🐧 Penguin Huddle 🐧 Thread 36 - TTC after pregnancy loss

Af arrived for me Monday, has anyone had such bad period cramps that it’s made you sick my cramps have been horrid so painful made me sick all day and then yesterday as I wiped I found a 2 pound coin size fleshy lump and today cramps are really bad again but light bleeding? Anyone gone through similar? Had to call my gp as never had this before and cramps are like when I miscarried the second time.

@VenusStarr hi sorry your still battling away. We have been at this for a long time now we're practically veterans. I've had all the tests they can't find anything. I'm just hoping for the very best but preparing for the very worst. I believe you will get your rainbow hun xx

Hi @Mumlili9 thanks for asking. Not much going on for me, I'm having additional tests before we plan a frozen embryo transfer so just in my tww (not ttc) and hopefully can do them next cycle. Part of me is hoping they find something but then I'll need treatment before the transfer which will push it back even further. Just feeling fed up, I know you get it, we've both been ttc for a similar time now. Hope you're well.

Hope you're @Kiki275 xx

@LeeTTCRainbow still trying nearly 3 1/2 years now. Last pregnancy was ectopic in Feb 2020 . Unfortunately I lost my left tube and the surgeon put two holes in my uterus. I've never fallen pregnant since. Tried every month, im ovulating like clock work but no baby yet. It sounds like you might have to ask for a hysteroscopy to check for scar tissue after the d & c. Sometimes it can cause trauma to the lining of your uterus. But I have heard that some ladies take a while to settle down after miscarriage. My periods have become very light and short since my ectopic and according to blood tests my estrogen is very low indicating that my ovaries aren't functioning properly. This ttc stuff is so hard. Advocate for yourself and ask for help from your GP if you feel you need it.

@Mumlili9 thanks so much, are you ttc or pregnant yourself? X

@LeeTTCRainbow sorry for your loss and welcome to the thread. It used to be very active but most ladies have got there rainbow babies and have moved on.

@VenusStarr hows things going for you x

Hi i hope you don't mind me joining,

Little bit about my ttc journey, i am 27 fiancé 28 getting married in august, been ttc for 11 months now.

Unfortunately had a missed miscarriage end of January at 12.5 weeks found via our scan. due to blood loss and complications a D&C was required. took forever for my AF to arrive back.
Amazingly end of march found out was expecting again but sadly naturally miscarried a 6 weeks.
Been trying since and had no luck just negatives and AF making a appearance with a vengeance, has anyone been through a miscarriage and had worse periods since??, I'm so much heavier and cramps kill.

Due for ovulation this weekend been tracking and line is getting darker so hopefully my peak will be 11th/12th really hope July is our month, my due date for first pregnancy is end of month so getting my BFP will really help me get through it.

Good luck sending baby dust to all.

@CharWils and @Aurora2264 welcome and I'm so sorry for your losses. Hope you find this thread helpful.
I'm currently cd5 so still hopeful for this cycle.

Hello just checking in to say hello. @VenusStarr how are things going.
I'm just starting my diet and healthy living this week, after 9 miscarriages I have comfort eaten myself into a very unhealth place.

Thankyou @Kiki275

So reassuring that you are pregnant with your rainbow after the loss of your twins, sorry to hear of your loss.

Hoping ovulation for me is imminent!

Hi all, Im so sorry to read of everyone’s losses . I hope it’s ok to join here, I found this group while I was searching the internet for stories of others going through miscarriage.
I had a D&C last week at 11 weeks pregnant and am currently completely overwhelmed by the loneliness and isolation of loss.
I had seen this little baby moving on ultrasound and with a strong heartbeat at 10 weeks, and just 4 days later had my first appointment with my OB, and the second he put the ultrasound probe on my belly I knew , there was no longer the beautiful flickering of a little heart, baby was so still.
I had absolutely no sign that anything was wrong, zero spotting , still had bad morning sickness and very sore boobs. I chose the D&C because I couldn’t bare to be feeling so pregnant while knowing my baby had died.

I’ve had two miscarriages in the past but for both the first sign was bleeding and they passed naturally .
It took 3 years to conceive this baby, I am overwhelmed with despair, and feeling like a bitter, twisted version of myself. One of my close friends was already pregnant and due 2 months before I would have been, and another close friend just announced her pregnancy this past weekend, and she will be due a few weeks after I would have been.
I feel bitter, jealous, Hateful.
Not only because my baby is gone, but also because not one of my close friends has ever experienced a miscarriage- nor with infertility or trouble conceiving- and therefore the way they view early pregnancy is completely different to me. For them, a positive pregnancy test is a definite certainty that they will be bringing a new baby home in a few months time- because for them, it always has been.
They are excited, telling their older kids immediately, announcing the pregnancy , lamenting over how they will be heavily pregnant and uncomfortable through the summer months. Buying baby clothes.
I’m jealous of their happiness and certainty- all of that has been stripped away for me by miscarriages, first trimester is a terrifying, anxious, on edge time where I can’t look any further forward than a few days at most , where every toilet trip is terrifying, expecting to see blood.

It’s a totally different experience . And now grieving this baby while they excitedly plan for theirs, I just feel really lonely , feeling like a bitter mean little person, desperate to be pregnant again but despairing that it will never happen or just end in loss again.

Sorry it was @EssentialHummus who pointed me here, I got the 2 names muddled up on my own thread! Xx

Hi all,

Hope you don't mind me joining, @LaurenNH pointed me in this direction.

I am 34 and have been on either the pill or implant since I was 17/18 which for me prevented periods apart from the occasional spotting.

I came off in June/July last year and my periods came back almost instantly bang on about 30 days. I was using BBT and OPKs. I didn't get a peak until the start of October after my 2nd period and found out on the 17th October (approx 12 DPO) that we were pregnant.

Unfortunately our Son Jack was recently stillborn at 28+3 on the 3rd April this year. We found out his heart had stopped (me on my own, thanks covid) at exactly 28. I noticed reduced movements and went in for monitoring.

All previous scans and the whole pregnancy was textbook and although we are waiting for one more result back from placenta tests it's 99% certain that our boys heart just stopped and there was no reason.

I have now recently finished my 2nd period since our loss and we are going to TTC again this cycle.

I am using the Premom app as didn't use that before so don't find it triggering and will just be using OPKs initially and seeing how I get on.

I am desperate to fall pregnant but also petrified.

Sending you all lots of love and strength xx

@kiki275 that's understandable hun. I would be manic all the time lol. I would be booking private scan every week . Good that everything seems healthy and well

@kiki275 no its like literally not going to see each other by like 12 hours apart. Don't think they would survive that long. How are you anyway

@Kiki275 it 10 dpo for me right now so Thursday should be cd1. But ovulation is badly timed for the new cycle we are but working and won't see each other for the whole week. 😕 it seems the universe is against us no matter what we do

@VenusStarr I really hope he can figure out what went wrong. Will you try naturally as your getting fertile cm. I've got everything crossed for you xx

We'll get a review booked in @Mumlili9 I think it tried to implant too late, and I had a big bleed that I thought was my period. So we do need to try and understand what happened. I've already got a review with my miscarriage specialist - from what I've heard of others who are under him, it's really unusual to miscarry on his plan - I'm literally on everything. I'm holding on to the fact that we have 2 frosties. I think maybe the embryo had chromosome issues and that's why implantation was delayed.
On the one hand, the fact that we rid achieve implantation is good but it's ended in my 5th loss and I just can't process that. We've got a counselling session next week. And to confuse things, I had fertile cm today and feel like my ovaries are waking up. I'm just tired of this.

I'm sorry you're still getting cramps from the hsg. Hopefully the hsg might have cleaned things through for you xx ❤️

@VenusStarr oh hun im so sorry. It really is shit isn't it. Have you spoken to the clinic yet.

I wont know is the HSG has done anything until next cycle starts but im still getting cramps from the test.

Hi, just to update, I've been in limbo all week, as I started bleeding before test day and initially it looked like my cycle had failed but I tested a faint positive earlier this week, my beta bloods were low but tripled, so we had some hope, but I've tested today and my lines have faded, so it's looking like my 5th loss 💔 got another blood test on Monday but my hope has gone.

I hope everyone is getting on better than me @Mumlili9 @Kiki275 @kim80 xx