TTC after miscarriage - April 2020 part 2

@Rainbowhope11 I'm glad you've had a checkup and they have confirmed that everything looks good, did you have to ask for this or was it just offered? I didn't really think about it at the time but I was offered no follow up at all and I'm not sure whether I should be contacting the hospital to request this.

In regards to the discharge, I've only started checking cervical position and CM this month when I started TTC but my CM has been more white and almost lotiony after ovulation. I don't think it is anything to worry about, but if it's very unusual for you I'd give whoever you did the check up with (gp or hospital) a call just to confirm everything is okay xx

Hi ladies! I had my 3 week post miscarriage checkup today and all looks fine. I still had to do blood tests as my Hcg isn't below 10 yet.
Later on, when I checked my cm and cervix, I noticed little bits of white discharge. This has happened to me a few months ago, and I assumed it was a yeast infection. However, today at my checkup, my Obgyn didn't mention anything and said that everything looks normal. I'm confused! Has anyone had this type of discharge after ovulation/before AF? I've had ewcm up until Saturday/Sunday, but haven't been sleeping well so could not confirm ovulation with Bbt tracking.

@SmileyT aw I feel that way too. If I can only keep in touch with friends virtually right now I’d 100% rather talk to you guys- you guys ‘get’ it. Like you say sometimes it’s just convenient. Current events are certainly giving me perspective. Yes you really should take time to read if reading is what you are into. I absolutely love it but I know not everyone does. Can’t get hubby to read anything! Audible have some good offers on top of you want a listen while doing chores or a home project. And also in relation to our thread on ttc, I find reading helps to take my mind elsewhere when I’m having a hard time with things xx

@HE88 yes you do that. Feel free to vent as even that will help. Sometimes (people may have noticed) I find just typing a long message and putting my feelings out there is therapeutic x

@Mommybear05 I keep meaning to read 'the subtle art of not giving a f' I've heard such great things and tbh I've now got no excuse not to do more reading. I think what you said to @HE88* is so right. It's so hard in normal life for us to avoid negative influence or things that make us unhappy but with reduced work contact and reduced social obligations it's really showing me who who are my friends out of convenience and who are really there for me. I really appreciate having this board as feel like you ladies are just so supportive and lovely xx

@Mommybear05 defo agree about lockdown less contact with them the better right now while I sort myself out. Our family did know and none of them have bothered to ask if I'm ok but your right no point in worrying about that.
Like you say tomorrow is a new day, just need to concentrate on myself and hopefully having my little rainbow. X

@Bellabubble thank you very much for sharing with me your story I found that very helpful. I didn’t think of that before- a shorter period meaning a thinner lining and not enough for implantation.
I really hope I either get my bfp or my period again next month. Hubby is off work for the rest of the month now so we have lots of time to dtd. I’m not going to opk this time.

@HE88 all I will say is thank god for lockdown in that way. I wouldn’t wish this virus to happen of course not it’s horrible but it has its silver linings in that you can get your space during this difficult time. I have completely buried my head in the sand and not really kept in touch with many people. Just how I’m feeling. I’m just being at the moment. I feel low and I don’t want to pretend to anybody. So I wouldn’t spend too much time looking at these pictures or taking to these people if it hurts right now. These things won’t always hurt you but right now guard yourself especially if they know what you have been through. My people don’t know about mine and I’ve been distant. Funnily enough they haven’t noticed or bothered to ask Which I think hurts more 😒 but you mustn’t spend lots of time thinking of other people. It’s their path and yours is different. I know it’s hard. My friend is three weeks ahead of what I should be. I thought we would be pregnancy buddies but it all just blew up in my face :( life can be horrible sometimes. You will have your time I’m sure of it. You will have your 12 week scan and have your rainbow and these dark times will pass. Give yourself the space you need right now though and it’s ok to say this hurts and it’s too much for me. You are being reasonable that this is a sore spot for you. It doesn’t mean you aren’t happy for them it’s just raw right now. Tomorrow will be a new day and I’m sure you will fee better. We all have those days. You will get through this and days like this will be less and less. I’m thinking of you xx

@VP91x hmmm interesting. Let’s hope you have no more bleeding now then 🤞Xx

@peperethecat I really wouldn’t worry what other people are saying. There’s a book I’m reading called ‘the subtle art of not giving a f*’ excuse the language. I’m not really into swearing but it has some key points that are so helpful. Whether you ttc is absolutely no one else’s business at all! Don’t let them trigger you. You are already concerning yourself with getting pregnant so don’t let people give you other worries you don’t need. Look after yourself and put yourself first xx

@Hayleylou89 @Mommybear05 the spotting has gone today when I checked CP in the afternoon. Still feeling a bit crampy. Xx

@Wishingfornumber2 well my sister in law told us when she was like 7 and half weeks as she got an early scan so that was just about 3 weeks after my MC, so had to deal with that now need to deal with the 12 week scan with official announcement. Gosh I feel like I'm pure moaning sorry everyone! X

@HE88 it’s completely normal and understandable to feel like that. My sister in law announced her pregnancy to the family not long after we had told my mother and father in law about our MC. Went between feeling sad and jealous it wasn’t me announcing a pregnancy and feeling happy for her. Big hugs to you. X

@peperethecat ahh I'm sorry you are feeling like that. I personally haven't seen any comments but I can see how this could add to your anxiety around having a suppressed immune system. I think TTC is such a personal decision and is really down to a person, their partner and maybe their doctor to discuss the right time and any risks. If you think it's the right decision for you then that's the only thing you can control. Being somebody that has suffered with anxiety before I understand it isn't as simple as forgetting about what you've heard/read but I do really recommend cutting out any forums/ people/ webpages that add to your anxiety. Sending you lots of love 💕

@Bellabubble thank you, that sucks about having to see your best friends bump pics. Fingers crossed we all get that baby bump ☺️ x
@VP91x thank you means a lot x

Does anyone else find the comments about how it is stupid to TTC during coronavirus a bit triggering?

I've been prescribed prednisone to help my next pregnancy stick and I'm worried about taking something which will suppress my immune system during a pandemic. These kinds of comments (usually from people who already have children and don't need to worry about whether they will ever be able to have a baby) just make my already high anxiety go through the roof!

@HE88 definitely not being selfish it is completely normal to feel how you do. Sending you a big hug xx

@Bellabubble it only takes one out of the millions of little swimmers that start the journey so you may have already done enough and only a few days from the little bean snuggling into your uterus 🙌🏾

Just got in from work and I'm bloody exhausted

@dinosaur17 hey not sure I can tell from the picture you’ve uploaded but maybe try again later?? This part is so nerve wracking isn’t it. Fingers crossed for you xxx

@SmileyT - I’m pinning hopes on the one DTD this month, the day natural cycles says I ovulated is the day I got my peak on a cheapy stick..and we then dtd late night/early hours - so hopefully we managed to time it right!! Initially it was predicting I’d be ovulating on the Sunday - so I thought we had a few more chances lol!! Fingers crossed for us both!!

@HE88 Don’t feel bad - it is hard!! One of my best friends is 2 weeks ahead of where I should have been now, and seeing her bump in her pics has been the first time I felt sad about it (previously I have still been excited for her and been able to separate the emotions, but not that time! I wanted a baby bump too!!)

@he88 @Renna sorry you guys are feeling low. I was never one for insta but I deleted Facebook just before my mc and I’ve felt happier for it. It’s very easy to use social media to compare yourself to others. I find it easier to live my life this way xx

@Renna thank you sorry to hear you are feeling low too. I get what you mean about overthinking things I'm so bad for it and I tell myself to stop. X
@dinosaur17 thank you it is the random things that get you think this is hitting my a bit harder because it will be 2 new babies in the family and none of them are mine. X

@Renna aww gutted to hear ur feeling down! The beginning of the tww is rubbish it goes so slow... i deleted insta and fb as i just seen far too much on there baby related and everytime i went on it was like self harming so to spk cos id end up feeling so down all day, weve got this 🙏 and uv got every chance in hell u did everything by the book this cycle x x

@HE88 so sorry you’ve found yourself here, and completely justified that you feel that way! It is the most random things sometimes isn't it. I am still working at the minute but find that not being able to occupy myself as much is awful for over thinking.

@Hayleylou89 Do you think? I’m sure my eyes have gone square! I’ll check tomorrow on another one of my cheapies but they aren’t as sensitive. Xx

Welcome to those joined the thread xx sorry to find yourselves here xxxx

@HE88 Sorry to hear you're feeling a bit down. I'm having a low day today too. Think it's because I'm in the beginning of TWW but just dont feel positive and I've also been thinking about the fact I should have been pregnant right now. I feel like I'm thinking about it a lot and too much . I'm quite a chilled person and dont like to cause myself stress as that doesnt help but cant help over thinking things then get pissed off with myself for thinking too much 🙄 ... @SmileyT I ended up deleting Instagram right after MMC as so much of my feed contained babies or baby related stuff or announcements . I've tried going back on once or twice but deleted the app straight away again .
It's all so draining , I feel so exhausted today haven't done much work , emotionally draining I guess . Xxx

Thanks @SmileyT I'm really bad for bottling things up then I just explode. At least I know feeling like this is normal and I'm not just being a selfish cow. X