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Talk sense into me...seriously losing the plot!Help!

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Anonapapple · 01/05/2021 05:51

We were supposed to wait a few months to ttc. I decided to track my cycles, as I havent tried to conceive for a few years and wanted to get to know my fertile days.

I had a positive opk on the 27th and it must have gone to my head, because we had sex that night and definitely didn't prevent. A few hours before, I felt something go 'pop pop pop' in my left ovary area (I always feel ovulation). I was out for a walk as I felt it, and the evening sky was so beautiful and I felt all misty eyed about creation. Everything inside me was telling me to go for it, so we did 🙈

The next day I had that feeling of panic, like 'what have I done!' 😄. Then that was replaced by an unbelievable sense of giddiness and excitement to the point I started wondering if I was going to have some kind of reverse panic attack! Honestly, I was so excited that I was nearly sick! I am a 38 year old grown up!

You see, I had thought that ttc was off the cards as my husband didnt want any more kids, but he recently changed his mind out of the blue, to my complete delight, so it's like a dream that I am able to consider another.

The problem: I am absolutely convinced that I am pregnant, or that I will be in a few days when the egg implants. The thought that I am not pregnant seems impossible. The day that I conceived I wrote in my ovulation app 'diary' that I knew it would happen that night. (I just read this back to myself and noticed how I said 'conceived', not 'had sex').

I keep wanting to tell people I'm pregnant, including my boss (to help make decisions about staffing allocations). I just had sex a few days ago! Oh, and it's a boy, as if I'm not being ridiculous enough! I have even named him!

This is totally ridiculous! There is only a 20% chance of conception each month I think, and I am sure that decreases with age. This is our first month trying! There is every reason that I will not be pregnant!

I am constantly going around with a horrible sense of giddiness and excitement that is not congruent with reality and is actually physically uncomfortable. I feel like jumping up and down and squealing with joy at many points throughout the day.

Does anyone else feel like this? I am normally a very stable, pragmatic and generally realistic (possibly overly hopeful at times) person and this is totally bonkers to me! Please, can anyone relate? Or can a very sensible mumsnetter come along and give me a stern deflation?

I actually feel like I can't do another week of this. I have felt excited to the point that I wonder will I actually faint! Smelling salts anyone????

Help!

(If, by the reasonably high chance that I am NOT pregnant, I will update this thread for any other ladies going totally bonkers to help them get a grip of themselves too! Even when I was typing that, I was saying to myself 'yeah right, as if I'm not pregnant!'.

Help!

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24GinDrinkingOnceTheKidsInBed · 05/05/2021 16:21

I haven’t the foggiest how many DPO I am now. My OPKS were strange this month, then I ran out. But I had EWCM about a week or so ago so I’m going to guess at around 8dpo (why am I testing so early? Because it’s ‘11dpo’ since my predicted ovulation according to my app) so I go off both dates and just bloody hope!

hewegoagain · 05/05/2021 14:29

12 dpo here and feeling the same. Even started a list of possible baby names 😂 This our first month TTC so probably not gunna happen so quickly (i'm 35), but i've been feeling so odd and tired the last 2 weeks i've almost convinced myself. HAD TO HAVE chicken wings for lunch, and I hate chicken wings lol (last pregnancy was worse, I had serious cravings for 'pulpo a la gallega' which is octupus 🤢), and just generally eating everything. These are pms symptoms for me as well.

Breasts have been sore since 2DPO and my temperature had spike by 0.4/0.5°C the last 2 days.

Desperately trying to convince myself that this is all a coincidence so that I don't feel completely gutted on Friday when AF is due.

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Anonapapple · 05/05/2021 14:15

@naevo the mind is a powerful thing! Even if I turn out not to pregnant, it just wasnt my cycle and it will help me rule out these 'certainties" in the future. There are some benefits to not getting pregnant this month, some timing issues etc. So let's see. I got a blazing bfp with my two previous children on 9 and 10 dpo so am wondering if tomorrow I might know. I hope you get your bfp soon, and cycle 5 is The One!

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naevo · 05/05/2021 13:46

This is me every single month!
Except I punish myself for thinking these things!
(Currently at the end of cycle 5 of ttc. Got a BFN but not willing to accept that yet!)
Fingers crossed you get that BFP, keep up with the positive attitude and good things will come your way!

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Anonapapple · 05/05/2021 13:01

Just saw you're testing on friday (woman of steel!).
Can I see a pic of today's test??

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Anonapapple · 05/05/2021 13:00

@PoopMaster I laughed at the 'mind projecting'. Definitely been there. The fact that a line came up is very promising!!!! I did about a million tests this week, just to satisfy the urge. None of them changed. The imaginary lines all stayed in my imagination haha Will u test again in the morning?

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Anonapapple · 05/05/2021 12:38

I am so sure guys, and that certainty could be very disappointing if it doesnt come to pass.

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PoopMaster · 05/05/2021 12:36

I had to take my bra off yesterday when it was becoming an instrument of torture...my boobs were "zinging", especially whenever I laughed Confused I bf both DCs and years later I have the odd boob-tingle every now and then whenever babies or bfing is discussed. Bodies are endlessly fascinating.

I took another test this morning (12dpo) and was mind-projecting a line at certain angles...put it down and 10 mins later there was a definite faint line there, but you're only supposed to check between 3-5 mins?? So now I'm really confused. Will treat myself to a test again on Friday and see what happens 🤞

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Anonapapple · 05/05/2021 12:36

@twinkletoesfairynose I know lol it was that tingly, squashed feeling but no damp bra puddles!

@24GinDrinkingOnceTheKidsInBed how many dpo are you now? I really hope it all works out and you get your bfp. The line and leaky boobs sounds promising!

Today was another day where I questioned my sanity! I'm 8dpo and had cramping today. My abdomen felt quite hard and I just felt very aware of it. I went to the bathroom and (tmi) wiped and saw very yellow, snot-like CM. I have never had anything like that before.

I came back from the bathroom (an in work) and about an hour later a wave of very intense 'something' came over me. I felt physical and emotional and the gist of it was 'you ARE pregnant'. I kind of broke into a cold sweat 😬

So, I am walking around like a zombie, as if I have actually tested positive. I feel so shell shocked and a bit freaked out that this is 'actually happening', even though it's not!

So, either I am very in tune with this pregnancy and I know before the test, I am deeply invested in getting a BFP and its altering my perception of reality, or a bit of bothm Either way, I just need to get it out there and share with some intimate strangers online 😄

In all seriousness, I generally am a very stable person, and I never had this sense of knowing with my other two, so it's not something that I am prone to.

If I get a bfn then all this will be a caution to me to not get too wrapped up in the ttc malarkey.

I just dont think I will!

I know that nobody here will laugh at me for being silly which is why I am baring my soul for you all to read 😄

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24GinDrinkingOnceTheKidsInBed · 05/05/2021 09:09

Omg I so hope you get the BFP. This thread is ace 😂

I’m in the exact same boat, except my DD is 16 months and I took my bra off yesterday and milk came out my boob! I wasn’t able to produce enough to BF DD, so I thought this was odd as she’s not BF for like 15 months 😂 was hoping it was a sign, along with the very faint line ive had on a test but tested again this morning and nothing! I’m gutted as I know if I was pregnant it would show by now.

But we’re not out until AF shoes! So I’ll continue to test and think there’s a line until I’m bleeding.. then probably convince myself that it’s implantation bleeding and continue the vicious circle of conception 😦

twinkletoesfairynose · 04/05/2021 20:37

@Anonapapple

Me again!!! Felt like my breasts were leaking milk this morning (but they werent). Am I going slowly mad!?
You would know if they were lol
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Anonapapple · 04/05/2021 11:24

@Ninonk nearly choked on my lunch there 😄😄😄

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Ninonk · 04/05/2021 10:28

@Anonapapple

Me again!!! Felt like my breasts were leaking milk this morning (but they werent). Am I going slowly mad!?
I wouldn’t say ‘slowly’ Grin
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Anonapapple · 04/05/2021 10:19

Me again!!! Felt like my breasts were leaking milk this morning (but they werent). Am I going slowly mad!?

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Anonapapple · 04/05/2021 09:02

@SofiaAmes that is crazy...it couldnt have been in your head as you werent looking for it! I'm sure you were very shocked!

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Anonapapple · 04/05/2021 09:01

@LovelyLion3 that is so kind of you! What a nice thing to say! It's funny you should say the stuff about manifesting- I am very familiar with it but don't practise it. I'm a Christian and know that God has a beautiful plan for my life. He hears my prayers and sometimes I dont get what I ask for because He has an even better plan up His sleeve. It's a big relief to leave it all in His hands and just trust that His plans are better for my life than mine could ever be! I do need to chill out about the pregnancy though...I just got carried away:-D I really hope that you get your BFP soon!!🥰

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LovelyLion3 · 04/05/2021 06:57

@Anonapapple I just want to say that this is the best post I've read on here. 😂 I absolutely love your personality...and I don't even know you. Keep manifesting it and it will happen. I wish I was as positive as you are!

SofiaAmes · 04/05/2021 06:19

I knew I was pregnant within a day of conception for both my dc's. I was vomiting within a day or two of conception with both pregnancies and my breasts were swollen and I was ravenously hungry within days of conception. We had been told that my H (now ex) had no sperm (vasectomy reversal gone wrong) and were on holiday abroad so I convinced myself it was food poisoning. I finally did a home test 14 days after conception when we got back to the UK and I just couldn't deny it any longer. Home urine test was positive and then did a blood test at the GP a few days later which was a confirmation of the positive. Second time around I was still breastfeeding and hadn't gotten my period back, but knew I was pregnant within days of conception and vomiting and ravenously hungry.
Sending Good luck your way.

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Anonapapple · 04/05/2021 05:35

Will reply properly to you all later...just getting ready for work now. Did a test with FMU and couldnt see anything with my physical eyes (because theres nothing there!) but could see a very, very, VERY faint line like an overlay from my mind. It was within the time (even though it didn't exist).

I am just so convinced that something is in there that surely it must be showing the very slight level of HGC that must be in my system by now. But how could I really know this? There is every chance that this cycle is a bust. I'll test again tomorrow and see if there is a faint line that an actual eye can detect and not a totally deluded woman! Have a great day everyone Smile

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FayLiv · 03/05/2021 22:39

This really made me laugh because it's all so flipping true 🤣

I only managed to dtd once in my last fertile window as partner was away working and even though I knew I wasn't pregnant convinced myself I was right up until the day of af.
I actually think I tricked myself so much into thinking I could possibly be pregnant I had nausea! I was tired, sore throat.. totally pregnant.

Absolute madness. Safe to say I will be as crazy this month. I quite enjoy it haha x

PoopMaster · 03/05/2021 21:09

@Anonapapple You've made me laugh at looking for a line using your "woman's intuition", that was me this morning 😂 Until I told myself to get a grip (I later fished the test out of the bin in case I'd somehow managed to misread it in the 5 mins I'd been staring at it 🙄) I even laid in bed for ages when I woke up too, to try and make the fmu extra concentrated. I am so glad you've started this thread, so my DH can be spared these details for now!

It's gonna be a loooong week

Rach247 · 03/05/2021 20:58

Yes, I have no rational explanation for it! I really wanted to experience it again so I could believe myself to be some incredibly enlightened, in-touch with my body earth mother, but alas no.

Keeping everything crossed for you.

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Anonapapple · 03/05/2021 20:54

@Rach247 that is crazy! I know they say that the body doesn't know the fertilised egg doesnt exist until implantation but I wonder if science just hasnt pinpointed the exact changes at conception or that some women are sensitive to them. I wonder is there some kind of hormone that some women recognise somehow, that causes some strange symptoms.

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Anonapapple · 03/05/2021 20:51

@24GinDrinkingOnceTheKidsInBed oh I'm so sorry that you have had to deal with this on the regular. The prospect of being pregnant is so exciting that it's hard not to pin so much emotion on it. I will say, hand on heart, that the day I saw two pink lines for my two children were the best days of my life. Better than wedding day or even my kids being born! It's the most.amazing feeling and it feels so close but so far away too!

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Rach247 · 03/05/2021 20:50

Just hopping on to say I had a buzzing sensation in my uterus/that general area from the moment I must have conceived DD1. I just knew, for certain. I didn’t get positive tests until two days after my period was due but that didn’t knock my certainty! Really weird. And then it didn’t happen with DD2 so I didn’t believe I was really pregnant for such a long time....

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