changed my name for this...totally p'd off with dp, i have had 2 m/c and i am so desperate to try again which he wont even talk about saying he aint ready and he doesnt even know if he wants kids! and unsure if he wants to get married even, this is the only dream i have in my whole world, told him to have a hard think about this as i dont think i can stay with him if thats the way he is feeling, yeaterday i cried non stop even started packing my bags to leave, but i love him so much but cant live my life without the babies i am so desperate for, also been on antibiotic... knowing this could stop the pill workin but kinda on purpose didnt mention anything (this was before i knew his intentions of not wanting kids)... i am feeling quite funny right now, been sick cant stop these emotional crying outbursts, just hoping that i aint pg as i dont wannt bring a baby into this world unwanted totally pissed off as hes always said if it happens hed be thrilled! aaaa so upset its the only dream i have x