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Talk sense into me...seriously losing the plot!Help!

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Anonapapple · 01/05/2021 05:51

We were supposed to wait a few months to ttc. I decided to track my cycles, as I havent tried to conceive for a few years and wanted to get to know my fertile days.

I had a positive opk on the 27th and it must have gone to my head, because we had sex that night and definitely didn't prevent. A few hours before, I felt something go 'pop pop pop' in my left ovary area (I always feel ovulation). I was out for a walk as I felt it, and the evening sky was so beautiful and I felt all misty eyed about creation. Everything inside me was telling me to go for it, so we did 🙈

The next day I had that feeling of panic, like 'what have I done!' 😄. Then that was replaced by an unbelievable sense of giddiness and excitement to the point I started wondering if I was going to have some kind of reverse panic attack! Honestly, I was so excited that I was nearly sick! I am a 38 year old grown up!

You see, I had thought that ttc was off the cards as my husband didnt want any more kids, but he recently changed his mind out of the blue, to my complete delight, so it's like a dream that I am able to consider another.

The problem: I am absolutely convinced that I am pregnant, or that I will be in a few days when the egg implants. The thought that I am not pregnant seems impossible. The day that I conceived I wrote in my ovulation app 'diary' that I knew it would happen that night. (I just read this back to myself and noticed how I said 'conceived', not 'had sex').

I keep wanting to tell people I'm pregnant, including my boss (to help make decisions about staffing allocations). I just had sex a few days ago! Oh, and it's a boy, as if I'm not being ridiculous enough! I have even named him!

This is totally ridiculous! There is only a 20% chance of conception each month I think, and I am sure that decreases with age. This is our first month trying! There is every reason that I will not be pregnant!

I am constantly going around with a horrible sense of giddiness and excitement that is not congruent with reality and is actually physically uncomfortable. I feel like jumping up and down and squealing with joy at many points throughout the day.

Does anyone else feel like this? I am normally a very stable, pragmatic and generally realistic (possibly overly hopeful at times) person and this is totally bonkers to me! Please, can anyone relate? Or can a very sensible mumsnetter come along and give me a stern deflation?

I actually feel like I can't do another week of this. I have felt excited to the point that I wonder will I actually faint! Smelling salts anyone????

Help!

(If, by the reasonably high chance that I am NOT pregnant, I will update this thread for any other ladies going totally bonkers to help them get a grip of themselves too! Even when I was typing that, I was saying to myself 'yeah right, as if I'm not pregnant!'.

Help!

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choccrumpet · 17/05/2021 20:55

@Anonapapple it feels like we're trying so hard that its not going to happen 🙈 it's my second month trying soya isoflavones to help bring my ovulation forward. It didn't work the first month and in fact delayed my ovulation even more annoyingly but I'm trying it again with a higher dose. Tbh apart from that I only take multi vits, have not gotten sucked into taking much else because I know if I try I'll be afraid to stop "in case it helps". What about you? That sounds interesting, what's their name?

Ah I'm sorry that sounds like a tough decision to make although the vaccine is also a good thing, I do get the frustration. I haven't had mine just yet (I'm 28 so will take some while longer) and will have to see where we are when it gets offered to me.

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Anonapapple · 17/05/2021 19:40

@choccrumpet oh I know the endless disappointment every month. My eldest child took about a year to conceive and I was definitely fed up by that point!! I remember just waiting for my fertile period and then waiting for my period! What supplements have you been taking? I've been following a great naturopath on youtube who specialises in fertility and she has some great videos. You probably know all the supplements anyway! But dont lose hope. I hope you can work on your cycle length and ovulation.

I am good but have been told that my covid vaccine is coming up. I'm not in the uk and am eligible via my job. It should be in about 2 weeks, right slap bang in my fertile window. I'd rather not risk conceiving under those circumstances, particularly if I get a fever as a side effect. So I might go for dose 1 and resume ttc in June. But every month i dont ttc feels like such a waste! I'm 39 in a few months and early menopause runs in my family so feel like I'm running out of time.

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choccrumpet · 17/05/2021 18:23

Thank you @Anonapapple ! I think I'm struggling mentally more than I realised. It's our 10th month trying so it's not been that long in the grand scheme of things but also long enough that it's a struggle going through all the ups and downs and hope and sadness of each cycle! I'm waiting for my period to end and then it's waiting around for my fertile week. I ovulate very late in my cycle so am trying to bring that forward using supplements and acupuncture so I could be waiting a week or 2 or more, who knows. There's a lot of waiting around which I'm not into at all. Hope you've been doing okay

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Anonapapple · 16/05/2021 06:29

@mamamalt thank you! That is very kind of you to say! Of course I will keep posting. I am excited to find out about everyone else's journey too!

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mamamalt · 15/05/2021 21:08

I agree with everyone else!!! I LOVE this thread and I'm not TTC 😅 but we have allll been there and you sound so lovely and.write so perfectly of the crazy little musings we all have whirling in our head.
Mumsnet really.annoys me sometimes, I've started avoiding some threads as people just cannot be bloody nice!! 😒
Please keep posting OP! I want you to get your third baba and I'm sure there will.be lots of people joining in and sharing their journey!!

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Anonapapple · 15/05/2021 20:57

@SaraSS and @Mum233 thank you both, and hope you both get your bfp soon!!!

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Anonapapple · 15/05/2021 20:54

Just to reply personally as I didn't have time yesterday:

@extrababydust123 @Sadieeloise5687 and @Rach247 thank you very much. I can't hold my pee (metaphorically and literally) so will of course be keeping everyone posted! I've been getting really excited over my new basal body thermometer and Q10 supplements. Moving onto CD3 tomorrow and decided that today was the day where I was going to start eating a clean, plant-dense diet in order to maximise egg quality but then had a wrap with Philadelphia Light and crisps for dinner, followed by marshmallows that literally crunched with all the sugar they were coated in and a Magnum to top it all off 🤔

@choccrumpet I am so sorry to hear of everything that you have been through, especially your early losses. I am sure it gets you down as it is a very intense process. Please feel free to share whatever you are going through, if you want. Let's keep eachother updated as it looks like we are on the same cycle day :-)

@hewegoagain yes definitely, I am ever the optimist. Will probably be convinced I'm pregnant again this cycle, but I will never believe myself after the madness of the last one!

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Rach247 · 15/05/2021 20:20

Just to add my voice to those who have really enjoyed the thread and taking a light-hearted approach to the TWW insanity! Please, please do keep us posted OP, and good luck to everyone waiting for a BFP.

hewegoagain · 14/05/2021 20:52

@Anonapapple chin up hun and onwards and upwards to next month x

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Anonapapple · 14/05/2021 15:08

Aw thank you everyone! Yes I agree that it has ended on something of a sour note, but it coincided nicely with my period arriving about 10 minutes later. I really had a fun two weeks, although frustrating at times. And in some ways, I had actually missed the tww, even though it can be stressful and confusing. I never thought I would be in the tww again, so it has felt like a strange blessing. You have all been great and thank you all for taking things in the spirit in which they were intended. Fun during a crazy, intense time, full of hope and uncertainty 🥰

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choccrumpet · 14/05/2021 14:46

@Anonapapple I've also been a lurker for a while, I hope you don't mind me saying but I've enjoyed how you write / express yourself. We've been trying for a while with many early losses and I have had a tough month mentally and keeping up with your thread put a smile on my face, I've been silently cheering you on throughout. You expressed exactly how I feel every month and if this helps you stay sane then you continue to do you 🤗 I'm sorry you got your period in the end, I got mine today as well. Wishing you luck for the next cycle!

Sadieeloise5687 · 14/05/2021 14:41

Op you are allowed to feel this way month after month! Lots of people feel like this for years! Post what you want/need to !

extrababydust123 · 14/05/2021 14:32

@Anonapapple I’ve been a silent watcher on this thread and thoroughly enjoyed watching you voice what so many (including myself) go through during the TWW. I think some posters have been a little harsh and it’s really ruined the lightheartedness of the thread ☹️

But don’t feel like you shouldn’t post or be open with how you’re feeling because so many others have felt the same! And I, for one, cannot wait to see you get your bfp!

Mum233 · 14/05/2021 14:27

I think some posters have been harsh to you OP. Anyone who has experienced TTC will have had moments where you are utterly convinced you have conceived. Sending you lots of luck for the next cycle xx

SaraSS · 14/05/2021 14:21

@anonapapple I've enjoyed reading your comments on this. It's good to know others are driven to insanity too! This is my first time ttc and the obsession with symptom checking and testing is real!! 🤦‍♀️
Good luck on the next cycle 😊

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Anonapapple · 14/05/2021 14:17

@Daffodil21 thanks. It really can do.

This was all just a bit of fun. I really enjoyed swapping stories with everyone and comparing notes. You gave me lots of laughs!

Now is a good time to bow out with the news that I just got my period, so onwards and upwards for next month!

Best of luck to everyone for your ttc journeys!
Thanks for the laughs!

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Daffodil21 · 14/05/2021 14:08

OP I feel your getting a bit of a harsh bashing here.. TTC messes totally with your mind. I would certainly be lying if I said it didn't send me round the absolute bend every single month.

(I'm afraid I have to admit to being a little bit of a lurker here Blush I'm still hoping for a positive (excuse the pun!) outcome for you this month!)

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Anonapapple · 14/05/2021 14:03

Yes I am, thank you. Ttc does make me a bit irrational but I feel like I am in a good place in my life and I just get very excited about the prospect of having another child. I have a one tracked mind about it sometimes. I think it can be normal for women to feel like this from time to time.

The ovary sensation that you quoted did not occur this cycle. I had other feelings there, but not the same.

Honestly this was supposed to be a light hearted thread. It was cathartic for me as I went through the tww. I learned a lot from it. I want a third baby and get my hopes up easily. My period is due today so I am feeling a bit over sensitive and hormonal, but thank you for your concern.

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Egghead81 · 14/05/2021 13:12

You even spoke about the ovary sensation last month!

* About 40 minutes ago, I got a very deep burrowing sensation in my left pelvic area, quite low down. It lasted about 10 seconds. It could be nothing, it could be something but it was very weird! *

Op
In all seriousness - is everything ok generally? Beyond the TTC?

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Anonapapple · 14/05/2021 12:16

@Egghead81 not quite, though maybe that's how it seems reading back. Last month we were using contraception, as we have been for years. There was a slip up around my fertile time and my imagination just got the better of me. Looking back the chances were slim, but I hadnt had any kind of 'slip up' in so long that I guess I was so excited that maybe this was it. Little did I know that my husband would change his mind very shortly afterwards, and we were having full unprotected sex this cycle around ovulation time. I have felt physically very different this cycle, and am now aware that my body plays tricks and that my mind is very powerful. I probably am just very desperate for a baby and aware that time is marching on all the time. This makes me almost delusional hopeful at times and means that I read into things. I wont be so carried away next cycle.

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Egghead81 · 14/05/2021 10:37

Just searched your name OP as I thought it rang a bell

You had we’re posting very similar sentiments about being convinced you were pregnant on a different thread last month Confused

naevo · 14/05/2021 10:31

I'm currently on day 8 of my 6th cycle ttc! I'm also starting to track bbt and I'm also going to try the SMEP method!
Feeling exciting again waiting for ovulation!

Good luck for this month OP, hoping this is a good month for us all!

Bundaberg84 · 14/05/2021 10:25

You're still not out yet @Anonapapple.

I'm 1dpo, or 0dpo, had my peak reading on my fertility monitor yesterday morning. Off I go to the dreadful 2ww.

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Anonapapple · 14/05/2021 10:04

Period due today but no sign. However my cycle ranges from 25-30 days so this is nothing out of the ordinary. Also another stark white bfn this morning. I wouldnt feel too confident about a faint bfp at this stage anyway, especially when I got strong bfps very early with my other two kids and the pregnancies and babies were very strong and healthy. I am pretty sure I ovulated on cd 13 and would have expected something 15 days later.

Am hoping I can start a new cycle soon. Ordered a basal body temperature thermometer, conceive plus and Q10. All ready to get started but can't until my period comes!

How is everyone? Anyone about to enter a new cycle too?

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Mum233 · 13/05/2021 16:24

How’s it going? I too regularly convince myself I’m pregnant even though it’s only our first month of proper trying!

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