hi there. thanks for the warm welcome sorry i used caps last time, i didn't know about the shouting thing. ya learn something new everyday! thanks for the head's up. anyway, i was 3 days late when i tested. it took a couple hours to see a line in the test window, and i read you can't trust it after the alotted time, so....i waited. well, now still no period. it's day 6 of being late now. no af in sight. never been late before, but i guess there is a first time for everything. i have a 33 day cycle, without fail. iam supposed to go for a pelvic ultrasound tonight, cause i have been complaining about cramps since ovulation time last month. they never went away. very strange for me. i thought af was going to come early even! that's how it felt! i got panicy, and made the ultrasound appt, to check out my organs. this was before i was even late. then last night i had the worst dream, that i went to the appt. tonight, and not only was i not pregnant, but my organs were totally destroyed, and they told me there is no way in hell, i could ever possibly bare a child. i was totally devestated in my dream, and the most scarey part to me is, i have had dreams in the past that have come true. now iam beyond nervous!! my brain might just be going into overdrive, but it's scarey none the less. i just lost my 9 1/2 year old son 3 months back, and i'd beyond saving myself, if i couldn't have any chidren with my husband. (he's 42, 43 in 2 months w/o children) iam 29. There is also, alot of reproductive cancers on my mom's side, that's why i always must be extra careful. my mom's mom died by 40, and my mom had a hysterectomy by then. ughhh lucky me right?? anyway, i don't know what to think right now, all i can do is wait and see! if iam ok physically, and not pregnant, iam glad i'll have people to talk to, on this board, in the same situation. that is comforting. i know i have (as expected) been super stressed over the loss of my son. i was told that he would never make it till 6 months old, so we all knew the day was going to come eventually, his situation was always terminal, though i liked to hide in denial, since the years went by, and he was still here, but he was in constant pain, so i know he was better off where he is now, but selfish me, just wants him back. i guess that's normal, but i know he's no longer in pain now, and for that, iam comforted. i have been stressed before, i have had a real hard life, but it has never caused me to miss a cycle, so i doubt that's it, and i had my period soon after he passed, so who knows?? thanks for everything!! fingers crossed baby dust to all!!