Faith, trust & baby dust! ✨💕✨ TTC 12 months + 🤞🏼 On this rollercoaster together with a little love, support and giggles to get us by! 💕

Hello all,
Just thought I'd pop on here to spread some fairy dust and good luck and to remind you all to keep up the faith and hope. Positive thoughts only!
I am 33 and partner is 36. Neither of us have had kids.
We had been trying for just over 2 years, had all the tests going. GP seemed concerned right away due to our age, so referred us to infertility specialist. Numerous tests, scans, bloods, appointments later and they couldn't find any reason as to why we were not conceiving together.
After all tests had been exhausted, she confirmed that we were eligible for IVF and sent us a choice of 3 clinics which she could refer us to.
We chose our preferred clinic after much research and let our specialist know on the Thursday. She sent the referral letter and said we now just had to wait on the waiting list until the clinic contacted us to start our IVF journey.

On the Saturday I was due on. I felt like I did every other month, pre-period tender breasts, pre-period mood swings, pre-period spots.
I don't know what made me do it, but I thought I'd just do a test 'just in case'.
Pee'd on the stick. Put it on the side. Washed my hands. Looked at it expecting to see 'Not pregnant' (as has been the case for the last 20 tests)..... but this time was different!
We'd done it!
Pregnant!
I was so shocked. Couldn't believe it.
I fantasised over all of theses great ideas on how I would tell my partner if this day ever came, romantic, cute surprises - caught on tape to cherish forever!
But that all shot straight out of the window.....
I ran down the stairs and literally chucked the test at him!

We are still early days, only 6Weeks2Days, but I'm hoping to god it stays in there safe and sound now.

Moral of the story....DO NOT GIVE UP.
Your time will come.
As hard and frustrating and draining it becomes, month after month of Negative tests.... Do not stop believing. Do not give up hope.
Much love and luck to you all

@AZ1992X I’m so so sorry 💔

You’re right - life is so unfair. I don’t like the term ‘chemical pregnancy’ because I felt like it almost downplayed how it felt in the moment, pregnancy loss is pregnancy loss and I’m so sorry for how awful it must be just now. Always here if need to chat or vent or anything else.

When do you go away, is it today? ♥️ Xx

@AZ1992X aww lovely, I know how you feel. I'm all in tears every month when I get AF. It's not fair is it? My Facebook page is loaded with newborns or pregnancy announcements and all my friends/cousins are either expecting/ have a family. It just feels so unfair. Please don't lose hope. We are all in this together. Loads of hugs xx

Morning ladies!

Thanks for all your tips, Unfortunately I don’t think I need to worry as much as I though, the two tests have almost confirmed it’s not progressing. The new strip barely had any line and the clear blue was fainter than the one from a few days ago. I don’t want this to ruin my break so I’m not testing whilst I’m away and will test again at the end of the week and seek help if it’s faded more/gone.

Currently sat in bed crying 😢, life is so unfair x

@AZ1992X yeah get those tests in the bin! As for symptoms etc, I know you know all of this but it is so so early! I was (quite aggressively 😂) pinching my boobs daily to see if they hurt when I was

@AZ1992X ahhhh me being a numpty thought it was CD12 you tested positive, no 12DPO 😂😂 okay yeah thats not early at all!

Such a tough one with going away at this stage isn't it 😐 I'd definitely fake a wound with a bandage and use that an excuse for the hot tub. I
That's a genuine reason and I'm sure people won't want to share the tub with your 'infected wound' 🙈 alcohol is harder but if in a tough spot just accept the drink, take a few fake sips and then ditch it somewhere.

@HopefulGlow got my fingers crossed for you and the house! Yeah my weekend has been decent, just went to the gym and out for lunch yesterday and today I've just spent 4 hrs on the golf course with OH, he is golf mad and a really good player so I've committed to trying to learn so he can play more but still spend time together. I'm absolutely $h!t3 though 😂😂😂 what have you had on today?

@LA9610 Not really early, I cannot remember but I think it was around CD17 I ovulated. I think you can get a bfp sometimes as early as 9DPO but I didn’t test until AF was due which was 12.

@HopefulGlow
@Amy259
The cheap one was exactly the same again (no lighter but not really much progression either) so I’m binning them and have some others arriving today so will test tomorrow and hope for some darker lines. I’m trying to stay positive but I don’t really feel much yet so it’s a little hard.

Also in a right predicament that we go away tomorrow with family and if I don’t drink/use the hot tub/go swimming they’ll figure it out and I don’t want that till I know everything is ok 😔

@Amy259 I agree, you do what’s best for you and when you feel is the best time to tell them. ❤️

Also hoping everything goes well with telling work and I do hope they’ll be supportive of you! X.

@HopefulGlow that’s amazing you’ve found somewhere you like, I’m keeping everything crossed you get it! 🤞 x

@HopefulGlow there’s a big recruitment drive just now but nothing for my office.. which seems a bit mad! I imagine they’ll get on it soon though once I tell them 🙈 it’s the government though so there’s loads of red tape, even with trying to recruit.

Ahh that’s so exciting that you found a house you love! Got everything crossed for you - do you know when you should hear? 🤞🏻

@AZ1992X how are you doing this morning? Xx

@Amy259 yeah I agree, I personally don't think it makes much difference - especially if you've had an early scan. Each person should just do what feels right to them 💗 sorry to hear you are feeling so rotten!

@HopefulGlow hope the house viewings went well! Such a hard time to have to find property! Yeah I guess I am an early tester, I mostly just do it as my period always seems to be due right before the weekend or on it so I don't want getting AF to spoil my weekend especially if I have plans! Sorry to hear about your bunny too 😪 that's so sad, sending love.

Hope everyone is having a lovely weekend! X

@LA9610 I think we’ll tell our parents soon - I keep changing my mind haha. I feel so rough though that I’ve been avoiding them all, and there’s only so long I can get away with that! I’m due my NHS scan before Christmas but I think I’ll tell them even before that, might get another private one around 10 weeks, then tell extended family at Christmas when I’ll be 13.5 weeks. I genuinely couldn’t hide it even now in company, I feel/look rotten.

The 12 week thing is a bit silly really.. because there’s not much difference between 10 weeks and say 15 weeks? So I think we should all just tell people when it feels right for us. I just want to be past the stage where I’m saying “but it’s still really early” or “but don’t get too carried away..” when I tell them - I want it just to be a happy time.

@xoJellyBean a hen weekend, that’s fun! Did you get up to any fun/mad activities?
Is this your first appointment on Tuesday? It is, isn’t it? That’s exciting - it’ll be so good to get the ball rolling I’m sure. I’m only 7.5 weeks just now so I should be just over 8 at the scan. Still very early but 8 weeks is big milestone in terms of statistics so I’m hoping for good news and reassurance.

@HopefulGlow don’t get me wrong, I know I’m lucky not to be spewing my guts up every 5 minutes - it could be worse! But it gets worse by the day so who knows what’s coming 🙈

I’m not looking forward to telling work tbh, it’ll really increase my team’s workload in areas I can’t help and we’re already short on staff and another girl announced her pregnancy a few months ago and people were quite harsh behind her back.. which is very unfair. But it does leave just 2 colleagues in my team now who can do the risky stuff, which is intense given we cover the whole of central Scotland.

Got my fingers crossed for you that you find somewhere lovely to live! Is it today you’re off to see them? Xx

@Amy259 no worries 🥰 I was away on a hen weekend and have possibly missed it as I didn't test for two days but we have kept dtd so hopefully covered 🤞🏻 i have an appt with the fertility clinic on Tuesday anyway so looking forward to that. My ovulation is always allll over the place 😤 good luck with your upcoming scan. How many weeks?

@LA9610 @Nora11 I had the same bfp dream a couple of nights ago! Woke up thinking it was real🙈

@Amy259 good luck with the scan! Are you going to share with family etc before the 12 weeks? I've been thinking what I would do if I were positive this time because I've got so many plans between now and Christmas that if I didnt drink it would be 100% obvious that I feel like I'd be as well just telling people 🙈

@AZ1992X, the line is definitely still there though :) I didn't even know it was possible to show pregnant from CD12! Do you normally ovulate really early?

Im on CD20 today so got about a week before AF is due. I dont bother testing until the day before just to like get it into my head that I'm not before AF comes. Gives it longer to sink in.

@Nora11 I had a BFP dream last night as well! Have had a couple over the past year and they seem so real it is slightly cruel. Fingerscrossed that AF doesn't appear for you xx

@xoJellyBean sorry I totally missed your post! How are you doing? Sorry to hear you’re struggling to find your peak, do you sometimes have late ovulation like that or is this totally random? Fingers crossed you don’t have long to wait…

@AZ1992X I think if you look at the ones 48 hrs apart it does look like they’re progressing? And certainly first to last! 🤞🏻

@Nora11 that’s so cruel, and after a bfp dream too 💔 loving the positivity though, here’s to your nice weekend and the lifestyle changes, and to a bfp just around the corner!

@HopefulGlow oh I'm so sorry about your bunny 😢 that must be so horrible dealing not just the loss but the feelings towards the other one. Sounds like you have a lot of other stress on too, hope you find some time for yourself this weekend 💖

Feeling disappointed this morning as my boobs have continued to be unusually sore this week and I convinced myself it could be a good sign. Just got a bfn though and most cruelly, after waking up from a very realistic dream that it was a bfp 😭😭😭 My period is technically die today but I think I may have to wait another day or two as I ovulated late. Now trying to focus on having a nice weekend and keeping up with our lifestyle changes which hopefully will bring that bfp in a few more months 🤞

@HopefulGlow so sorry to hear about your rabbit, that’s awful ❤️. Sounds like a very stressful day with that and custody stresses too.

House hunting sounds good though! I used to love it, hope you find somewhere nice. Keep us posted and I hope you have a nice weekend ❤️ X.

@HopefulGlow so happy to finally have a nice break from work and I’m going away next week so looking forward to that.

Maybe it’s just the cheapies that I’ve been using since and haven’t seen much progression.

@Amy259 I’m CD 15 today, still not seeing much on these ones. Trying not to think too much into it as I did another type of test that had a better line on.

@HopefulGlow I am okay thank you 🥰 CD25 and yet to find my peak opk 🙃 so sorry to hear about your wee rabbit!! That's heartbreaking

@HopefulGlow it’s reassuring for sure, but I just didn’t expect to feel so unlike myself so soon haha. I genuinely believed that “morning sickness” was that you randomly, suddenly vomited out of nowhere but felt okay - how wrong was I 😂 apparently this is actually more common, feeling constantly about to be sick but not actually.

That’s so awful, and yeah it must be hard not to resent the one left a bit.. did your OH just find her this morning? So sad 😢

Wow that’s quite the upheaval just before Christmas! Are you planning to buy now or are you on the hunt for somewhere to rent? Exciting but stressy I’m sure.

Scan is Thursday evening… trying not to think about it too much but quite nervous. If all goes well, I’ll be telling work on Friday which I’m terrified about too. Still deciding when to tell parents!