Talk sense into me...seriously losing the plot!Help!

Thank you! Have started thinking about those 'work plans' that I thought I would be abandoning and some other life admin details that didnt feel sorted enough.

All my symptoms have gone but there was one weird thing that happened today. I dont drink but was thinking about having a glass of wine (normally cant stomach it)but didn't. Then earlier was going past a restaurant and some people were having cocktails outside and I was almost grabbing my throat in drink-lust
My husband had a pint tonight and I asked for a few sips. I could have sank the lot and had to stop myself (alcohol makes me pretty ill). Ah it was so good! Think that is a highly unusual pregnancy symptom...its almost a not pregnant symptom 😄

Anyway, life is still good, God is still God!

I have really loved being part of this little fun club (well, it was fun for me at least!). I will be back with either more musings or embarrassing symptoms, or with an update next week.

Happy Saturday!

Thanks everyone. You're all so sweet!
I have had such a sense of peace today that I havent had in a while. I went for a nap and slept so deeply and soundly and just feel very contented with all the blessings I already have! What a strange 2 weeks!

Yes I certainly will! I cant leave this thread hanging, can I?!!!

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This morning I did a test with fmu but it was very diluted and the tests are 25 miu. I was staring at it for so long that I realised I actually was starting to go mad. I got in the bath and just prayed and realised that the most important thing was that I was living within God's will for my life, whether pregnant or not, and I am. Soon afterwards, I got a very specific headache that I only ever get before I get my period. I decided to test one more time with a frer with a good concentrated hold later in the day and leave it at that. I did, about an hour ago and it was a negative. I know everyone says 'but it's still early'. With my other children I had blazing bfps by 10dpo at any time of the day. I'm 11dpo and there is nothing, and that to me is my cue to be at peace with the fact I am not pregnant and have just had an extraordinary cycle, heavily influenced by emotions. My period is 5 days away and it will be a fresh start, a new cycle and I will have learned so much from this one. It was also amazing to see two bfps on the thread too, and be part of a really lovely sisterhood as you all held my hand. I already have a very blessed and happy life, so no matter what happens in the future, I'm not losing anything and have gained a very interesting and quite fun experience with you ladies!

@hewegoagain sorry I just saw your message. Where did you learn to temp and what sort of thermometer do you have? Interesting that you were able to get a glimpse into the innards like that! Is your thermometer in Celsius?

Who wants another new symptom? Suction nipples! Like when you are pumping milk and your nipples get sucked into the pump and are kind of clamped in there! I never get breast tenderness, not before my period or in previous early pregnancies, but I do get random milk let down sensations off and off, though I havent breastfed in 2ish years.

Any silent mumsnetters reading this who are similar dpo and want to swap compelling symptoms? Anyone else having all the symptoms but not the positives?

Join in and keep me company while I lose my sanity and dignity a bit too.

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@naevo I really am sure that tomorrow will be a new day for you and you can start planning your next fertile window!

New 'symptom' guys. Hard to put it delicately, but my bottom puffs (trying to make a fart sound sweet) are terribly l, terribly potent and actually stopped me in my tracks with the thought, 'Did that come from me '? Obviously my bottom puffs are normally scented like unicorn sprinkles, so this was out of the ordinary. It does sometimes happen during af, but never before.

Just realised that if I'm not pregnant, I will have shared details of my cervical mucus and sensitive fartage info online for no reason!

@hewegoagain what do you think the temp spike at 13dpo represented?

@bundaberg84 I am totally rooting for your ovaries. Hope you pop a good one and it gets intercepted by a good swimmer! In school nobody mentioned that its dicey lottery and nothing means anything!

@naevo I am so sorry to hear that you got your period. I think the first day is the worst, and after that you start looking ahead to the new cycle. Tempting does seem to be very informative so why not!
@hewegoagain oh thank you! Your bfp made my day!

Just got a pizza in. I collected it from the pizza place and as I was coming home just felt a lot more at peace about things. I peed in a cup, 2 hours after my last bfn and just decided that enough was enough and I had to take control back. I chucked the urine down the toilet and decided to forget about it. I will test once a day from now on. I wish I hadnt started this early testing malarkey but dont feel like I can stop now!

Had a sore wrist today. Immediately off to Google.

Obviously pregnancy-related carpal tunnel syndrome.

@Bundaberg84 if I could give you a big old pre-Covid high-five I would! Amazing!

When do you ovulate? Would be interesting to see how you feel then! We could compare our 'ether' babies. Fake little babies to name and care for, like tamagotchis that never even existed!

I'm going to have to stop indulging these emotions. A bit of escapism is healthy to a point, but this is getting silly now!

Part of it is because Just 17 magazine always said that if a boy looked at you when you were on your period, you could definitely get pregnant. So when you actually 'do it' with a boy, on the day you ovulate, it's kind of a no-brainer you will get pregnant, surely?

Me again. Next installment.

I have had that total shell shocked feeling all day again. If people talk to me, I feel so spaced out and answer them in slow motion. I'm sure there are many people reading this thinking 'this woman is insane!'. That's why I havent told anyone what I'm experiencing, because it all feels so bizarre. I am very distracted with all of this, and do imagine that that is playing a huge part in how disorientated I feel. The not knowing is very frustrating too. I just wish I wasn't so convinced I was pregnant. Every bfn is a step closer to the realisation its not happening and it's all in my mind. Maybe it's better like this, so that my period isnt a total bolt of shock next week.

Anyway, thanks for listening. I wouldnt dare share any of this in real life as I sound so deluded. Maybe I am! Time will tell.

Hope you're all having a great day!

@hewegoagain by a few days you must mean in a few hours? 😁 I am so delighted for you! And so exciting that you start making changes like the decaf! Woohoo!

@Moominmiss hopefully something will show up over the weekend. Had cramps yesterday and day before so hoping something would show up by tomorrow. Part of my problem is that I drink a lot of water and am parched without guzzling gallons a day! So my wee is almost always extremely diluted, even in the morning. Or I'm just not pregnant!