Month 12, 6 DPO, fed up and loosing hope

Morning ladies xx

@AZ1992X ah that's great news, keep testing and yeah I am sure it will come! I had a random 35 day cycle in amongst my normal 25-28 day cycles! I didn't track that month but it moved my ovulation day on my app to CD21!

@HopefulGlow today is your call with the GP isn't it? I hope it goes well and the Dr gets some tests for you and your OH arranged.

Yeah it was nice to sit out in the sun and just relax. Spending time outside really helps my mood, and having the pup means there no excuse not to get out for walks!

How is everyone else doing? Does anyone else have any other tests this week?

xxx

Hey girls, I’ve been taking a break this weekend. I won’t tag you all but I’ve caught up on all of the messages 😽.

@AZ1992X sorry you’re not feeling up to it this month, it’s impossible to keep up the positive out look month after month, so try not to be too down on yourself xx
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How is everyone doing? I’m expecting AF in the next day or two.. I met a friend I haven’t seen in a while for coffee yesterday and one of the first things she asked me was when I’m going to get pregnant! I was so taken aback at the question. I think she realised she had over stepped the marked and quickly changed the subject, but it just really threw me. I constantly feel like I’m on guard just waiting for someone to jump out of the woodworks and start asking me about babies, which is ridiculous as I know no one other than me is really thinking about it. It’s just a shock when I get ready to relax with a friend and mentally switch off from TTC and they come at you from the left! I know she didn’t mean any harm, I think only other women who have struggled to conceive truly understand how triggering it can be xx

Morning all!

Hope we’re all doing ok ❤️

It’s gone up a little bit which I guess is a positive sign as it’s been declining until now. Went up from 0.14 to 0.33 so I’ll keep testing and stay hopeful it’s just delayed!

@HJen22 that sounds lovely! I did the same on Saturday. A drink round the fire as the sun went in, surrounded by fairy lights. It was very relaxing! I hope it helped you wind down too.

Haha thank you!!! I’m now 1DPO….dun dun duuuuun!! But apart from acne this cycle 😩 my boobs aren’t too achy, so that’s always a positive.

@AZ1992X sorry to hear about your frustrating cycle, is it still not changing? It is possible that the antibiotic are affecting it, I would definitely speak with your doctor?

@Amy259 I know what you mean! When you think about all the people who have accidental pregnancies, I roll my eyes now!! How rare and lucky that is?! They have no idea. BUT you are right, it only takes one!! Fingers crossed for us 🤞🏼 I went a bit mental on a couple of days, my libido really went crazy m. It’s not been like that in a while haha so I took advantage 😂

My cycles are pretty short so it’s a 12 day wait for me now. Have you managed to distract yourself from the anxiety?

I bumped um my supplements/vitamins this month ladies. Got some maca powder, I’ve been having pineapple smoothies and (I can’t make any promises) BUT I’m going to try and stay relaxed haha 😅

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@HopefulGlow I always get super worked up going into fw - you’d think after all the time and having tried just about everything (every day, every other day, SMEP, etc) I would know that it doesn’t matter as long as you cover it, it only takes once, etc etc but I still stress myself about the timing of dtd so much. So I’m feeling positive but still a bit anxious of the week ahead! How are you doing?

@AZ1992X ahh sorry to hear you’ve been feeling a bit rubbish. We can’t be expected to feel positive and raring to go every single cycle, it’s only natural to have the odd down one but doesn’t make it any less shitty when they’re here.
There’s nothing more infuriating than waiting around to ovulate, is there? I hate that! Like our bodies are playing games with us. No sign of opk rise as today went on?

Thanks that’s really useful to know, I will do some research into practices in my area.

Absolutely! I’d ask away as you don’t want to regret not asking something.

He's recommended I go every 2 weeks at the moment, which I am happy with. It was £72 last time but that was including £20 of herbal supplements. I'm hoping he doesn't know I've finished them haha and try and give me more as I could be doing without the 4 a day on top of all the vitamins from the nutritionist 😂

The book I read I'm sure has tips on what to ask; I never want to make it obvious I've been googling or worrying but surely it's better to ask than just think of terrible situations and scenarios in my head!

@HJen22 Ah good, glad it’s working for you. I might try and look into it. How often are you meant to go?

That’s a good idea to prepare some questions so you don’t forget anything! X.

Yeah it is good, I'd been thinking about it for a while and then after having the referral I read more and seems a lot of ladies have it during IVF too. I'm hoping if anything it helps relax me. I'm going to ask tomorrow what each needle in each area is for as I didn't ask last time! I also had a few sessions of Reflexology a while back but I couldn't seem to switch off for some reason!

Thank you, I need to take a note of some of the questions I want to ask! Xx

@HJen22 I will do, fingers crossed 🤞

Glad you’re ok! I’ve seen quite a few of you going to acupuncture - I’ve never really looked into it. Would you recommend?

Hope everything goes ok for you Friday ❤️
Xx.

It may just be a bit of a longer cycle this month with ovulation later so keep testing and hopefully over the next few days you will 🤞🏻stay positive!

I'm doing ok thank you, I have my second session of acupuncture tomorrow so looking forward to that. And then a follow up on Friday with the clinic just following on from our initial IVF referral. Xx

Thank you @HJen22 ❤️
I will keep testing but not feeling hopeful it will happen this cycle as it normally gradually rises over quite a few days. Last cycle was 29 days.

Yes - its 21 day bloods so will see what happens but expecting it’ll say I didn’t ovulate this cycle.

How are you doing? X

Morning ladies hope everyone had a lively weekend! Sun seems to be gone up here ☔️

Awww no @AZ1992X I'm sorry to hear you're having a rubbish cycle! Keep testing and hopefully it will happen soon. I think it's also quite normal to sometimes have an anovulatory cycle - although not what you want to hear when TTC I know! Maybe the antibiotics have effected it too! How long are your cycles normally?

Are they doing day21 bloods this month for you? I've never actually had that xx

Morning all,

This cycle is absolutely the worse and getting more down about it all 😔

I’m CD18 now and haven’t had any sign of my opks rising if anything they are dropping to almost zero and bbt also confirms i haven’t ovulated yet - no idea if it’s just going to be a bit later or not happening this month? I have been on antibiotics and wonder if that’s had any affect on it.

The only good thing is I’m due a blood test at the end of the week and if I haven’t then that will show and hoping they may intervene earlier than planned.

@Amy259 it looks amazing - I hope you’re having a great time and a well earned rest & happy belated birthday! I hope you had a great day ❤️ X

@suzy124 I was so surprised, I almost started crying 😭 bless him!

I know how you feel about being a bit defeated and not being so fussed about DTD. I really feel like that too, just doing it when we feel like that and I told my OH we shouldn't over think it as there's enough going. Yeah for sure take it easy and try and as much as you can, not so much enjoy as that's not the word; but take the time for self love and kindness ❤️

@HopefulGlow ah that's exciting! Happy ovulation and FW! Mine used to change all the time with OPKs and BBT. I've done no crafting this weekend but lots of nice dog walks and chilling, we just sat outside in the garden in the sun and when it got cold put the fire on. Nice just to relax.

@Loops01 I hope work hasn't been so hectic. Thank you, it was nice to have someone impartial to talk to. I'm feeling better after being a bit of a grump on Friday! I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling like that. Know you aren't letting anyone down ❤️ it's so easy to beat ourselves up, we'd never think it of someone else but think it of ourselves. It's so easy for others to say don't stress. We don't want to! The diet is going ok thanks, although the fish and chips not very nutritionally acceptable 😂

Sometimes chocolate and sugar is just needed, so don't feel bad about it! And well done for sticking to calories! Tomorrow is a new day and new week!

How annoying Covid has messed with your cycle again! I'm sorry! Not what you need at all! Why can't our bodies just do what they want when they want!

Ah we went to Glenfinnan last year, it's so nice! I love Harry Potter so I was in my element! You'll have a great time and so nice to have little trips planned! And to celebrate your wedding anniversary ❤️

@Amy259 Grantown on Spey is super cute! Not sure we've been to Nethy Bridge, need to add to list too! I have enjoyed going to places nearby that we'd probably not have went to!

I wish I'd asked more about follicles and everything but I was trying not to squeal during the HyCosy part, I def need to ask some questions at our follow up next week! Also about how long after the first appointment treatment is likely to be. I naively though oh appointment in January meant it would be like, then, but actually there's probably another wait when you get to the "top of the list" so to speak xx

@suzy124 fingers crossed!! I will keep you posted and let you know what they say.

Awww I hope you have some things to distract you. Do you two keep in contact a little when he’s away too?

@Loops01 ahhh that’s amazing!! It’s amazing what they can do to check things, it’s fascinates me. I’m glad you’ve not had painful sex or periods, that’s a relief. That’s great news about the sex positions too, you have to mix it up sometimes.

I’m thinking of googling positions to stay in once the deed is done haha my OH walked in on me tilted my hips up and we both couldn’t stop laughing. It’s worth a shot 🤷🏼‍♀️

@Amy259 eeeek thanks!! I’m trying to keep positive and not let myself spiral this month. I’ve been googling helping with implantation…so pineapple is on the menu now I guess? Lol

CD8, a lovely fresh start! Are you feeling positive?!

Im losing track where everyone is in their cycle now. Is anyone in their TWW? ✨💕✨

@suzy124 thank you! It’s been such a lovely break, I’m dreading going back to reality on Tuesday! I’ve got a fertility call on Wednesday so it’s back with a bump…
Everything will work out - but that doesn’t mean we can’t throw the odd tantrum about the journey to get there! That’s rubbish that OH is going away all week. I guess it’ll give you a break from a tww, if that’s a good thing at the mo?

@HJen22 I love that, so funny. All the cheese! We’re staying in Grantown on Spey, which is very cute. Just had a big walk in Nethy Bridge which may be the cutest little town I’ve ever seen!! Definitely need to come back and stay there.

@HopefulGlow woohoo you’re in the best few days! 1-3dpo are my fave - absolutely nothing you can really do about it so nothing to stress over, and the tww fear hasn’t quite kicked in yet. Enjoy it!!

@Loops01 hello! Sorry to hear you’ve been feeling down - don’t count out future cycles just yet, if your cycle is a bit off again then you never know, maybe you’ll ovulate when DH and you are able to get together.
No trips planned as yet, DH has a few random weeks off though so maybe try and get over to Arran or have a couple of nights somewhere new. Great that you have wee breaks planned, we need stuff to look forward to!
I don’t plan on being out this month 😂 I’m only on CD8 and plan to give it a good go over the next week or so!!

Sorry work has been so busy! All work and no play!

@HJen22 I'm so happy to hear that your session went well! Is your appt this week with the Dr? How are you feeling now? I constantly feel like I'm letting myself down and everyone else. My mum still tells me that I'm stressing too much and it's like thanks - 1 not helpful and 2 you're putting the blame on me 3 I WASN'T STRESSED UNTIL YOU KEEP TELLING ME I Am! How's the diet etc going? I've been so good exercise wise but after taking a turn at the scan I ate stuff I knew would help (chocolate for quick sugar) and now I'm like well it's messed up so might as well continue! But I'm still tracking cals. Just waiting for payday!

I'm not doing well recently. 2nd covid jab and it's fucked my cycle AGAIN! Was on course for a 29 day cycle. Haven't ovulated yet so I'm looking at a minimum of a 31 day cycle. I've went from 0.45 to 0.19 in a matter of days. If its like the last time then I should still ovulate at some point but I'm 100% out. Also meant that my next cycle is delayed so there won't have another chance until mid-end of Nov. Last cycle of the year. Just feel so upset.

@HopefulGlow I know the follicle from the scan. You can see them all on the screen and the Dr explains a lot plus I asked lots of questions. They do a standard transvag scan and it was massive so I was expecting to ovulate a few days later. Guess that's out now.

I have never had painful sex and periods are never that bad either. Apparently you can do some different positions but I'm not gonna lie, we were doing most of them anyway! Just cos you get so fed up of just lying on your back.

@Amy259 glad to have you back!! Looks like you had a lovely time! I'm so glad. Have you got any other travels planned before Xmas? I'm off to glasgow and Glenfinnan for a couple of days each in a few wks for 1st wedding anniversary. Somewhat looking forward to it but no idea when AF will show as I think it would now be that week but may be later if this continues. Positive in a negative eh haha. We can be out this month together - the good ole days repeating eh!? 😂. Take care of yourself! Love seeing your pictures!!

@suzy124 haha I get you - I wish my dh was that sweet too! I guess they are all there for us they just show it in different ways. You coping OK?

@HJen22 aw your OH is so sweet! Wanna swap? lol
Ah it's ok, I wasn't feeling it this month anyway. A few months ago it would have felt like the end of the world if we missed a month! But I'm just like it's not gonna happen naturally so what's the point 🤷‍♀️ just gonna take it easy and not think about my missed egg!

@HopefulGlow oh that's good it's sooner in the week, ask all you want and don't let them rush you in these covid times. I'm sure they will sort bloods for you and SA for your partner.
Nothing planned atm as just found out last night but will get some distractions and outings organised!

Xx

Morning all! Happy Sunday, hope you’re all okay and resting 💕

@HJen22 I’m apparently ovulating today, although that changed from the prediction as I did OPKs this month. So who knows 🤷🏼‍♀️ I will see if I can attach the image. I don’t know if I trust these cheap ones anymore.

@suzy124 Tuesday morning! I don’t joke what to expect, so I don’t know if I should feel excited over a phone call haha but I am a little bit. Just glad to be taking the first step really.

Anything nice planned while your OH is alway?

@Amy259 HAPPY BIRTHDAY! your time away sounds so beautiful 😍💕

How’s everyone’s crafty bits coming along? I did a little bit yesterday and I’m definitely going to zone out and do more today. ✨💕✨

@Amy259 I know, ridiculous isn't it 😂 in my dream I ate it my accident and then was like ahhh crap I'm not allowed cheese 😂😂😂

That sounds amazing! I've never been to any of those islands but loved Skye! Will need to get them on the list!! Where are you staying in Aviemore?

Oh I know, I actually feel awful snapping cos I know she didn't mean it, I messaged to apologise and she then apologised to me 😂 (that's me and my mum all over haha) and then I have also been an arse to the OH who just came back from the shop with flowers for me 😭 he's been lovely and I've been a right grump!

@suzy124 oh no! I'm sorry OH is away for work! Sometimes it just feels like everything gets in the way doesn't it 😢 that's so annoying, I wish we had some sort of control over our bodies when it's things like this!

I hope you have some nice things planned whilst he's away?

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@Amy259 Happy birthday!! Sounds like such a fab time away and a gorgeous pic of the doggos. Sorry that AF arrived but it's great you had the distraction of the holiday to see it through.

Yeah shit is right. Just trying to believe everything will work out bc otherwise I won't cope!

@HopefulGlow when is your doctor appt this week?

@HJen22 aw I'm sorry people are saying the 'wrong' thing atm. That's partly why I'm keeping it secret, because really nobody can say the right thing. Definitely not what I'd call an adventure though! I hope your OH is still being a big support

Found out last night my OH is away for work all this week (fw) so definitely won't be trying this month!

@HJen22 I laughed out loud there at you dreaming about cheese 😂😂

The big islands we went to were Eriskay, South Uist, North Uist, Benbecula, Harris & Lewis but there are so many little islands too that we went to for walks. Honestly, the most amazing time! Thank you, think we have the happiest two dogs in Scotland at the moment - they’re lucky girls.

“Adventure” maybe isn’t the best term for ivf.. how about a bumpy journey with the best destination?

I’m CD8 and must’ve ov early last month as af came 2 days earlier than expected, so think I’ll start opking around Wednesday and track this month xxx

@Amy259 hey! We missed too too! I hope you've had such a nice time away and the break from all things TTC is always good! Glad that AF came for you at the start and didn't cause you lots of stress - although of course wish she hadn't come at all!

Happy birthday for yesterday!! Spent on a beach in Lewis wow! Bet that was lovely! Which islands did you go to? Enjoy Aviemore tonight, we love it up there too! So pretty! Ahhh look at the doggos, great pic! Sure they had the best time too!

Thank you, therapy was definitely a good end to the week. Although I was a bit grumpy afterwards and snapped at my mum when she called IVF an adventure 😂 I was like, it's not! She must have told my sister as she said yesterday oh mum said you said it wasn't an adventure ha. It just makes me sad and irritated a bit that they think IVF is a given when it's not. I know they are trying to say the right thing though and be there so I should give them a break!

I hope you enjoyed your Prosecco @HopefulGlow 🥂 I treated myself and had gluten free fish and chips when out for lunch yesterday. Not exactly "natural" but at least it was GF and dairy free haha. I was dreaming about cheese last night 😂

I hope everyone else has had a lovely weekend!

Where are we all in our cycles now? I'm CD22 but no tracking of any sort this month and only DTD a few times. Think we have needed the rest xx

LADIES! How are we all? Is it weird if I say I missed you..? 😂

I must admit it’s been dreamy having time away from ttc. Af arrived on day 2 of our holiday which was actually lovely because I had no time to wonder and no need to stress over OPKs or dtd on the right days etc because it was af week!

Currently on a ferry back to the mainland for a night in Aviemore. We had the best time island hopping and it was my birthday yesterday too, which I spent on a beach in Lewis - it was dreamy.

I have read everything but I’m absolutely hopeless at tagging!

@suzy124 @HJen22 families are so tough - we haven’t told either of ours but have no doubt they’ve guessed. I just don’t want to have that chat yet, and I’m still clinging on to surprising them one day.
Glad therapy is going well for both of you, it sounds great. Fingers crossed neither of you have too long to wait, Suzy it’s so shit that time is an added pressure for you.

@Loops01 glad the scan went well with good results, sorry about your drama after it though!

@AZ1992X waiting is the worst bit, for sure. I feel like all we do is wait during this ttc journey. After my chemical (13 cycles ago 🙃) I was so hopeful we’d fall quickly too, I guess because you hear of it happening.

Welcome newbies too! Xx