Pregnancy after MMC

@msanne crikey! Our hospital said they're literally inundated with pregnant women atm and it's really hard to get appointments, maybe it's the same with yours? Doesn't make it any less stressful for us though!

I'm feeling ok - talked to the nurse after who went through my report and it says that baby is quite curled up with slightly reduced fluid than expected at this stage. They said it could be down to the twin that was there or could be something else but we won't know for sure until my dating scan in 2 weeks so that's the next hurdle to get over. I'm really hoping once I hit 12 weeks there aren't any further complications because it's been such a rough ride so far and my anxiety is still through the roof. I'm constantly bloody worrying about something.

I totally sympathise about the girls' clothes but it's good you're focusing on the positives and getting organised for baby boy. My original due date is coming up in Oct, luckily it's a weekend so don't have to be at work whilst thinking about it. Not sure how I'll feel on the day though xxx

@Frankincense88 - hey hun. I'm glad you are measuring to date. Your little bean is a fighter! it is so sad about the other little one, but if it needs to happen, it is better it happens sooner as it puts less stress on the remaining twin. How are you feeling overall? 2 more weeks until the first milestone - hoping it comes round soon!

I had my 18-week appointment with the midwife yesterday - baby seems fine so far. Hoping this doesn't change....but am still waiting for my 20-week scan appointment which I should have in 2 weeks but haven't heard didly squat about so far!

I am enjoying the weather though - getting my kids to wear the last of their summer clothes before they don't fit them next year. I had the bittersweet task of going through all of my daughters baby clothes and giving them away last weekend too. I just can't hold onto them and get very sad thinking about the baby girl we lost earlier this year. (she should've been coming home this weekend) It's done now though and I have all the little baby boys clothes ready to go in the wardrobe - only 5 months early hahaha!

Sending you all lots of love xoxo

@Bells993 @MrsTtobe @msanne @Leaf87

Hi ladies, hope you're all doing ok. Just waiting in the EPU. Been scanned (only 2.5 weeks after being admitted to a&e!) Little bean is hanging on in there and measuring 10 weeks. Bittersweet because they think the reason for my bleeds (and stuff that's still in there) is because I lost a twin early on. So feeling glad that this one is clinging on but still sad for the other one. I hope you're all doing okay and you're enjoying this September morning 💕

@Leaf87 that sounds like a really good idea. Take some time to recharge and regroup and just enjoy the next few months without the stress of tracking ovulation etc. I agree moving house is stressful but it'll be something to keep you really busy and a project to work on (we're 2 years in and still renovating one room at a time!) getting a dog is also a great idea - that was our plan b as well. A positive source of energy for you to look after and get enjoyment from. 💕

Hope you ladies are doing ok too @msanne @MrsTtobe @Bells993 I'm slightly worried about the quantity of lemon san pellegrino I'm smashing through 😬 I'm drinking a can a day in the evenings to stop me feeling rough but I'm not a fizzy drink person usually so worrying it's doing me more harm than good! I've got lemon squash for the day but it just doesn't cut it in the evenings 😂 xxx

@Leaf87 - totally understand hun. You've been incredibly strong and i'm so pleased that you are focusing on yourself and doing the right thing. Moving house is exciting but also one of the most stressful things in life - wishing you the best of luck with it! I think it will do well for you to focus on yourself for a few months and kick off again the new year - and I can't wait to hear the good news then!
Sending you the biggest hugs and love xoxo

@msanne @Frankincense88 sorry been taking some down time to lick my wounds. HCG was coming down on Sunday so hoping i settle back into a normal cycle soon. Decided to take a little break from trying.... we are due to move house october hopefully 🙏 (please keep your dingers crosses i can not take any more disappointment) and I think we might get a puppy. I need some normality and joy back. 2020 has beeb supper tough going to draw a line and start again 2021.

@Frankincense88 you have every right to feel anxiety but please try and relax a touch you have come this far and have no reason to believe you won't get your rainbow baby.

I will still follow you all and will be here to support you all as you move closer to meeting you rainbow babies 💛💛

@Frankincense88 - you can word vomit anytime hun! It is so important to get these feelings off your chest; i know as women, we are so empathetic towards other peoples feelings (which is a great thing and important) but it is equally important to take care of your feelings and fears.

I totally get your anxiety - that is normal and expected after all of the drama you have had. The only thing that is going to get you through this next 8 day wait will be positive thinking though. Whilst I understand that you mustn't get yourself too excited, I think you should reassure yourself of the better news, like, the lack of bleeding. The lack of symptoms could be just typical to your pregnancy - some women don't get it at all - so please don't let that worry you.
I think it is right that you tell the midwife at the booking appointment; you could also call your EPU and say you are having cramping and given your previous history - they may give you another scan then? I went initially to my EPU from 6 or 7 weeks onwards due to cramping and they saw me straight away. I ended up having 3 hospital scans before my 12-week scan which was reassuring as we were waiting for the NIPT results. I've found in these scenarios, it pays to be persistent. I may have a reputation within my local Trust, but if it means I get my reassurance, then it is worth it!

I'm feeling and looking like a whale; however, overall I feel much better now and usually any nausea subsides if I eat something. I have had splitting headaches, but paracetamol seems to fix that, so am happily self-medicating :P

I still haven't had my 20-week scan appointment which is only 4 weeks away (time is flying) but my hospital insists that I will get an appointment in time - I'm just feeling a little impatient to have to wait 4 weeks to see bubs again! I might have to do another private scan in 2 weeks time or so....but trying to just chill out and enjoy the pregnancy now.

I am wishing you a speedy entry into your second trimester - I'm rooting for you to get there so that you can enjoy this little miracle inside of you.

Sending you lots of love hun xoxo

@msanne hi lovely, yes bleeding stopped last Thursday and no signs of anything since (fingers crossed!) very up and down emotionally though, one minute I'm feeling hopeful and the next I'm full of anxiety because I haven't got any symptoms so convinced it'll be another MMC. It's so horrid I really just want to get to the second trimester so I've got a bit of breathing room. Got to wait another 8 days for my next scan as well (which I know is nothing) but the thought of having to attend on my own and then getting bad news is just making me feel awful! Booking appt is Monday so I'll definitely mention how I'm feeling to the midwife.

Sorry for the word vomit I don't have anyone I can talk to about it because DH is so positive and is trying to reassure me so not prepared to listen to 'what ifs' but it's not helping 😬

How's everything your end? Xxx

Hey ladies,

Thank you for your well wishes :) xoxo

@Leaf87 - I've been thinking about you hun. You're so incredibly strong and as @MrsTtobe said, you are clearly fertile, and I'm sure you will have your rainbow baby soon. It must be difficult for your OH as I do think they tend to bottle it up; I think it's great that you've already recognized it and are dealing with it - that's the first step!

@Frankincense88 - how are you doing hun? Has the spotting stopped?

@Bells993 @MrsTtobe - hoping you're both doing ok? @MrsTTobe - don't worry about the fatness. I look about 6 months pregnant already. We went to a friends this weekend and we couldn't really keep it a secret any longer!

Lots of hugs xoxo

@Leaf87 I'm so sorry. You sound an incredibly positive person and have kept me going at times when ive felt so anxious. What you've been through up to now is just horrible but try to keep focused on the end goal. You will get your baby. You're young and clearly very fertile so keep your mindset positive. ❤

@msanne aww how lovely. A little boy 💙 I'm sure your son was pleased. My son wanted a brother and boys are soooo much easier than girls in my opinion.😂 My daughter has aged me 10 years. 😂

@Bells993 thanks lovely, yes looking forward to seeing them grow up together 💖💖
Im really showing but I feel I just look fat rather than pregnant.😬 I'm not sure about movements. I swear I felt flutters around 14 weeks but I'm 17 now and can't say im feeling much! Think it was around 20 weeks with my daughter so hopefully soon. 🙏❤ How are you feeling apart from the tiredness?

@Frankincense88 I'm ok. We made it through the first week.😂 ive fallen asleep on the sofa every night this week by 8pm though.
Lovely to see the kids faces but tough listening to what some of them have been through. Also, noticed ive been getting a dead leg feeling in my legs if I stand for too long so trying to sit down as much as possible but it's tough with Primary kids as they constantly need you. X

Hi ladies, what a week!

@Leaf87 really hope you're okay lovely - been thinking about you lots. Heavy bleeding stopped for me around Monday but since then I've had loads of horrible brown stuff and now pink... so not in the clear 100%. It's such a tricky time and I m still running to the loo every 5 mins to 'check'. The fact the sonographer said at my scan on weds that there was a fair amount of bleeding and clots near the sac does really worry me but I'm trying to take it just one day at a time.

@Bells993 I've had a bit of a nightmare week but things are starting to settle down. I really just want to get the next few weeks out of the way so I can start to relax a bit. Hospital phoned today and got hold of me - they've been ringing all week from a blocked number but I've been teaching and don't want to answer in the staff room in front of everyone but I've got an NHS reassurance scan on the 16th - 2 days after my booking appointment.

@msanne such lovely news about having a boy! Congratulations 💙

@MrsTtobe hope today was ok for you lovely - I've only taught 8 lessons this week and I'm shattered!! Xxx

@msanne thats amazing news on the boy! Yes has scan confirmed all has gone so thats good had bloods and repeat bloods sunday to make sure my hormone levels are going down. My husband has booked a private consultation on Tuesday i think he is finding it hard not speaking to anyone medical.

@MrsTtobe amazing news on the girl as well hope being back at work isn't to stressful. Times going so quickly won't be long untill these babies start arriving
@Frankincense88 how are you? Has the bleeding stopped

@MrsTtobe @Frankincense88 @Leaf87 @Bells993

@Leaf87 - I think you have a scan today - thinking of you and sending you extra special hugs xoxo

How are you all doing today? I just wanted to give you all a quick update.

We've had our 16-week scan and found out that we're having a bouncing baby boy! All looks good for now, so long may that continue.

Hope you all get to have some rest over the weekend.

Lots of love xoxo

@Frankincense88 @MrsTtobe - good luck in school today ladies. You are amazing. I can't imagine how difficult it must be to deal with bereavement in children - i think i would just burst out into tears as it upsets me just thinking about these things. I hope you both have a relatively easy day which is easier on you both physically and psychologically.

@Leaf87 - how are you feeling today hun? Sending you big hugs xoxo

@MrsTTobe - How fantastic that it is a girl! I know that they're harder work but I really see that spark, fire and life in my little one that more than makes up for it!

@Bells993 - how are you doing hun? Hope you're still cruising :)

Here's to wishing us all an uneventful and chilled out day xoxo

@MrsTtobe oh that's so sad 😢 we've had a few safeguarding things but no bereavements that I'm aware of. I'm just trying to force some breakfast down me before leaving but just don't fancy anything 😩 hoping today is relatively stress free but I can't see it happening. 4 lessons in the 4 corners of the school... I'll no doubt be fashionably late to everything from today onwards! Xxx

@Frankincense88 thank you. I have a boy and a girl so we didn't mind either way although my daughter is by far harder work than my son ever was so hoping it's just her and not a 'girl' thing. 😂

We had training day Tues but head just let us just set our classrooms up etc as they hadn't been touched since March really. Then kids were in today. It was tough, a little girl in my class lost her mum to cancer recently and I struggled seeing her so upset. We've had all the bereavement training but in real life i can't say it helped. 😢
Good luck tomorrow, take it easy. You use that foot stool 😂 xxx

@MrsTtobe hi love. Oh a little girl how lovely! What do you have already? How exciting! I was back yesterday but we've had 2 days of INSET and kids are back tomorrow... all 750 of them! 😬 looking forward to seeing them all though and meeting my new classes. I've got a free right before lunch as well so it shouldn't be too intense 😂 my first lesson is usually handing stuff out / going through organisation / banging on about expectations then the following lesson I'm straight in with content! Xxxx

Hey ladies,
First day back at work for me yesterday since March 18th. Very strange out there still! Trying to teach children from 2m away and not being allowed to leave the classroom is very difficult. But we're all finding a new normal aren't we. @Frankincense88 have you had your first day back today then? Hope it wasn't too bad and I'm so so happy that your little babba is doing well despite worrying you so much. They are really testing you already but a tough pregnancy means a little angel when they are here. ❤

@Leaf87 I literally have no words. Im just so so sorry and upset you're going through this. You have been through so so much already and you have been so strong and patient and positive. I know it must seem impossible right now but keep going. Literally have everything crossed for you and keeping you in my thoughts. ❤

@msanne @Bells993 how are you both feeling? Ive had dead legs for the last 2 days, Im not sure what it Is. Never had it before. We found out on Monday that it's another little girl. 💖

Sending you all lots of love xxx

@Frankincense88 that is absolutely amazing news i am so happy make sure you rest and take care of yourself!! I have a scan Friday but I think its just yo check that everything is coming out nothing more. Will reset and try again 💛💛

@msanne I hope so too - I'm going into school tomorrow but I've told my Head I'll have to teach sitting down (which is my go to anyway 😂) and he's ordered me a footstool, what a legend! Going to book another scan for a couple of weeks' time just to check everything because I'm still so anxious! Xxx

@Frankincense88 - Thank God! Keep the faith and keep resting hun - it is so important that you don't stress (i know easier said than done) and take extra good care of yourself....I think you should probably not go to work for the short term too? I would be too anxious.

I hope that the reason for the bleeding is purely due to the internal bleed and I will keep everything crossed for you that it all stops soon.

Enjoy the mc'ds!! comfort food at its best.

Big hugs hun xoxo stay strong xoxo

@msanne @Leaf87 @Bells993 @MrsTtobe hi ladies, I have no idea how but it's still clinging on in there! Measuring 8+3 but quite a lot of bleeding and clots around the sac so if I have any more red bleeds I have to go straight to A&E. Managed to see everything abdominally rather than internally so pleased about that. Got a McDonald's on the way home because I've not eaten all day through anxiety 😭 xxxxx

@Frankincense88 - will be thinking of you this afternoon hun, I'm rooting that it is all ok. But, please know if it isn't you will get through it. It is the absolute cruelest thing to happen, and doesn't help when the hospital are dicking around about it....but we are all here for you xoxo

@Leaf87 - I hope you get some comfort at your mum's today. You've been so strong throughout this. I have got everything crossed for both of you.

Lots of hugs xoxo

@Frankincense88 @Bells993 @msanne
Thank you all it does mean so much that you all care. Feeling OK today a bit of tummy ache and back ache but nothing unmanagable bleeding still pretty heavy.
So glad to hear yours hasn't been to bad today @Frankincense88 I have every single thing crossed and keeping positive for you. Please let us know what they say tomorrow 💛💛