TTC baby no1. Looking for fellow crazy TTC friends!

@Pippy20 I can completely understand your worry, I think I will be the exact same if it ever happens. Will EPU not offer you a scan at 6 weeks after a miscarriage? Mine told me to contact as soon as I knew I was pregnant again and they would see me from 6 weeks on whenever I felt I needed to be seen. But I suppose every EPU is different.. I know mine is self referral so a bit easier going to get in. I think try and talk with your husband about how much stress you're putting yourself under wondering if everything is okay and that you really need the reassurance. I can see where he's coming from but it's a place of fear and sometimes we just have to face it don't we. I hope you can try and relax this weekend as much as possible and please don't strain yourself too much! I took iron last cycle as per EPU request from my miscarriage but stopped after my period in June as I felt I didn't need it anymore. Bear with me here I'm gonna put this in a separate paragraph..

I'm just home from work and there's no bleeding so far today. In an attempt to make any sense of what's happening I got out my old phone (OH got me a new phone for my 30th in May) to look at my Flo app as the data didn't move across to my new phone. I've only just remembered after looking there that I had a week long light bleed at the start of March which was 2 weeks after a period. And judging by the dates of my pregnancy I got pregnant just after that light bleed. So that bleed must have been ovulation? Maybe I do have long ovulation bleeding? 🤔

@Stabal have you taken any iron supplements or evening primrose oil? I tried both once (on different occasions) and both totally messed up my cycle (iron caused spotting and EPO made me ovulate really late) and I vowed never to touch them again!

Yes I think I’m going to pay for a private scan at 8 weeks but the thought of a scan makes me feel physically sick after last time. My husband doesn’t think it’s a good idea but I’d rather just know what’s going on and deal with it rather than wait and see and wonder. At least if it’s bad news we can deal with it rather than another 4 weeks of wondering what’s going on in there. It’s such a negative way to think but it’s so hard trying to think positively at the moment - the first couple of days I was so so happy but it’s now just turned to anxiety and dread. I’ve got lots of symptoms I didn’t have last time so trying to take that as a positive and stay well clear of good old doctor google! Just waiting on a call from the midwife so I can decant all my worries on her - luckily it’s the same lady I dealt with last time which is somewhat reassuring.

Going to visit my in laws this weekend which involves a 4 hour car journey and lots of hill walking when we get there - I ain’t keen!!

@Pippy20 sounds weird to say this but I'm so glad you're feeling horrid 😂 are you going to have an early reassurance scan? So happy for you!
I don't know where I am in my cycle. Supposed to be ovulating but bleeding.. Peak opk but temp dropped so who knows. Really sick of it all to be honest.

Morning ladies - I thought I would come back and say hi after a complete break from my paranoid googling for the last week as it wasn’t doing my anxiety any favours. The pee cup and snoring made me laugh! Sadly I’m the one with the early alarm and snoozing in my house, and my pee cup is now officially binned! Feeling absolutely wretched, which I didn’t feel last time so really hoping this little bean is stronger and wants to stick around. Sleeping terribly and can barely concentrate at work with all the worry. I know I’m so lucky to be pregnant again but I hadn’t quite realised just how difficult it would be to deal with mentally ☹️

How’s everyone getting on? Is anyone currently in their dreaded TWW and is anyone trying SMEP this month and that ever so yummy pineapple core?! I swear that combo is what worked for me! 🍍 👀

Hope everyone’s well x

Temp dropped this morning so looking like I was geared to ovulate but didn't. I'm so upset. I think I'm going to remove all supplements apart from folic acid and vit d and begin again. Doctors are going to call me back some stage today apparently 🙄

@msunflower mine never came but the doctor put it down to a missed miscarriage x

@CAG14 so sorry to hear your friend went through an ectopic, I hope she's doing ok now. I'm relieved that it doesn't seem to be ectopic for me but still sad/confused about it all, what a crazy ride this is, they certainly don't tell you this at school!

@Jadeb1995 I'm so sorry you went through this too 😭 did your AF arrive late too?

@msunflower sounds like you're going through what I went through last month :( I'm so sorry xx

@LMA27 haha I've never mentioned it before or where it's kept so I guess I've kinda hidden it too? But now I've given up caring and I'm like yeah that's my pee pot and I need your sperm again today thank you 😂

@msunflower really glad they're going to do bloods ❤️

@lma27 thank you, just spoke to my GP and getting the bloods done tomorrow to check HcG levels. I'm 99% sure they will show a BFN but at least then I can move forward and hope my period turns up, regardless of what might have happened. My GP spoke to a Gynaecologist who thought it was more likely MC then ectopic which I'm somewhat relieved to hear although neither are great!

@msunflower I’m so sorry lovely. Hopefully the blood tests can give you some more information but sending you virtual hugs because I can imagine it’s so very confusing right now. I hope you’re ok x

@Stabal your little pee tub comment made me laugh a little, I’ve hid mine and I don’t know why. OH knows I probably pee in a pot but if he doesn’t see it then it’s not as much of a mood killer haha

@butterfly5291 thank you, I think the uncertainty is the hardest part but I'll get these bloods done and go from there!

@msunflower I'm really sorry to hear this. You should get blood tests at the very least.
Like others have said you feel how you feel...this is a very strange situation we're all in. There's no wrong way to feel. Sending you big hugs xx

@Stabal thank you, that's really kind x

@msunflower of course, it's a lot to take in. So much information was given to you in a short space of time. However you're feeling is normal. Allow yourself to be sad if you're sad. If you were pregnant, you were pregnant - regardless of how long you were pregnant for. I hope you can get some answers

@Stabal thank you, I'll definitely push to get bloods done but I just feel super confused and weird about it, like I'm sad but I'm not sure if I should be sad? Trying to be kind to myself but it's definitely hard 😔

@msunflower it can take a couple of weeks for levels to deplate completely so although it's not the outcome you could ever dream of at least maybe you'd get peace of mind knowing what it was and that you were able to conceive if there's still some HCG in your system. Whatever happens I hope you're doing okay, be kind to yourself 💕

@Stabal yes I believe so, just waiting on the GP to come back to me about it. I doubt there will be any traceable HcG now as what I thought was implantation bleeding could well have been a very early MC, my GP was really good this morning so I'm hoping she can advise what to do.

@msunflower bless you 💕 will they do bloods to see if there's any level of hcg to confirm there was pregnancy?

@LT103 🤞 your bloods give you answers one way or another!

For a bit of a laugh if anyone needs it.. Bought a new bathroom cabinet, OH and I were putting it up and then moving the items across. He picked up the small plastic cup I have for dipping OPKs and he said "what's this for?" and I said "for me to pee in".. Well I've never seen someone drop something to the ground so fast 😂 I was like do you think I don't wash it out every use?! Honestly they're so blissfully unaware of everything!

@msunflower so sorry to hear that

@LT103 @Stabal the early pregnancy unit think that my symptoms suggest less likely ectopic but more likely that I had a very early miscarriage unfortunately but will never know for certain 😭 currently trying to get through to my GP who asked me to get back in touch.

I can’t even remember if I spotted as much last time I came off the pill or even 3-4 months ago when I first came off it. I think because I’m now more aware of my cycle and what it should be doing that I’m noticing it more. After lots of spotting and a super light period, I seem to be back to normal for cd7 so will see what this cycle and my bloods show

@LMA27 no still nothing available apparently and they are only open 2 and half hours on Thursdays so I'm going to guess tomorrow is out too. I'm hoping Friday will be my lucky day lol. So annoying!