Fuck you TTC

After three terrible miscarriages finally pregnant with our first after TTC for four years and a round of IVF. Mother in law just casually talks about MC's like it was a trip to Sainsbury's. Doesn't really give it any thought how much they hurt both physically and emotionally.

Father in law is already on about when we'll have the next one! Its a miracle I'm even pregnant now.

Screw them all. If there was a safe way to get drunk thats what I would be doing (obviously I would never!).

Hang in there OP, I hope your dreams come true xx

@MummyBearBoo how did you find out you weren't ovulating?
I hope you do get to celebrate. I'm very sorry for your losses too.

Ok I'm so sorry - I can't celebrate anything anyway til i get the 11 week test results if I even get that far - I've now lost two boys from these test results I wasn't trying to be insensitive I was trying to give hope!!
It took me a while to conceive the last little boy and being told after 11 weeks that he was too poorly to survive was devastating so I do understand the struggles and previously due to PCOS my periods stopped for 6 months so I couldn't even do this whole TTC thing!! I know it's heartbreaking when AF comes but I hated it more when AF didn't come but also I'd get a BFN as it turned out I wasn't even ovulating! Xx

@MummyBearBoo @CorneliusBeefington I'm sorry but I reported both of your deleted comments. I have found this thread so helpful and the pregnancy announcement and test photo absolutely floored me. It was so unexpected here. I'm so happy for you @MummyBearBoo but there are so many other threads for happy bfp stories and I cried myself to sleep last night after checking in here to vent and seeing that photo. I'm so sorry if that upsets you. I genuinely am.

@Paininside30 pretty much everyone who I knew from my first mat leave had baby 2 and some had baby 3. Me still nothing 😭😭

I now avoid some of them as I can’t deal with the questions/comments and seeing their babies.

I hate it coz I seem to get pregnancy like symptoms after ovulation (even tho it's too early) in my cycle they're hormone related so I never know either way! I feel like I'm definitely pregnant coz of my symptoms only for my AF come early on time!!

@CorneliusBeefington -I didn't request mine to be removed either?

Fuck you negative pregnancy test month after month after month.
Fuck you people who tell me to relax and it will come.
Fuck you people who have had baby 2 and 3 whilst I am still struggling to achieve 2nd.

Urgh.

Fuck you 'symptoms' that turned out to be AF for the last 2 months.

Fuck you NO symptoms this month that still turned out to be AF.

Fuck you whatever the fuck it was last week that looked 100% like implantation.

Fuck it all!!!!

Fuck you AF for being 3 days late and coming on the day my work colleague makes big pregnancy announcement.
Fuck you to the friend who knows about my struggles and talks nonstop about how hard her morning sickness is and how tired it makes her.
Fuck you to everyone who told me after my MC “at least you know you can get pregnant”
Fuck all the money I have spent on stupid fucking pregnancy sticks

So glad I found this thread.
My daughter is 4.5, had a MC last year, TTC for over two years. Just on my period now, could cry every single day. Feel so desperate to give DD a sibling (she loves and adores babies).
How do I get out of being so depressed about this and feeling like a failure?
Have heard every single comment on this thread too. Fuck them all

Ps had all the test and all is normal on both sides.

@NoseringGirl completely agree with all of it! Fuck it all! The things women have to go through and deal with when they 'just want to have a baby' are crazy...so many awful comments from everyone...and so many awful feelings we fe because we hate that everyone around gets pregnant easily and then again we hate the fact that we hate it!(of course we're happy for that friend or cousin who just had s beautiful baby!) It just feels like it should be our turn now!
Fuck it all!

Oooh I like this thread...

Big fat fuck you to my body for giving me every pregnancy symptom under the sun and also a late AF but 3 negative pregnancy tests this week. 😠🖕

Thanks fingers crossed for you for next week!!

I have PCOS and my cycles are usually 5 weeks long it doesn't work this time (from ov in Jan) I'm not due to ovulate this month!!!

I love this thread!
Fuck you pcos
Fuck you 4 month long anovulatory cycle
Fuck you chemical pregnancies
Fuck you GP who said 3 chemicals were just bad luck
Fuck you everyone who is super fertile and likes to tell me why they think I'm not
Fuck you the bitterness that comes with infertility
Fuck you constant sad feeling that I just can't shake at the moment after 2 years of this shite
Fuck you people who I started TTC at the same time as who are now on their second pregnancies in that time

I could probably go on...

Everyone in my group of Friends now have two kids my only friendless friend has just had twin boys!! Xx

Totally understand OP my DD is 4 now and we lost 2 boys due to TFMR the last one would have been due 10th Jan so once that was out of the way we decided to try again! I hate the 'when are having another' question everytime I feel like I'm being stabbed in the heart!! I only have a 50/50 chance of having a healthy baby and they can't test till 11weeks!! I'm testing tomorrow I think my period is 3 days late but I didn't get a positive OPK so no idea!! Baby dust to all!!

@Nat4392 oh I totally feel your pain. Saw cousin’s 20 week scan photo online yesterday, followed by AF arriving first thing this morning, 3 days late also. Proper ugly crying on my way to work this morning. Fuck all of it 😓