Penguin huddle 🐧🐧🐧 TTC after pregnancy loss - Thread 35 - time for some sticky BFP's

@VenusStarr beautiful 🥰 x

@VenusStarr
How beautiful, I'd definitely take that as a wee sign 🥰❤️

@KerryW87 ☺️ it's actually a year to the day since I found out I was pregnant for the second time. I look for signs everywhere and am seeing this as one 🌟

@VenusStarr Ahh, what a gorgeous colour! 😍

Look at this little guy! 😍

@VenusStarr Oh wow, ok I probably would have over watered it too and treated it like regular flowers if you get me, thanks very much for this! That's brilliant it's come on so well since you cut it back! Just lovely ❤️ Hope you have a lovely weekend ahead :) xx

@AliceinBunnyland I know, you're right of course and I know so many of you will have had the exact same wait so I know I just need to deal with it. Deep down I know it's safest to wait and so we will, I just have this feeling in my head that I'll feel like I'm healing when I'm trying; I'll be actively taking steps to try and have the happy outcome we so badly wanted so I feel it'll give me a focus and take the sting away from losing our wee boy? Which makes me so anxious to be able to do that. I don't know, though...I know it's been just two weeks so I know I don't really know it all yet.

I imagine you will be exhausted, but also those are upsetting milestones to be coming up to ❤️❤️ I wish there was proper advice I could give to help make things easier for you but I'm thinking of you. Of course, losing your bunny would have been devastating! Pets become your family and it's completely heartbreaking. Hope you're doing ok and managed a good sleep xx

@AliceinBunnyland I am so sorry about your bunny, its devastating ❤️ I hope you managed to get some rest last night. Sending lots of love

@KerryW87 I've had it since my first loss and its been bare for 10 months. I think we over watered it, so cut it back to sticks and started watering once a week - just running the water through and letting it drain. I turn it every few days too. It's given me a lot of joy to see it flourish

That's lovely @Kiki275, a neighbour has 2 lovely rose bushes that show over our fence and it's always blooming - the only thing I really know is about dead heading them and it helps them regenerate.

Looking very positive @Mumlili9 🤞

I think dh wants to try this cycle - I'm not going to track at all. I am fairly confident I know my body, so will have a good idea when to start the cyclogest.

Have a good day xx

@KerryW87 I see. I think most of us who lost a baby through stillbirth it late miscarriage were advised to wait and it's just one of those crappy things we have had to deal with. Some people don't wait for results so its your decision and then maybe you can be at peace with what you decide rather than feeling you're being stopped, if that makes sense.

I feel a bit fed up but I could just be tired. It's coming up to a year since my MC, which was 6 months after I lost my baby girl and I don't know where the time has gone or even what I can reasonably expect in this coming year.

I'm very sad about the bunny as I adored him but strangely it also brought back emotions around losing the baby. I've got the bedding on finally. I would usually put it on early but couldn't with my relative being here.

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@AliceinBunnyland We decided against a post mortem, but waiting on tests on placenta and tests on me. The midwife had a hunch due to the amount of blood loss in labour that it could be a placental abruption, but obviously need to wait for proper results. I've been just wishing time away for lochia to stop so we can start trying, but now having to wait for test results is making me feel like we're stuck in limbo a bit? :(

Aww no, that's awful. Sorry to hear about your lovely wee pet rabbit :( Sounds like an exhausting day, and forgetting about the bedding until bedtime is the worst! Hope you get a good sleep tonight and tomorrow is a better day ❤️ Have you got anything nice planned over your weekend? x

@KerryW87 Is it a post mortem or other testing you are awaiting results for?

@VenusStarr Thanks for asking after me

One of my pet rabbits died and I'm heartbroken. He was so gorgeous, energetic and happy. I tried to take the afternoon off work but then had some demands on me I didn't feel I could ignore. A family member came over and went home quite late so I feel a bit drained and still need to put my bedding on!

This evening I'm very emotional and I'm sure part of it is I'm exhausted.

Sorry I haven't replied to everyone individually but hope you are all ok 💗

@Kiki275 I'm the same as you! We planted a beautiful wee willow tree with yellow flowers and a yellow rose bush in the garden for our boy...but I am a COMPLETE novice with these things. Really motivated to become an expert now!

@VenusStarr that's beautiful!

I was bought two rose bushes when I lost my boys. I'm determined to become a rose expert and keep them thriving. I currently know nothing x

@Mumlili9 Oh, that top one absolutely looks like peak to me! 🎉

Hi @VenusStarr, oh how lovely! We were actually gifted a beautiful orchid from my partner's cousin just tonight, I'm admittedly not very clued up with plant care but since planting a wee tree for our wee boy I'm definitely motivated to get clued up! Are orchids difficult to look after?

Aww, I completely understand about the signs, it's natural to interpret these things as signs when it's something you want so badly and I think I'd do the same ❤️ Oh, that's exciting if it starts in a few weeks, I have everything crossed for you 🤞 Do you think you will still try this cycle?

I'm fine, thanks. Had a message from consultant advising not to try until test results come back incase there was a reason for baby's passing that they need to address. I know it's only maybe 8 weeks, but in my daft head just now it feels like forever :(

Yep screw clear blue in going with this is peak lol
These done 5 mind ago

As for me having another confusing time.

Tests the last two days look positive to me but clear blue fertility monitor and premom app don't agree. Third pic is from last cycle to compare the lines. What do you ladies think?

@VenusStarr how lovely. I know what mean about wanting a signal. Let's hope IVF brings you your 🌈

Hi everyone 👋 thought I'd just pop on to share a pic of the orchid - one has popped! I'm happy but also a little sad, I really thought I might have found out I was pregnant when this flowered - sounds stupid now.

Hope you're all well @AliceinBunnyland @Mumlili9 @KerryW87 @Kiki275 tagging you @marmitecheesetoast as you were also interested in the orchid development! :)

It's August tomorrow and my ivf should start in the next few weeks 🙏 still undecided whether to try this cycle - I've stopped temping.

@AliceinBunnyland No, they didn't say. Before we left hospital a midwife said they might take a bit longer due to the backlog after Covid (same goes for my wee boy'a service, sadly) but didn't give a timeframe in weeks. Really hoping it isn't too long, harder to move past these feelings until I feel I'm actively able to try to get to a happy outcome, if you get me?

Aww no, sorry to hear that :( Every month it hits you, even if you try to tell yourself not to get your hopes up. Hope you've got a nice weekend planned and just be good to yourself! ❤️

@AliceinBunnyland testing to see if I have it now.

@Kiki275 yeah can still do the interview tomorrow

Hi @KerryW87 Hopefully the time goes by quickly. Have they said how long the results will take?

I'm ok thanks. AF is pretty much here so onto a new cycle.

@Mumlili9 Are you testing to see whether you have had it or if you have it now? I'm not really clued up on the testing but sounds frustrating to not have an answer.

Hope you're ok @VenusStarr

@Mumlili9 eurgh, just what you really don't need. Has your interview been scheduled or does it depend on these results?x

My corona test came back with the result unclear. I have to do it again 😥. This year is really p*ing me off now

@AliceinBunnyland How are you today?

I tried to phone them today but the switchboard woman said she couldn't get through. I actually got a letter from the consultant today, just a courtesy letter but said I can phone if I had any questions. I phoned and left a wee message with their secretary, got a call back from her to say the consultant advised we wait until results are back before we try to conceive again. Bit gutting but here's hoping it doesn't take too long.

Hope you're doing ok today?