TTC after pregnancy loss - Thread 34 - huddle up and bring on the BFP's

I'm sorry that you're still in limbo @Mumlili9, it's really tough. I hope you are able to be kind to yourself ❤️ it's so distressing but I'm hoping that the progress you're seeing is a good sign and you get positive news on 17 February xx

@BunnytheBlueWhaleits a wait and see game. I don't feel good about this at all

Update

Scan well what can I say they found a sac measuring 4 + 4 but I'm 5+5 bleeding has increased since the scan this morning to bright red spotting but my blood hcg test has increase by 77% since last Tuesday. Another scan 17th of Feb. No baby seen
I don't know what to think or feel

I'm so so sorry @Mumlili9 it's absolutely heartbreaking ❤️ sending you lots of love today, I'll be thinking of you

@SunStruck thank you. Yes it was cycle 2 after the hysteroscopy, dh said was it too soon to try maybe, I don't know. I'm trying to hold onto the fact that we did catch the egg so there's every chance we can do it again and it be OK. We've had our letter to say we're being referred for ivf and they're checking whether we're eligible for funding (we are) but I'm not expecting anything fora few months. The rmc appointment is at the end of February. I'm not going to test in future until a week after af is due. I think I'd rather have not known about this and just thought it was a late period. I was temping though so going to stop after ovulation is confirmed from now on. Hope you're OK.

@MOGMOGMOG85 welcome. We've spoken on other threads ❤️ this group is lovely and supportive ☺️

@bunnythebluewhale I'm thinking of you and your DD ❤️ I'm glad to hear your family and friends have acknowledged her. Are you doing anything particular for this day?

@venusstarr I am so sorry to hear about your chemical! 😔 it is a good sign you got pregnant though, so you think you will give it one more try or get help? When was your appointment at RMC again? Is this your second cycle trying after surgery?

@Mumlili9 im so sorry - I've written in the other thread for you. I really hope you'll get good news today. When is the scan?

Hi everyone,

I've been posting on the infertility chats but a lot of the stuff they talk about there is going over my head at the minute - for now I'm mainly just stuck in the cycle of ttc after one miscarriage and finding it very hard, as I'm sure we all are.

I'm 34, started ttc April 2018, conceived July 2019 but MMC naturally end of September (embryo 6 weeks). I don't know why it's taken us so long but I have large fibroids which I think are probably the reason - but I know I can implant because I did that one time.

This is month 5 post mc and I'm marginally less of an emotional wreck than I was the last few months. However I'm on CD24 of a 28 day cycle and these days are always so hard for me. I keep flip-flopping thinking I'm pregnant then thinking I'm not. I think I'm going to test tomorrow morning to put myself out of my misery, but think I'll be disappointed.

Glad to have found this thread - so many of you have stories I can identify with.

Anyone else on here pre-menstrual atm and going through that phase of waiting? xx

Update hcg yesterday was 483 which is really low for 5+4. I've a scan in the morning but epu thinks ectopic or blighted ovum. Im still spotting and cramping. I feel so bad for DH, I've tried to tell him not to get excited but gp didn't help by says the doubling numbers is a good sign. I know in my heart this isn't going to work out but I can't stand hearing the sadness in his voice. I'm having nightmares from our 12 scan (the only pregnancy that made it that far) when the sonographer said I'm sorry I can't find a heartbeat and DH just said NO and crumbled. Also I keep dreaming about the gushing blood and waking up crying. I'm so not looking forward to tomorrow at all. I'm gutted I've not been able to enjoy any of this pregnancy at all.

@VenusStarr I'm so sorry this happened to you again x 💔

Thank you @BunnytheBlueWhale ❤️ I'm sorry you're struggling. I think it's completely understandable with your DD's anniversary coming up. Sending lots of love.

Thank you @Morganmom and @Shefliesonherownwings - sorry af arrived today, hope things settle soon.

I did say to dh we have to just keep going, we dtd every other day up until cd 17 (I ovulated on cd11 this cycle) and it clearly worked this time. Struggled quite a lot today with my ptsd symptoms - failing spectacularly with my therapy homework this week but I'm trying not to be too hard on myself.

@Trying2030 sorry you are joining but you're very welcome. Here's to lots of BFPs and sticky beans this year.

@VenusStarr I'm sorry about your chemical but as you say it is positive you can get pregnant and hopefully your appointment will help.

@BunnytheBlueWhale I'm sorry you're struggling, it is understandable though with the anniversaries coming up. Big hugs.

AF arriving also sucks. She has struck for me too this afternoon so I'm out. Surprisingly she's a few days early. Before I was pregnant last year I had been regular 28 day cycles. Since losing DD my first proper cycle was 30 days and this one was 26. I know both are normal lengths and it's normal for them to be a bit irregular but I naively thought hoped they'd go straight back to 28 days after birth. It doesn't help not knowing what to expect but I need to accept it. Anyway onto another cycle I guess.

@VenusStarr I’m so sorry!

I'm so sorry @mumlil9 ❤️💔 should've read before I posted. Sending lots of love x

Hi guys, just popping back in, not caught up yet.

I'm sadly having a chemical 💔 miscarriage number 3. I just feel numb. Trying to focus on the fact that we did conceive this month so we may not need ivf after all. We've got our rmc follow up in a couple of weeks so that's a positive too.

Hope everyone is OK @BunnytheBlueWhale @Mumlili8 hope you both are well xx

❤️ @Morganmom that would be lovely lol its also my partners birthday the day before.
@bunnythebluewhale thank you for welcoming xx

@Trying2020
I’m excited for 2020! Let’s all get BFP for Valentines Day!!

Sorry@BunnytheBlueWhale we r pulling for you out here!
@mrsmb03 I took 3 mos off and yesterday was my first day back. I took half day and will return only 3 days a week for now. I had preterm labor and our DS passed after 2 days he was born when I was 5.5 months along. It was so hard to go back! So much emotion! I kept trying to tell myself be positive but it was rough. Thankfully I didn’t get a lot of questions like when I first went out and got so many texts...anyhoo I did receive good news that my labs r nml and I can apply for IVF. DH and I r excited! It’s another little sliver of hope!

Hi just been reading through the thread I'm new to mums net. Sorry to hear about the struggles.
I have just turned 32 and had missed miscarriage at 16 weeks in July 2019, only found out when I went for a private early gender scan, then had to wait a week to be in hospital to be set off with pessaries for giving birth to a perfectly formed baby boy. There was no explanation apart from this wasn't meant to be. We were actively trying for 9 months for our baby boy after I had had a laproscopy for endometriosis.
It is now 6 months but just got ovulation tests and basal body temp thermometer and the apps but feel like I am getting obsessed. Hopefully we fall pregnant with our rainbow babies this year 🌈❤️💙.