TTC after miscarriage - April 2020 part 2

@HE88 sending you lots of love. It's totally normal to feel this way, especially when we think we are moving on emotionally something knocks us off our feet. The other day it was a random Instagram announcement for a girl I worked with when I was 17. Just let yourself feel how you feel and don't suppress it all as I always say think that makes it worse. Xx

@dinosaur17

No the frer .. if i tilt my phone i see the second line :). X

@TerribleImagination ooh that's interesting about hay fever tablets I never knew that but I've been popping them the last week, might try go a few days without see what happens. Sorry I don't have any advice for you.

@francis05 ahh yeah that makes sense if you ovulated around the 1st April I reckon you will definitely be able to see it on a HPT by the end of the week - so exciting 🌈

@SmileyT driving myself and everyone else mad I think! Haha! Yes so did another frer today which is the same and uploaded my cheapie from yesterday and my cheapie from this morning.

@Hayleylou89 Which one the cheapie? Due today and nothing yet! Had some really light spotting this morning but nothing since.

Think I need to be banned from buying any more !

@dinosaur17 I think you'll drive yourself mad if you keep staring at the tests 😂 did you do another two today and they look the same?

@faithandcake mine were high when I started them but think that was from the hcg and then they went to zero then literally only peaked once even though I was testing every 8hours so must've been a short surge.

@Bellabubble your chart makes me so happy... only a week or so we have to wait before AF is due 😬

@dinosaur17

I can see it on the altered pick so slightly! Xx when is AF due now? X

@Hayleylou89 My other cheapie from yesterday

@Hayleylou89 My frer from today xx

@francis05 Came up within 5 mins, oh hope it lets you upload a pic! Have you posted before? Sometimes it takes a while to add the function.

I don’t know what to believe anymore haha!

@Ejb86 It’s the Beconase one, I think it’s anti-inflammatory... I think it must be affecting my CM cos I would definitely have had some by now! Gonna have to stop it and live with the hay fever 😫 Luckily I’ve still got some pre-seed though, so at least I can use that.

@Bellabubble Thanks so much for the tip! I’ll have a look for that now!

@Mommybear05 thank you for your lovely words. I've been out a walk already might go for another one later on. Just sitting having a Latte and going to watch rubbish on Netflix ha ha. X

@HE88 aw sending you such big hugs xxxxxx of course all of these feelings are perfectly Natural. You will struggle to look at these things in other people. I hope they are being sensitive to your feelings. The sun is out today. Could you find the time to perhaps go for a walk? I’m sure these feelings will feel less intense over time. We will have good days and bad days. I’m so confident that you too will have your 12 week scan and rainbow baby 🌈🌈❤️❤️❤️❤️ Xxxxxxx

@Hayleylou89 no false positive- just curious I suppose. Those first response ones are supposed to be the best though. Exciting for you xx

Ladies I'm really struggling today, my mmc was 8 weeks ago, and I just keep thinking about how much baby would have grown in those 8 weeks. My sister in law has also had her 12 week scan today and I can't even bring myself to look at the pictures and say nice things also my other sister in law is pregnant too but she had her 12 week scan a couple of weeks ago. Inside I just feel anger and numbness 😢 and feel really selfish for feeling like this, is this normal? X

@dinosaur17 my phone isn't letting me upload a picture, will keep trying! Just dipped an ic from the same pack in water just to check and that has no line. Can't stop staring at these tests!
I need to try and wait 48 hours before testing again I think, ordered some frer which are coming on Thurs or fri.

Did your lines comekup within the time frame? X

@dinosaur17 post a pic of ur frer im good with squinters :) x x

@TerribleImagination have you tried sterimar? It’s a salt spray - safe for pregnant and breastfeeding ladies - it’s salt water, but the best decongestant I have ever used (Long term sinusitis sufferer, and OH is a bad hayfever sufferer too) x

@faithandcake I’ve got a few cheapies left so will def check again in the morning if AF hasn’t arrived. I think I’ve lost hope a bit, because my Frer was negative and they’re supposed the be the go to arent they? Xx

@dinosaur15 I would rule out a positive yet. I've never had a false positive or on these cheapies but clearblue seem to be dreadful for it.
Maybe try again tomorrow with FMU?

@faithandcake Do you think? My one yesterday I thought had a bit of a tinge of colour but my eyesight is horrendous so never trust what I’m seeing!

@francis05 Are they? Do you have a pic stored on Dropbox or anything? You might be able to upload later?

@Hayleylou89 Yes got one and dipped that as well but I’m sure it’s BFN, left my cheapie for 5 mins xx

@dinosaur17

How long did it take for the line to show? Could u not get and frer? Xx

Random question for you all... Is anyone here a hay fever sufferer?? Mine is so bad just now, but I’ve stopped taking the tablets this week because they can dry up CM and that’s not helpful just now 😂 I’m taking a nasal spray instead, but as yet I have zero sign of any EWCM and I normally would by now... I’m getting flashing smilies on my Clear Blues, so I’m wondering if the nasal spray is stopping the EWCM from appearing?! Has anyone had this at all?

@SmileyT yes exactly 3 weeks today since surgery so would be early to get a bfp, although did get my bfp in Jan @ 12dpo when I was 3+4. I think if I did ovulate it was between 31/03-02/04 judging by EWCM so am coming up to the end ot the TWW if ovulation happend.
Sounds like I'm trying to talk myself into it doesn't it! I do have a cb digital but don't want to waste that yet.

@dinosaur17 my tests are similar, do you know that this is defo an evap? Trying but failing to upload a picture x

@dinosaur17 looks slightly pinky to me. Fingers crossed for you

I’m going to write a book at call it “The woman who got 483847 Evaps and sent herself over the edge”