Post Pill Party - The Ceilidh

@Gracie2021 @Cams50 BRB off to blow the hair dryer on my face to mimic the feeling....😂

This lockdown has been the worst!! The other two haven’t really bothered me but this one is really starting to get me down!! I want cocktails with my girlfriends! I want meals out! I wanna go shopping 😩 total 1st world problems but bloody hell!

@TheDaydreamBelievers Canada would be lovely too!

@abi555 omg!! Well your chart looks great. Eek everything crossed for you. Definitely try with a frer in the morning. Also I’m the exact same. I also have today off which doesn’t help with my ttc craziness and I’m Googling all the old threads where bfn at 10dpo turned into bfp 😂

@Juno231 wow your honeymoon sounds amazing 🤩 as does SA. @ChinChilly ugh I love that moment 😭 lockdown really is a terrible time to ttc isn’t it. No distractions. No holidays to ‘relax’ and forget about ttc. Yes @Gracie2021 you’re right we’ll get there someday!

@ChinChilly oh yes that moment. I'd forgotten that moment!!! tear I'll stop!!!

I'm faster missing a ton of messages in the middle there. Can't keep up today.

@abi555 omg!!! 😳 fingers crossed for you but yeah it's a total mindmelt!!! Keep us posted over the weekend?

@Cams50 Maldives? Ooh that's another one so high on the wishlist. Someday we'll get to all these places again.

@Sperr I have up on any kind of cervix monitoring. Way too much poking around for me 😂😂 hope ye all get answers soon!!

@abi555 have you got a photo of the test 👀 your post did make me chuckle 😂

@Moocher90 it’s good you have those appointments booked in, hopefully they are abit more helpful. The NHS is so hit and miss and it’s such a postcode lottery!

Ladies...stop talking about holidays! Im currently sitting here eating my weight in cinnabuns crying into my laptop at the thought of that moment when you step off the plain and the heat hits you 😍

@Juno231 that sounds so amazing. I haven't been anywhere in Asia at all yet but it looks so so amazing. You'd really miss the travel wouldn't you.

@Gracie2021 it’s gone back up 😂. I honestly hate the way Apple does it! I don’t think I can’t rely on it because it fluctuates so much. I feel like my cervix feels different today as well but I don’t know if that’s good or bad 😂. I really should stop poking around in there

@abi555 aah i hope that was a line! I haven't heard one step are bad for evaps but I've heard they're not actually as sensitive as they claim to be - so that could explain the line? Def try a FRER tomorrow if AF doesn't show up!

@Moocher90 glad that you're scheduled in for that. Hopefully you'll be better looked after by the endocrinologist. So hard having to advocate for yourself when you don't feel like you're getting the proper support.

@abi555 Iceland looks amazing and so romantic. Those thermal pools 🥰🥰 my friend abs I are sending each other pics of our fav beaches every day to help offset travel lust.

Also got a GP app about fertility on 3rd March! It’s so frustrating, surely they know optimal is closer to 0 then 5 :/ for TSH levels and under 2.5 for TTC....

@Gracie2021 @Cams50 ah your honeymoons sound amazing! We did a trip to SA in 2012 that was the best trip I've ever been on (been back in 2018 and 2019 as well but due to work so less fun). Cams I went the paradise island way for our honeymoon (Bali, Gili Trawangan and Komodo) and I wish I could do it all over again!

GAH I NEED A HOLIDAY

@Moocher90 your results are practically hypothyroid! Definitely ask for a second opinion!!

@Gracie2021 aaaah safari! That would've been awesome!!
We were going to Iceland.. it's been my dream honeymoon destination since I was little... just seems so romantic with the hot pools and ice and snow. Aaaaah, one day!!

@Juno231 and @ChinChilly

I have my endocrinology appointment on 24th so will have that and will tell them exactly what is going on and that I have had two nhs blood tests and it has risen since then and also have the antibodies so it’s really likely that I will become hypothyroid anyway in the future and I have a ton of symptoms and it’s affecting my fertility with crazy irregular but frequent cycles and I’m not ovulating. 😡😡😡 I feel so let down by the nhs.

@Moocher90 so frustrating! Some good advice there about standing up to them or switching. Have to be able to trust your GP.

@Juno231 we were actually going all out. So a week Mediterranean cruise first (that was a fun one to see arch for updates when covid came out) and then a week of safari in South Africa. Think I was more gutted about the honeymoon than the wedding 😂🙈

@Gracie2021 ohh safari sounds amazing! And a joint wedding and christening sounds so lovely. There’s still plenty of time for that to happen for next year!! We were going to the Maldives. I’ve always wanted to go to a paradise style island. As you said, all good things in time hopefully x

Ladies, I need a reality check. AF due tomorrow, was convinced it was coming as I was quite crampy all of yesterday evening. Then this morning, temp rose slightly instead of anticipated fall. Same happened last month and AF appeared next day anyway so tried to ignore it and get on with day.

Bugged me all morning though so I've just done a test on a one-step. Know I shouldn't have as it wasn't a long wee hold and it's a one-step. There could have been the faaaaaaaintest line but I'm really not sure and definitely not showing it to my hubby or he'll think I've gone completely insane as you really have to squint.... and I read it a bit late so in all honesty I'm 95% sure its an evap if it's anything.

Are one-step's bad for evaps? And surely at 12dpo if it was positive it would be pretty obvious wouldn't it?

Wish I hadn't tested tbh as now I have a glimmer of hope again and I was all mentally set on AF arriving tomorrow and now I know I'm going to be upset tomorrow when she does come. I had so much to do today aswell - have a day off from work so was going to crack on with so many DIY bits we have to do around the house and instead I'm sitting on the sofa staring obsessively at my own pee!!

Gaaaaaaah!
Just needed to vent.
I swear TTC is driving me bonkers.
Chart, just because.

@Moocher90 agree with @Juno231 ask for another GP the first GP i spoke to was a right one...more interessted in her lunch but the second GP i spoke to was so much better she listened and asked questions...totally depends on who you get on the day! But if you don’t want to do that don’t be afraid of going above them and making a complaint

@Moocher90 omg at that point I think I'd push for a different GP to see you or to see someone privately? That's not on!

@Gracie2021 love a safari! What country were you planning on doing one in?

Which reminds me - I got a save the date for a South Africa wedding end of October - something tells me it'll be a slim chance of that happening!

@Gracie2021 that meme 😂😂😂

@Moocher90 I’m so sorry about your results and your GP being pants! My GP refused to give me an appointment one so I asked to speak to the practice manager and all of a sudden there was an appointment that day! Amazing!! My Aunty is a practice manager (at a different practice) and she does manage to pull some strings! It might be worth a shot just explain your not happy with the quality of care and threaten a complaint to the regulator, normally puts the wind up em 😉 good luck, i feel i am going to be in the same boat next week!

So I got my TSH and free thyroxine result back today.
TSH 4.99 reference range 0.35-5
T4 10.3 reference range 9-22.

This is up from when I had nhs blood tests in December
TSH was 3.86
T4 11.3

They have refused to do my antibodies because I am still in reference range :/ I’m sooooo f*king annoyed right now!!! It is going up and I have the antibodies! How sick do you have to feel to be heard :/

@Cams50 sorry to hear it caught you too. We were only planning a small wedding of 30 anyway but both have vulnerable parents so just safer to cancel. Had it in my head I'd love to do a christening/wedding on the same date two years on which is now not gonna work cause Instant pregnancy is not happening here 😂 ah well all good things in time. What was the honeymoon if you don't mind me asking? We were headed on safari. Biggest bucket list thing for me. Also 10dpo is still early so you're still in the game!

@Sperr fingers crossed for you that AF stays away. 17dpo is so long!!!

@Juno231 thanks! Yeah I’m hoping it’ll magically turn into a bfp but also 10 months of bfns tells me it might not lol.

@Gracie2021 ttc unicorns made me lol. Love the meme too! And yep I’m the same as you and @abi555 with the wedding! Didn’t get the big wedding and expensive honeymoon we’d planned last year. Doesn’t look like we will this year either and now 10 long months of ttc. Why can’t anything be easy! I knew testing today at 10dpo was a risk but I would just love for once to be that person who gets a bfp at like 2dpo 😂

@abi555 I’m allowing myself to get excited from tomorrow as I feel like if you can’t have a LP longer than 17 days then I’ve made it.

I kinda feel like AF is coming though because my RHR has dropped loads today 😔