Pregnancy after MMC

@msanne @MrsTtobe @Bells993 thanks girls. Since that initial gush of bright red last night I've just had v.faint brown spotting and the last time I went to the loo (10mins ago) there's virtually nothing there. I've read lots about how it could be nothing and just an internal bleed etc but in my head if I prepare for and assume the worst I can't be more disappointed at a scan (twisted logic I know). GP has just phoned, they said to monitor it for a week and do another test to assess the situation and to ring back. As I suspected she said it'd be pointless sending me for a scan at 5 weeks but if things progress or if there are any changes in the next week I need to call them again for a referral and they'll send me for a scan. Trying to keep myself busy today and be positive but it's really tough Xxxxx

@Frankincense88 - sending you lots and lots of love and hopeful vibes. Please do resist the urge to think the worst...from my reading, i've heard a lot about early bleeding that could be loss, but could equally be nothing. You haven't continued to bleed and you may have had an internal bleed inside your uterus (I've had one previously). Cramping pain is also totally normal, i've had such bad cramps, that I've been floored this past week. You need to rest and keep hydrated. It's good that your husband is with you, so please get as much comfort as you can xoxoxo (((((hug)))))

Please keep us posted - thinking and praying for you xoxo

Oh no @Frankincense88 sending hope and love your way. No point in me saying try to relax because if you're anything like me I was absolutely in distress as soon as I saw any kind of blood. Nothing prepares you for that feeling. It is horrific. When I had spotting this time I was completely floored. I just couldn't concentrate on anything else so I truly know how you must be feeling today. Im sorry you had bad experience with EPU. Ive got to say given the situation mine were pretty good and very sensitive. But one bad experience can put you off and I understand that but they are the best at dealing with this kind of thing. The GPs don't usually have a clue.
An ultrasound might not be useful yet but they may do an internal scan.
How is the bleeding now?
My miscarriage and other people I know that have been through it have all generally had the same experience. Starting off with light spotting and progressing to heavy.
From searching the internet for hours on end I know there are lots of reasons for a sudden gush of blood and most of them not mc. So keep that in your mind too!
We're here for you and will keep you in my thoughts xxx

@Bells993 will do. They said I'd get a call this morning so that could be 9am or 11.45am - just in limbo atm waiting xxx

@Bells993 technically 9 days late today so cycle day 36. I'm usually 27/28 days. I really want to avoid going to the EPU if possible, partly because I don't think they'll see anything on a scan yet anyway and partly because of the awful treatment I received the last 2 times I was there. Don't think I'd cope having to go there and do all that by myself again. Def isn't implantation bleeding, it's too late I think and I don't think I would have got a CB 3+ on a digital if I hadn't implanted. I don't know it's all a bit stressful and confusing! Send out positive vibes for me that I get some news xxxxx

@MrsTtobe @msanne @Bells993 (I won't tag Leaf because I don't want to ruin her holiday)

Morning ladies, think it might be game over for me. Had some v.mild cramps followed by a huge gush of bright red blood at about 8pm last night. About 3 wipes worth. No accompanying pain. Ever since have just had v.mild brown spotting when I go to the loo but I can't help but assume the worst is happening. Again. Managed to actually get through to my GP surgery for 8am and am waiting for a phone call back this morning to discuss. Had my big cry last night and DH has told work he's not going in today so he can be with me at home / drive me to hospital if needed. Really hope this isn't the end after such strong lines on all my tests but I can't help but assume the worst. Xxxx

@Bells993 I don't actually know because since I've seen the 3+ on the CB it's made me wonder if I actually ovulated earlier! I usually never ovulate before day 16 but tbh it's usually more like 17-18 but the CB saying 3+ means I conceived on day 14-15. Obviously I didn't track this month so have no idea but Sunday 30th I'll either be 8+1 or 7+5 thereabouts! So hopefully will get to see something all being well 🤞🏼 still completely symptomless but seeing the 3+ have given me some hope.

Enjoy the weekend ladies - I do not cope well in the heat at all with my pale skin so will be in the shade for the best part of the weekend 😂

@MrsTtobe - CONGRATULATIONS - little bean looks very comfy and perfect. You have passed a milestone now, so you must relax and try to enjoy this as much as possible...you deserve it! You've had such willpower waiting this long for a scan I think it is bloody amazing - you can do anything!
@Leaf87 - enjoy your weekend away - sounds lovely and I think your approach is the best xx

I went back to the hospital yesterday and had my bloods taken for the SAFE test - the midwife was trying to convince me not to take it! I was so done by this point, i think I shocked her with how blunt I was so she ended up quietly taking the tests and sending me home - I find out in 7 days apparently.

Enjoy the weekend ladies - it is going to be a hot one! Paddling pools at the ready lol!

xoxox

@MrsTtobe amazing!!! So happy for you!!!
I have a test with me but not holding out much hope! I have been drinking pressco with family and friends on the beach and decided not to think about it for a few days. What will be. .. Will be....

@MrsTtobe ahhh what a perfect picture! Love it. Glad everything went well! I think I've decided I'll go for a scan at the end of the holidays, there's space on Sunday 30th and I can take DH but won't book it until last minute just to be safe. Xxx

Would help if I uploaded the picture 🙈😂 #babybrain

@Bells993 @Frankincense88 @Leaf87 @msanne

Hello ladies... say hello to my perfect little jumping bean. Measuring a few days ahead too at 12+6 so apparently 13 weeks tomorrow 😱😱
I absolutely cried my eyes out to the poor sonographers, they were so lovely and even put covid to one side and gave me the biggest hug.

God what a day.
@msanne that's great news everything was ok on the scan and so far so good. I don't think any of us are actually going to relax any time soon but I'm forcing myself to have an evening stress free. I also really need to order some trousers that fit because I didn't want to tempt fate ive been squeezing into the same 2 pairs of trousers every day. 🙈😂

@MrsTtobe I'm just hoping it's a good sign - in all honesty it has made me feel a bit more relaxed seeing 3+. Just hope it continues! I have definitely got scanophobia - part of me wants to wait until 12 weeks but that is my birthday week so don't want it tainted should there be bad news, plus I'll be back at school and don't really want to tell them until I have to. The other part of me thinks maybe book a private one right at the end of the holidays which gives me a few days to deal with the outcome and know what's what. Still haven't phoned the midwife I'm too scared I'll jinx it!

Holidays are going way too fast! How are we already half way? It's results day in a couple of weeks though and I'll get to see all of my lovely Year 11s I couldn't say goodbye to when I was instructed not to come back in in March! Xxx

Hey ladies,

So i've had my scan but not my SAFE test - the hospital cocked up....so I have to go in again this afternoon - sigh....I am sometimes flabbergasted at how badly organised things are. They had me waiting for nearly 2 hours this morning before asking me to come back.

Overall - my scan went as well as could be. I saw our little bean with his heart pumping away which made me smile. I am only 10 +2 so can't tell on all the risk factors yet but so far so good.

I will update you all once I am back this evening.

Good luck @MrsTtobe - you are going to do GREAT!

@Frankincense88 omg that's amazing. Lots of hcg going on there. A part of me would love twins and watching them grow up together but to go from 4 to 6 sounds like pure chaos. 😂
Have you decided what you're going to do about an early scan lovely?
How fast is this 6 week's going! 😭 xx

@msanne hey how did the scan go lovely?
I literally am just wondering around the house aimlessly. I'm just absolutely terrified. Ive got scanaphobia if that's such a thing. Between that and my sudden toilet phobia im a bloody nervous wreck.
Looking forward to hearing from you. ❤ xxx

@Leaf87 as they always say - you're not out until AF arrives! Both times with me I didn't get a hint of a line until 11-12DPO and even then it was very faint so you never know!

So... I caved and added a clearblue digital to my Sainsbury's order and did it about 5 mins ago thinking it'd say 1-2 weeks or at a push 2-3.... nope, 3+! Starting to take that twins comment a bit more seriously now @Bells993 😂 interestingly twins do run in my family but on my dad's side and I think it has to be on your mum's side or something but who knows?!

Good luck with your scans today ladies, sending lots of 💕 xxx

@Frankincense88 according to my app I am 10 days DPO so I am not holding my breath for this month. However last time I didnt get a positive test untill a day after my missed period so I suppose there is still a chance.... 😬
Glad to hear your feeling OK tho.

Good luck for tomorrow girls!

@msanne I needed to read that!! Xxx

@Leaf87 still totally symptomless and don't even feel pregnant 😂 it's really hard trying to keep myself distracted and not let my mind jump to conclusions so I've done a bit of work in the garden today and going to make a cake later on to keep myself busy. Don't worry too much about your BFN, how many DPO are you today? I'm a nightmare for testing early so I feel you! Xxx