do another tomorrow but sending you the best of luck! How many DPO are you?

Hello, I hope you don’t mind me posting on here…I’ve just taken a first response test and I don’t know if I am going completely crazy, but my brain keeps seeing a second line! Would any one mind taking a look and seeing what they think? Xx

@Goldengoose6491 hope you don’t mind if I join! Ttc for a year, have just started process with the GP! I’m the same age as you, and DH is same as your partner too! Good luck!

Ladies. I'm looking for some advice. My hubby and I DTD last night but I've just got my peak LH.
3 days in a row is alot for us so should we go again tonight or tomorrow night. don't think we will manage both nights 🙈 x

@Goldengoose6491 I haven't done any major lifestyle changes, just added vitamins and being more conscious of how much I'm drinking. After trying for a year I'm glad I didn't make any major changes as I'd be pretty miserable right now! What about you?

@Goldengoose6491 ah so lovely of you to remember and ask!

Appointment was as expected - everything still looking good so officially diagnosed with unexplained infertility. I have been told to continue trying until may/June and if nothing has happened then, we should try a couple of rounds of IUI. Unfortunately with a diagnosis of unexplained infertility, we can't access public funding for IVF for 5 years (so another 4 years away). It's crazy but I guess I'm not ready to think about IVF yet anyway.

I'm still holding out hope that the HSG will help over the next few months so we'll see. AF due on Monday 31 Jan, and our wedding anniversary is 3 Feb and we're going away to do the Abel Tasman walk. I can't help hoping that I could have the best anniversary present ever... but also not wanting to get my hopes up 😢 how are you?

@Goldengoose6491 no worries! I'd recommend you stay away from googling too much so you go in not too worked up 😊

No other tests yet but got my next fertility appointment on 25 Jan so will go from there. I think next step is a laparoscopy but have a lot going on over the next few months so will follow that up once things are quieter.

@Goldengoose6491 oh yes I hate that so much people guessing, we've had to tell oh's mum that we're not trying again yet as she kept asking!

You're right it WILL be us one day, I honestly do find it hard to be happy for pregnant friends but just got to remind myself that it will be my time soon 🤞🏼

I'm 14dpo today and had bfns so far so not looking likely but will hold on to a bit of hope!!