TTC after MC - September 2020 (Thread 13)

@Bellabubble hey!! It sounds like I am exactly like you! I know I have long cycles and it's just the way it is, but I started being really hard on myself when people were overtaking me and ovulating before me and it's not going to change anything. So I just needed to try and make peace with what my body does or I was just internally stressed more than I'd admit.
I'm worried about progesterone being low too, because I've always miscarried early, so I'll be interested in my post ovulation bloods.

It's good you have all the tests lined up. What cycle day are you on?

@chloedancer897 don't write yourself out. Early sore boobs are a good sign. I found the acupuncture really good and was disappointed she didn't want to see me for another month ish - but it's good for the finances! It's obviously not the first time I've heard it helps to relax, and normally it makes me want to punch a wall, but when she said it it just made me think how pointless it is to get so wound up by it. The first time I got pg I was totally elated, as was OH, and I was just making the whole process miserable.
I'm excited to hear how you get on.

@Dizzy201 I really hope you get good news at your scan. It could just be dating at this stage.

@Pugprincess thank you lovely. Hope you're keeping well? Good luck for your scan on Friday. Can't believe how quick time seems to be going when you say how far along you are

xx

@RichmondLady1981 usually it is a good sign for me a day spotting then af arrives. This is the third day of spotting and still very light but it is still brown. Don’t know what’s going on x

@MichT4 hey!! Lovely to see you! I’m doing the same - taking a step back! It’s all to easy to get a bit hard on yourself, I have totally loved this forum and it has been soooo supportive, but if like me, you are someone who tends to compare (and then worry that you are jot the same as everyone else) it can be hard to stay as relaxed as you need to be! I’m having my 21 days bloods tomorrow - then I’ll be having the early cycle bloods if I’m not lucky this month! Then it’s a scan for me, and sperm analysis for oh! 🤞🏻 It’s all ok - I’m currently panicking I don’t make enough progesterone as I have low temps even in luteal phase..I stupidly read up on google - so much for trying to destress!! 🤦🏼‍♀️

@MichT4 best of luck with your RMC appointment ❤️

@Dizzy201 sorry to read what you are going through. Hopefully it’s just too early and baby will be there next time you go. I understand you feel hopeless but I’m hoping for you xx

@Dizzy201 I'm so sorry. I hope you're ok xo sending you love. This TTC journey is so difficult at times but you're not alone xo

@AutumnDays90 that looks like amazing progression. Don't panic too much and take a test a few days after AF is late!

@MichT4 it's so lovely to hear from you and I'm glad you are settling and not stressing too much. That's what I've been trying too and my acupuncturist said I'm so stressed that's why I'm reacting so much to the needles! I'm not thinking this month is likely or any month for that matter but I'll stay on here and keep an eye on everyone's journeys xo

@AutumnDays90 5 days later so 19dpo I got 2/3 weeks on a cb digi. Then another 5 days later so 24dpo I got 3+ on cb digi. Finally I tried my cheap tests again and they were the darkest you can get. I’m now 10+5 and last saw baby on scan at 9+2. I have a scan this Friday so 🤞🏻 all is still well. I was hoping for a smooth ride as I lost my first pregnancy in July after 5 years of unexplained infertility, then fell pregnant with this one straight after with no AF. Best of luck with yours but don’t worry so far it all looks great to me! Your lines are a lot darker and I know that’s cause frer is more sensitive but still. If you switch to other tests you should hopefully see those getting darker each morning 🤞🏻

@AutumnDays90 ok so I didn’t use frer but the first pic with the arrows was my 11dpo, hardly noticeable is it 😩😂 I could see something in real life but was hard to photograph and not obvious. Then the next photo shows day 12/13/14 so you can see it gradually darkening (these were all fmu). The clearblue was also day 14 not fmu but still quite faint really

Hi everyone :) hope everyone is well! I've been a little quiet and sat back and read all your messages. I had a strong positive OPK yesterday so lots of BD'ing to be done haha! Cycle day 14 for me today! We DTD yesterday morning when I got positive opk but wont be able to dtd again until this evening. I worry I'm leaving too much of a gap? Or is this ok? Xx

@AutumnDays90 those lines look promising to me too 🤞🏼

@Pugprincess yes the left one is this morning, the right one was yesterday at about 1pm.

I would love to see your progression if you don't mind!

Awww hey @HappyVibes @Firevie @chloedancer897 👋🏼

I'm still here, and you're certainly not keeping me by checking in with me, I just really wanted to get back to being me while TTC was a fun thing with minimal stress. I realised that logging on multiple times a day and worrying why I wasn't having the same 'normal' cycle, or whatever else, wasn't helping me do that.
I'm fine though thank you all. I'm really trying this month to trust my body and take each day as it comes. I know if I'm here too much I'll ask/wonder if things are normal and think everything is a bad sign or, on the flip side, get my hopes up about something. As I said I just needed to keep busy on other things, but I'm still totally invested in your journeys and I'm checking the thread still.

I also feel bad when I can't keep up so I just keep quiet 🙊

Anyway.....I am now CD17. And what I love is I've just had to go on an app to check that as I'm really not thinking about it 😂. I feel like I had a lovely reset with that long cycle, and my AF came and went with no symptoms which I hope is a good sign as I never had symptoms pre the MC's. I started OPKs a few days ago but they are still low (0.46 ish and fluctuating slightly). My Ava got all excited the other morning and changed its homepage to high fertility, and predicting ovulation on Thursday, so we will see. I had also bought CBD OPKs for the first time a few months ago which were unused so I decided to open them. I had a few days of blank circles but got my first ever flashy this morning. It feels like it's lining up nicely with Ava and app predictions but as I said, I'm just going to see what each day brings. I even had EWCM a few days ago 🥳

My CD4 blood tests tested all the hormones and all were normal which made me feel a little lighter mentally. So once I think I've ovulated I'll call for the CD'21' blood test. I had my first acupuncture session last week and she did an 'unblocking' treatment. I also have my appointment with RMC on Wednesday so I feel like I really can't do much more. The acupuncturist said about stress and that's another reason why I feel like I have to monitor that closely. I'd hate to be doing all these positive things and then ruining it by getting myself in a state by comparing my journey and worrying why things aren't happening for me - and probably causing them not to!

This group has been a godsend for me, and I'll not be far away, but I'm trying to be kinder to myself and remember there is a life behind this TTC lark! And a naughty puppy who is currently knocking everything off the coffee table as I ignore him while writing this.

So that's where I am in a nutshell.

How are you all?

xx

@AutumnDays90 hello 👋🏻 is the one on the left as we see it sideways today? I think that’s a lot darker for only 1 day more. Remember hcg doubles every 48 hours ish. It’s looking good to me so far! If it helps I can post my progression around that time for you x

@notalwaysalondoner thank you, that is my worry, that it won't get any darker over the next few days.
AF is technically due on Friday, but I haven't had a period since my miscarriage, so can only assume!

@RichmondLady1981 thank you, I am thinking this is a new pregnancy now the fainter test is yesterday at about 9dpo and today's is the slightly more obvious line. I did a boots early test too which came up but was super faint.
Fingers and toes crossed!

Wow just been catching up. Welcome to the newbies and sorry for your losses.

So exciting so many of you are in the TTW together- have everything crossed for your BFP in the coming weeks.

@Runnergirl1 spotting could be a good sign somethings about to happen! Thinking of you.

@AutumnDays90 that’s definitely a line. And if you’ve had a negative beforehand I’d be thinking BFP!!! 😁

@dizzy201 I'm sorry, I had a missed miscarriage at 10 weeks and it was horrible finding out on the scan. It's so hard knowing whether to continue to hope (especially when you are so early the scans can't always be 100% accurate) or whether to move on. It was similar to my chemical this month where I was almost sure it wasn't going to stick due to lots of spotting and lines not getting darker, but then a little bit of you still hopes...

@AutumnDays90 there is definitely a line, and if you are only 10dpo I wouldn't expect the line to be very dark yet. But on the other hand my IC tests didn't get any darker over a week and then I did have a chemical - just saying it's very hard to tell and not everyone's HCG levels rise in the same way. Fingers crossed!

@Firevie I always agonised so much during tww I always end up testing early. Then follows the massive anxiety. Except before I hadn't had a miscarriage, this time everything seems overshadowed by a no longer imaginary tiny possibility but a very real threat. Blergh!

@dizzy201 I am so sorry I have had a similar experience with an early scan. I really hope that you see progression in 10 days time. My outcome was not good in the end, however I do know many people who had similar experiences and their pregnancies went to term.

@Firevie once you have the static on CBD, it will stay there for 36 hours I think it is. So you can’t do another test until that goes babe. & by the time it goes you’ll be finished testing with them anyway 😀That’s good that they are both in sync so deffo confident that you’re ovulating today/tomorrow. Good luck lovely xxxx

@chloedancer897 I’m the same with taking a step back too. Only really answering questions on here now, and just joining in as and when, rather than being obsessed and checking in every two mins ha. Think you can tell we are all in same boat this cycle with how slow the thread is building up in comparison to previous threads...we would get to 39 in a blink of the eye ha xxx

Hi ladies good luck to those of you who will be testing soon.

Unfortunately my preganacy doesn't look like it will be progressing, I have to go back in 10 days but I had a scan today and a bleed site was found along with gestational sac and yolk sac no fetal pole, I should be 6+ weeks by now and sac measured 5+4 which doesn't correlate with the weeks indicator test i did so I have very little hope, wont be trying again im gonna count my lucky stars I have kids already.

Wish you all the very best on your journeys be becoming mummies. Good luck xxx

@AutumnDays90 ah thank you. I will call my doctor tmr and ask about when to take the progesterone. Think they will go through the front door rather than the back door as I’m too scared about the back door lol
I can see a line. Fingers crossed for you that it’s just early days! If it’s any consolation my doctor has strictly forbidden me to test before 14dpo as she’s convinced anything before then isn’t 100% and can mess with your mind xxx

@Firevie for the progesterone, it will just tell you on the pack whether once or twice a day. I took them twice a day for IVF but only taking one a day this time because unlike during IVF, my body will be producing it's own progesterone too.
I put them up my bum can't stand them in the vagina as I would get a slimy discharge throughout the day Haha!

@notalwaysalondoner I am so sorry for your loss. I also totally get you not wanting to miss a month, every day during ttc feels an age!
Feeling upset about other pregnancies and babies is totally normal too. I work in a school and I used to dread the inevitable announcements from female colleagues.

10 dpo today, I have taken another few tests today, ever so slightly darker on the FRER. But not enough to allay my absolute dread that this will be a chemical come friday partly wish I hadn't been so impatient and tested so early.

@MichT4 hi Mitch! 🙋🏻‍♀️ I hope you're well. I'm not logging on much either but trying to keep on top of everyone's journey without becoming obsessed! Hope you're well xxx. I always think things are good signs and then it turns out to be nothing so not hopeful this month!

@MichT4 hello! I have missed you but totally get wanting to take a step back. I have as well. How are you? Where are you in your cycle?
Just did my cheapie OPKS / still High but can see it doing down so def had my cheapie OPKS peak yesterday and my cbd peak this morning. Once you have a cbd static smiley do you still continue doing cbd test?

Aww lovely you’re here again @MichT4 don’t want to keep you but how are you doing, where are you upto? Been wondering about you xxx

@chloedancer897 this sounds really positive. I hope this is a good sign and you get your bfp this month!

Yay for the static smileys @Firevie @MinnieMouse4. Nearly in the TWW for you both

I hope everyone is doing well, and sorry to any newcomers who have suffered losses.

I try and check in as much as I can but have needed a bit of a break - I was logging on multiple times a day which doesn't do well for my plan to refocus my mind

xx