Fuck you TTC

Oh & fuck you to the people who get lovely obvious BFPs at 8/9dpo, it’s not that I’m not happy for them about their BFP I genuinely am but ffs so fucking early
Fuck you TWW which I also like to call the weeks where time stands still
Fuck you the urge to POAS even though it’s bloody pointless, I swear it requires more willpower than giving up drink/drugs/smoking, none of which I do but I’m seriously considering

Still fuck you ttc.
Fuck you bbt chart that doesn’t look like a “pregnant” chart
Fuck you already planning for next cycle
Fuck you that I feel shit but not in a morning sickness pregnant kind of way, I’d love to feel like that rather than just low & PMS like
Fuck you that I’m wishing my life away

@Paininside30 extra fuck you to having the in laws over. Especially when you just need to be alone and cry or smash something or get pissed.

Hi all. Just de-lurking so I can check in and keep up with the thread.

Think I’m wasting lots of pregnancy tests but it’s the hope in me.
Baby dust all. Don’t let the bfns get you down

Fuck you to getting my hopes up when desperately trying not to just for my period to start today.
Fuck you for then having inlaws staying with me taking over my house.
Fuck you to the consultant who told me to wait another 3 months as he is sure it will happen naturally.
Fuck you to everyone in my life who doesn't have a fucking clue how draining this shit is. Day by day, months by month, fucking year by year.

This thread is better than therapy.
Fuck you implantation symptoms last month that got me way too excited.
Fuck you AF turning up EARLY for the first time ever on the one month that I thought I could be pregnant. And for being a particularly nasty, heavy bitch too.
Fuck you DP who told me I was stupid to get upset over it and there are plenty more months to try. Funny how, to me, a cycle feels like forever. Yet he's not arsed and just glad about the extra sex.
Fuck you to everyone at work who keeps asking if I'm pregnant if I dare comment that I'm feeling under the weather.
Fuck you to only being able to DTD once this cycle so probably bfn this time too.
And fuck you to my constant bad mood. 😂

Fuck you to dreams where you get a bfp

Thanks @painintheholeSIL xx

I understand chemical pregnancies this early are common - doc said to treat this like a period and test again in a week just to make sure 😢! Ovulation next month should be based on this being CD1 if bleeding continues!

I wasn't pregnant when I first posted on here or didn't know I was and it appears that I'm not any more either so thanks lots -I just understood what to OP was talking about with everyone asking when they we're having number 2!!

Sorry to hear @painintheholeSIL, AF can be such a dick sometimes

Fuuuuuuuck having to hold your wee in for longer than you'd like so you can pee on a stick!!!!

@MummyBearBoo it sounds like you've been through a terrible time! Good luck!

What I don’t get is why people who are pregnant continue posting on a thread for people struggling to conceive.

What I don't get is even when people who know what you've been through/ going through still asks questions like 'when will you have a second then'? I almost bled to death in my second TFMR the doctors didn't think I'd pull through coz they couldn't stop the bleeding -i made it in the end and even after that they still ask -you think they'd give you a break to grieve you've just lost your second baby in the same number of years and was too weak to even make myself a cuppa coz of the blood loss FFS! Xx

I'm going to link to a very similar thread that's still going from last year (though with a heads up warning to readers there's a similar stick announcement rather near the end) and then scuttle awkwardly away again. Enjoy!

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/conception/3700399-A-whole-load-of-up-yours-to-ttc

Fuck AF who arrived 4 days late today.

Fuck having to go to work tomorrow (I work for social services - I’ll say no more)

I know I was constantly plucking my chin and waxing my tash it settled down a bit after my periods started again though I now have a 5-6 weeks cycle so towards the end I'm plucking and waxing again!! I did mange to lose 2 stone last year as my distraction from TTC coz I was overweight on BMI coz the insulation resistances cause by PCOS can make it harder to lose weight so i pretty much had to cut out sugar, eat less and joined the gym!! Xx

@imsorryifioffendyou - they did a blood test at two different points in my cycle plus I had no AF and they found cysts on my ovaries that they said would stop eggs from being released - also I'm sure the doctor said that progesterone is released after an egg and my levels were really low it's that that causes some of the adverse effects of PCOS they said it wasn't as obvious for me coz I had higher levels of oestrogen which compensated a bit!!
On my first loss it was difficult coz my due date would have been the day before my SIL was due with her second. - she went on to have a healthy baby and my pregnancy had to end at 12 weeks that was horrible I wanted to be happy for her but she talked about it all the time! Xx

I wasn't trying to be insensitive I was trying to give hope!!

It is insensitive. Someone else getting pregnant is irrelevant to my situation. It doesn’t give me hope, it makes me feel awful and this really isn’t the thread for it.

I hope it works out for you.

@09AdriannaP exactly the same here, everyone has gone on to more very easily where as we struggled with our first and is are struggling longer for another.

My brother "accidently" got pregnant beginning of last year and now I feel it's really hard to see them/talk to them or even be happy for them. The daily family group chat of pictures kills me 😑