Just want AF to arrive so new cycle can begin...

@LS2020 you spurred me on to take a bit of a lead 😂 I’ve just made an appointment to see the doctor next Wednesday morning, and the receptionist has said that she’s also booked a nurse appointment as hell probably want to do bloods too, given what I told her. So at least I’ll get some answers on why I’m so irregular even if they can’t fix it as such.

Well that’s what I thought too @LS2020. I’ve taken a massive step back tbh, I’m trying not to think of it much at all at the moment, and I feel better for it. I’ve got too much else going on to think about it much anyway 😂
That’s definitely a bonus, I think it helps to try and look for positives when it can be so easy to just see the negatives.

@Ughmaybenot I’m pretty sure it says that on the NHS website that if they’re not regular anyway it’s cause for further tests?
Yeah or maybe the other option is they’re were super expensive so won’t do again but I used the clearblue advanced digital OPKs and they detect estrogen as well as LH so could maybe help too? But I think they were literally £40 for 20 sticks which isn’t great for you. Maybe something like the fertility monitor which is expensive but at least you can POAS and see what trends you have?
That’s how I’m trying to see it too. We got a 2 year loan to consolidate some debt a year ago and do up our new house and at least if I get pg now, I can take longer Mat leave as we’ll have paid it off while I’m on full pay and less cost to us for me to be off so that’s what I’m holding onto too!

@LS2020 ridiculously so. I guess as far as they’re concerned I’m still young and haven’t been trying long, but that isn’t even the main issue really. Having a cycle which is so messed up is surely an issue in itself? Who knows anymore 😂
I haven’t but I might look into it, even just to reassure myself, or otherwise I suppose!
Yea, it’s good, and to be honest, we’ve been quite aggressively expanding this past twelve months and we probably wouldn’t have gone quite so hard if I was pregnant as there’s always the risk factor. So maybe it’ll all become clear it’s happened for a reason one day? I like to think it will anyway.

@Ughmaybenot it’s still so frustrating for you though. I’m so mad for you that the GP won’t do anything 😞 have you thought about an online day 3 blood check? I did one for like £80 and it was reassuring about 6 months ago. I think it was a company called Thriva. Really hope it’s there soon for you 🤞🏻
No you’re so lucky to be busy in that respect, I’m still wfh and bored. Like obv grateful to still have a job etc but not great when TTC and keeping busy!

@LS2020 yea to be fair, that would be tough. I suppose I have that as a ‘bonus’ that I have no bloody clue when or if I’m ovulating 😂 still no sign of AF, day 56. Feel a bit pissed off as I’ve been crampy but nothing yet.
We’re so, SO busy with work right now, I haven’t got much headspace for much else, which probably isn’t a bad thing I suppose.

@Ughmaybenot It’s soo hard when people just tell you to relax or take your mind off it. I really want to take a step back but almost don’t know how as I know exactly when I’m going to O etc and my mind just focuses on the calendar 😞 I think for me was how much it cut when others announced their pregnancies and I realised how angry I was about it, and I kinda thought not cool, that’s a gorgeous little baby in the world, you can’t hate everyone and that’s calmed me a bit 😂

Omg I’m going to be the same. Cooing over every little thing they do!!

How are you doing and getting on?

@mrswilso @CaribouCarafe hope you’re keeping well too x

That’s a really interesting insight @LS2020, thank you. You might well be right... and yes, DH does have form for seeing in me that which I’ve yet to see for myself. I probably need a period of just stepping back maybe. I have found that it seems to be in my head nigh on constantly these days.
God I’m going to be the most OTT ‘isn’t he/she AMAZING, breathing and existing and all?!’ mum 😂

@mrswilso I drank allll the alcohol this last AF, have very much taken the drink til it’s pink to heart now as I’m sick of holding back my life 😂

@Ughmaybenot sorry to hear it’s another unknown cycle again this time and still no AF 😞 I can honestly confirm hitting the year mark like massively sucks but there’s deffo a body relief that I didn’t know I was holding being able to get stuff moving with GP and checked out and while I’m the same, I just want to be pg and didn’t think I was overly stressed given our age, it wasn’t until I had that first GP session that I realised how much I was holding and how much I’ve now actually relaxed. So my advice is listen to your OH, he hopefully knows you best! And tbh I can’t give any useful advice on staying calm about it, I tried all the yoga and meditation (Tbf they did at least make me feel better in my head), I would encourage you to do something stress relieving during this time, even if you don’t feel you need it, to just try focus on something else even for that short while. And yes you will get your lovely baby one way or the other, I’m wishing you lots of baby dust ✨

🤷🏼‍♀️ @mrswilso it is what it is, I guess. I’ve gone 84 days before, so at least it’s not that bad. It is a bit soul destroying tbh, like at least if I was regular, even if it was a long cycle, then I’d know, and even better if it was a normal length cycle because I’d feel like I was actually making progress forward, like I was actually in with a shot, but this is just shit.
DH and I spoke about it last night. He says he thinks I’m putting too much pressure on myself but I don’t really think I am? Like I want to get pregnant but I don’t fell like I’m ‘too’ stressed, just that it’s annoying that I’m not pregnant yet. He knows very little about the process if we still haven’t had any luck after a year so I talked that over with him and I think that reassured him that we’ll get somewhere, in the end, one way or another.

Jeeesus Christ @Ughmaybenot 🤭 day FIFTY!? How are you actually not locked up in a psych ward?? I would be losing my mind! Mother Nature is an actual cow sometimes 😤
Thanks @LS2020 - had a massive Cesar salad with aaaaaaall the Parmesan and I'm washing it down with a glass of wine and a big cheeky..."ciggie" 😏🥴🤣
I am 100% taking the positive away from it that at least I know my luteal phase is definitely long enough - I've been 12 days both months that I've tracked OPKs so every cloud and all that...still wish I wasn't bleeding though 🙃😂

Ah for fucks sake. I’m sorry @mrswilso that’s so disappointing.

I took another test today, as I’m on day 50. Still very firmly a negative. I knew it would be but it was disappointing anyway. Beer or two with tea tonight then 🍻

@mrswilso sorry to hear that. My AF was two days late this month and it’s a cruel feeling. Wishing you lots of wine and good cheese tonight x

CD1 today girls 😭 I'm gutted but at least I can safely say my luteal phase is long enough!

Oh @mrswilso I’ve got everything crossed for you. What a wonderful present that will be!

Aaaw thank you so much @Ughmaybenot 😘💕

Oh darling, must be so hard trying to keep yourself calm about it 😭 honestly I couldn’t be hoping for this for you anymore than I am, I am keeping everything crossed that you get that positive.

Still no sign girls 🤞🏻 eeeeeek! This is the closest I have EVER been!
I've worked out that if I ovulated later around CD19 then with my usual luteal length (around 12 days) then I'd be due on today or tomorrow and still not even a hint ✨
I've been trying really hard to keep my hopes in perspective but I'm struggling now 🤣
If I can make it to Friday without AF I'll test again with a FRER (twin pack coming tomorrow!)

Our second wedding anniversary is Sunday 🥰 I so sooo hope I can give him a positive test 😭

@mrswilso ah no sorry to hear that - did AF show today?

I eventually tested earlier - my sister convinced me 🤣 it was stark white! BFN! Fuming ha! Still absolutely no sign of AF though so I'm holding off for as long as I can and hoping she stays away! 🤞🏻✨

Be brave!! Still got everything crossed x

Nothing yet cos I'm a big scaredy-cat ha! 🤣
Dreading a BFN - this is the closest I've ever been to anything else!
My RHR took another 1bpm dip but I've still had no spotting or heavy cramping so I've saved my FMU in a cup until I feel brave enough to dip the FRER 🤣 I did dip a 25 unit cheapie stick which was negative so although I don't fully believe it, it's spooked me for the FRER 🤣

@mrswilso any update today? Got my fx for you! I’m good thanks CD7 so just gearing up to start DTD and started ov sticks again today. This cycle will be a weird one as I’ll be on holiday when AF is due so won’t be able to test but also won’t be able to drink until she shows 🙈 I’m gonna do one morning before I go though just to double check.

@Ughmaybenot yeah it’s really frustrating when they’re not in the mood to know. I guess in a couple of months as well you can just say it’s been over a year, do some tests and get some reassurance that you are ovulating and day 3s are ok

Eeeek! Thanks @Ughmaybenot - I'll definitely keep you all posted.
Have been to the loo a million times to check this morning and still nothing at all 🤞🏻✨

@LS2020 well I would think so but what can you do? I’ll push it more in a couple of months, I’m way too busy with work etc to have any headspace for it right now, especially if I have to push them and focus on that.

I hate that you had a horrid time at the doctors, it’s the worst when that happens, especially when it’s something which isn’t super easy for you in the first place!

Eek @mrswilso god I hope this is your time 🤞🏻 I have everything crossed for you!