All about us ~ MC'ing or MC'ed or TTC after MC or just loves cakes!

Sorry you had such a tough day too Jules, I really admire what you are doing at the moment, you are such a strong, giving person. It is hard to be alive without really living but sometimes it is the only way to cope day to day. I hope you get your 'happy ever after' soon hun x

Just wanted to say the same to you too Herby, life is rubbish at times. I don't think it should matter what colour you are - if a child needs a home, they need a home and love doesn't care about colour. I hope you find an agency that will help you.

SplishSplosh, sorry you are having such a tough time at the moment. Also sorry if you think I am interferring but your post hit such a note with me I couldn't not say anything. It is hard enough to deal with the death of a parent without the m/c on top. I found out I was pg last year and lost my Mum 4 days later, clinging on to the baby was all that kept me going and when I m/c I felt like my world had fallen apart. I then had a 2nd m/c later in the year, I had not realised I was pg, it was just that I kept getting +tive tests after the bleeding had stopped so was scanned to see if anything was left and told that I'd had another, very early, m/c. I went into freefall at this point, didn't cope at all, and my relationship with DH suffered badly. Despite knowing the pain of losing a parent he just expected me to pick up and carry on like nothing had happened, I didn't feel he supported me at all and I felt totally alone. I can't even tell you how I worked through it all because I really don't know, I think I stopped living for a while, eventually we got our relationship back on track and will hopefully have a new baby around Christmas. I will never forget how little support DH gave me when I needed him but now I am doing better within myself I think that he just didn't know how to deal with it, he was grieving too. Again, sorry if you think I am interferring but I just wanted to give you a virtual hug and tell you that all this is very raw for you at the moment but it does get easier, even if it takes a while.

oooh now i went for sour stuff half way through pg with ds, you know those belts with sour sugar on them, i used to eat about 50 a day, cant stand them now though lol

ILTS - them and Sour Starburst or anything sour really orange or lemon juice, smae with both, both girls.

claire thats lovely but......there are pregnant women on this board

Poor jules im sorry ive not been on msn for the past few days, ive been trying to get the house in order so i can chill out. I did get your link for the funny cats tohugh and it was hilarious

sweetkitty, honestly? thats basically what i existed on!! apart from when i ran to the shop before taking dc to school i used to pick up 2 packs of bacon crisps, razzles are they? and munch them happily while sitting in the traffic

oh Jules and splishsplosh it sounds like you've both had rotten days

splishsplosh I hope the bleeding stops soon and that things get better with your DP

Jules stay safe in that bubble tomorrow, we'll all stay in ours and we'll all float beside each other bubble talking. There will be no new mums or pregnant ladies just lots of support.

jules I don't know what to say to you only that it will get better I'm sure, you have got to come to the end of your long and painful tunnel soon, the light is there for you.

Please use this thread as your sounding board if you need it theres so much support on here and not one of us would mind if you screamed, ranted or sobbed every day we all have broad shoulders.

please please take care of yourself xxx

Oh justjules, that must have been so hard. I know it seems like there are little babies and pg people everywhere, and it just feels like why not me, doesn't it.

I'm a veggie too, didn't crave meat at all though, just pizza with dd, and with the mc one, chocolate and crisps

kate - that makes sense I forgot you tested BFP last week, a waiting game for you now

herby - that is isn't it I know they have rules but as you said I'm sure these kids would rather grow up with two lovely adoptive parents than with foster parents or in a care home, it's not fair

ILTS - I'm veggie too but during pregnancy every now and again I would need a McDonalds and I hate McDonalds, but they tasted so good. With both DDs my first 12 week diets were horrendous, only thing I could face were chips or Dairylea cheese sandwiches.

Hi everyone,
Big hugs to everyone who's having an especially bad time right now.

I went for my re-scan this morning, and they said there's still 3ml of material left (was 16ml a week ago) can't believe after all that bleeding that it's not all out. They then said they wanted to do an ercp - but after reading some people's experience of that, and having spent 12 days doing it the natural way, i just don't want to now have to have an op. Feel quite upset that it's still dragging on. It feels like until I get over the physical side of things, there's no way I can even start getting over the emotional side.

Anyway, they've given me some antibiotics - the sho seemed to think that this was a prob as I as bf still - asked me if I wanted to give up - well of course at some stage, but wasn't thinking of today! - and told me to do a preg test in 2 weeks. If it's -ive then that;s all ok, but if it shows positive, I have to get referred back for another scan to see what's happening. I'm hardly bleeding anymore, so I'm worried things aren't going to finish, but the dr said sometimes blood can be reabsorbed by the body.... here's hoping.

I had to take my dd with me to the scan, and she just wailed and cried when she saw me on the table, which was quite upsetting too.

Now I'd got used to the idea of a 2nd lo, I'm finding it hard to give up on the idea, but relationship with dp isn't going well at the moment, so don't think it's likely I'll be ttc. We have various issues anyway, and I think my grief over my mum's death and now the miscarriage seems to make me so angry towards him sometimes. I feel doubly let down when I feel he's not supportive, as am going through such a low point right now and don't feel he's there for me like I need him to be. Not sure how fair that is, but I guess this isn't my most rational time.

Sorry for long old rambling

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You getting the vid?

I managed not to be a cow today which quite impressed me as it's not normal. We have two 3 month pregnant ladies at work so due when I would have been and one of them came to my office to enquire where one of the other partners in my dept was and I bit my tongue and didn't say anything unpleasant about not having tracker devices fitted to people. Then again nor did I feel strong enough to say I heard your news congrats. So maybe I was a bit cowish really. Oh yes and I stared at her tum I couldn't help myself.

ooh very exciting - did either of you do any OPK's? I did and it was showing a surge last Thurs, but having read Bucky's v v v informative EWCM link (and ordered the video*) I don't think this will be my month as no EWCM.

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i couldnt be pg again so soon could i? its only been 3 weeks tomorrow since m/c [hopeful emoticon]

with dd1 7 i ate meat and fish, after she was born i couldnt touch either, still havent ate fish though with dd2 6 i lived on cheeseburgers and with ds 4 i ate anything but dont remember meat being on the menu

It is strange isnt it lol....

With lost little one i lived on crisps or chips.

Hugs to everyone having a rough time of things at the moment

Sweet kitty - the agencies I've contacted so far don't have many white babies or children, and don't place coloured or mixed-race children with white couples, as it doesn't do much for their identity. I can understand the policy, to an extent, but surely it's better for these poor kids to have a loving home, than none.

i wasnt symptom spotting it was when i was bugging dp for a macdonalds breakfast muffin (im vegetarian) this morning and settled for battered sausage and chips for my dinner and when i sat down on the toilet earlier i had this really wierd horrible pulling feeling in my lower back which i had all through last pg and knew something was wrong when i was able to walk without looking like 90 year old woman (im 23!!) lol

lissie - thinking of you today I have only had one mc I don't know how you girls with 2 or more cope, your are all so strong

herby - it's so when everyone around you is getting pregnant without even ttc, I used to be one of those smug gits though, shame how a mc changes you, why are adoption agencies telling you to eff off, I hate that I know they have to have certain criteria etc but some of it is a pile of nonsence especially the age one for you

kate - I would do a test if I were you it would put your mind at rest if nothing else, I've said before my mc was around the 12th August bled for 2 weeks after that then had AF on the 7th Sept so ov'ed whilst still bleeding so you never know, apaprently you are really fertile after a mc.

hello to Tjuice and Flossie too
x

IKHYF, the edd of my ep is today, seems like every other month theres an EDD or loss date.