Fuck you TTC

@BabyMoonPie ahhh cuteness! I'm so thankful for fur babies right now! Xxx

@MotherOfShihTzus I don't know what to say but wanted to reach out. I'm so sorry that all of this is happening to you. I hate the pressure from people (someone mentioned about a family trip to Disneyland in 5 years because "of course I'll have my own child/ren by then". Apparently there's some magic fucking ball that I can't see in to. I really hope the ivf clinic opens soon for you. I would hope they aren't too far behind considering pretty much everything else is. I hope you have some good news soon. Xxx

@Chicasimona 👏👏👏 Every. Single. Point.

And fuck you to those who say, "it will happen" - it probably won't - it's been 28 cycles and each one feels like a bereavement.

Fuck you to giving up booze to try and help (and caffeine, and foods I love to weight), and then fuck you to all those friends giving the side glances and me having to say, 'no I'm not pregnant', and they still continue to assume.

Fuck you to covid 19, which has closed my ivf clinic weeks before I was finally due to be seen, with no route to opening, and likely another years' wait whilst I get older and my fertility/ chances rapidly decline.

Which has led to another Fuck having to move my wedding for the 2nd time due to waiting for ivf and not wanting the stress.

@icouldstillbejoseph mine came early this cycle as well, on cd21. I'm usually 25-28 days. Every month I test early I get my period early it's like my body is conspiring against me.

@Peach1204 - what a cutie for some reason I can't post photos from my phone - it says it's worked but the post doesn't appear on the thread. My boy looks exactly like Felix (as in the cat food)

Oh no @Icouldstillbejoseph sorry to hear that, that must be so frustrating. Hope pretty much gone here, but thanks anyway

@BabyMoonPie here is my boy! Took me ages to pick a photo. I've kept a count of how many I've taken in lockdown and as of day 72 I've taken 345! He's definitely a good stress reliever and is so good around children so I know will be a great big bro. Post yours too! Xxx

I'm also going to add a fuck you to this thread dropping off my lists

@Peperethecat - my heart breaks for you - I hope you get a happy ending

@peach1204 - post your fur baby picture here! Stroking my cat is one of the things I do when ttc is getting me down - it's soothing and therapeutic

I'm in the 2 week but holding out little hope. I'm 40 tomorrow and have visions of my eggs turning to dust at the stroke of midnight!

@Daffodil21 I know better than to hope. I have crap progesterone levels so spotting like this is normal for me and I know it heralds AF.
I will be vicariously hopeful for you instead!

@peperethecat I just read yours out loud to my OH and started crying.
There is so much unknown in this world
Toddler challenge was going around FB so I did it....with my dog!
Kids are not invited to our wedding..maybe I'll ban pregnant women too 😆

@Icouldstillbejoseph careful - could be implantation bleeding. How many dpo are you? Been reading up lots about it today as I've starting bleeding earlier than expecting (think it's just AF on the way though). So yeah 'fuck you' to my cycle giving me fucking false hope. I will certainly be joining you with a very large glass of wine when AF arrives properly instead of arsing around

Cheers to all here. I've just poured myself a large glass of red in celebration of my stupid uterus that is spotting already. Only CD20.
Fuck you TTC

Fuck you to this thread dropping off my threads I’m on.

@peperethecat oh lovely, I'm so sorry for all that you have gone through and hope you get a bundle of joy soon. If I'm honest I would rather see your story and have more knowledge of how it could be a struggle and hope for a happy ending then be blissfully unaware and believe it just happens perfectly. I feel sex ed when I was in school was more about how to stop pregnancy because it's so easy to conceive and could maybe be a bit more about having a family and the difficulties. Sending you lots of love. Xxx

Oh god yes, fuck the fucking 10 Day Being a Mum Challenge. Fuck it right in the eye.

I was tempted to start my own 10 Day Not Being a Mummy Challenge.

Day 1 - collage of pics of the positive pregnancy test I got on my first ever cycle TTC and my husband and I out on a walk looking deliriously happy because we thought we were having a Christmas baby.

Day 2 - screen shot of my WhatsApp conversation with my husband a week later when I was miscarrying and devastated and needed him to come home immediately.

Day 3 - pictures of all the non alcoholic drinks I had at my friend's wedding because I was pregnant again.

Day 4 - photocopy of the letter I had from Cardiff hospital diagnosing a pregnancy of unknown location, probable miscarriage, after heavy bleeding during what was supposed to be our summer holiday in Wales.

Day 5 - screen shot of my Fertility Friend app showing how many weeks I bled that time and how long it took my period to come back.

Day 6 - photo of all the expensive vitamins I started taking to try and stop it from happening again.

Day 7 - all the pregnancy tests I took the third time I was pregnant and really thought it was going to work out this time.

Day 8 - photocopy of the report from the hospital confirming that they removed "placental debris" from my uterus during an uncomplicated D&C procedure.

Day 9 - picture of my nephew who was conceived on his parents' wedding night in June and born on what should have been the due date from my second pregnancy in March, exactly 4 weeks after my D&C.

Day 10 - collage of pictures showing a picture of my uterus from the hysteroscopy I had a few weeks ago after my fourth loss, the needles I've been using to self-inject fertility drugs, me in the hospital having an intralipid injection, and all the pills I'm currently popping.

How's that for a 10 Day Trying Very Hard To Be A Mum But Finding It Very Challenging Challenge?

I love you all! This. Just this.
After 20 months and giving up on medical advice (e.g. not to drink, exerise heavily, et cetera) I conceived DD. But now it begins again.
Also fuck the ultrasound + hormone tests done in the same month. One that said I ovulated that month and one that said I didn't. :(

@Onemorefuck hahaha sounds like something I would do! I think people already think I'm grumpy and opinionated enough already 😂 guess people just don't think of others and they want to celebrate their children. I don't think it should be a FB challenge though. Xxx

@Peach1204 and @Nat4392 I was tempted to do the non mum challenge to show all the things I can do without children, but I supposed that was a bit passive aggressive

@Nat4392 so with you on mummy challenge. What's the challenge?! Why does no one nominate me to show off pictures of my fur baby?! I mean I'm biased but he's beautiful! 😂

I’ve been having so many dreams about pregnancy. Last night I dreamt I had given birth and didn’t know I was pregnant.
It’s just so upsetting waking and realising it wasn’t real.

AF started today and about an hour later my friend announced she's pregnant with her second. Fuck that.

@PurpleDaisies that’s the reason I was going to post here today. Fucking “mummy challenge”??
Yes it must be difficult as fuck to upload a picture of your took-one-go-to-conceive child. Actually considering a break from Facebook.
Also fuck you TTC under lockdown so I can’t even go out and drink cocktails to drown my sorrows of AF arriving yet again yesterday.
Need to go to one of those rooms where you get to smash stuff today...

Bless you @painintheholeSIL don’t blame you I’ve stopped writing in the cards of people at work who have baby’s I just can’t do it. I’m happy to them but the green eyed monster rages too loud for me to be able to say how happy for them I am.

My bosses daughter had her second baby in feb and it was literally all I heard about from the day she found out. Now I hear everyday about how unjust it is that she can’t hold him. Well it’s more I just that I don’t have one at all and though you don’t know I’m trying to wouldn’t care anyway because it’s all about you so fuck you.

Oh and fuck the attitudes everyone will have, if by some miracle I ever actually have a baby, about how I got pregnant because they will all want to know. I can hear the whispering in the office already sorry did you ask anyone else that question?? No? Well fuck off!!