TTC after MC - June 2020

Your bodies are strong and soon enough there will be a bundle of joy on the way @Ejb86 @Girlmum83 I'm curious who from all ladies on chat will have BFP this month 😻

I don't think DH would be happy if he sees another package arriving home( ava bracelet)... haha apart from all supplies for ttc, I have been ordering quite some online. So for me I will stick to just cheapies and CB ovulation tests.

I had down day today. I guess it goes in waves for me. Mostly I see hope but there are times in a day, I feel down and still grieving over two losses 🥺.

@VP91X exactly what others have said to me too about sciatica, I'm going to see a chiropractor tomorrow so I'm hoping I may get some answers there . I've never had it before so unsure on how it would feel . Xx

@Ejb86 @Girlmum83 sending you both massive hugs, as the others said you are incredibly strong ❤️

Can't wait to hear you both have your BFPs xx

@Renna haha, my partner would absolutely go mad at me if I bought one of them 😂😂

With the pain, the only thing that I would think is sciatica! Do you think it could be?

@Dipsy77 just tell him you'll sell it next month once you get your BFP ❤️

@Ejb86 I had a strong feeling that they would be boys and had it in my head already that they would be Sam and Noah but my partner wanted to name them and chose Lewis and Chester 💙 did you name the girls? Yes we were also offered a post-mortem but opted out . After lengthy discussions with the obstetrics team and fetal medicine consultant I felt that it wasn’t going to bring me any further answers or comfort and as it wouldn’t change the outcome decided that it wasn’t for me . they really helped me to understand what had most likely happened and I really did feel at peace with the situation already and that I needed immediate closure to allow me to grieve and move on so decided it wasn’t something I wanted to proceed with .I do however totally understand the need to do so and am so glad that you were able to get the answers that you needed. I hope that it helped in some way xx

Morning ladies xx second what @1990EM said .. sending hugs to you both @Girlmum83 and @Ejb86
@dipsy77 haha kind of what I did .. didn't think Id win the bid lol … Didn't even tell DH how much it cost until he asked when I had the whole hooha about it not being delivered haha.. I reassured him I can sell it on though and brand new they are double what I paid ! :)

@smileyT yeah used the Ava last 2 nights now and still been doing my temping … but im kinda thinking it is pointless at the moment as with the new puppy my sleep is so broken, she is really good and only really getting us up around 1/2 am and then at 4am which DH gets up for work like 5am so not bad really but then im not sleeping properly listening out for her too. but will continue doing it see if I still get any pattern confirmation of ovulation etc .

Got my first flashing smiley today CD 11 .. normally start seeing peaks around CD12 . so at least my crazy schedule right now doesn't seem to be affecting my usual cycle.

Last night though I barely slept because I was in soooo much pain on my lower right back and it was radiating down to my right thigh. I almost considered A and E . Im not sure if this could be kidney/ gynae / orthopaedic and just be something wrong with my back/hip since Ive been doing all this walking with new pup....
I thought about calling GP today but last Friday they sent off my urine sample to test for kidney related infections and they have requested I have an ultrasound so I guess that can cover gynae... so maybe it would be pointless going to GP again as they would only do what theyre already doing I guess

Im also wondering if could be a cyst on ovary … I had one years ago that just burst on its own and was bloody painful. but cant remember if same pain as this...

anyone have any lower right back pain... going to leg and any thoughts ? :) xxxxx

@Girlmum83 and @Ejb86 you ladies are both so strong 💗 thanks for sharing your stories. Praying for rainbows for you both.. I know a new baby doesn't remove a previous loss but i hope it can give hope for the future and help to heal the pain a little. Xxx

So yesterday afternoon I bid on an Ava bracelet on eBay didn't think I'd win it and I did. DP is not happy and I have tried to cancel but I couldn't so I have an Ava coming !!, can't wait x

@Girlmum83 I was exactly the same. I got to the 16 week scan to be told that they were gone. Absolutely heartbreaking. Did you name the boys? Were you given the option of a post mortem? We did, it took a long time, but basically all of those things they warn you could happen, did happen to my girls.

So I'm now heading into my 9th month since MC and still have irregular periods when they were always 28 day regular cycles before. My last 2 have been 25 days and 33 days, so it definitely can take a while to settle.

I hope that you do get that light at the end of the tunnel xx

@Ejb86 Im very sorry to hear about the loss of your girls too . I think I’m doing ok and coping quite well given the circumstances . I’ve been Focusing on keeping myself busy and although it has been the most heartbreaking experience ever I really do feel that I’ve made peace with it. I know my partner worries that I’ve not grieved properly and that I’m still in the calm before the storm but I really do feel a lot stronger mentally and have found some comfort in the fact that it happened when it did rather than any further into the pregnancy Which I think
I would have struggled with a lot more . I also think that lockdown helped me cope in a strange way as I hadn’t yet announced the pregnancy to family or friends not even our girls and wasn’t seeing anyone Outside our household so didn’t have to face telling people when it all went wrong ( other than my boss and one friend who I had confided in who have both been a great source of support ) . I’m not sure that’s been the best way to think or go about things but it’s what felt right for me at the time and is what has gotten me through each day so far . I had no suspicions that it was twins and never even known there was such a thing as MCMA twins before my scan at 12 weeks . I just thought there was identical or non identical and it was such a shock to go from the news of expecting 2 , to hearing they shared both a placenta and sac and learning just how high risk the pregnancy was along with all the possible things that could go wrong to having my worst nightmares coming true and Silently loosing them both all in such a short space of time.I hadn’t fully gotten my head around it all yet and being on my own when I heard those awful words of no heart beats was just soul destroying but I’m thankful that my partner was able to be there when I delivered the boys despite all the restrictions and he’s been my rock . I have a follow up appointment with my consultant in July but was advised the chances of the same type of pregnancy happening twice are extremely low and Almost non existent therefore there was no reason to wait to try again or to think that any future pregnancy would end the same way . Im not completely convinced that I’m fully ready to face another pregnancy so soon but then I don’t think the fear will ever leave me no matter how much time passes so don’t think there’s any point in waiting to try either .i have a feeling that my body might take a while to physically recover properly so am realistic about the fact that it may take some time for me to settle into a regular cycle and conceive again. I guess I’m just clinging to hope that this won’t be where my Pregnancy journey ends and that there will be some light at the end of the tunnel . I really hope that your blessed with a happy and healthy pregnancy again soon x

I got my period after being a week late, I did a digital test (the only one I had in the house!) a day late and it was negative so I knew I probably wasn't pregnant. I also used opk for the first time ever but it doesn't look like I actually ovulated anyway, I think my body tried twice but the line didn't get anywhere near the control line colour. I was hoping to catch again 1st cycle I'm not going to lie!!

I'm hoping my body goes back to normal now, I'm surprised my cycle was so messed up to be honest, although I did still have a positive pregnancy test 2 weeks into my cycle so I should have maybe anticipated it.

Hey ladies! Just caught up - welcome to the new ladies, sorry you've found yourselves here but we have an amazing group of supportive ladies here!

We DTD last night and the night before - but both times were around 2/3am so not sure what days to count them as. Currently in my fertile window based on my apps & what looks like ewcm (not using any tests this month). Will try DTD tonight, tomorrow & maybe Tuesday night.

Still praying for some BFPs in this group xxxx

@Ejb86 hey lovely 😊 yes definitely glad to be cycle buddies again!

Ah I'm jealous you've gone back to work. I desperately need to get back into a routine. My little girl starts nursery again on 17th just waiting to hear from work when they might get us to start again.

That would be amazing! 😊X

@VP91x hey cycle buddy! Gutted AF showed but pleased that you're not in limbo and that I have you alongside me again this month.

I'm back at work again tomorrow so I'm hoping this return to routine will help and my big goal now is to be able to return to school after the summer holidays with the beginnings of a bump!

@Girlmum83 so sorry to see you here. Our stories sound very similar. I lost MCMA twin girls at 16 weeks in September. That's so recent for you. How are you? X

@HopeForRainbowbaby ah I will have a look for it and get some! Thank you for the tip.

We managed to order a Nando's and I had a large glass of wine with it too. Going to watch a couple of episodes watching 'Lost' as we are finally near the end! Are you doing anything? Hope are you enjoying your wine 😍

@VP91x we order our grocery from online quite a lot and that's where I buy products I can't find in the supermarket like plum juice but now I will add grapefruit juice. Plum juice has definitely increased ECWM a lot.

As it is Sunday and I have finished my miscarriage, DH has given me a glass of wine for relaxation🥰 how are you ladies enjoying Sunday evening

@HopeForRainbowbaby oh that's so interesting!! Where do you get the plum juice from?

I've just seen loads of threads where grapefruit juice increases EWCM! Xx

Thanks everyone for the reply. Going to hold out and see if the shooting pains stop: could just be all I’ve went though. Hoping I get a call about doctors tomorrow.

@SmileyT few months a read research paper about a scientific study done on different lubes and their effect on sperm. Both preseed and conceive + was in the study along with another brand and water and normal lube. Preseed was the most sperm friendly out of them all conceive + I believe came third

@VP91x the plum juice ( but also pomegranate cranberry) fuel fertility by protecting the cell membranes of sperm and eggs from oxidative stress ( copies from internet).

And how different is drinking grapefruit juice from orange juice to support fertility ?

@VP91x yeah sometimes I think they can stress people out more waiting for the static smiley lol! I’m going to give it one more go! X

@SmileyT ah yeah have normal dose Folic Acid.

@Wishingfornumber2 thank you - I'm on the fence whether to use the CB digi this month!?

@bubblybon20 I've not read up too much about them, but I've seen where people mention they do affect their cycles. So not keen to add that in atm! Not massively sure though. Xx

@VP91x ahh sorry AF turned up. Let’s hope June is our month 🤞. I’m going to use CB digital again and ordered the one with the most sticks this time so will hopefully see my peak this time. AF came early for me this time so I wonder if I just didn’t ovulate anyway. X

@VP91x funny you mention the vits, I have been taking seven seas pregnancy vitamins since my miscarriage in April.. I wonder if that's what has delayed my period this month 🧐 making me think I was going to be lucky! X

@HopeForRainbowbaby oh I've not heard plum juice being mentioned before. Is it to support ovulation or extra CM etc?

@SmileyT yess I'm so excited for you to test!! No I'm not taking any vits at the moment. Im worried they might mess up my cycles etc. 😂😂 I'm trying to find comparisons to which might be better xx