Fertility Appointments and Beyond.... the journey continues

@Kay00 yeah, it’s hard because I don’t feel confident or resilient right now, so the idea of doing a new job (a harder job) is a lot because I’ve become comfortable in this easy, laid back job. But I think I have to go for it, will see what happens.

What happened with your bleed, did AF start?

@Gracie2021 I think asking questions of your clinic is more than fair. It sounds chaotic to say the least. When I was in my clinic, the doctor and anaesthetist came round to talk to me beforehand so it was very apparent who would be doing what. Did they talk to you in advance? Definitely ask them if those follicles were empty or eggs too small and so on.

Yeah. I’m tired of it all tbh. Hard to believe this could just be the start and I have to stop thinking about that or I won’t function at all. I am going to try to force myself out in my running clothes to do couch to 5k.

Urgh... spotting is now a fair amount of bright red fresh blood 🙄😞 hopefully I haven't had an 8 day LP this cycle...

Hopefully its not a bad thing as it can mean my ovaries are doing what they should do 😇

@thislittlebird I'm so sorry you're feeling depressed and stressed. You're going through so much right now! A job opportunity is exciting though, and hopefully a good distraction xx

No, I've not tested. I doubt very much I'm pregnant. I think the sickness is a reaction between the Metformin I take and the rich creamy food I ate (lol, I should know better). And apparently a mid LP bleeding can be the result of an estrogen surge, which makes sense if you look at the two temp dips I've had.

@Kay00 is it stupid to ask if you’ve taken a test? 9dpo is very early but not impossible. I certainly wouldn’t want to see another bastard negative though if it was me lol. Obviously the spotting isn’t new, but is the sickness new?

Honestly I think my body really reacts to stress, and I’ve found waiting for FET quite hard. I also haven’t got the motivation to eat well and exercise even though I know I should do this. I think I’m a bit depressed, which isn’t a shock :/ but I guess I would put it down to stress + my body recalibrating and hormones going haywire, maybe my oestrogen is quite high and caused the thrush during my fertile week? It’s usually the reserve of the days before AF. I’m exhausted to be honest. I got upset the other day over a coffee as it feels like there’s never an end in sight. And I know we’ve made progress from the ivf cycle but it’s still so hard. I want to move and see if living by the coast and not in London helps my health, but we can’t do that yet, I need the maternity leave from work. Only positive is a job has come up at work (finally!) that I can apply for. Might not get it but I’ll give it a go, I’ve been waiting for a promotion opportunity for ages now.

@Gracie2021 Oh no, I'm sorry you only got two in this round of stims . When is your next communication due from the clinic? Hopefully they can give you more information about these eggies, and about what the next stage of the process is. I have everything crossed this works for you xx

@thislittlebird Damn, sounds like your body is really putting you through the wringer? Do you think this is a reaction to the stims you were on? If so, then its really good you had a freeze all; your body clearly needs to get back to a non-reactive state before your FET x

I am 9DPO and more spotting again today . I had spotting last month (10/11dpo), and I wonder if its a progesterone issue? Or something caused by the Clomid? Either way I feel pretty rubbish today; I went out last night for a work meal, probably ate too much rich food and literally had to run home to be sick luckily I wasn't sick around my work colleagues lol ... it was close!

@JeanieJ @magnoliasinbloom congratulations to you both!

@Gracie2021 ah no, I’m so sorry, this is shit. The process is a feckin nightmare. When will you hear more? Frustrating they can’t tell you if they’re mature, you’d want to know right away ideally. I don’t really know how you can go straight back into stims 5 days later, won’t they be the same follicles? I don’t know if this is a stupid question at a bad time, I hope not. If it works that’s great because you could have a couple more on top of those two soon. Keep us posted, don’t worry about feeling negative, you’re totally allowed to feel however you wish x

@Sofasogood1 jfc, are you in London? I want to ask what hospital this is, it sounds terrible. Why on earth did they prescribe you stims???

Nothing new here other than my body is trying to make my life miserable. Everything is flared up, every condition I have, the horrible skin issue I’ve had for 2.5 years since we started ttc, a face full of cold sores to boot, and to add insult to injury we can’t ttc naturally this month as I have horrible thrush. I need to talk to my clinic about being on oestrogen for FET. I’m not sure it’s a good idea, withdrawing from it will make me very unwell with a migraine most likely, and I’m bound to get awful thrush from it AGAIN. I’m sick of it all, there have been tears.

@gracie2021 I'm sorry you're feeling like that, it's so horrid having so much out of your control. Have a good wallow. I have everything crossed for the two eggs.

@Gracie2021 I'm so sorry, I can understand now completely unfair that must seem after seeing 8 on the scan last week. Physically and emotionally this is a huge toll and I hope you can do something nice for yourself tonight. It will all be worth it in the end :) xxx

@gracie2021 I'm sorry! You must feel so deflated. The optimist in me is dying to say 'it only takes one' etc, but after all you've been through you just feel exhausted and upset x x x stims again in 5 days sounds grueling! You really are amazing doing all this x

@Gracie2021 I hope today went well!! And that you enjoyed the anaesthetic haha . Thinking of you x

@gracie2021 haha I love your prep! Whatever gets you through it! My husband raises an eyebrow when I have my fortnightly leg shave ahead of my acupuncture 😂 Have everything crossed for tomorrow for you x x

@jeanieJ absolutely not triggering for me, you've been through the mill and you deserve this, and I'm so happy for you!

@sofasogood1 woah that is absolutely shyte. Unbelievable! Definitely complain to anyone/everyone

Thankyou everyone 😌xxx
Finding this thread has been a real support when things have been crappy. 💕
I'll still be here anyway. xx

@Sofasogood1 Sounds like you're being put through the ringer! I hope it gets sorted soon! 🤞🏻

Thanks so much everyone for the kind words - it really means a lot from this group, given the challenges and heartache we have all faced xx

@JeanieJ huge congratulations!! The month before IVF too - how incredible. I am 16 dpo so we are one day apart :)

@Sofasogood1 I cannot believe they messed up like that and didn't even have the decency to give you a very apologetic phone call!! At least everything kicks off on Wednesday - wishing you lots of luck x

@JeanieJ I never find it triggering when one of us... who have struggled to conceive... get a positive test. In fact it fills me with the greatest joy and sense of hope. I'm really truly please for you x

OMG ... I'm a little late to the party here.... CONGRATULATIONS!!!! to both @magnoliasinbloom and @JeanieJ !! Woop!! so happy for you

@Sofasogood1 omg. That really is shocking. I would write a formal complaint to them. Talk about incompetent. 🤬 So will you get 2 frozen?
@JeanieJ Congratulations! 🥳

Guys ... my frer this morning ...15DPO
Really sorry if this is triggering.
I can't believe it. 20 months ttc & one month away from starting IVF.
I'm really paranoid it'll go away. 😳
Definitely not saying anything to the clinic for a while.