The Turkey Baster Gang (gobble gobble)

AF got me feeling awful but trying not to let it consume me. Sending hugs to all xx

@MrsKin90 thank you for being lovely as always!

Oh @eloiseislost I'm so so sorry that this has happened and today of all days. Hope the two of you manage to spend a cosy evening together, being the support you need for each other. I see so much of myself in your story - I also got pregnant on the third try and I also miscarried at around 6.5 weeks. It might not feel like long into the pregnancy but it feels so real when it's happening to you and it's enough time to get emotionally attached to the idea. I'm sending you lots and lots of virtual hugs. Glad you are feeling better and it sounds like your body is doing all the right things now at least.

We'll be here when you're ready to start trying again but in the meantime take care of yourself lovely xxx

@Birchybirch it sounds like you've covered all bases in keeping going when the cheapies said you were ovulating so fingers crossed for you!! The things people say 🙄 honestly.

@primrosechill sorry that you got another BFN ❤️ 2020 can piss right off.

@eloiseislost I'm so devastated for you. I'm so so sorry. I hope you're doing everything you can to look after yourself and glad your partner is being supportive.

Finally got a phone call from the EPU, my hcg yesterday was 230 and my progesterone 5. Midwife said the levels are so low, they normally wouldn't even test again but, because of the pain, I'll have another blood test on Saturday morning to hopefully rule out ectopic.
I feel like the worst is over, or at least I hope so! I have what I can now describe as regular to mild period pains and the bleeding has stopped, after a couple clots I passed in the afternoon.
Just physically and emotionally exhausted really. 😞

Glad to hear you're not in as much pain anymore, @eloiseislost, though I do hope it means the worst is now over as opposed to it dragging out like you said. Definitely let us know how the call with the EPU goes and if there is even a tiniest bit of hope left.

So sorry this is happening on your hubby's birthday - what a shitshow 2020 is!! I'm honestly so pissed off at the universe on behalf of all of us. 2021 better be a corker! xxx

@Birchybirch @Lori23TTC @primrosechill
Thank you for your kind words girls! 💕
I'm waiting for a phone call from the EPU to discuss the plan.
The pain isn't as bad this morning and the bleeding is minimal, so it looks like it will drag on… Cervix was closed last night still.
And it's DH's birthday of all days! He's been absolutely amazing, I hope to feel well enough to wrap his gifts and have a nice meal later.

@eloiseislost I am so sorry to hear about this, my heart is breaking for you - it is such a lonely and horrible thing to go through and it's completely unfair how often it happens. Let us know what the EPU says today and please take some time off if you can to really take care after yourself. I was a bit like you when it happened to me earlier in the year - slightly detached at first and then it hit me like a brick. Just know you have a lot of us on here who have gone through something similar, like you said, and we'll be here to lend a virtual shoulder when you're ready to chat about this ❤️

@eloiseislost oh Eloise I am so sorry to hear this (you actually made me cry reading your message) my heart goes out to you and I hope you can find the strength to get through this 🥰 we are all here for you. Will you be going back to the EPU today? X

Oh no @eloiseislost that sounds horrid. So sorry to hear that!

Hi everyone! Well, I've had quite an adventure and it looks like I will be back in the TTC game soon. 😞
Yesterday morning I noticed a tiny amount of pink mucus when wiping, didn't think much of it but kept an eye. By evening, it had turned to bright red spotting and mild cramps. Went in the EPU, they took bloods and sent me home with paracetamol. 2 hours later I was doubled over in pain, so I went back in the EPU. Bleeding hadn't gotten any worse. They gave me codeine which gave me some, but not complete, relief. Then my results came back and apparently, even though I'm sure I'm 6w2, my hcg is too low and they couldn't give me a scan. It was 3am at that point and I just didn't ask about the specific number, all I wanted was to go home and sleep. They said EPU will call me in the morning.
I know I'm miscarrying, but it's so physically painful, I have no feelings about it, I'm just trying to get through the pain.
Sorry to be a downer, but I know some of us have had similar experiences and it's comforting to be able to talk about it.
Hugs to all, I hope everyone is OK! 💖

Another BFN today, another temp drop + I woke up to a phone notification from femometer app reminding me that my period is approaching. Thanks phone, I think I figured that one out myself 😓

I hate how every cycle we manage to convince ourselves that it will be THE cycle. I started getting some bad anxiety the last couple of months as well - I keep thinking that something is wrong with my body because of the long MC earlier in the year, even though I know all of my tests came back fine. Maybe 2020 wasn’t meant to be our year - is it anyone’s?! Normally this is the time I would start getting festive and excited about christmas - instead I just feel really deflated.

Hi all, hope everyone is OK!? @oilyoilyoilgob I hope the news is positive about your cat.

God yeah I'm with you all on the waiting, and the wishing time away. Like you say, you wish af week away, then wish for ovulation to come, then wish for your tww to hurry up and finish. We ended up si-ing for about 12 days this cycle, because I misread a cheapie opk early on in my cycle and thought it was a peak. Ooops! CB gave me my peak only a few days after af finished, then a few days later my cheapies did too, so we basically just carried on. Thankful my husbands not gone blind, and it's not dropped off, despite the warnings I used to hear as a kid 😅

I try really hard not to symptom spot, but my boobs have been aching a little. That could very well be simply down to the fact that I hardly ever wear a bra anymore though.

I also hate the comments from others about trying/not trying. A woman at work used to make throwaway comments like "pregnant are you?" if I was ever unwell/ravenous/going into a meeting with my boss. Thankfully I've not seen her since March, so she's not made comments since we've been trying.

Hope everyone is keeping hold of their sanity as best they can! Hopefully one day we will all look back on this time with fond memories...! X

@MrsKin90 wouldn’t twins be amazing! 😍

6dpo & 8 days until AF And then the waiting begins again 😅😅😅 it’s a vicious cycle that we are all stuck in

@Nej1983 it definitely feels more like a "two week-year" rather than a two week wait! 6dpo is almost half way?? 😊 It's funny how when TTC we want desperately to ovulate and then we want the tww to be over asap and if it's a BFN we want AF to come and go NOW so we can get back to waiting for another TWW 🙄 the things we do to ourselves!! I usually make it to about 9dpo before I properly lose my mind 😂 fingers crossed those are implantation cramps and you're having twins?! 😋

@primrosechill sounds like you needed a relaxing day off! I'm sure morning sickness isn't as lovely as TV makes it seem 😂 I like to think I'd just be so bloody grateful to finally get pregnant I wouldn't care but I'm sure everyone feels that way until they can't keep their breakfast down!

@primrosechill fingers crossed it’s a sticky bean and not a sicky bug that’s making you hurl. 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻
Honestly sounds like a day in heaven, off work in bed watching Netflix! Well overdue a a day in bed. In other news, besides cracking up waiting I keep thinking I’m feeling implantation cramping 😅😅 except it keeps changing sides!! 😂 so it seems I’m officially losing my senses!

@Oilyoilyoilgob that's super interesting that you had morning sickness so early. When I got pregnant back in April, I had no symptoms at all - just felt completely normal with the only exception of suddenly feeling really dizzy when I went to sleep ay 9DPO. Tested the next morning and it was a positive.

I haven't been feeling any nausea since the quick vomit this morning but I have been feeling generally very ran down - I ended up taking the day off, just sleeping it off and watching loads of netflix in bed ha. Just sitting and waiting like you, @Nej1983 ;)

Oily, I hope your cat's appointment went well - or as well as it could.

@MrsKin90 I LOLed so hard at your comment about how you can't wait to be throwing up hahaha - I'm sure it's nothing like the Hollywood movies!

Well girls I’m cracking up at the moment. This two week wait is driving me loola! I could have sworn it was 11dpo but it’s only 6!! Why does it feel like an eternity 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️
The waiting game is getting old, waiting for AF, waiting for fertile window, waiting for peak, waiting for ovulation waiting to test, I’m sick shit of waiting!!! 😬🤷🏻‍♀️😬🤷🏻‍♀️

@Oilyoilyoilgob I hope it went okay today and I'm sure your cats are in no doubt about how absolutely adored they are ❤️🐈

How is everyone else?! I hope everyone is getting on alright.

@primrosechill 😱 that IS a plot twist. Hopefully it's not a bug, but a bean! 🤞🤞 I am sorry you're feeling under the weather though so hope it's all for a good reason. Fingers super tightly crossed!
😂 I absolutely cannot wait to throw up, I genuinely day dream about it like a right weirdo. It's the only part of pregnancy I can actually imagine.

@Oilyoilyoilgob @MrsKin90 thank you for being so kind 💚 and bloody funny as well - this tread is in equal measures support group and a comic relief on a regular basis! Oily, thinking about you and your fluffy friend, too.

Plot twist this morning in my TTC saga/drama! My temp went up again (in fact it's the highest it's been all week) AND I threw up this morning. I feel pretty under the weather today so I think it might very well be a sign of a cold/stomach bug (plus I think it would be way too early for morning sickness?), but I have decided to hold onto some hope after all 😬 What a strange state when you're EXCITED about throwing up 😂

Fuck this shit indeed!! It's positive that we never lose that hope though as it's what spurs us on I think to try agaib.
People just don't think before they say stuff, and I'm sure it doesn't come from a horrible place. My wonderful MIL keeps telling me how much weight her other DIL has lost and because I am awful and jealous I feel like rolling my eyes 😂 especially because I have gained so much since stopping birth control I'm blaming a lot of it on hormones but I can't tell anyone that so they obvs all think I'm eating cake all day (they're not always wrong though 😬).

@Oilyoilyoilgob I hope things going okay with your lovely cat's MRI tomorrow (I think it's tomorrow?). Will be thinking of you and hoping for the best!