December 07- MC Avengers in big pants, going through, been through or pg after a mc, still here, still eating cakes. We will not be beaten!

Hi Ronshar, just emailed you. Text me when you get my number so I know you have it
Good luck today and see you later yipeeeee
xxxxx

& I ate a whole tub of B&J. Fossil fuel I think, it went so fast I didnt bother reading the front!

Popsy, excellent idea. Champagne in Kings Cross. If you email me your telephone number I shall call you tomorrow to arrange a time etc. [email protected]. I am going to The London Chest hospital in E2. But my train goes from Victoria so can meet anywhere really. I shall check mail in the morning. Leaving at 10am.
OOOO I am so excited. Answers and meet with Pops all in one day

kasha we could be twins could pretty much have written your post, am 39 in Feb dd 2.6 PCOS was a stone lighter(64kg) when conceived dd. Since MC have been less strict with GI as chocolate is needed.

evening ladies all around huge hug. I am doing my best to keep positive while allowing assorted daily wobbles, it is only human and, I fell sane. it is an awful cruel thing that happened to us

So sorry Kasha, I wondered if it might be something like that. Am more than happy to skulk over there and quietly take you off if you'd like me to. All in your own time.

Thanks for the message Kitty, love the new name by the way, shall I see if MN will let me be Christmaskate? (Christmas cake - geddit?!?)Maybe not...

evening ladies sorry it has been such a horrid day for a lot of you, I don't even want to say anything as I know I am so lucky right now, all I am doing is counting down the days to the magic 12 weeks but I know I will never rest easy until I have my baby in my arms and know I will never ttc again so therefore never go through a mc again.

Lcy - what can I say? Can't find the words, want to offer some comfort and support to you. It's all so bloddy unfair am so and for you. Rest up and take time to heal yourself xxx

Ronshar - hope your appointment goes well for you tomorrow

kate2179 - don't be ashamed for lurking you must always have hope it's what keeps us going in the dark moments

jules - how are you doing?

hello to everyone else especially those going through a rough time right now, it will get better you got to hang on to that x

Hi all, sorry not been around for a few days while I got my head sorted out at bit.

Lcy so sorry, I've got my fingers crossed that beanie is still OK. I had a period-type bleed with DS from 4-6 weeks (didn't know I was pg and thought it was just AF until the penny dropped) and he's fine, I'm so hoping that this will be the case for you too.

kate no I'm not p/g I guess for some reason I'm still on the stats list, tbh I don't have the stomach to go over there and correct it...

verso so sorry you're feeling low. I'm in the same boat - we'd planned a 3 year age gap as he was a very difficult baby, DS is now 2.6 and I'm 38.5. Still determined to keep trying though .

Sorry I can't contribute any good news today, I can't even provide cake as I've put myself on a strict low GI diet to get me and my hormones in shape for TTC again - I want to get down to the same weight I was when I conceived DS (77kg) - only 3kg to lose but not easy with PCOS.

luce, this is just - so horrid. i am so so sorry that you are going through this right now. i really hope with all my might that its just a stretching womb or nestling-in bleed or something . . . it is possible, you know that right?

i know that no words can console you right now - we all know that feeling of despair . . .

but just realise that here, on big-panted avengers tonight, we all are all gunning for you - with thoughts and vibes and everything possible, that it will work out just fine.

hope you can get some rest

xx

kate don't even go there - I see it like picking a scab - totally can't not do it but when you do it really hurts!

Lcy- I'm keeping everything crossed for you. I know exactly how you must be feeling right now.

Verso and loveangel- big hugs to you both too. Life really is crap sometimes.

How were the hcg results Twighlight? Really hope you have some good news for us on this bleak evening!

Was lurking on the antenatal thread earlier - somewhere I have no right to be but seeing all the pregnant ladies gives me hope (cos I am a saddo!) and saw Kasha's name mentioned, I didn't realise she was pg? Or am I being thick? Sorry if I missed it!
Lcy - so sorry you're having to go through this again, thinking of you.

Aaah - Ronshar and Popsy around at the same time. So much wisdom !!

Hi Ronshar,fab to hear from you - great you are seeing the specialist. I have always thought that my body rejected my beanie - from the word go i felt like i was having an allergic reaction to the PG. My belly was really swollen and i had rolling cramps all the time - I constantly had a hot waterbottle on it - the monh beforei had the same thing and then a really heavy period afterwards.This year I have had it happen a couple of times again so am getting suspicious
I am in Camden tomorrow - in a meeting until 4.30/5pm - if you are still around? would love to have a coffee - my train goes from KC (we could pop to the longest champagne bar - just for market research you know )

Lcy So sorry. It is so unfair and horrible.

verso The hospital signed me off for a week after my ERPC and there is no way I could have gone back sooner. I think popsy said she felt like a wimp the other day with all the strong positive ladies that posted. I was the same and had 2 weeks off in total, sort of before mc, during and after. Even after that I felt like a emotional mess - still do sometimes and it was in October.

loveangel it all just takes too long to get better doesn't it. Be patient - we'll get there (wherever there may be). I have decided not to allow myself feel mean-spirited when I feel badly towards pg people. I know that I don't really hold it against them but it is OK to feel as we all seem to. Feeling guilty about it only makes it worse. iykwim

popsy totally agree with your list and pretty stationary is a real weakness.

Shopping is the therapy as far as I can tell - and what a great time of year to indulge !

Big hugs to everyone tonight - lots of sad posts to catch up on.

Evening. It is all shite. Is nobody having a good day out there? Why is it that nice people have crap happen to them. Not once but sometimes as many as 7 times!

I am really sorry for all you girls who are currently going throught the trauma of MC. Nothing I can say will make it better or make it go away, but please take strength from the love and support that is so freely and willingly given here on the big pants thread.

I am in London tomorrow for an appointment with the allergy specialist. Are there any questions anyone would like me to ask? I shall be probing deeply any link between mc and allergic responses. I know I read years ago about some womens bodies treating the embryo as an invading entity and sending out antibodies. So shall find out if true!!

Also anyone in London fancy a quick coffee/meet at lunch or after work let me know I shall be mooching about on my own. Might do Natural History as DDs cant moan its boring if they are at home

Lcy I'm so sorry. Have you got any pain? I know you must be thinking the worst, but I hope there's still hope x

Thinking of Lcy, so so sorry, lifes a bitch at times. They say things happen for a reason but I think thats bull at times like this.

Its crap crap crap.

{{{hugs}}}

Love to you both. X

Oh Lcy Thinking of you tonight and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that everything is OK. Don't give up hope - bleeding doesn't always mean the worst. Good luck at the doctor's tomorrow.

FCK so sorry Lcy* - we corssed posts
Hate that I have just posted long insignificant ramble when you are going through this shite....big hugs and am still crossing fingers, toes and eyes for you and your little beanie

Hey LoveAngel (ooh sounds like a cool porn name - can mine be pottymouthpops"? or popsitinregularly* )

Glad to be of help - I always feel so much better when people say soemthing that I have been feeling too - you can feel like you are going totally insane - I spent much of this year totally obsessing over (1) PG women, (2) might be or soon to be PG women, (3) everything coming out of my body on a daily hourly sod it minute by minute basis (4) measuring anything I could and then analysing the fuck out of it - by asking everyone i knew, searching the internet and generally going insane (am an overthinker to be fair so no suprises there), (5) crying at weird moments - usually after a drink (6) hating my body, (7) trying to have sex then going off it (8) shopping , (9) working too hard to try to take my mind off the massive hole in my life stretching ahead of me, (10) hating everyone and anyone that tried to give me advice even when they were trying to help.............the list is endless

Anyhoo - I'm here for you hon - my job in life to make people feel better about themselves
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Thanks everyone - now a period type bleed. I could go to hospital but it is only early days and there is nothing they could do to stop it. Will go to the doctors tommorow to record it. Just sitting on the sofa crying with DH - we can't believe its happened again!

Lcy, a big hug to you, you must feel awful at the moment. But like others have said, it is quite possible to have bleeding, and the baby be OK, so fingers and toes crossed for you that this is the case. Isn't it something like only 5% of women have 2 consecutive mc?, so it's not that common. i really hope you're ok - can you get an early scan? Or blood tests?

Shopping sounds like good comfort. I've been doing christmas shopping, much earlier than usual as I'm a last minute kind of girl generally. But it's cheered me up a bit, even though a toddler is not an ideal companion in this. In fact I reckon we've had the most even strops over the last week.

Hey again.

Lcy, I'm so sorry to hear what is happening with you. Have you called up your GP / hospital? Don't know what to say, really. I know that horrible, sicky, sinking feeling so well myself, all I can do is offer you pathetic cyber hugs .

Thank you coolkat, kate and popsy. It is so wonderful having this forum and being able to (almost) instantly get support and opinions and just...well, company in what can sometimes feel like a very lonely situation to be in.

Popsy, thank you in particular for your post. Totally relate with it! I'm dreading hearing more good news from friends who are ttc. I hate myself for being so mean spirited. I haven't told many people about my m/c either, as I don't want to depress or worry people, especially my pregnant friends - maybe that is the wrong approach? I don't know. All I know is that bottling it up makes it worse.

hugs to you too coolkat, crossed posts. Hope you're ok.

What a rubbish day for everyone - am sure the fact that it's monday doesn't help!

Verso don't expect too much of yourself, I had my erpc on the sat then went back to work on the wed which I knew was too early but I'm self employed and I knew I stood to make/lose quite a bit of money that day! But I took nearly 3 weeks off before that - basically from the time we had the 1st scan which showed the suspected mmc to the erpc. And I DEFINITELY needed it. Somehow the fact that we couldn't afford it didn't seem to matter all that much. Some days I was saner than others, I just tried to have as nice a time as possible, it helped that it was over half term and quite a few of my friends are teachers, so we went out to play quite a lot and actually I surprised myself by having a really nice time. I know your circumstances are different from mine, I didn't have a little person to think of so I could just be completely selfish, but I guess what I really mean is give yourself a break!

Same goes for you verso! It's such a horrible feeling, and I can't imagine what it must be like to have your sister and your bf pregnant, but by the time their babies are born we will be pregnant too! (Please please please!!) That's the only way I'm managing to cope with people I know who will be having babies when we should have been... As TS says, we're never going to get any bd-ing action if we're crying all the time! {{{{hugs}}}} to you - it's so tough.

Loveangel - {{{hugs}}} to you too, am keeping everything crossed for you. Bleeding DOESN'T mean history is necessarily going to repeat itself. Have you got an app to see the doc?

Sorry for the long post ladies!
On a more positive note, my temp dropped really sharply this morning and af turned up!!!! Never been so pleased to see her! 27 days afer bleeding stopped from erpc and 13 days after I think I OV'd - fingers crossed she won't be invited next month!