TTC after miscarriage - April 2020 part 2

@SmileyT I am starting to think maybe just maybe it could have happened. It's so easy to dream of it happening.

@Hayleylou89 hopefully you get a positive result over the weekend that would be so lovely!! X

@Hayleylou89 I had a bit of cramping through the night and I've just completely convinced myself that this isn't my month. I'm 9dpo so expecting AF in the next week but suddenly just feel really beaten by the process this morning. I think it's because I feel like now I have to wait like 15 days before I can even think about doing anything to try now and feel a bit lost. This is my first time actively TTC and secretly I kinda convinced myself that it would happen straight away and everything would be great, but looks like I'll be joining the Jan 21 crew @Mommybear05 x

I've just got my fingers crossed for you, @dinosaur17 @VP91x and @francis05 hoping that we get a BFP this week I feel like that will really cheer me up. No pressure ladies 😂

@Mommybear05

A New year baby will be gorgeous!! So glad u feel a bit more bk on track what opk testing will u be doing? Abd what apps do u use? Xx

@VP91x ill be testing around the weekend too as AF is due mid week next week

@Renna I am but also not really "feeling" pregnant or any other symptoms really when i woke up and had that pinky discharge with fmu i also had a bit of cystitis burning and cant that cause blood in ur urine??
so im now thinking could it have been that but then i had a good drink of cranberry and it was ok the rest of the day.

@francis05 oooh u need to do a test 🙏🙏 an frer would show by now im sure x

@Rainbowhope11 when I went into hospital it was the beginning of covid madness, tbh if I hadn't of been so traumatised by the whole event I would've complained. I will definitely not be registering at that hospital for any future pregnancies even though it's a 2min drive from home.

@Renna I also have no clue what goes on with my CM and CP I feel like I unintentionally see or feel what I want to after excessive googling. I was convinced my cervix was high after ovulation but then told OH to have a feel and he was like 'nah it's quite low and firm' I've only been doing it a few weeks and trying to record what I see/ feel so hopefully after a few months it'll have some pattern 🤷🏾‍♀️

@dinosaur17 honestly I have no idea what dpo I am, maybe around 10-14 dpo x

@francis05 how many dpo are you now? Fingers crossed for you!

@Mommybear05 honestly driving myself a bit mad! Mostly just cleaning and watching rubbish on the TV! How about you? X

@dinosaur17 tests being delivered anytime between tomorrow & Sat so will probably test with them either Friday or Sat using fmu.

@Hayleylou89 no idea what dpo I am as not sure when I ovulated... Maybe between 10-14 days, who knows?!
Can't concentrate on any work today, day dreaming of my Dec baby!! X

@Hayleylou89 morning I’m good thanks. It’s def af it for heavier last night so looking forward to what this month will bring. Here’s to maybe a new year baby haha.
That picture of your pink looked so similar to last time! I know you didn’t dtd as much as you would have liked around ovulation but sperm can survive for days. I would say you definitely have a fair chance! I really hope af stays away for you! X

@dinosaur17 so hard keeping patient isn’t it? How are you keeping busy? X

@francis05 sounds like great signals. Wishing you luck when you test again and hope af stays away for you x

Morning all!

Ooh @francis05 sounds promising! When are your tests being delivered?

Woke up to more what I thought were AF cramps but it’s been 3 days and I’ve usually come on by now! Had a streak of blood again in CM and have used my last cheapie up and the dye has run and looks all weird!

@HE88 I hope youre feeling a bit better this morning, new day and all that xx

@Rainbowhope11 That is really good that you have had some decent follow up check ups. I had nothing other than being told to do a pregnancy test after 3 weeks... if its positive to contact them... Which it wasn't but I still tried to call EPU to let them know test looks negative and wanted to ask them about this lump if tissue I passed like 3 weeks after surgery … but couldn't get through so that's that ! At least you have reassurance moving forward which is great and will help mentally rather than questioning everything yourself xxxx ...and I have had that kind of discharge before and it wasn't thrush, Ive never had thrush.. but I cant remember at what point in the cycle but ive deffo had it and I felt it was normal xx

To be honest I have been checking CP and CM for over a month now since MMC/Surgery and I really find no pattern in mine. And when people refer to EWCM I cannot recall getting this really..Im not sure.. haha but my CP seems to go up and down even throughout the day it seems higher in afternoon or sometimes and I don't see massive changes in my CM so Im not sure If im doing something wrong or uselss at checking or mine really doesn't change much. My CP always feels pretty high... maybe because im 6ft tall so everything in my body is long … haha Does any one else struggle with this?
Also when looking into reviews for conceive plus lubricant I use (the first time we used it we got pregnant) it says it helps balance CM so sperm live longer … I am thinking maybe my lack of being able to see a difference in CM shows my CM could be like lethal for sperm haha and kills them off as we were trying for 3 - 4 months before I used conceive plus then first time used it it worked. …

@francis05 they do sound like good signs :) fingers crossed and hope your tests get delivered soon xx

@Hayleylou89 how are you today ?:) buzzing off your little early positive sign of IB I hope :) deffo a good sign for you as it happened before xx only few more days and you can start testing! xx

I guess I am feeling a bit better mentally today … we will see how the day goes !! But I am feeling rough :( Have like cystitis symptoms, eg. feeling urgency to urinate and stingy etc.. and bit of a sore throat and generally feel groggy. so dosed up on cranberry, cystitis sachet and water...

@Hayleylou89 I'm doing okay, no more spotting since day before yesterday when checking CP. Just waiting to see if AF arrives over the weekend otherwise will think about doing a test. How are you xx

How r u all done today?? @Renna @VP91x @SmileyT @Mommybear05 @dinosaur17 xx

@francis05 how many dpo are u now? I remember the hunger grumbles so bad in my first pregnancy in the middle of the night.. its def a good sign and all the other signs too. Im 5dpo and not feeling many symptoms really except i had random pinky cm yest morning which i had last time at the same time but other than that i dont feel too hopeful this cycle xx

So decided not to test again this morning, going to wait until my frer get delivered.
But last night I had so many symptoms which seemed to come on unannounced, came back from walking the dog, straight into the bath and my nipples were so sore, then came the sore boobs (weren't even touching them and they felt grazed), fell asleep on the sofa then went to bed and could not drop off until after midnight (very unlike me), then stupidly hungry and needed to make toast at midnight!! Along with cramps & gas/bloating.

Back to feeling normal this morn...I'm taking it as a good sign right? X

@Rainbowhope11 that’s great that you feel this way. So here’s hoping you see some more positive signs of things returning to normal. Remind me of your job? Yes it’s great to keep busy reading and in the garden. We’re trying to restore our kitchen so been knocking off tiles, undercoating all the walls and sanding and priming all the cupboards so really busy! I feel like I could handle two weeks, fertile time, two week wait and testing/ af. It feels so good to feel like something is happening. Remind me how you are tracking your cycle?

@Mommybear05 I'm feeling okay. I think when all this happened and I was told that I need to come in for so many checkups and wait for AF, I felt overwhelmed. It seemed like such a long wait, but the time has gone by faster than I thought. Been keeping myself busy with work and reading, and just enjoying my garden 😊

@Mommybear05 that's great to hear that you're feeling positive! I think I'd also be happy with seeing AF at this point just to know that things are back on track. Glad that you're doing well😊

@Rainbowhope11 I’m good thanks. Cd2 today. Feeling positive to have my cycle back so good that you have been monitored so carefully. How are you feeling in yourself now? X

@Mommybear05 Thank you😊 how are you doing?

@Rainbowhope11 hey. Glad things are looking ok for you. I think that white discharge is typical for the luteal phase in a cycle. It can be either creamy or sticky

@SmileyT After my mmc (had to induce miscarriage with meds), I had a follow up ultrasound to make sure I had passed all the tissue. After that my doctor requested weekly blood tests to make sure Hcg was declining appropriately and asked me to come back in 3 weeks for a checkup. I'm not sure if all the checkups and monitoring were due to the medical management or whether that's just the protocol at the practice that I went to? Either way, I must admit that it's given me some peace of mind knowing that things look okay. Definitely ask for one if you feel like you need some reassurance 😊

You're right about the discharge, probably nothing to worry about. I'll see what happens over the next couple days. So far there's no burning or itching so I'm fine to wait it out😊