Just want AF to arrive so new cycle can begin...

@Sunbird24 I’m sure everything is fine, hope the scan provides you some reassurance though! If I was in your shoes I would probably be booking in a private scan every week! Drive myself loopy. You did have the negative HPT first so maybe just took a bit longer to implant so you’re not as far along?

Hahaha read that as ‘until you sing fat lady’ and was like why do I need to sing 😂

I’m still fretting that my embryo was measuring 5 days behind when it should have been 6+5, but I have another on Monday when I should be 8+1 so can only hope it’s caught up a bit.

I don’t know anything about RHRs, but you’re never out until the fat lady sings...

@Sunbird24 good thanks how are you?
Feeling confused by my “symptoms” this month, was feeling super positive until yesterday and most of them disappeared and started cramping so thought was out but today cramping has subsided and all my symptoms are back so no clue! Only down now is my RHR has flattened so not a great sign. Need to try hold out til Thursday to test but as I’m off tomorrow, not sure I’ll be patient enough to wait all day 😂

How is everyone doing?

Thanks @Ughmaybenot honestly is, AF is due any point from this evening (based on last few cycles) or Thursday on what is my normal pattern so who knows!
Had some cramping last night so thought might be AF today but normally lose my symptoms and haven’t so god knows what’s going on!!

I’m really sorry it’s not been your turn this time @mrswilso 💐

Keeping fingers crossed for you @LS2020 the wait is the worst!

@mrswilso sorry to hear that, hope you’re treating yourself to lots of wine ❤️
Thanks, my body is massively messing me around this month - swear had more positive symptoms than the month I was pregnant 😂 got them all - sore boobs, really nauseous, gassy, cramping, bloating, backache, super exhausted (Fitbit average sleep is 10 hours this week) and a few headaches. I feel horrendous! Plus my RHR is trolling me as up for two days in a row now. I’m not due til next Thursday though so this is going to be a longggg week 😩

@LS2020 AF arrived yesterday for me. Ragin but at least I know I'm out 😤😂
Still got my fingers crossed for you though! x

Ugh caved and started Googling 9dpo symptoms and convinced I have them all 😂😂

@Sunbird24 please always feel welcome here ❤️ We’ll always appreciate the support no matter where you are in life and also it’s nice to keep the hope that we’ll get there one day too!

@mrswilso glad you had a really nice relaxing evening. Take care of yourself!! I watched the Roman Kemp and Caroline Flack documentaries and while so important to start those discussions, I don’t think I was mentally in the right place for it and it really knocked me.
I gave up with OPKs mostly because I ovulate day 13 like clockwork and was a waste of money each month. I still have a pack left over of cheapies that I’m slowly dipping into when I get desperate. I’ve only got 1 FRER pack and a double check pack so I don’t get tempted to test every month too but that just means I obsess with my RHR instead so deffo thinking of ditching the Fitbit for a while. I don’t really know what else I can do now though and as going through treatment, all scans have to be on certain days etc so need to keep track of my cycle.
Thinking about temping but not sure I can be bothered or that it’s going to tell me anything new. Or maybe the clear blue fertility monitor so at least I am testing and not getting my hopes up in TWW where I can kid myself I’m not out yet 😩

@LS2020 I was considering ditching the LH strips this cycle 😬 I haven't placed my refill order yet...still debating. The thought of not having that reassurance though...😫

No no nooo @Sunbird24 !! 🥺 please don't ever feel that way - not in this group! It's different with you girls...well for me at least, I feel like we've all been through it all with each other ❤️

I’ll keep an eye on the thread then if you’ll have me! Just don’t ever want to be insensitive when anyone’s having a bad day/week

Noooo @Sunbird24 😫 please pop in every now and then and keep us updated at least? ❤️

I feel like I ought to bow out from this thread now, but I really want you all to know I’m still supporting you and hoping every day to see you get the BFPs you deserve X

Had a fantastic talk (and a good cry) with hubby this afternoon and I'm currently in the bath with a laaaarge glass of one of the last (savoured) bottles of white wine from our wedding and a suspicious smelling cigarette 😏 feeling much better than I was earlier.

Thank you all for being there 🥰 I feel like this community in particular is one of the most supportive I've ever come across - you girls hear the absolute worst of what goes through my mind and I'm truly grateful for the outlet because I'm clinging onto my pre-TTC positivity levels by a thread these days and it's getting so so hard to hide that from "the rest of the world" ❤️

Also...we are getting dangerously close to 1k now 🤩🥳 time to start coming up with our witty next thread title??

@CaribouCarafe how are you?? How's that adorable little kitten?? 😍 ...not a euphemism btw 🤣🐱

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@Sunbird24 that’s so reassuring, glad you have your scan ❤️ Rest up as much as you can!!

@Msd2416 sorry to hear about your CPs - definitely a good idea to log with a doctor. I rang my GP when I had mine to keep an official track of them happening. How long have you been TTC? I got rid of FB for that and mental health reasons and honestly the best decision I ever made. Though was on the news and saw about a couple who killed a 6 week old baby and that enraged me that they were lucky enough to have her and we’ve been trying so long.

@mrswilso yes have a big glass of wine! Sorry to hear you think AF is on the way. No let it all out. I had a good ugly cry last night and was very therapeutic!! I’m so fed up abs over the whole thing. Don’t know how to not try though 😩

@mrswilso I 100% feel you! I didnt expect this at all ive never felt so drained. Also thinking about deleting FB as it seems every single person is annoucing theyre expecting and just triggering so much! Whyyyyyyy

@Sunbird24 so relieved for you ❤️ fingers crossed for no more dramas 😘

@Sunbird24 Thankyou lovely! All booked in for Wed so hopefully they might be able to help in some way! xx

Aw man @Msd2416 - so sorry to hear you're struggling too. Sending lots of cuddles ✨

Due on today @LS2020 - starting to have some mild cramps so I reckon it'll be here by tomorrow.
I'm just sick and fed up with EVERYTHING seeming like an uphill struggle in my life to be honest...I don't expect shit to just land in my lap and I'm usually such a positive person but the whole TTC struggle is just seems like the icing on the cake right now 😤
Sorry for being a total whinge 😫🤣 it feels good to let it out...

Oh @Msd2416 I’m so sorry to hear that. Take all the time you need to be angry and sad, and look after yourself. Might be worth seeing if your GP will run some tests for you to check if there’s anything causing an issue before you try again?

Can i join in this moan. Im literally exhuasted and fed up with this process. Just had my 3rd Chemical Preg and just started bleeding. Its so hard! xx