December 07- MC Avengers in big pants, going through, been through or pg after a mc, still here, still eating cakes. We will not be beaten!

Hope you are lying there with your feet up jules - so sh*t that you are going throigh all this worry

PHEW sorry wheely but you have just made my day week year (popsy learns new MN techniques in order to impress new MN friends )!

Is hard being barren when all around seem to be reproducing like rabbits - if I hear one more peson say...

"things happen for a reason"
"oh just relax and it'll happen when you least expoect it"
"well you got PG easily first time so no reason why it won't happen again.."

Ooh nail polish sounds good - you get to have fab toes and feel smug about how green you are

I need a wax really badly - have given up on armpits and legs for the winter but bikini line seems to be migrating towards my thigh and needs some serious attention...oh the cruelty of getting old...

there is a green and blacks cookbook?
there is a ben and jerry's cookbook?

tjuice faints . . . .

now about to buy online:

above mentioned books
something from topshop
chemical free, pg-friendly nail polish (so need a pedicure its gross)www.zoyapolish.co.uk/
some gifts from red direct

splish - i also agree that moving on is overrated. and i did go to Sydenham High!

jules, fingers crossed for last results. hope you are doing ok.

No Popsy - of course I'm not pg, don't be daft. Just hanging around here to get my long service medal

mu? my list

shopping yes that's an idea,DH got me a couple of things on our way from the scan last week, bless him, now on his way home with some dinner and dessert.

might ask for my fave perfume for Christmas, mu list consisted mainly of books so far.

Popsy, I didn't see it, but sounds like i missed a treat.
Mmmm, shopping - I did a bit this morning, helping my niece look for some pressies for her mum, and I am now longing to get down to some serious Christmas shopping myself, but I am planning to spoil myself for my birthday first - I'm thinking maybe some fab new lingerie, even if it's just for me!

sfxmum I have to drive down my street now as there is an NCT building on my road and was getting too much bumping into all the bumps every time i popped out for a pint of milk!

Hi *wheelybug" How are you hon? Are you PG again - have read most people news but so many of you to check up on I am getting confused so fab to know you are all still here - feels like no time has passed ha ha

splishy did you watch heston blumenthal doing an artic roll - the fusion of science and food - my idea of heaven - I say do wjhatever it takes to get those endorphins flowing my current favs are: fab new blue leather platforms with bows (top shop gorgeousness!), choc cake (not much of it left now though), wine (any variety - have done the months of non-drinking and just made me more depressed when BFN), shopping (great now xmas as perfect excuse to melt the plastic on a daily basis-have you ben on red direct?...), cuddles with my fur baby (yes poor cat )

I still think in months too - am better now all the dates I had in my head are gone but I am still someone with a non-2 month old IYSWIM...

chin up chickie

hi popsy congrats on the job, it is hard when babies seem to be popping everywhere, I live near a Mothercare world so if I pop out for bread I will bump into a pregnant woman

jules fingers crossed and massive hugs

slishsplosh sorry you are going through a bad patch

I believe in keeping going but perhaps not the 'moving on' people talk about. it is all part of you forever but you grieve and keep living.

yesterday took dd to a b'dy party, one of her many social engagements. and one of the mums who knew, gave me some flowers, I was touched it a bit thrown.
today I passed the sac, expected but still v.odd, but it sort of marks an end to me.

I do worry about sinking into depression but will do my best to keep it at bay

sorry long post

Splishsplosh - sorry to hear you're going through a bad patch. Hugs.

I've got everything crossed for you Jules

oh jules - huge hugs.... am so keeping everything crossed for you.

• Lovely to see you, we've missed you ! Sorry to hear you're not up the duff yet but well done on new job.

Hello to everyone else - hope you're all ok.

Popsy, that sounds just what I need. Thanks! Bet that cook book is lovely. I know it's the wrong time of year, but I'm thinking of finding my ben and jerry's recipe book.

I mentioned I would have been 21 months today to (d)p, and he said "oh, are you still thinking about that" like it was ages ago, and should be out of my head.

Is that lissielou in festive fancy dress?

splishy I just made a massive devils food cake for nephews birthday - not there to eat it today but kept extras back and have made a gloopy mountain of cake and fudge sauce....very very soothing! (from green and blacks cook book) am sending a huge slice through the ether to you...

Think DH just spotted me on MN again - I know he hates it when I am on here cos it means I haven't moved on

Jules - huge big hug for you, and some b&js too. What time will they have the results? I so hope that it will work out for you, you so deserve this x

Ellie - thank you. I'm going through big sad patch at the moment, obviously not helped by failing relationship, and so feel like that was the last time I'm likely to be pg, ttc is not really on the cards, though I have foolish mad moments of contemplating a bit of a go...

TJuice - you didn't go to Sydenham High by any chance then?

It's my birthday in 2 days time. DD's at her grandma's, I was looking after my 6 year old niece while my sister slept after a night shift, but now I have a few hours to myself. (d)p trying to be nice, but shamefully I am finding it easier to wallow a bit. If Katendmom was still with us, I am sure she'd have a few stern words to say about being positive etc.

Maybe i could bake cakes? Any requests? Although I have Christmas cookie cutters and was thinking of saving my culinary efforts for when dd was around to try transferring her playdo skills to my cooking. I'm just trying to summon up my bravery and patience skills first.

hi popsy, its good to see you back!

Hi Ladies, been off MN for 5 months now (about as long as EllieG has been PG EllieG so please for you
Hi everyone form the old days and Hi to all the new ttc-ers after MC. Is happy and sad thing coming back - have caught up and can see that loads of my old TTC after MC chums are now PG which is fab news but GOD I CAN'T BELIEVE I AM STILL GOING THROUGH THIS

For those of you who don't know me I had a missed MC in march this year - has been a massive struggle - finlly feel like I'm geting my life back - have a fab new job and starting to feel like there are other things in life than TTC and babies - I hve even given up the temping and pee sticks cos I was so obsessed I would burst into tears each time AF arrived after the most excruciating 2ww ever

Was feeling all smug and sane this week and then went to my nephews birthday party last night and my sisters friend turned up 5 months gone and no one had told me and I just burst into ears and made a total tit out of myself . Sitting here now- supposed to be working but just needed to come back to MN and check I am not the only mad one out there...

Other annoying things (1) fab new job is due to work mate getting PG oh bitter bitter pill
(2) Three best friends all have babies and rest are starting to TTC so I know I have a few years of lovely "news" to come from them and more making a tit of myself to come . (3) Now am getting back into work am scared of ttc in case it happens and i let everyone at work down

Jules hope you are okay???
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jules - hoping for good hcg results for you today. fingies crossed that its just some heparin-related thing and everything else is a-okay.

xxxxx

Jules {{{hugs}}} to you

Jules, I'm so sorry :-( I can't imagine how you must be feeling. Big hugs and positive thoughts