TTC after MC - August 2020 (Thread 9)

@Pugprincess Sorry that you are feeling rubbish today. As the other ladies have said it's completely understandable after mc, not that it makes it any easier 😣. I've had a bit of a wobble as well I've had period type pains on and off all morning and I did the silly thing of googling last night about why I've not had a period yet. I've now worked myself up into thinking if I get bfn and af doesn't appear something is wrong - I'm scared about adhesions. On Monday it will be 9 weeks since my mva and no period since. If it is a bfn this weekend I'm going to have to go to my GP, my mind wanders to dark places and I'm now panicking that some damage has been caused. I'm an anxious person anyway and this just makes it all worse. I'm going to take @Firevie
advice and have a look at some Bettina Rae videos and maybe try and get back into meditating again xx

@Firevie No I haven't this morning I've worked myself up a bit and couldn't focus on anything. I've just come food shopping and then may do one later! You are inspiring me to do one ☺️ they really do help. How are you? Xx

@MichT4 when you say the lakes where is that? Xx

@SmileyT ohhhh so glad I'm not the only one 😂😂

@SmileyT thank you!! It’s okay now I have work on my mind lol. It just never ends does it this worrying thing with us women!

Now I want McDonald’s 🙈 but I think it will be leftover tuna pasta from yesterday for lunch. Breakfast was plant based Cereal and an orange
@Northernsoul90 how are you today? Did you do your yoga today? Xx

@SmileyT @MichT4 @Firevie
Thanks I will try to keep busy once I’ve picked myself back up. Not even eaten breakfast yet. I’ve ordered the calc Fluor which should come today so I’m going to start taking that today until af comes and then I plan to order evening primrose oil for the first two weeks of cycle. I’m also planning to try and get more veg down me cause I’m ok with fruit but lucky if I get one veg portion a day. Wondering whether to switch from pregnacare original which is meant for when you are actually preg to the conception one? (Fell preg on the original though). Anything else I can take or do? Plan to do the yoga today at some point and go for dog walk x

@MichT4 I am using femometer and just getting the control line. Nothing else. Have also been using the Clearblue ones as well (as was using those before getting PG anyway) to compare results and been getting blank circle as well.

@SmileyT yeah the next one is a week in the Lakes with my sister and co. Can't wait - just hope lockdown doesn't rear it's ugly head before then. Typically I think AF is due the day we go, which is great for not having to try and DTD in a caravan, but annoying for my blood tests. Doc was like 'there's always next month' but no thanks, I'll just have it a little late!
Then a week after we get back, puppy time!!

How long til you jet off on the holiday I'm not jealous of at all...? xx

@Pugprincess I completely agree with everything @Firevie just said.

I am so sorry you are feeling like this, and believe me I have been there. But we must trust our bodies. I have found myself many times thinking it's not working properly, or that it's broken forever, but then I realised how tough I was being on myself, and wondering how I expected my body to do anything positive when I was so negative towards it.
You are only 10DPO, and this could be anything at this stage. If it is AF, then it's a sign of a quick reset, which is a positive thing - even though it might not feel it, and I do understand it may not do. Being in the same position (first cycle post MC), I am keeping hopeful that I'll catch quickly, but I also think if AF arrives I will probs have a little wobble, but am trying hard to remember that that will mean hormones are regulating, and it's another month and another chance.

Please don't feel bad towards yourself, or blame your body. It's working hard for you and you will get your baby - when you do it will be because everything is in tip top condition

@MrsK21 I just had a chocolate croissant - not ideal for my healthy eating but it's curbed the sicky hunger feeling! I need to be more prepared - I am OK with brekkie, I just am lazy! How are you?

@CasperFlamingo hello! Sounds like a similar rational thought I'd have. Keep with it - there have been a few blank to peak quite quickly recently. Doesn't mean it won't happen at all, just might surprise you. Are the lines looking darker at all? xx

@MichT4 my OH was like 'ahh I hate reality tv' 🙄 but I knew he'd get hooked we were both laughing our heads off at the Scottish dad talking about the first guy looking like a right dork 😂 I had a McChicken sandwich meal and it went down a bloody treat. Is this next holiday the one with your fam? x

@2020wish think gaviscon is okay but best to check, ahh strange you are bloated if there is no blockages 🙈 I honestly feel like food was just sitting in my stomach and just not passing through, which just made me feel like 💩 yeah I'm just chilling for the first trimester apart from some yoga and I've got some super light weights but makes sense to check with MW first ☺️

@Pugprincess ahh, I'm sorry you are feeling low, is there anything you can do today to take your mind off of it? I definitely found the first AF after MC the hardest, because I'd fallen by accident I was so convinced I'd be pregnant and when it didn't happen I was devastated but shortly after I realised it was a new cycle and fresh start and picked myself up, bought some new supplements and started counting down to FW again x

@VP91x let us all know how you get on... work is busy but strangely I'm so not stressed at the moment. My manager has been off the last couple weeks so we'll see if I feel so calm when she is back x

@Firevie yeah the month I caught my temps were my least stable and dropped below coverline twice so don't count yourself out. Sounds like you are well set up for the day and hope this work client thing gets sorted for you x

@Lollol86 when I do a beginners yoga session I feel like dozing off afterwards, so nice and relaxing 🧘‍♀️

@CasperFlamingo I know it's easier said than done but your body may still be adjusting a bit and just remember that even if your cycle is slightly different following MC this doesn't mean that it isn't doing what it needs to it may just be a slightly new normal for you x

@Pugprincess I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way but understand it’s normal to feel low! Going through MC is horrible and emotions will always come and go. But I think it’s important to let our bodies and minds heal also and what I keep telling myself is that I need to trust that my healthy baby is on its way. Bettina Rae puts it quite nicely in the video I posted yesterday. She has also videos where she talks about her MC journey maybe you should take a look? Just trust your baby will come to you when the time is right / be it now, next month or in a couple of month but the truth is that your baby WILL come! I have found that meditation, yoga, listening to rob dial and writing in my gratitude journal is helping me. Obv I have bad days too and I’m only 3dpo so I will get more antsy closer to 10dpo but I’m really trying to just let nature take its course and trust it will happen xx

Sorry to sound dramatic but I just feel like my body is one big fuck up at the moment. X

@Firevie I’m 9dpo ovulation now so I would say it’s 5 days away if I get my full 14 day luteal phase, so maybe Sunday Monday time. Hopefully this is going to be the hardest one out the way with? Did anyone else find the first one after mc the hardest emotionally? Crying again now. I just wanted a quick fix from this torture, I can’t face years more of this, I know it might not be that way but from my past experience I can’t help but worry that I’ve lost my only chance. I was really hoping for the more fertile thing. I know I’m not out yet but it’s not a great sign for me from my experience x

I've been absent on here for a few days and boom! BFPs all over! Congrats to you all!

A little update from me. Been counting my teeny tiny bleeding after MC as AF - fell on the right dates and lasted the right amount of time. Did a PG test (or 10) in case it was implantation bleeding, but always negative.

However, been OPKing since and am on day 13 and no sign of anything OV related. Pre MC I was clockwork, with rises from day 12 and surge and OV on day 14/15. I kmow it's probably too early to panic about it, but now very worried I won't ovulate ever again (completely rational, I know!!!). Any advice / comfort?!

@Pugprincess when would your AF be due? Apologies I can’t remember. It is so hard to think positively when negative thoughts start creeping in. Can you distract yourself somehow? Xx

@Lollol86 yoga will help. What I also do every morning is listening to Rob Dial on Spotify- mindful mentors. It is not about fertility but generally about controlling your thoughts and how to be positive. I really enjoy it. Give it a go if you like xx

Morning all. My discharge has gone slightly darker this morn, def got some brown in it. I can only hope it’s IB rather than AF but I didn’t get any IB with pregnancy before so to me it’s a bad sign. I’m 😓

@Firevie thank you, I find the tww really stressful so trying to find ways of relaxing and taking my mind off of it xx

@Lollol86 sure I am happy to post one every morning after I’ve done it. Xx

@VP91x Good luck today!! Xx

@Firevie thank you I will try that one tomorrow, so you mind posting your daily ones? Xx

@VP91x good luck on your first day at work today! Hope it goes well and your new boss is lovely! X

@MichT4 I struggle to have breakfast in the mornings too! When I was pg, my DH would practically force me to eat and I'd be heaving from it. I've been trying savoury homemade breakfast muffins that I make ahead on weekends, maybe you could try something like that or a smoothie?

@Lollol86 yay! Yep just doing the free ones on YouTube. I did the fertility yoga to thicken uterine lining this morning - this is a good one. You should try it. Link Below

@VP91x Good luck today!

@Firevie I will definitely keep going and see how I get on. Do you just do the free ones on YouTube? Xx

@VP91x thank you!!! And good luck today 🥳🥳
@Lollol86 ah great! Yes totally get what you’re saying and that’s the point of yoga to relax your body and mind! Well done and keep it up! Xx