Pregnancy after MMC

@msanne @Bells993 thanks for your well wishes girls, really helps to know you're thinking of us. I went into school today and bled lightly all day - I wore a pad but nothing in it; only saw blood when I went for a wee and still no cramps or pain so I have the tiniest sliver of hope that maybe tomorrow won't be bad news but 95% of me is anticipating the worst.

Shock the EPU still hasn't phoned despite me being assured I'd hear from them Monday at the latest. If they'd just scanned me on Sunday when I was in A&E I'd have had some answers and it would have saved me 2 further days of stress. I have my private appt tomorrow at 2.30 so at least I will definitely know then. Please keep praying for me and hoping for good news because I really can't summon the energy to be positive 😢

@Leaf87 how has today been? I've been thinking about you all day xxx

@Frankincense88 @Leaf87 - I am SO sorry that I haven't been online! My weekend has been crazy busy with another friends drama so I haven't had a chance to check my emails and hence see all of what's been happening.

First of all - I feel terrible that you are both going through this crappy, shitty time. It is a crazy scary thing to happen and I think you've both been incredibly brave and resilient in waiting now. You are Superstars! I am going to keep praying really hard for you that whatever happens, you can both move on with things. I am back online now and will be here for any of your updates as and when they come.

Sending you the biggest hugs ladies xoxoxo

@Frankincense88 very tired and sore but ok. Bleeding still reasonably heavy like a bad period. Hopefully being back at work will distract you and nothing gets worse today. 🙏💛

@Leaf87 how are things this morning lovely? I've had some fresh blood this morning but decided just to go to school and come home if it worsens. Don't feel hopeful at all. Been thinking about you xxxx

@Leaf87 that's a good idea and I completely understand about waiting it out at home. I keep running to the loo to see how much is coming out I'm so paranoid. I've told work I'll see how the land lies tomorrow but got a feeling I won't be in. It's so miserable isn't it? Sending you loads of 💕 and hugs xxxx

@Frankincense88 my husband was the same I think he feels so helpless and has seen me cry so much this year he just doesn't know what to do.
I would rather be on the sofa and wait things out. I will go to my mums tomorrow, all ready told work I won't be in. I am shattered emotionally and physically.

Thank you @Bells993 💛💔💛

@Leaf87 oh my lovely I'm so sorry this is happening 💕 mine died off but has now come back. I've informed school to say I might not be in tomorrow and like you just sat on the sofa with my blanket watching telly. It's out of my control. DH said should we go back to hospital but I just thought there's no point if they wouldn't scan me yesterday they won't do it today. I'd rather just be comfy at home with mum round the corner if I need her. Have you got someone looking after you? Xxxxx

@Frankincense88 I am so sorry that you are going through this as well and I jave everything crossed for you ❤
I am fully aware that mine is not good news I knew last week something wasn't right. I noticed two tiny spots of brown yesterday evening then a tiny little bit this morning got home at 4pm and its now thick red pooling in the toilet (sorry TMI). Just sat on the sofa taking it easy and waiting it out.
Please please let me know how you get on, as you have seen a strong heart beat it could be ok. Sending massive love your way xx

@Leaf87 hi lovely - so sorry to hear you're bleeding and having a shitty time. I had another gush of red about an hour ago with no pains but it had what looked like a clot in it and some tiny little 'bits' of brown. Hospital haven't bothered to phone as promised so I've brought my private scan forward to weds so at least I'll know what's going on then.

Keep us posted with how you're doing - when did it start? Praying everything is ok for you Xxxx

@Frankincense88 how are you doing today?

I have started bleeding quite heavily and have tummy pain... spoke to EPU they said watch and wait. Will scan Friday if needs be. However I know whats happening 😪😪

@MrsTtobe @msanne @Bells993 @Leaf87

Hi girls, just got home after 5 hours in a&e 😩 basically it was pretty much a waste of time going as I haven't really been told anything. They wouldn't scan me, doctor did a questionnaire, they took blood, had a covid test (don't have covid - silver linings) and tested my wee.

She said my cervix is closed which is good and my HCG is in line with how far along I am. She's done a referral to EPU which will probs be Tuesday so I'll miss INSET day 😩 she examined me by just looking up inside my fanjo (!!) and said there was no tissue coming away which is good but she couldn't conclusively say why it's happened or whether the pregnancy has come away or not. So basically just got to wait until my EPU appointment comes through and be scanned again. DH has moved our private scan to Weds just in case EPU appt is late coming through. Just keep everything crossed for me I feel so bloody miserable xxx

@Frankincense88 I hope they see you soon, i have everything crossed for you and sending the biggest positive vibes. Like @MrsTtobe said try and remin calm untill you know more. Its so bad they haven't you sat there for so long but hopefully you will go home later thinking just that with good news. Keep us updated 💛💛

@MrsTtobe I'm still bloody sat here. It's absolutely dead and staff are just sat round having a chat. DH has been sat in the car park freezing to death since 5. I've just asked how much longer and they're waiting for a gynae to come down from maternity. Absolutely bonkers it should take this long when there's absolutely no one here. I've had a couple of wees and the bleeding has died off and still no cramps / pain so keep everything crossed for me. My pjs were absolutely soaked through it was the most horrific thing to wake up to 😢 keep sending positive prayers for me xxxx

@Frankincense88 oh no 😔 such a huge worry for you but please remain positive. You know from the scan the reason behind bleeding as she could see it, maybe it all hasnt come out yet.
What are they doing in A&E for you? Are they scanning you or nothing open as it's Sunday?
Thinking of you and here for you xxx

@Bells993 @MrsTtobe @msanne @Leaf87

Hi girls,

I'm in a&e 😔 woke up at half 4 and I'd soaked through my knickers and pj bottoms. Phoned 111 and they've sent me here. Had bloods done just waiting for a doctor now. Keep everything crossed for me 😢 xxxx

@Leaf87 oh no lovely that's really poor of them considering your history. Is there any way you could book a private scan for reassurance so you know exactly what's going on? I know I wouldn't be able to stop thinking about it until I knew the situation so that could be an option? Is there any chance your dates are slightly out? When I had my scan they put me 4 days behind what I originally thought I was so it might be that you're just a little bit out?

@MrsTtobe @Bells993 @msanne
I finally rang the midwife yesterday and got my booking appt but they're so full it's not happening until I'm almost 10 weeks and I've got to go to a children's centre nearby for it. Must be lots of lockdown DTD going on in the West Mids! Booked my next scan for the 10th Sept as well so I should be 9+1, hopefully won't have anymore bleeds between now and then because my brain can't bloody take it!! Enjoy your weekend ladies Xxxx

@msanne @Bells993 @MrsTtobe @Frankincense88 did another CB digital this morning first wee still 2-3 😪
Spoke to EPU and due to covid they won't even see me for my early scan as recommendd by Charringcross let alone now. Nurse said not to worry unless i start to bleed or have cramps. I just dont have any symptoms at all nothing, honestly not got a good feeling about this. The nurse just advised I take another test in a week if I am worried about low hormone levels.

Its so exciting you all thinking about finding out the sex and names etc all so amazing!!
If all does work out I would be due around the 20th April...

@MrsTtobe nope - next to nothing! I expect we'll be told on Tuesday! I emailed my Head last night to let him know I was pregnant as he'll need to redo my risk assessment but not heard back. I'm teaching in about 26 different rooms across the 2 week timetable this year so it's going to be interesting! KS3 kids are in bubbles so staying in 1 room for every subject and Y10&11 are moving around the school with teachers. I'm quite anxious to see what Tuesday brings if I'm honest but definitely looking forward to going back! Xxx

@msanne I've already got a Sienna 😂💖 and I do love her name. I quite like Sophia too and think it goes nice with Sienna.
I forgot about Luca, love that too.💙
Im convinced this one is a boy. After one boy and one girl, like yourself I've come to the realisation that boys are wayyyyyyyy easier and less dramatic. 😂
Im honestly so big, none of my clothes fit. Leggings are my best friend. 😭🤣

@Frankincense88
I'm excited to see my kids I really am but dreading the early starts and rush hour traffic. Ive been told because im pregnant my head is getting a perspex screen fitted around my desk so God knows how it's all going to work.
Have you been given much information? Xx

@msanne I've just woken up from a 3 hour nap 😂 enjoy! I'm due 14th April, right in the middle of the Easter hols!

@MrsTtobe glad to see you back online!

@Bells993 @Leaf87 hope you're both doing ok! I won't be finding out the sex either (all being well!) I think it might just be a fun surprise for us both 😂

Forgot to mention yesterday, at my scan they mentioned an unusually shaped gestational sac - wondering if any of you have experience of this? Is it likely to be something that will correct itself further down the line or something (extra!!) to worry about? She said the heartbeat was very strong so surely that's good? I'm too scared to google in case I self diagnose myself with something!!

Enjoy the bank holiday - I'm planning on getting as much sleep in as possible before school on Tuesday!! Xxx

*wonderful rather than wonder - I think I might need to go back to bed!

Hugs to all - i'm off to take a nap! xoxo

Another post for our due dates - to be updated as you all tell me:

@MrsTtobe 14/02/21 - How amazing to have a Valentines baby!
@Bells993 13/03/21 - A lovely spring baby just as the weather changes!
@Frankincense88 XX/XX/21 - I think you are due in April? Easter time?
@Leaf87 XX/XX/21 - Are you end of April or May hun? Either way, a wonder month to be born!
@msanne 23/02/21 - Might be a February half term baby - lol!