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Nightmares about MC/MMC is worrying me sick!

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Rainbowm · 22/05/2020 09:09

Just what the title says really . I’m currently 9 weeks pregnant and are having reoccurring nightmares about being told at my 12 week scan the baby has died 😢. I currently have a beautiful toddler which I know I’m very lucky to have but cannot help the current anxiety and sadness im feeling. I had quite a lot of light brown discharge at 7 weeks pregnant which lasted half a day with stomach cramps that lasted the whole day (The cramps were very mild) and although my pregnancy symptoms were not that strong to begin with they seem to have now totally disappeared (including the increased clear discharge I was getting) which is also a concern. Before my little rainbow baby I suffered a MMC so this heightens my anxiety even more. My local hospital doesn’t accept walk ins until you are 20 weeks pregnant & as I have had no actual fresh red bleeding or pain that’s unbearable I don’t know if I should be trying to get a referral from the doctors. Just to add I did have a scan at 6+6 as id messed up on my pill so they had to date the pregnancy! Am I going insane or would anybody else have any concerns with what I’ve explained, I just need to reassurance really!

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HoldingOn2Hope · 22/05/2020 21:09

@Rainbowm if it's any reassurance the chances of mc once you've reached 9 weeks falls drastically. As for pg symptoms they can come and go. I have none at all but I am on steroids prescribed my my fertility consultant. Xx

HoldingOn2Hope · 22/05/2020 21:06

@Rainbowm I know exactly how you are feeling. I've had a bfp a few days ago, it's my forth pg, the other 3 ended in mc unfortunately. I'm feeling all mixed emotions and definitely keep having nightmares and horrible thoughts about losing this one too. I don't want to feel like that as I keep telling myself positive thoughts attract positive energy. My last mc was a year ago and I was so upset throughout it, kept thinking negative and crying all the time that sometimes I believe I kept believing it would end badly and it did. Just makes my anxiety so much more worse.
I keep going to loo to wipe to see if there's any blood. I'm trying to keep busy by cooking, talking to friends on the phone or watching movies. I haven't told anyone, we decided we didn't want to.
I would book a reassurance scan if I was you it will put your kind at rest.
Mine is booked for a couple of weeks time and I'm just going to try my best to get through the next couple of weeks happily.
Sending you baby dust and positivity xxx

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Rainbowm · 22/05/2020 18:48

No they won’t unless I turned up at A&E, which I wouldn’t want to do in the current climate with the risk of Covid and putting extra pressure on the NHS! I’m definitely going to consider a private scan like you said it’s better to know sooner rather than later. I’m keeping my fingers crossed for you falling pregnant again you sound like such a lovely lady you deserve it. I will keep you posted on my outcome xxx

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Sunshinelove8 · 22/05/2020 15:43

Yes 2 was awful but I didn’t get hopes up with no2 as was no heartbeat at first scan , although one started a week later I knew there was something wrong with development.
I had the scans for second one all private , tbh it’s as hard to hear the news in a hospital ( first time) or in private place (second time) only difference was if it is bad news you have to have another scan at the hospital to confirm.
Can’t your EPU scan you if you say how worried you are and can’t sleep etc ? If you can’t go there you have to weigh up is it worse to wait til 12 weeks and be panic stricken or just go and find out now privately . If I (please God) fall pregnant again I will be having regular private scans and want to know as early as possible what’s happening rather than wait until 12 week hospital scan . I didn’t do that the first time and wished I had.
It’s really up to you though . I’m sure it will be absolutely fine , second mmc are really rare and mine was likely my age and chromosome problems (39 at the time) xxx Keep me updated x

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Rainbowm · 22/05/2020 10:06

Thank you so much for taking the time to respond to me & im sorry for your 2 previous losses. The grief I felt after 1 was horrendous so I can’t imagine 2 :-(. Yes I have been considering a private scan as I had one at 9 weeks with my last pregnancy but then a whole new anxiety set in about if I received bad news and having to walk out into a reception of people in tears, im just balancing up whether I would rather receive the bad news in a hospital setting. I think my mind is just going over a million scenarios at the moment and trying not to show any of this in front of my toddler.

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Sunshinelove8 · 22/05/2020 09:45

Hi didn’t want to read and run. I had 2 mmc so totally understand the heightened fear (terror) . I’m sure everything is fine And pregnancy symptoms do tend to disappear from 9 weeks onwards ( just googled that like a crazy woman for my bf who had the same worry and she’s now 14 weeks with healthy bubba. )
What I think you should do is go and get a private scan (should be some still running now ) and get some peace of mind , I’ve always had them every couple of weeks , they cost about 50/60 quid but worth it to know what’s happening . I know you’ll probably worry again a week later but it will just calm the anxiety enough to help you get to your 12 week scan. You’re nearly there !