CSG (Thread 2)

@ReginaaPhalange hahahaah I have tried it twice first time was tough lol. Second time which is this cycle we did it successfully somehow hahahah. But yeah next cycle not doing anything lol!!

As for the soy you have 40mg tablets so if you want to take 120mg per day it will be 3 tablets per day

And thank you hun, think its all going to be good news except the manager I will report to is hard work hahaha.

@Elakiya thank you - it was just a quick call so will be having a meeting on Wednesday when I go into the office to see what it all entails. Very excited to see where it takes me. Thank you and I hope that I will be so disctracted that I will just be one of those people that are like 'omg it happened when I stopped trying' lol you see those all the time haha.

I am going on holiday in two weeks which be over my fertile window that we are in Skye and I am just going to BD every second day that week. Not going to test not going to worry about it just going to enjoy my holiday. I won't know how many dpo I am or when I ovulated. Just take a full break. Will even stop BBT for one cycle. Only thing I will do is take the soy. But won't track anything won't follow smep won't stress myself out trying to do it 3 days in a row. Or make sure I do it on peak and ovulation. Just do it every second day and that is it.

Awwww I feel the same way I wish I knew all of you personally think we would make an absolute awesome group of friends. I honestly couldn't agree with you more about mentally surviving this ttc journey. It is so draining.

I promise my rant from this morning is over - no more negativity from me. I hate being a downer but just needed to have a moment and you girls are so awesome. Back to being positive. I am going to be going blind next cycle without any testing but I promise to be happy and more upbeat. Been awful these past few weeks sorry girls.

What is everyone up to? How is everyone doing? With their cycle and with their lives in general? How is it going?

@Elakiya awww honey you're just amazing!! Thank you for your absolute positivity. You ladies in here are just so amazing and so uplifting.

Truly you are fab and have an absolute heart of gold I hope you do the YT channel as you will be such an inspiration.
Good luck with your exams I hope you can pull through xx

I really feel honoured to have "met" each of you.

I have just received a call about a big promotion in the works and further training. Its a lot of work and very exciting its just big changes so might be the big distraction I am needing from TTC.

@Elakiya oh no I am so sorry about your exams. Do you think there isnt enough time to learn for everything?

Oh honey, I am overweight. I used to be really obese before I started trying lost 5 stone and was just slightly overweight that the NHS would have scolded me but not turned me away at the beginning of lock down but now I have picked up so much so has hubby we both gonna be put on weightloss before they see us.

I think the at home kit was for USA standards which are much lower than UKs so it could still be an issue plus we don't know about morphology or speed. They could be slow lol!!

Yes we know I ovulate but we don't know the quality of my eggs or what size they are and if they good enough.

We know the very basic information but until it actually goes deeper its a mystery to us all.

I will speak to our GP after the semen analysis about timeframes I am 30 in two weeks and feel like time is running away with me.

@Kaybobx awww thank you for your support. Hope I am just having a moment because I tested. I know i freaken caved I was doing so well as well. Its all becuase my left nipple became a tiny bit sensitive and I saw some montgomery glands so I was like ooooh maybe then tested and it was negative and then googled and its just normal and doesnt necessarily mean pregnancy so just pushed me over the edge I think.

Oh yes just called the labs for the SA for hubby and she said they are open now and on top of things she will mention it to the girl rebooking all the appointments to help push it along so we should receive our letter soon. So I suppose there's that.

@Welliedays just watched her story. So after all that she fell pregnant naturally thats absolutely amazing. Going private for all the monitoring must have put her mind at ease especially since there were some things she needed. Absolutely beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

I am at the point where I think I am done. I think I have had enough of peeing on a stick, tracking, everything. I honestly think its time for hubby and I to start the real talking about adoption where we start formulating a plan and meeting with some agencies etc. Not saying we will 100% go that route but I think when we start the counselling process and the explain everything in detail to us it will be the deciding factor if we strong enough to do it or not. By we I mean me if there's a strong possibility the child can be taken from us I won't make it.
@Kaybobx told you I was close to breaking point I just cant keep positive anymore I think I have reached burn out stage.
And all this because I peed on a stick this morning and it was negative yes its early yes it can still be positive but I am just so tired of doing this every month I cant keep on it anymore. Hoping I am just having a bad day and will bounce back but I will let you ladies know once I have chatted to hubby and we see where we want to go. We might just decide children are not in God's plan for us if adoption is too gruelling.

@NamechangeTTC totally know what you mean there.

@ReginaaPhalange ugh so annoying thanks for keeping us updated. Thinking of you xx

@Welliedays thanks will check it out xx

@NamechangeTTC never mind me hahaah just saw you posted last night whahahaha!!!

@NamechangeTTC hahaha sounds like you're off to a good start today hahahah!! Especially for a Monday morning

@Welliedays ain't that the truth definitely would be taking up my whole day. Would need a soothing bath after that 🤣🤣🤣🤣

Yeah I know that's why I just pushed it out my mind hahahahaha.

Whahahahaha pretty sure you are loving the no bd right now 🤣

@Kaybobx wow the maca definitely seems likes its done some amazing things for you. I am so pleased to hear it.

Haha definitely I know. Thank goodness @Welliedays has been here updating us puts my mind at such ease.

@Kaybobx TWICE IN ONE DAY? I could never do that hahah well done you!! Thats amazing... hopefully its nice and soon so you can get some rest.

Just got some AF cramping trying to ignore it lol.