TTC October 2020 Bus

@Theawkwardblonde

I’m so sorry to hear that. You have all the period hormones whizzing about now. Just focus on yourself. Treat yourself to something nice and when you are feeling calmer call the doctors and start demanding some support.
Don’t give up on your dream but find peace in yourself and the life you have. You can’t carry on feeling like this. Xxx

Hi @Theawkwardblonde, I just read your message and I am so sorry 😞 that really sucks. We are the same age and I get what you mean. It can feel so isolating when you are the one in the partnership who is exploring every avenue. I'm quite new to the forum and I don't have a lot of pearls of wisdom but I just wanted to reach out and say I am thinking of you. Xx

Morning @SunnydazeQ how are you? Thanks for your message. AF arrived late yesterday evening 😔 had a bit of a cry and woke up having accepted it is what it is. Its a shame as I felt different and thought it might actually happen but nevermind. My DH is an eternal optimist and is always like 'We always have next month' which god love him is a great trait to have so I'm hoping some of it will rub off on me!

How are you feeling? It sounds like you had a wonderful weekend! 😀 any good movie recommendations? I love a good movie on an autumn evening. Xxx

@Merrz I'm 29, DH is 33. Haven't actually been using protection for 3 years but properly trying 13 months..this will be cycle 14 if we continued.

@theawkwardblonde sorry to read that. It's so tough isn't it. How long have you been trying? How old are you?

AF arrived 2 days early. To say I'm pissed off is an understatement as I have never had an early period in my life. Makes me now worried my cycles are starting to shorten.

I've had enough. DH and I aren't talking now. I said yesterday I don't want to keep trying anymore as it seems like I'm the only one who gets upset or cares about this. He was very chill and just said to happen when it happens. Needless to say I was upset and acted irrationally and had a bit of a wobbler and said there's no point us continuing as he clearly isn't bothered, only me. He said he will go private to get his fertility checked but in all honesty we can't afford it at the moment. I don't want to be an older parent-nothing wrong with them I just don't want to be-so I've explained my concerns around that and just feel so fed up.
The thought of sex now just makes me feel sick. I know that's an issue but im just so exhausted, I've forgotten what it's like to DTD while not trying.

So i came to the conclusion last night no more. It's not meant to be. The nhs aren't being very good re fertility but we can't exactly complain with covid going on, can't afford private. We're done, resigning to the fact that we can't have kids. No point stressing me out when DH doesn't seem too stressed.

@Bizawit thank you 😘 And sorry to hear of your loss too ☹️ I’ve managed to go a whole day without testing (!!) but decided I’m going to test with FMU on Wed 20th.... wish me luck!! When will you test again?

Hi everyone my first post here but thought I would join yous as I'm in the TWW too. Been trying for just over a year.
Got 3 kids already but our oldest who's 12 is severely disabled and I'm 35 so hoping to conceive soon as dont want to risk falling pregnant in a few years time when there's more risk of down syndrome.

Hope yous are all well and get good news soon

Hi everyone, first time poster, first cycle properly ttc for first baby. Apps showing it’s the first day in fertile window. Still a lot of acronyms and terminology I’m unfamiliar with as it’s all new to me. Let’s see how it goes...

Sorry to hear about people having a tough time. Cramps have started this evening so looks like I'm out this month, onto cycle 7 we dtd loads over fertile week so really thought we were in with a chance this month.

Awww thank you @SunnydazeQ and @ValliBec, so kind and supportive of you to post back. 😘 Feeling a bit better this evening after a bucket of wine...the one small thing that makes a period when ttc bearable! 👌xxx

@Bmeggar aww I’m sorry to hear what you’ve been going through. When I had my Mmc two of my best friends were pregnant - one due the same week I was due and I found it really tough. Have you tried talking to your friends about it? I told my friends I felt crappy and was struggling and they were really good about it. It’s good that you’ve got such a supportive hubby but we are all here in the same boat so feel free to vent away ☺️

@Bmeggar so sorry to hear it's been so tough for you. You've got us here on the forum so venting is totally fine. Big hugs 🤗

@gracie2307 how are you hon? Hope you had a great weekend with your friends! You're not out until AF arrives so keep positive. 🤞xx

I've had a wonderful weekend with hubby doing nothing but random lovely things like repotting a few plants, making granola, applesauce and a nice lentil curry 😊 We've enjoyed cuddling in this weather and watch movies 🧡 Love autumn

@jessicalouise10 how lovely!! Congratulations!!! 🎉🎉🎉

Congratualtions @jessicalouise10 xx

Thanks @kimberley94 🙏 I’m tracking opk’s although not sure if this last lot were accurate as still had HCG in my system. I’m fairly sure I did ovulate (felt particularly frisky 🤣🤦🏼‍♀️) but the opks stayed ‘high’ for almost a week which obvs isn’t normal. Just gonna write this month off and start tracking temp and opk once period stops. Feel like if it doesn’t happen this next month then I might stop until the new year - just so I can relax, drink wine and enjoy Xmas! What a shitty year 2020 is! I know lots of worse things have happened for others this year, and am genuinely grateful for what I have. It’s just a bit exhausting sometimes. 😴 xx

@SparkyLauz I am so sorry that you aren't feeling so great 😔. It can be really hard. The most important thing is to be kind to yourself. It is gutting when AF arrives but trying to take some time for yourself helps ease it. Have you talked to your DH about how you feel?

Yeah I'm ok thank you, I think I started spotting earlier so I think I am out this month too ☹ Hang in there and always here if you need to talk. The most important thing is supporting one another xx

@SarahMumof1DS thank you hun I’ve no idea about the creamy CM but I’ve got it too? 2 days before AF due, not loads of it either xx

@Bmeggar I’m really sorry to hear about your loss hun, it can be really hard when your close friends announce their pregnancy’s and then your going through grief while still being happy for them, fingers crossed this cycle will be your cycle are you using temping or OPKs or anything?xx

Cramping started today for me so think I'm out this month but tbh after this long we both don't think it's going to happen naturally anyway. We're just waiting for the 12 month mark so we can go to the gp. I have however had really bad acne like 30 spots all down one side of my face in patches. I never even got acne as a teenager just the odd random spot but increased the amount I was using my face mask 2 weeks ago so it's most likely a reaction to that.

Ladies, I’m struggling today. Been ttc since Jan 2020, stopped using contraception in Oct 2019 (a whole YEAR ago! 😱). Got pregnant in July/August, after lots of crappy scans, had a d&c at 9weeks. That was almost 4 weeks ago. Whilst going through miscarriage, 4 of my close girlfriends announced their pregnancies (same due date month as I would have been 😔). Started ttc again immediately after bleeding from d&c had stopped, REALLY hoped to get pregnant again immediately but instead I got my period (early) this morning. So today, I’m gutted. Low, miserable FED UP of trying and feeling hopeless. I know in the grand scheme of infertility that 10/11 months trying isn’t long but this feels like an eternity. I have a 4yr old and so hoped that he’d have a baby brother/sister by now 😔 Instead there’s no sniff of a sibling. Eugh. Sorry. Just venting. Amazing hubby but still feel alone, obsessive, and a bit depressed...x

Yes creamy but not thick and sticky. Almost watery. X

@jessicalouise10 huge congratulations! That’s such exciting news!