TTC after MC - August 2020 (Thread 9)

@MichT4 I think it’s that awful in limbo feeling too isn’t it? And you have that double whammy at the moment because you are waiting for the puppy and in the tww. X

Thank you @VP91x, it does mean a lot that you are all there to support through everything. Obviously I am still remaining hopeful, no point in not at this stage. I feel very lucky that I have an amazing life, and now we have our little pup joining the family. Just every now and again worry why we have had to go through these MCs and whether it'll happen. As you say, sometimes we just need to sit on it, let it out and pick ourselves up. I'll do that, I'm ok, just think maybe I've been pushing the sadness away and I need to acknowledge it.

Sounds like you have a lovely weekend planned. And those OPKs better buck their ideas up this weekend!

@chloedancer897 sorry you've been feeling the same today. It's hard to process all the emotions at once and I think they just come out in waves. While I'm negative nelly tonight, I do think there's a lot to be said in trusting our bodies. I do know it will do what it needs to, I'm sure of it, just sometimes things remind me of how robbed I feel. But we can do this, and we will. Whenever it happens we will all be there to support one another and it's going to be bloody amazing when it does!

@Rebecca1992 thanks lovely. I know it'll happen. I think all the distractions are doing me good on the whole. The thing with my sister just knocked me, not sure why it triggered me. But i will just keep looking forward to the day it happens

@MrsK21 thank you, I'm glad I'm not the only one. It's just those little reminders isn't it.
I feel a bit like that with Joker. I was open mouthed for most of it. What a dark film! But I'm glad I watched it, he was fantastic!!

@Northernsoul90 good work on the wine! Loving your style!! You enjoy it, you deserve a weekend of treats and as much rose as you can possibly imagine!

Thanks all. Just to reiterate, this is a temporary phase, I'll be ok in the morning. So many lovely things are happening, and as you say, until I know otherwise I shall remain in my seat of positivity that I'll get a bfp! Just needed to watch a disturbing film to make myself feel better 😂

xx

@MrsK21 Ahh right okay thanks for that! At the minute I still just have very dark brown almost black spotting with stringy clots. I'm hoping it turns into more of a period over the next couple of days. I'm hoping if not and I speak the nurse they do some scans or something just to check everything's okay xx

@Firevie Meal out is tomorrow 😊. Have an amazing time in Vienna and enjoy the wedding!! 🥳 xxx

@MichT4 I think I'm enjoying the rose a little too much 😂 I've drank nearly the full bottle without realising! I feel nice and relaxed now though after a bath. It sounds like you're having a chilled out evening as well! Enjoy! Xx

@MichT4 sorry you've had a wobble - it's totally normal to feel like that. My cousin is pregnant atm and she's had a gender reveal etc and I was thinking "why bother" id be so happy regardless of gender!
I've seen Joker - I felt I left the cinema in a pit of depression but Joaquin Phoenix was amazing in it!

@Northernsoul90 no worries lovely, I feel I've forgotten myself what happened it was that long ago lol I had some high OPKs but no peak so didn't ovulate but roughly 28 days after negative hpts I got 3 days of light spotting ranging from brown to pink. It wasn't heavy but enough to need a panty liner. At first I thought it was random spotting but after speaking to consultant she thinks that was an AF trying to happen x

@MichT4 Fingers crossed for you, I think when you least expect it to happen it does! P.s the pup is gorgeous 🥰

@MichT4 feel the same way today. I feel like I keep getting these signs that it isn't meant to happen and I just wish I could accept it sometimes. It's hard not to feel this way sometimes and start having that faith in our bodies again.

@VP91x not getting my hopes up. I had every symptom under the sun last time and then BAM AF arrived right on time. So it could be nothing. I read that progesterone rises anyway before AF so you may get symptoms but it doesn't mean anything at all

@Firevie have an amazing time! And yep, date is in the diary. Obviously you'll be subject to many updates beforehand. Just hope I make the date before AF rears her ugly head

@VP91x I will do. It's pretty dark so far, but I'm gripped so that's a good sign. I think it might make me emotional, but most things would in my current mood 😂

Yeah I'm ok, just have this sadness today now. And it's making me anxious about everything. Sounds ridiculous I know. I think subconsciously I'm expecting AF this month and though it's fine, and I know I'll get my bean when it's the right time, it's still bothering me it might not happen. I'm just in a pity party for one 😂

How are you? Much planned this weekend? xx

@Firevie we do have a date, I can't wait although I'm trying not to get my hopes up. Have a safe flight and an amazing holiday xx

@MichT4 cheers to your fizzy water in a wine glass. I got a lemonade from wagas with my meal. Have cleaned kitchen and living room - feels so much better now. Just need to clean bathrooms now, then packing, then finishing office stuff and washing hair. Yep I leave tmr. My flight is at 8so need to leave around 5actually as I want to get to the airport around 6.30. So no BBT for me tmr as I usually take my temp at 6.30am.
Hope you’re all having a good evening! Will keep you posted obv from Vienna! And @Lollol86 and @michT4 we have a date next Thursday / Friday to take our pg test. Apologies if I’ve forgotten someone. I can never keep up haha xxx

Thanks ladies, you really are all wonderful. I'm in my comfies with a fizzy water in a wine glass, watching Joker. Has anyone seen it?

@Firevie sorry to hear about your tiff with DH. That would annoy me too. To be fair your evening sounds amazing - love wagas. I bet he will feel bad and I hope he works hard making it up to you. When is it you leave? Is it tomorrow did you say?

Thank you @Northernsoul90 @VP91x @chloedancer897 @Firevie I know I don't need to apologise here. I just feel bad being negative. Enjoy the rose @Northernsoul90 🍷

@DBTJ glad you are feeling better. Look after yourself and that little bean xx

@Lollol86 @Northernsoul90 @MichT4 @Pugprincess @VP91x thank you all im feeling much better I promised that I wouldn't complain is baby stuck but the sickness was draining. Just woke from power nap feeling refreshed and thankful. A womens body is definitely a temple

@SmileyT PS I actually vomited my guts up at 5DPO, the first time I've vomited in years. But honestly, that's far too early. So was convinced it was the Quorn mince I had. But today so nauseous, I've wretched a few times too. Promised myself I wouldn't symptom spot this time 😖😖

@MichT4 oh no I’m sorry you’re feeling low! Hope you can switch off and treat yourself to something nice this evening. This will happen for you also!
@Northernsoul90 I thought you guys were off for your anniversary dinner today? Rose and your company sounds lovely. I totally get it!

Update on my eve - I had a bit of an argument with DH. His boss had invited the team this eve to celebrate his birthday in a park. DH has been desperate to see his team mates so been buzzing all week to go. I have never been fond of the idea as I think he should be shielding himself just like I am because we are going home to see my parents and relatives etc. He thinks it’s fine cos he’s had the virus so thinks he has antibodies. He says if I’m concerned he’s happy to come couple of days later for example of Tuesday so that would give him 4days in isolation just in case before he comes home. I told him it felt like what I wanted didn’t matter (ie I want him to travel with me tmr), his priority was seeing his team mates when his priority should be me and my parents. I know for sure if it was the other way around he would kick up a fuss if we were going to see his parents and I wanted to hang out with friends before. So I told him he can go (then he felt bad and said now he doesn’t even feel like it anymore) but I said I didn’t want him here now anyway as I’m mad so he should go. I know he loves my parents way more than I love his lol! But still it has to be said so I hope he’s feeling bad now! Also seems like decision has been taken out of our hands anyway as visa hasn’t arrived today with the post so it will probably arrive tmr! Anyway that’s my update. So now I’m doing office work, still need to pack, clean flat and wash hair! I am going to order wagamama on deliveroo ! But no drink for me as still in TWW xxx

@SmileyT how many DPO were you when you got sick with the milk? Trying not to symptom spot here but the nausea is unreal. However I'm only 8DPO! So really doubtful it's anything

@MichT4 it's a totally normal reaction. Sometimes people don't know how much we suffer in silence. Take care of yourself xx

@MichT4 Sorry that you are feeling down, I agree with @VP91x it's completely understandable. It's really frustrating when people seem to moan and take for granted the things that we long for. It feels like a kick in the teeth. I hope you have a nice evening planned and please don't apologise for sharing your feelings! ❤️.

I have a bottle of rose for company tonight 😂 DH is out with friends, he offered to stay at home as I've been sad the past couple of days but I've told him to go. Sometimes I just want to be on my own to think things over as I feel like nobody irl understands - sounds a bit depressing but I like my own company sometimes.

@VP91x yeah it was amazing to see him. Wish we could have taken him today. Not long to wait though. @scrambledeggy I'm glad he's making you smile as much as me.

@DBTJ so pleased everything is going well and you heard the heartbeat. Also good to hear you're being looked after with the sickness.

I'm feeling a bit shitty (sorry) which is weird after such a lovely start to the day. We popped in to my sisters on the way back and she told me my PG had a scan because she was worried she hadn't felt the baby move. All is fine, but they asked her if she wanted to know the sex, she said no, but thinks from things they said it's a boy. She has two boys already and I'm sure is desperate for it to be a girl. I think that's what's making her paranoid it's a boy again and it's made me feel teary and sad, when we would be so happy with either. I know I'm probably being irrational but this is the lowest I've felt about baby stuff in a while, just caught me off guard xx

Thanks ladies. There is so much info out there and ever area seems to say different things so not going to worry if it happens it happens and hopefully will be a sticky bean this time. Plus who knows when af will arrive so that means little stress too as I’ll not know if I’m pregnant or just waiting x

@scrambledeggy I had light brown in my discharge at 8/9dpo, could be implantation? Fingers crossed 🤞🏻 apparently most ladies implant around day 8/9 I read.

@DBTJ glad you have had some help I’m assuming you feel much better now? X

@VP91x Yes I might do that! I was considering ringing the EPU back but figured they would probably just tell me to go to my GP now. Have you got any nice plans over the weekend? Xx

Thank you @scrambledeggy me too! How are you getting on? Xx

@DBTJ That's brilliant news!! 😊. So sorry about the sickness I suffered bad with it before mc and it's brutal. I'm glad they are helping you with it xx

@DBTJ that's amazing news ❤️ at least they could help with your sickness, it's really hard to get through the day when sickness is bad xx