Magic dust for 2021 5month+ crew continued

@Rose2108 luckily the cramps were a good thing, as I got a positive at 9dpo! Now got a nice strong line at 12dpo 😊

Morning ladies. So glad to see the sun shining; how is everyone doing? I am struggling to be honest with lockdown... I just feel like time is passing so slowly, I am just being really lazy and can't seem to motivate myself to do much (also partly because I feel pretty exhausted and nauseas a lot). I did some gardening on Saturday, and all the usual laundry and tidying up at home, and on Sunday it was just a day of TV and eating !!! Can't wait to get back to the office, back to socialising, shopping, eating out.... anything!!!

I can't believe that I have finally had my letter through and my first midwife appointment is a TWELVE WEEKS!! My scan is the same week. I'm really gutted TBH! It is the strangest feeling, just don't feel excited at all at the moment. The first 12 weeks are really an odd time, after the initial BFP excitement the anxiety kicked in bad and I just feel like I am in limbo and want to talk to someone for reassurance, but there is no one to talk to until your first midwife appt.

Anyway, enough moaning, time to get excited about your TTC journeys! Any updates?

@Lynne425 such good news the surgeon is so confident this time. I had never heard of that. How are you feeling today? I am really hoping you get the results you want from the tests.

@AKcheer Did AF arrive? @BumbleB1, what about you?

@Tabbycat92 Ah bless you it is so tempting to do those tests when they are in the house isn't it !

@8LPS thanks lovely. It is a weird time. I re-potted all my house plants at the weekend and planted loads of seeds for the summer! Had a bit of a clear out of the wardrobe and planned some DIY in the next few months... just trying to fill my time really. I also started to watch a new show on Netflix called The One, seems quite interesting so far... Hope you are doing well and had a lovely weekend x

Afternoon All

So currently in recovery in hospital - the surgeon is 99% sure it's def all gone this time.

So what I thought was AF wasn't - it was my body trying to get rid of what's been there!!

The surgeon said from my scans etc I may have had a molar pregnancy (very rare) so the tissue is being sent away for tests and they have asked for results to be urgent! That's why initially they thought it was a cyst.

Basically if it is molar an left alone the tissue could still grow and could turn cancerous!! Would mean follow up blood tests etc for another 6 months too which I just hope it's not.

However I'm trying to be positive and hope that it was just leftover tissue and now it's removed I can maybe move on xx

Hi @AKcheer I'm OK, very crampy though which is strange for 8dpo. So I'm hoping it'd a good thing and not AF coming ridiculously early

@BumbleB1 I'm getting to grips with BBT, but not 100% sure on what I'm looking at. I've found FertilityFriend has been very useful for tracking bbt

Hahaha cuddle buddy! @8LPS Love a good autocorrect 🤣 I thought I was missing out on something! I was the same, so many people on my social media announced pregnancies as well which was tough, I also have a couple of close friends who have lost their mums so it’s always sad thinking about them too, I don’t know what I’d do without my mum 😔 I went to see her on Sunday which was lovely, also did a doorstep visit to other half’s mum which was nice. And a trip to the garden centre, not much else to do!

Oh wow no wonder you changed, that doesn’t sound nice at all, are you taking something else instead now? I’m on seven seas and luckily haven’t had any of that. It’s so hard to have that mentality, some months are easier than others, I think after the false hope last month I’ve been more realistic (or negative according to other half!) this month. Hahahh love being told to relax.. not 🤣 it’s funny because with my job I’m often teaching patients relaxation skills and yet it can be hard to take your own advice 🙈 Lol I’m the same but I’ve been doing it when I first wake up then I get a bit more sleep before I have to get up for work! So I’m on cycle 6, AF due tomorrow 😬 ooh that sounds like a fab plan if it doesn’t happen this month, got to make the most of the things we’ll have to sacrifice when our time comes!!

So does that mean that high progesterone levels isn’t necessarily a bad thing? All sounds a bit confusing to me, probably because I haven’t looked into getting tests done yet, but it’s good to hear that she said your body is doing what it should be. How do you feel about it all? Hopefully husband’s SA results come back soon 🤞🏼

@JLP256 hope you’re doing okay now, Mother’s Day is a tough one for so many people 💞

@AKcheer yes thank you, I’m so glad I joined! How long has the group been going on for? Great news about your husband’s SA results, where do you go from there? I haven’t looked into any tests but may need to soon. Aw I’m sorry to hear you have people like that around you, don’t blame you for being done with them, no one needs that in their life.. BYE toxic people!! AF due tomorrow, I’m usually late so will see what happens, trying not to think about it too much 🙈 hope this cycle is the one for you!!

Hey @Lynne425 so sorry to hear what you’ve been going through 😣 the group is here to support each other so please don’t feel bad for letting it out at all 💞 sounds like things are becoming a bit clearer now? Pleased to hear AF is back, hopefully that has helped with how you’re feeling. I don’t know if it’s any help to hear but my sister in law went through something similar, it took longer than expected to get her BFN and she also had left over tissue, but she’s now pregnant and due in June with my niece! Glad they’re checking you over, hope it all goes okay.

Thanks @Rose2108 all went okay so I’m hoping to get into the swing of testing properly when AF has been and gone, due tomorrow 😬 I think it’s lovely to hear your journey, it gives us hope and positivity, please keep us updated if you feel comfortable to 💞

Hi @Tabbycat92 👋🏼 welcome to the group! I’m quite new to it, and think it’s brilliant to have a group of people to reach out to, so I hope you get as much from it as I do! How are you getting on with BBT? I just started to get used to it but AF due so will try properly next cycle.

Hi @8LPS things never go as planned do they! My little boy will be 3 in May, I was really lucky with him and it only took us two months of trying, I think that's why I'm finding it hard this time that it's taking longer.
Yeah, luckily I'm pretty busy to keep me distracted. We are renovating our home, which is taking a lot of work. And I not long ago got a managerial job, so that's keeping my mind distracted alot 😅
Fingers crossed for you too! How long have you been trying?

Silly autocorrect had me looking like a right creep! 🤣🙈 sorry @JLP256 haha!
I’m the same as you - it’s during the TWW when all the excitement happens...but it’s also the time when I’m most hopeless as well cus I don’t believe it will happen yet again. Glad you’re feeling ok, and great news to hear that you have a fertility assessment booked! Keep us posted on how it goes!
The move sounds so exciting! I used to live in North London for a year, many years ago when I was studying! I lived in Hendon and absolutely loved it! Good luck with the unpacking and making your new house a home! 💕🏡 will you make many changes or is it all ready for you?

@AKcheer - absolutely! Trust that this is meant to be because there’s another house that WILL come along 🤞 I always believe that about house searching. Bless you, this definitely is a waiting game - although it sure doesn’t feel like a game 🙄😒
No people aren’t sensitive for some reason. I’m lucky my family don’t ask about kids, but my in-laws have, and when they first came to our house when we’d just bought it, they made jokes about us filling our spare bedrooms with children. Like, get lost! Get a life!!! Unfortunately it seems to be only women who are making these jokes - which is weird cus I think they should be the most sensitive/understanding!! It WILL happen for you. It’s just talking a little longer than wanted, but it’s on the cards for you and everything will fall into place!
You’ll be a little bit further on in your TWW now, how are you feeling? Hoping it’s your month this month!!!

@Lynne425 - bloody hell, what a literal rollercoaster you have been on and I’m so sorry to see it 😔 I’m so glad they think it’s unlikely to be a cyst, and that AF has brought some normality to your cycle again! Weird about the positive pregnancy test, but glad they’ll be checking you over to make sure you’re ok. Keep us posted, and good luck today!

@Rose2108 - haha it is a sick addiction isn’t it?? I’m sure that the 12 week mark will give you so much more relief - how are you getting on with keeping your mind occupied in this time in between?
Oh amazing, if you remember the name of the seafood place I’ll see if it’s anywhere near where we’ll be! Thank you!
Pleeeease do not feel like that, you are literally giving me some hope that this could happen for me, and I love chatting with you! I’m so excited for you and I look forward to reading your updates!

@Tabbycat92 - welcome to the crew! How are you? Aw that’s lovely, how old is your little one?
I’m so hoping this is your month. Are you normally ok with keeping your mind occupied during the TWW?
If there’s anything I’ve learned about making plans for myself, it’s that they’ve never actually happened 😂😩 when I was a teenager I really wanted to be married at 24/25 (no idea why haha) and have two kids by the time I was like 31ish, and here I was - married at 27, now nearly 33 and no kiddos! 🤣🙈 If you don’t mind me asking, how long did it take to conceive your first?

Girls long story short, but I had a bit of a misunderstanding about my day 21 bloods! I thought they were low, but they’re not! Another doctor called me back a couple of days ago after I asked them to explain my results. And she said that the normal progesterone level is 80 and below.. ? (Sorry, my memory is crap). And my level was 91 or 92.
She really confused me though because she asked me if I definitely had the blood test at the correct time of the month, to which I said I think so because I find it difficult to know when I’m ovulating. But then she also said she doesn’t see my high progesterone level as a problem! So then why would she ask me if I definitely had the test on the correct day?! I think I had the blood test 6DPO.
Because she had confused me, but then weirdly said that im fine, I just finally asked her - is my body doing what it should be doing? And she said yes. Di you have any thoughts about this, and my level?
My husband’s SA still isn’t back. He’s been told to call again next week. It’s so bloody annoying because it’s been 2 weeks now, when they said it’d take 10 days! 😩 I get that they must be soo busy but wish the doctor would just hurry up!!

Hi ladies, hoping I can join you all!
I'm 7dpo on cycle 6 of ttc baby no.2
Using LH strips and bbt to track my progress.
Stupidly depressed myself today by doing a IC at 7dpo... Obviously bfn... When will I learn 😅
Desperate for this to be the month, as it'll mean I'll have my baby 1 month before my 30th birthday. I always wanted to have had two children by 30

Don't be silly @Rose2108 you show us all it can happen and give us all hope!! I love hearing your updates!!

Sorry for my pitty party last night - had to vent it out somewhere!!

Now to add to the confusion AF appeared tonight literally 28 days after my last procedure! So at least I know my body is back to regular cycles!! Roll on the next 28 days to start the all rolling (been advised to wait a cycle until we start trying to give my womb a chance to recover) however there is nothing to stop be getting pregnant this cycle seemingly!!

My blood tests all came back clear and they said the pregnancy hormone was soo low they are more than convinced that it's not a cyst and just a bit of leftover tissue but said to come in for surgery tomorrow for a D&C and that will completely clear out my womb - 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻 xx

@Lynne425 I am so sorry to hear about what a difficult time you have had, it seems so unfair. I hope you can get proper support and answers, and I hope you aren't in any pain. Please do come and vent and we will all support you as much as we can! Xx

@8LPS Cuddle buddy made me LOL!! I was actually quite proud of the DIY haircut you know!! It will do for now anyway. I don't know why, every now and then (maybe first thing in the morning or at night), I can't help but creep into the scary forums and read all the awful things. Why do I do this?! It's like this sick addiction I can't help it!! I know reading it will probably make me feel worse, but I also just want to read one more post.... Haha. I think in five weeks time when I reach the 12 week mark, I will relax a bit more and feel more comfortable about the chances of this little ball of cells.

So sorry your AF came, and early too! With your progesterone, was this the day 21 test? Did you definitely have the test 7 days after ovulation? I actually went on day 26, knowing I had ovulated on day 19 because there was no point going 2 days after!! This test is not 100% accurate for these reasons. Hopefully you can get some support and answers on this, hope you aren't worrying too much xx

Also we went to the Jurassic coast a few years ago it was beautiful! I remember an amazing seafood place overlooking a harbour!!

@JLP256 why do tests always trigger AF! Hate that. Sounds like you had a stressful month last month anyway. Hoping your cramps have eased.

@BumbleB1 Glad to hear you have tracked BBT! I found it so helpful! Fingers crossed for you, just a few more days to wait! Keeping my fingers crossed for you too @AKcheer!!

Doesn't seem right for me to be posting about pregnancy stuff at the moment! But I am fine, currently 7 weeks, thank you all and I love keeping up with all your TTC updates! Sending you so much luck, I am hoping good news is round the corner for you all xxx

Hey All

Hope your all doing well.

Just thought I'd update you all on my story.

I took a pregnancy test last week which was 3 weeks after procedure (local anaesthetic) and it was still very much positive. Called the hospital and asked me to come in for a scan and bloods today!

So the scan revealed possible cysts and/or left over tissue therefore again the procedure didn't work 😢🙈

I've been booked in for surgery on Thursday (general anaesthetic this time) to get the D&C and the 'remains' sent off for testing.

In addition there looks like a possibility of a cyst on my left ovary which they are going to check out while I'm under anyway!!

So yeah my 2021 went from amazing, excitement to a total shit show in under 3 months 😔😔😔 Here was me getting my hopes up for AF on Thursday not surgery!!

Sorry to be a total downer on here but had to 'let it out' and knew guys wouldn't mind me doing it on here xx

@8LPS hahaaa I knew exactly what you meant but thank you for the laugh 😂😂😜

Been trying 10 months now. Most of the time I’m fairly positive (although I have a lottt of rants to my husband haha) but then the last few months especially I’ve got my hopes up in the TWW and then AF comes and I’m so disappointed! Feeling ok now, I’m booked in for a mini fertility assessment at a clinic near me so we’ll see how that goes.

I’ve moved from south London to north London so bit of a change! So nice to have had that to focus on what with lockdown and TTC. Hope you’re feeling ok!

@BumbleB1 thank you, I found yesterday harder than I expected so that’s lovely of you to say 💕

@8LPS Hahaha I like cuddle buddy more. I read that and got such a good laugh!!

@JLP256 OH MY GOD that’s meant to say CYCLE buddy - NOT cuddle buddy!!!!!! 😂😂

@JLP256 - hello cuddle buddy! I’m sorry AF arrived for you as well... and late as well! Lateness can feel so misleading can’t it! How long have you been trying for now? Definitely feeling the same as you - wondering why it just hasn’t happened yet. But it’s important for us to remember that there are soo many couples who don’t conceive within one year, and it’s pretty normal/common. I just wish we weren’t one of those couples though!
How’s the moving going? Are you moving far from where you were before?
Aw thanks so much! I’m so glad I can rant on here. Feel sorry for my poor husband because he only has me. I’d like it if he had someone else, like a peer, to rant to cus I know how helpful it is for me! It absolutely is emotionally draining, and I seem to have lost my mojo at the mo. Eating more junk food, haven’t exercised for a few days. But I’m hoping to get back to it from tomorrow.

@BumbleB1 - that’s so lovely of you to say! I couldn’t help but feel a little twinge of sadness when I went on social media and saw people around my age who’ve had kids paying tribute to them, and thanking their kids for making them a mummy 😣 Hope you had a good weekend? Did you get up to much?
It is so hard to know whether to be positive or negative or realistic isn’t it?? I am definitely more negative or realistic. But when I was on Seven Seas pre-pregnancy supplements they were giving me proper pregnancy symptoms - so my symptom spotting was off the charts!!! Now that I’m off those type of tablets I feel way more balanced about it all - mentally and physically! I really try hard to adopt a “go with the flow” / “if it happens, it happens and if it doesn’t, it doesn’t” approach. Really really understand how you feel with having too much optimism. When I talked to the doctor the other day, he told me that relaxing is key 😳 I was like - I’m tryyyyingggg 😩😂
Haha I’m so glad BBT is going well so far! I find it so hard to remember as soon as I wake up cus I’m still a zombie 😂
Sorry, I can’t remember how long you’ve been trying for now?
Aw thank you! We had a lovely time but we didn’t get drunk in the end but 4 G&Ts helped me feel a bit more relaxed 😁 next month if it doesn’t happen for us again we’ve said we want to get a charcuterie box delivered and we can pig on that cus apparently when you’re preggo you can’t have cured meats! 😩😂 Did you have a good weekend??
PS - lol it always takes me at least an hour to write a reply!!! 🙈😂

Sorry ladies that’s a long one, it was morning when I started writing it..... 🤣🤣

Morning ladies, hope you all had a good weekend? Happy Mother’s Day for yesterday, thinking of those in all different circumstances, including those who have lost mums, those who have lost babies, and women like myself who so desperately want to be a mum 💞 I know it can be a tough day for many so I hope you all got through it okay! Xx

Thank you for sharing your contraception pasts with me, it has been really helpful. I’m hoping there won’t be any problems from being on the pill but I’ll probably mention it to GP next time we’re on the subject.

Hopefully TikTok is right about it all being a myth @AKcheer! You must be a week or so after ovulation, noticed any symptoms yet? Sorry to hear people are bombarding you with questions about having a baby, sometimes people are a bit insensitive or ignorant to what others might be experiencing. And it’s none of their business, especially those who you don’t like/don’t like you!! Oh and yes your life will definitely be okay, in fact it will be much more than okay! You will get the dream house and your time will soon come for a baby 💖 I know it’s hard but try to stay optimistic if you can, everything will fall into place one day.

@Rose2108 Aww I think it’s sweet that he was excited to tell his parents, how did it go? What were your parents reaction?! Thanks for sharing your experience with the pill, it’s reassuring that you’ve been successful and the same with your friends. Hopefully it doesn’t cause any problems for me 🤞🏼

@8LPS I think it makes sense to try and stay realistic, I feel positive overall but try not to symptom check and convince myself it has happened. But I told my partner that I don’t think we’re gonna be successful this month and he told me to stop being so negative!! Maybe I need to change my thought process with it? Should I be feeling more positive about it all? I thought I was generally quite optimistic but just hate the feeling of getting my hopes up for them to be shattered with AF or a BFN!

I’ve started tracking BBT for the past few days even though it’s not really the right time in my cycle, but I just wanted to get used to it and so far it has been okay. We’ll see how long it lasts! Wow you’re both troopers for using condoms for that long, I really don’t like them 🤣 my cycles have been regular with no problems at all so I’ve been really lucky in that area. Have been tracking with an app which has been really helpful and apart from last month they’ve all been very similar in terms of pain, heaviness and length.

Sorry to hear AF made an appearance ☹️ I’ve had the same where DTD has started it off, and it’s very annoying when our body makes you think it was just spotting then BAM the next day comes on full flow 👎🏼 I hope you get SA results soon so you can move forward with the next referral.. it’s okay to feel annoyed or upset, this group is to support each other so you can let out all of your frustrations! Getting drunk and having a laugh with hubby sounds like a fab way to enjoy the weekend, I hope you had the best time!!

Sorry to hear about the BFN @JLP256, isn’t it typical that AF comes on just after. It’s nice to hear that it’s come as a relief though, and I know it’s easier said than done but try not to stress about it all, it sounds like you’ve had a lot going on with moving and work so maybe you just needed things to settle before your time comes.

Remember girls, each month we’re one step closer to our BPF ☺️

Thanks as well for telling me about your past contraception, I’m gonna try not to worry about it because it sounds like lots of people have had no problems at all from it. I’m thinking if I don’t get BFP in the next couple of months then I’ll speak to my GP about where to go from here. Yes I’m in the TWW, only 4 days to go! It’s actually gone a lot quicker this month, I think because I convinced myself it hasn’t happened. But I’ll update you all if/when AF makes an appearance!

AF came for me yesterday, 5 days later than usual. I knew it was a longer cycle because of my OPKs but I took a pregnancy test yesterday morning and got a BFN (a few hours before AF arrived, typical!!). So I was prepared for it and almost relieved it showed by then because I was getting pretty bad cramping and headaches. The joy! Also we probably didn’t DTD enough during the fertile window because of moving/work stress so it was a long shot. Just stressing now about why it’s not happened yet.

@BumbleB1 I was on the pill for about 8 years and then on the coil for 2 years, then condoms for a year or so until TTC. So I’ve seen it all lol! But as someone else said I’ve known lots of people who came off the pill and got pregnant pretty quickly so I wouldn’t worry too much. Something you can definitely ask the GP about though! Are you in the TWW now?

@8LPS sorry to hear AF arrived for you too :( we can be cycle buddies! Hope everything goes ok with your results. Also don’t be silly saying sorry, honestly TTC is such a rollercoaster, I was saying to DH yesterday how I so didn’t expect it to be this emotionally draining. We’re always here for each other for a rant!

@Rose2108 - oh no I’m so sorry you’re disagreeing on things! I can see your point of view where you only want to tell people you’re close with because it’s so early on, and I can also see his point as well that he wants both sets of parents to be equal! Good luck telling them all this weekend! 😃
Sorry you’re feeling unwell. Is there anything you are allowed to do/take to help your tummy feel a bit better?
lol how did the haircut go then?? Did you make small talk like an actual hairdresser? 😂 was he happy with the outcome? 😁
I’m glad you’re feeling more supported with your friends instead of going to the scary forums! This way, you’ll get the truth, but they’ll also be mindful of your feelings about being cautious for now.
Aw thank you so much, it really is up to luck/odds isn’t it? Imagine all these years we’ve spent trying not to get pregnant lol now I’m thinking I shouldn’t have been so worried! 🙈😂

@KerryW87 - oh bless you, I’m really happy for you that Counselling helped you. I’ve had Counselling before for something else and it can definitely make you feel worse before you feel better, but the outcome I’d just so much more clarity about everything. That’s a really beautiful idea to buy some flowers for his memorial tree 🙂🙂 did you have the tree planted in a public place or in your garden? What kind of tree is it?
I saw that you were 8DPO but you were feeling the same as usual - how are you feeling now?

@BumbleB1 - omg I totally agree with you, to think that it hasn’t happened just do that your hopes don’t come tumbling down! That’s why I hardly ever do tests - cus I hate seeing the BFN ☹️
Haha I seriously don’t blame you for not starting BBT yet, it’s a pain in the arse lol. I haven’t some it in weeks now 🙈 naughty!
Yeah if you’re ok with not getting your bloods done then leave it be. But it’s nice to know that it’s an option for later if you start to get anxious or are trying for a bit longer (which I hope you don’t!!).
Sorry, I’m useless when it comes to contraception - I’ve never had any proper form of contraception (only condoms). I was too freaked out about letting a tablet control something that I’d like to stay natural. So my poor husband, for the last 11 years that we’ve been together has had to use condoms, bless him. Since coming off your contraception how have your cycles been? Have you been able to track them ok?

@AKcheer - grrrr How annoying about the house!! I don’t want to wish bad on anyone but you never know, it might fall through! That’s what happened with me and my house! We had a viewing booked, and on the day before, we got a call from the estate agent saying that our viewing has been cancelled cus an offer has been accepted. We were absolutely gutted. But then a month later, we got a call from the estate agent saying that the deal has fallen through and they wanted to contact us before putting the house back on the market to see if we’re still interested! W almost bit his hand off 😂 we couldn’t believe our luck?!! so if you feel like, you could contact the estate agent again and tell them that if anything was to happen with the sale of that house, to contact you first and that you’re serious about buying..? Or if you want to let it go (as Elsa says), then hopefully you will find something else just as amazing - everything happens for a reason and this means there will be another gorgeous house waiting for you! 🤞
I wish people would just mind their own business and stop asking about babies. I can’t believe people in this day n age aren’t more sensitive about this.

Guys, AF came full flow this morning, 2 days early. Gutted is not the word. 😭 sorry if this is TMI, but we DTD last night (13DPO) and afterwards I gave myself a little wipe and I saw a very light pink colour. At first I got excited but then thought DTD has probably triggered AF. but when AF didn’t show all night, I got excited again - until I sat on the loo this morning 😞 argghhhh why is this happening!
I hadn’t heard anything about my bloods so called the GP surgery this morning and they said that there’s a problem with my progesterone. They said they’d call me if there was a problem, so all week I’ve been thinking everything’s ok! 😤☹️
Hubby’s SA results aren’t here yet and a referral can only be made once his results come.
We feel so deflated at this point but we’re trying to stay balanced. We are planning to get smashed together at the weekend because we haven’t gotten drunk together just us two, in a good few years! 😂 We’re going to have a party and have some junk food and have a laugh! A couple of days ago I booked a few days away to the Jurassic Coast for July. I feel like 4 different sets of people that I know went there last year and they all had a great time, and it looks so beautiful down there. So we have something to look forward to now as well.
Can I just also say I’m really sorry I’ve been such a negative nelly these last few months. Don’t want to bring anyone down. I just thought we were healthy enough and making the right changes to do this within a year and without support 😔 I just feel ridiculous cus it was only 2 years ago that I was telling people I don’t want kids - but I didn’t mean it deep down, it was just to keep people from asking when we’ll have kids all the time when we just weren’t ready to stop being selfish. 😔
But like you guys say - we’re one step closer to our BFP...I hope! 🤞

Thank you all for your comments. We spoke again about it and he basically admitted he wants to tell them because he is really excited! Not just because we are going to tell my parents! So I conceded and we are telling parents this weekend. I think I will be so relieved when my mum knows.

Oh @AKcheer that's so annoying!! Sounds like the housing market where you are is bonkers! I'm hoping you'll find something else you love and it will all come together as it should! What the hell?! People actually saying they are waiting for you to have kids?! A) how sad is their life and B) Bog off!! My best friend had a baby at the weekend so there has been allooottttt of baby chat and everyone comparing birth experiences in our group...

I am well thank you :) Time is a healer and I know in a few years in your dream house with your kids you'll forget all these worries you had! When I feel like this I find it helpful to think of all the positives in my life rather than the negatives. Try and live in the moment, you have so much going for you xx

@KerryW87 I think I would be the same.. feels so unfair your baby didn't get to make his mark on the world! It's lovely you have a memorial tree. He won't be forgotten! You never know on this cycle, apparently implantation can take 6 - 12 days so wouldn't give up yet.

Ooooh @JLP256 any sign of AF? Hoping not!! Nothing from maternity unit yet but there was actually a forum linked to the hospital I found, and apparently they write to you at 7 weeks. Feels like an age but only one week away now.

@BumbleB1 Thank you! I feel fine! I have sore boobs, chills and feel bloated but that's it really. I came off the pill about 9 months before started TTC. I was on Cilest (not sure what kind of pill that is! But I was on it for 12 years!). There are a lot of people who think that contraception will imbalance your hormones and lead to struggles when TTC, but I have about 14 friends all our age who have all had babies and been on the pill in their adult lives. So who knows?!

So lovely to see the sun today isn't it, despite the blimmin' twister we had last night!

@8lps You never know! Here's hoping it's a quick TWW with a BFP at the end of it 💕 I
had the Nexplanon implant in for 9 years and had it removed at the end of October 2019, periods returned to normal within a month and it took us 5 months to conceive so don't think there was an issue with coming off of that method of contraception anyway!

@JLP256 Thank you very much, that's kind 💕

Stark white BFN at 10dpo for me today so quite sure I'll be onto cycle 9 in a few days! Hope someone gets a BFP this cycle! 🤞