Entering into 8th cycle..

@FlyOnTheWall89 well I don’t have a clue. I’m not sure they count chemicals in the recurrent miscarriage? I’m unsure. And yes I’ve now had 3. One chemical. But obv between my first mc and these I had DD. So there isn’t an issue as such which means I can’t carry a pregnancy. So I guess I take that as a positive.

im trying to think this most recent mc was bad luck. And this chemical maybe just a sign my body wasn’t quite optimal for it all. I had just had surgery. Not had a proper period etc. i just don’t know…

My DH was like let’s take the positive from it then the negative. We got pregnant again. But I guess I worry was I more fertile cos of mc..and it will now be months.

but then after my first mc I was extra fertile. It took longer…ffs. Not straight forward is it.

I think we will just keep going. I’ll just repeat what has worked then two cycles we fell. Which seems to be ferti Lily and aspirin. One of those or the combination seems to make a difference for me.

Such a rollercoaster. I didn’t wanna put in other group obv as know it can be bit sensitive for ppl.when your all just trying to see 2 pinks lines and month after month and don’t. So didn’t wanna mention about it in there.
but my god. Yes it’s hard. Who knows when my next two pinks lines will come.

im hopeful..but worrying about loss is now really hard
two lines is just a worrying..ugh

@OK92 @FlyOnTheWall89 @Kiaa

well just to update you all..

I had ovulated over 2 weeks ago confirmed on my chart as I’ve been temping. My period should of turned up and my temps on my chart were so high. And the chart looked exactly like when I was pregnant with my DD.

took a IC which had a faint line. And they had gone negative over 2 weeks ago. Took a frer. And had an obvious pregnant line which then got slightly darker.
then yesterday the test had gone much fainter. And today basically gone.

i think somehow I miraculously fell pregnant straight away but have had a chemical. Not really sure how to feel.

relieved that we fell again. Worried as to why that’s two losses in a row. Or just chalk it down to well I had surgery in my lining and maybe it needs more time to recover.

i have no idea. I did use fertilily again. And aspirin. So maybe that’s my go to?!

🤦🏻‍♀️ Honestly. Baffled over here.
my period still hasn’t turned up and is late. But I only got a negative again today. So maybe soon 🤷🏻‍♀️

@OK92 yes I’ll be using the fertilily. Kind of feel hopeful if I use it correctly each month I may be lucky and be pregnant within 6 months. Before November when my due date was. Here’s to hoping.

as first time I used it correctly I got pregnant! Fluke perhaps..but I had 10 goes before that which did not work so 🤷🏻‍♀️

I don’t know. Trying not to put too much emphasis on it tbh. It is what it is. I’m not having a baby and just trying to accept that.

aww I’m glad. Hope it continues to go well for you.

@OK92 I’m doing okay thanks, just trying to poodle along.
I stopped bleeding and got a negative pregnancy test. And pretty much ovulated very soon after. I felt ovulation pain but wasn’t sure I could trust the positive opks because of pregnancy tests only just being faint. But after 3/4 days of raised temps confirmed I obv did ovulated then.
so think I’m about 10/11/12 dpo ish..

my temps went up a few days after I felt the pain so I’m not entirely sure. But we DTD the morning I felt the pain. So..I guess I am in a 2ww. Although I imagine it’s unlikely..so just awaiting that first period post mc so that will be out the way. And hopefully then normal cycles will resume.

how are you? How many weeks are you now? Hopefully you’ve had an early scan and all is well :)

@Kiaa how exciting 🥰🥰 another little girl

@OK92 yes all feel back to normal now. Bleeding has stopped and negative pregnancy test. So now waiting for ovulation whenever that will be.
yes we’ve decided to try again straight away. Praying it doesn’t take as long. But we can only do what we can do hey. As we know..throw everything at it an sometimes it still doesn’t happen

xx

@OK92 @Kiaa

just a little update from me. I ended up having ERPC surgery. But all went as expected. And after a few days. I felt fairly back to normal.

my bleeding is tapering off and almost gone and my pregnancy tests are sooo nearly very negative.

So I will be back ttc very soon. And praying by some miracle it happens much faster 🤞🏼🙈

I can only hope right. I figure. Yes it took 11 cycles. But we fell pregnant. Our tests showed nothing wrong. Clearly sperm can get through my tubes. DH had a very good sperm count. I need to relax. And let nature do it’s think. It will happen when it happens.

hope you are both well and doing okay.

@OK92 I hope it will be quicker too. Just going to continue with everything that I was doing at the end. And hope it results in a quicker conception. Fertilily in the right place was maybe what did the trick 🤷🏻‍♀️ Or maybe that’s just how long we needed.
how are you feeling?

@FlyOnTheWall89 thank you. I feel a bit numb atm. I have taken first set of meds and have to main meds to take tomorrow morning. An then hopefully the worst will be over. And that’s that. All over before it even began. Knew I was pregnant for 5 weeks and then poof. Gone.

why is ttc so hard honestly. So envious of anyone who just think I want a baby and they get one each and every time. Either by falling quick and that pregnancy being successful.

i am taking hope in that we did fall though. So some of my anxieties of that my fertility had changed or DH had issues has vanished.

it make take some time again. But I’m certain we will get there. But the waiting after all of this loss again. Is not going to be a walk in the park.

I can do this. I can.

@OK92 I keep telling myself this. I WILL get my baby. Just not on my timeline. Nowhere near my timeline. But that’s life.

Nothing has happened still. Actually feel awful walking around with effectively a dead fetus inside me. Last time I Mc it was happening by time I knew. So this is a no t different territory for me.

I didn’t have to make choices on waiting even longer which is just beyond torturing. Or having medical management or surgery.

Wow. How am I even here again.

But only until Wednesday to go and I’ll be seen and will choose medical management. I’ve waited 10 days. Why wait 2 more weeks it’s just unbearable.

Have had a good think. And thought don’t think I can stop here. So think we’re gonna ttc straight away again. Back in everything we were on and doing in those last couple months. In hope we have luck much earlier but the gloom of another year of ttc whilst navigating also the baby that could of been is daunting.

@OK92 @FlyOnTheWall89

Thanks girls. Ugh honestly.

My only tiny bit of shining light is my DD was a rainbow baby. And so there is hope at the end of the very long tunnel. But fear it may be a long tunnel again of ttc 😞

All seems so unfair sometimes doesn’t it.

@OK92 EPU saw me today. Confirmed it’s a failed pregnancy. No longer has a heart beat 😭

Have to wait now for a week see what happens.

Devastated