Anybody want to TWW with me? 🤞🏼👏🏼🥰

12DPO today and a BFN so I think that's probably me out for this cycle. Bit bummed out tbh as I pinned a lot on 'youre probably more fertile straight after mc bullshit' stupid google making it worse blergh.

Now I just want AF to show up so it can be over and done with so I can torture myself with the next TWW.

TMI update of the day, the brown CM spotting is back this morning having done one for a bit after it's first appearance yesterday 🙄 - nothing on a pad yet, only a tinge of colour when wiping (and visible when having a check 👀) but I wonder if that means AF will appear by the end of the day. Until that happens this is CD25, but if she does show up at least a 24 day cycle would give me some consistency.

It can be so lonely It’s great to have this to ask questions and get advice thank you all. I’ve had one hot drink this morning and I’ve been to toilet countless times

@trackiesandasmokeyeye 😂😂😂 worst morning ever. And I can only blame myself cos OH has been away for work for the past 2 weeks or so. Can't even blame him 😂

@scandiontheloose in my house that would happen at any time of the month - horrifying - thinking of you hon ☕️

@Meg32 welcome to the thread.
It's hard when you're keeping the TTC private but also feel like you want to talk about it and compare symptoms etc. We're here for all that and love a bit of TMI. Don't be afraid to ask silly questions etc. Not exactly a TTC genius cos still not preggos but happy to help if I can. It can be a very lonely and stressful journey.

@trackiesandasmokeyeye think AF is coming my way. I just cried cos we're out of milk and wanted a cuppa.😂😂

@Meg32 - I'm in the same boat, I've not told anyone we're ttc and it's lovely to have people to talk to (or in my case display my TMI and slightly mad tendencies to!)

Thank you for getting back I’ve not got friends to talk to, it’s nice to have all you lovely ladies who are going through the same things

@scandiontheloose haha well I'm glad you're feeling calm anyway. I'm not testing today, still convinced AF is imminent and I'm almost too scared to look when I go to the toilet and kill what little hope I have left - on top of that I've only got one test left in, so saving it for when it's next needed. I've just eaten a pack of chewits as eating was helping the nausea last week but today it's not - annoying.

@Meg32 welcome! That sounds v early to be AF symptoms if you're not due for another few weeks

@trackiesandasmokeyeye
Well I've felt surprisingly ok this morning. Like a wee wave of calm out of nowhere. So either it's that weird thing where people say they suddenly had no symptoms after weeks of cramping, nausea etc and then got BFP or it's just AF gearing to make her grand entrance 😂😂

I've been symptom spotting since DPO 1 and now I'm DPO 13 so think I'm just exhausted at this point 😂 still no BFP so I do genuinely think I'm out of it but trying to stay positive and all that.

You reckon you'll test today?

Hi everyone please can join. We have been trying for a few month recently I have had some very noticeable cramps and I had two little spots of blood when I wiped yesterday but af has not arrived not due till 9th or 10th of feb. Also my boobs have developed small bumps and keep turning a dark purple. I really thought I was starting af but nothing

How are you today @scandiontheloose?

The nausea is back with a vengeance here, and still no proper AF - no more spotting yesterday but potentially some this morning... potentially in the sense that I've started having a poke around and inspecting the toilet paper in the way some people squint at test lines. Yes, I am the queen of TMI and also a nutter.

I'm torn between being glad my cycle is obviously longer than 23 days this month (I had a whole panic about short cycles and infertility yesterday, so even 24 makes me feel better if AF comes today, and it was 24 last month tbf so that would show some consistency if she beds herself in today) and being annoyed that I feel grim 🤣

@trackiesandasmokeyeye hahahahha amazing! Whatever gets the BFP in the end 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼 and yes I agree you gotta try and enjoy the process as well 🙌🏼💕

@scandiontheloose haha that made me laugh! Mine thinks all his birthdays have come at once, he asked if he could buy me some lingerie earlier - I mean, yes, he can and you've got to make it fun still haven't you, but does he not realise that this is VERY IMPORTANT 🤣

@trackiesandasmokeyeye I admire your willpower, I have none.

Fingers crossed we're just testing early and all that. If not, then beware OHs next month will be shagalicious 😂

@scandiontheloose haha - I can't even do that, I'm doing slimming world and desperate to get to my target weight as soon as so I don't have to pay if I'm preggers, I'm only a few pounds off 🤣🤣 will snack on an apple or something 🙄🙄

@trackiesandasmokeyeye I just ate 2 magnum ice creams to make myself feel better. Kinda worked.

Keep me posted with the CM tho, TMI is good so I don't have to google it 😂😂

@scandiontheloose - I know! I feel like I'm losing my mind!

@trackiesandasmokeyeye omg howlingggg 😂😂😂 that was me today. Camera off and mic on mute in a meeting googling my DPO symptoms like a mad person 😂

I just want a BFP or AF better show up on time so I can stop this 😂😂

@scandiontheloose I've just caught myself searching 12 DPO implantation on my WORK LAPTOP. Stop it you tit. 🙈🙈🙈

@trackiesandasmokeyeye hahahahah I had to delete some of my searches because the drop down of previous searches was just getting ridic 😂😂 "CM if pregnant" never knew I'd be searching stuff like this 😂😂

Aw well the EWCM mid cycle sounds about right for ovulation. I sometimes get that stringy stuff just before AF too although this cycle I've had it for almost the whole TWW so I don't think I'm a prime candidate for the CM comparison 😂

@scandiontheloose - my searches are hilarious, there were a good few days I was searching WHAT DOES ECWM LOOK LIKE - PICS PLS every which way I could think of, just to check, you know 🤣

I'm not 100% sure on DPO, the apps say either 11/12 DPO and I had EWCM from CD 8 - CD 11 so that would fit (today is CD24 if AF doesn't make a proper show of herself), so seems too late for implantation I'd think sadly.

@trackiesandasmokeyeye love a good TMI, I'm here for all that cos I my Google searches are probs beyond TMI tbh.

I've had that a day or two before AF, and then it stopped for a half a day and then AF came in like a wrecking ball.

Also had it last cycle, thought it was implantation bleeding cos it only lasted for a few days but then that was it for my cycle. 4 days of brown CM looking discharge and no full blown AF.

What DPO are you? You could still be in luck for a BFP 💕

Thanks @rosierose10 - I still do think AF is imminent, just weird as I didn't even have it at the start of the withdrawal bleed, that just felt like AF used to, and I always used to get brown blood at the end rather than the start of AF. Perhaps my cycles haven't settled yet 🤷🏻‍♀️

No problem! It's giving me a bit more hope and I'm quite excited to give it a go x

@trackiesandasmokeyeye I only came off my pill in November and only had 1 proper period since but I did get what you're describing at the very start of last AF like I did on the withdrawal bleed, like a browny discharge type of thing x