🦕🦕 The dinosaur crew - part 8 ttc after mc 🦕🦕

Morning Ladies

@Annny27 hope you enjoyed the break and fingers crossed your Anniversary was your lucky day.

Think it could be 3mths before we get any results. I keep thinking about the fact that we will prob find out the sex. It’s stupid but I’m not sure if I want to know as somehow that makes them even more real and that they won’t ever get to be here. I hope that make sense.

I’m back to work today after a week off sick and then a weeks annual leave and the first (and I mean literally the first) thing I saw was 2 pregnancy announcements with scan pics. You couldn’t fucking write it so started my working day in floods of tears. It was on a group chat that I can’t leave as it’s normally a work chat with work deadlines and timetables on so need to see it.

Hope everyone has good weeks xx

@Miscarriage39 thanks. Feel like I've had a holiday from it all recently while waiting for these appointments and now all my stress and anxiety about it is back

I would, but I really don't think I am Babyghirl. I think it's all mind games.

@miscarriage39
Take a test girl xx

I'm beginning to think my body is deliberately having a laugh at my expense. I though AF was arriving on Friday, but it was just a bit of blood then nothing, so assumed I was back to the spitting cycle. Today I feel really wheezy so I just started looking at my charts and realised the spotting would have been at exactly the same point in the cycle as the spotting I had before my last BFP. The only think is, we didn't have sex in fertile week this month, and even if we had, this would ah e really freaked me out as that was the only pregnancy I'd ever had what I assumed to be implantation bleeding in. Even though I know I can't realistically be pregnant, I can't help but think both 'what if', and then promptly berate myself by thinking it would unsuccessful anyway. I hate how Miscarriage has warped my thinking and caused all this fixation.
Sorry, just a rant for no reason.

I can totally understand your fear 27DONFIN, but hopefully getting the tests done will be a step forwards. Good luck with them all.

I am sorry you are goi g through this and that nobody seems to want to help Spotsmama. I have everything crossed for you.

So glad your scan went well H0peing.

Got a phone call today to arrange another blood test. It's either to check the quality of my eggs or quantity I can't remember what the consultant said last month now. Also found out Iv got my ultrasound a week on Friday, feeling stressed about it all now scared I find out my eggs are the problem

@spotsmama
That's awful hate when no one wants to help, can you get in touch with Tommys and c if they would help you in anyway xx

Hello, I sadly didn't get any further, left the phone call in tears after she told me if its going to happen it will happen and we can't prevent it.
She told me she wasn't a pregnancy specialist so couldn't help, she then got back in touch after speaking to someone else who also said there was nothing they would do and they suggest I just attend my booking in appointment with the midwife and raise any concerns then.
Thank you xox

@H0peing thank you and I'm glad it's all good news for you!

@HOpeing
Lol glad everything was great today and wee baby is growing just the way it should have a good nites sleep 💚

@Babyghirl I had brown spotting earlier this week so I feared the worst and honestly had moments where I thought nothing was left in my belly but thankfully today's scan went well with all as it should be. I'd been watching lots of films to escape my thoughts after work this week before the scan. I asked about my fibroids during the scan today and he said they were still small and far away from my baby so that was good news too. I'm trying to just take one day at a time and today was a good day. Knackered this evening! Not sure if it's pregnancy fatigue starting to kick in or just laziness but I'm going to bed lol. Xx

@HOpeing
How r u getting on and feeling.
I'm hoping the progesterone helps when I nxt get my bfp.

@Babyghirl Glad you managed to get progesterone prescribed. I've heard lots of success stories about it! My gynaecologist prescribed me aspirin even though my blood clotting tests were normal. She said "It can't hurt!" so I hope that's true for me! I guess there may be other things from my medical record that made her prescribe aspirin for me. No idea. Hopefully progesterone is exactly what you need. Xx

@PeanuttyButter Glad you managed to get progesterone and folic acid prescribed! Hoping it helps and that your next scan goes well xxxx

@Spotsmama I asked my GP for progesterone and she said she couldn't prescribe it but she contacted a gynaecologist who prescribed it for me so that's how I got my first progesterone and aspirin prescription. I hope you can get a prescription for what you need that way. Xx

@apwilso Glad you're having a lovely break in Cornwall and hope you get your bfp soon xxxx

So after what has felt like forever I finally had my 6 week scan today and they saw an embryo, yolk sac, a steady heartbeat...everything as it should be for a change!!! I know it's still very early but 3/4 of my miscarriages have been at around 5.5 weeks before they saw a heartbeat and when I miscarried at 8 weeks I didn't realise I was pregnant that month so had been doing a lot of things I wouldn't have if I'd known about that pregnancy. So it's a breakthrough for me, despite still being very early! I had to pay for a private scan as it was too difficult for me to keep getting time off work for NHS scans (I'm self-employed). It was lovely to have a private scan for a change! So quick! Hardly any waiting around! I wish I could afford to go private every time! Having said that, I can't drive so it costs me about £30 in ubers to get there and back and this scan was on special offer for about £50! (From about £79). Happy to celebrate today anyway! Really hoping this is my precious Rainbow Baby xxxx

@Babyghirl hello lovely well I am a little depressed this week as I would of been due my first ectopic by next Sunday so keep feeling glum when I see these pregnant women around but I am keeping busy had that horrible virus that's been going round so been unwell for a few days not covid related just a nasty bug.. my son has his grammar test today so been supporting him I am lucky to have my boys I don't like talking about my live children on here as it can be distressing to others and I also feel guilty as I feel like I have no reason to be depressed about my losses when I have 2 already but was told by a lovely counsellor that I shouldn't feel that way as secondary infertility happens... op is in 16 days very nervous about that one and what might happen and if I am beyond repair just everything feels uncertain and up in the air so anxiety is at a high I hope I am still fertile enough if I am we will be trying again in a few months time. How are you been have you had anymore tests etc?? Xx

Cycle no....god knows has started. ☹️ hopefully get my hospital appointments soon

@Babyghirl that's so weird! Maybe it was just a weird cycle month!

Anyone watching the show help on c4

@apwilso
I had a weird cycle this month started spotting on CD 20 came full on cd23 to 💚

@Babyghirl she did! I ended up having a 3 day period which isn't like me and thought I'm definitely pregnant this time! But nope! Glad to have the break!