Month 12, 6 DPO, fed up and loosing hope

Just entering my fw (I think!) going with every other day this month and not tracking at all for the first time.

@Lynne425 I'm sorry to hear AF arrived, it never gets any easier does it x

@xoJellyBean Hope you're doing ok and hanging in there x

My AF showed it's face this morning too so feeling the normal very down on CD1. Time for lots of treats and a chill out on the sofa for me x

It just feels like a period now so I'm trying not to focus on it to much or I'll spiral! we will get there soon🤞🏻✨

How is everyone doing x

@xoJellyBean I'm so sorry. It just seems so cruel xx ❤️

Soo sorry @xoJellyBean 💔 xx

Oh @xoJellyBean I’m so sorry 💔 sending you lots of strength and love xxx

Hey @Amy259 unfortunately not good. My bloods were done today but it is more or less confirming a chemical. The tests didn't get any stronger and I've been bleeding since the first bfp x

Omg @xoJellyBean sorry I missed this - congratulations!! How are you doing??

Aww that's a very strong BFP @xoJellyBean congratulations 💕 xx

@xoJellyBean 😮🤞🤞🤞x

!! About to loooose my shit. What is going on! 🤯

@xoJellyBean ah I remember now. Well I am hoping today was just a blip and a nice strong line awaits you tomorrow🤞🥰 x

@suzy124 I'm unsure. I was using OPKs for a while but never got a peak... didn't temp this month of course 🤣🙈 x

@xoJellyBean aw hun, did you use fmu? How many dpo are you now? X

There's no flow but I've lost hope now... attached my two tests @suzy124 😓 xx

@xoJellyBean omg I am keeping everything crossed for you! Is it like start of period flow or lighter? x

Sorry 🙈 I got a faint line but I woke up with quite a bit of blood this morning so I'm just so anxious right now! About to go to the loo for the 10000th time today to check😓 I don't know what to think x

@Loops01 it is one horrible and lonely journey and there's really nothing anyone can say to make it better. But we all understand 💛

Just looked at fertililly it's says chuck after 6 months, I've used it for 4 and I feel like if it was gonna do something it would have worked by now

@xoJellyBean you are keeping us in suspense here...

Sorry I've been quiet, wrecking my brain here 🤣 I've got some tests arriving tomorrow. I think I'm about to have a meltdown lol

@HJen22 I'm 32 and pretty similar although this is cycle 12 for me. I've found it very lonely and horrible actually. First 4 cycles were like 'oh OK it's fine, it takes time'. Cycle 6 was a complete meltdown. Cycle 8 I think is was when we found out about his sister getting pregnant nice and easy. Then cycle 9 (roughly) everyone followed suit and I had about 11 friends, family and work colleagues pregnant. I've no hope now. No diagnosed issue. Apart from 2 freak cycles everything else was pretty regular and I really changed my diet etc from cycle 6 onwards and now don't really have any pms or issues. SA was all good. Cycle 11 I had my scan and it showed my ovary with the follicle that had released the day before and all healthy and normal. Just that thing of its all fine but there's no positive line 😂. I came off pop birth control Nov 2019 in order to prep my body before trying. Took about 6 months to get regular cycles back to the 28-31 days. I don't really know what I haven't tried. It's all the usual.

Honestly you telling me all that really helps. It's that thing of will it be ages, will we get 'treatment' etc and knowing a rough timescale helps. It's like if someone said you'll get pregnant in 2023 ill be like meh fuck it I'm drinking alcohol and eating houmous again! Haha. Do you know when your next appt is?

@xoJellyBean any update... No pressure... 😂

@Loops01 of course, I'm 33 and have been off the pill since March 2020. I have quite short cycles so this is cycle 18! Yeah that's the same, I had bloods done and GP said all fine and referred us. Then on the call the Dr said FSH was a little high but didn't give a figure. I only know now cos of the overview letter I got the other day and it's 10.6. Yeah if there is nothing obvious we'd just be told to keep trying until 2 years. If something comes back in the scan, low reserve I don't think they bother doing HyCosy as it wouldn't make a difference to egg quality / quantity it's just for checking tubes. Exact wording is "recommended internal scan as the possibility of low ovarian reserve cannot be ruled out however she was also keen for tubal testing as well and we have agreed to do HyCosy. HyCosy is not mandatory in case we need to step up towards ivf and also we may only resort to scan if there is significant low reserve". Didn't feel like I knew exactly all that from the call so freaked me out seeing it in writing. I am hoping scan comes back ok, they can do HyCosy too and there isn't anything wrong 🤞🏻 trying not to worry too much but easier said than done.

How has your journey been? I hope there aren't too many delays and things start to speed up now. From my referral to first call to first hospital app it will be 6 months so could be worse I suppose, I know a lot of places are a lot longer. Xx

Thanks @HJen22! Some clarity at least! Can I ask how old you are just regarding your reserve? I've had day 21 done but it was before I ovulated. I had my first regular cycle again in 2 months cos of covid vaccine (the time they did the day 21 bloods) so I'm hoping it continues being normal but we will see. How do you know about your FSH level? Dr's done general bloods for me but said all was fine and normal but I feel like they would say that anyway even if on the higher or lower side! Thank you for the time line though! I would go for the hycosy also - why not! So they say basically no treatment until 2 full years of trying?

Keep me posted on how you get on good to know there's someone local in the same position in a sense. I heard that the numbers being referred are on the rise now since covid easing. Hopefully it doesn't delay things too much for everyone.

Happy Sunday ladies I hope you are all having a lovely weekend ❤️ I have my fingers crossed for you @xoJellyBean for when you test!!!!

@Loops01 hi 👋🏻 aw nice to speak to speak from Aberdeen too! So we had our first video call at the start of June, the Dr was absolutely lovely. I'd had day2 bloods done prior. Basically it was just a lot of questions and then she offered me an internal scan and HyCosy. I could have just went for scan but I said HyCosy too although it depends on the results of the scan if they'll do HyCosy. She had said it was about a 3 month wait as they only so HyCosys one day a week so it's in August! I got a letter when they were ready to take August appointments and I called. I recently got an overview letter of our call and it says scan as diminished ovarian reserve can't be ruled out (I think that's due to my slightly high FSH). I think it nothing comes up on scan or HyCosy we'll just be told to go away and keep trying until the 2 year mark. I've never had my day21 bloods done yet so I might ask about that, I think because I have a regular cycle each month they've not bothered yet. I'm sorry you're having to go through investigations too 😞 hopefully we have some more BFPs on this thread 🥰

Sorry yes @xoJellyBean noticed after! Good luck with your test when you do one!

@suzy124 yeah I think you're only meant to keep it 3 months or something. I'm soft water and haven't noticed anything wrong with it yet but if nothing in the next couple of months everything is getting chucked and nothing replaced. Vitamins etc too!