TTC after pregnancy loss - Thread 34 - huddle up and bring on the BFP's

@BunnytheBee

I know how you feel! We had sorted to have our house converted for the new arrival. Now they want to come and start regardless and I just don't want them to. I also spent a year with halfway done bathrooms. It's annoying at best. I hear ya.

I really dislike doctors who won't admit to not knowing. It causes so much more harm than needs to be done.

@VenusStarr

I know about the hopes going up--I can't help thinking this way as my af hasn't returned yet. My post party bleeding only just stopped last week. already, in the bottom of my heart I'm hoping af is missing because of some sex miracle.

I know the odds are against me, they always are. But I saw two magpies this morning. Two for joy, right?

I hope you’re ok @VenusStarr and I’m sorry you haven’t got any answers. How are you today?

@clitterratti How are you? I really think that if the medical professionals have no idea then they should just say they have no idea rather than guessing what might be going on.

I just feel like I’m living in another world. Working from home is ok but this all happened just as our upstairs was nearly finished (decoration wise). It’s not the be all and end all but would have been nice to be stuck in a house that is decorated rather than one that isn’t as in an annoying in between stage with no doors or carpets upstairs.

The weather seems to be getting brighter and that helps my mood but I feel up and down tbh.

Panic over. I've been doubled up with horrible cramps half the night and came on this morning. Feels weird that I'm relieved.

Hope you're all OK xx

Gah. My period is awol. Positive opk on Wednesday 11th, plus had a temp dip that day so FF confirmed ovulation as that day. Putting it on here to induce af to arrive....

We dtd on holiday without protection as I thought I'd ovulated. There is a tiny chance we dtd on Friday 13th without protection - neither of us can remember if we used anything... 🙄 We definitely dtd, just can't remember. I vaguely recall us discussing it but can't remember if we tossed caution to the wind... I really don't want my hopes to go up but I can't help it.

My luteal phase is 12 days, it's 14 today. Is it possible to ovulate and just not come on but not be pregnant?? Cheap hpt are negative so far, but in my last pregnancy they were barely visible.

FFS.

@VenusStarr I'm sorry to hear this. I know how it feels to not know the answer to such a big question. I was highly dissuade by my doctors for a post mortem of our baby.

I went to see my doctor and she kept telling me it was because of my weight and suspected diabetes. But I've never been prescribed medication...and they can suspect and test all they want but I'm never found with high blood sugar.

I am a big girl (size 16 on a 5'5 frame) but I'm tired of everyone blaming my big ass for for everything. I have had two children already and I know my body. I know I'm fine, even if I'm considered unhealthy. Women much larger than me have healthy uncomplicated pregnancies. Women with far higher health conditions also go on to have successful pregnancies. I already feel bereft and incomplete after this loss; I don't need to feel like eating a big-mac in the summer of 2008 is the reason I lost my baby.

@BunnytheBee I feel like you, these guidelines need to be more inline and consistent with each other. Your mom shouldn't have to work if she's in the high risk group. This whole covid-19 is such a vicious and unpredictable virus. I hope it ends soon.

I've had my biopsy results - all normal. So no answers with that then. Not sure how I feel. Happy that it appears all is well, so why did my babies die? :( :(

Morning. Thanks for the messages. I'm not doing great, pmt and lockdown are not a good combination. Dh is getting paid, at the moment, but could change.

I'm working today, got 3 phone meetings booked and I've scheduled a lunchtime walk. I'm showered and have dried my hair. I can't remember if I said that I've had an eczema flare up. It had started to get better but is so sore today and has spread. I don't think stress is helping at all.

I feel the same @BunnytheBee, scary that this is what our life is like now.

I'm sorry @clitterratti we've been video calling family. There's a big baby loss and infertility community on Instagram, someone is running a pub quiz this week, which I'm looking forward to.

Feeling on the edge today and a bit hopeless 😔 sending lots of love ❤️ xxx

@clitterratti It is scary but also annoying it has come to this because people were ignoring the guidelines. We’re not supposed to see anyone in another household which is frustrating. My parents are nearby but we aren’t supposed to get together and my mum is high risk although she is still going to work atm.

I hope everyone stays safe and well.

I fear this could go on for a while.

Evening Girls,

All this is scaring me beyond belief. A lockdown? What the hell is that supposed to mean exactly and can't we just see our family at least? I am so desperate to be around my loved ones during this time.

I'm wishing all of you safety, comfort and clarity at this time.

@Ripple2020 Well yeah if we had conceived already then that’s different. There are lots of pregnant people. But some people might chose not to TTC now. I’ve concluded I might keep trying (and then just stay in the house for 9 months if it comes to that!) but it really depends what happens as one of us could get CV any time and might have to isolate from one another.

I actually didn’t think of Mother’s Day much with all that is going on

Hi all! hope Mothers Day wasn’t too upsetting yesterday! I only had 1 breakdown so feeling proud🤦🏽‍♀️😊
@Mumlili9 you sound a lot better, hopefully you’re feeling it and the wounds are healing😊🤞🏼
@VenusStarr that’s awful, my hubby’s hours were cut and I’m day to day in my job at the moment but the social welfare will help us until this blows over, have u tried looking into it?? I know it won’t be as much but it might help!
@bunnythebee I was thinkin the same but this kinda blew up out of nowhere and my ovia app is telling me to take a test in 2 days😬nervous I am and nervous I’m not!🤷🏻‍♀️

I’m sorry @VenusStarr

This really is such a strange and difficult time. It’s quite surreal.

Will your DH get paid? I don’t know what the govt proposals cover

TBH I’m wondering whether to put TTC on hold anyway as we would all be anxious enough during a pregnancy let alone with a world pandemic going on

I hope everyone is staying safe and well

Good luck @Mumlili9 🤞

TTC is most definitely on hold for us. Dh just lost his job 😢😢😢

Well ladies I'm back in the saddle so to speak I'm cd2 and figure we will just start trying and realistically we aren't going to fall pregnant easily now so why wait. By the time I possibly fall again hopefully this virus will have died down if not gone.
Hope you're all OK and healthy xx

Thank you @MOGMOGMOG85 I feel OK about not trying for the next couple of months as that was the original plan. And hope I might have my results by that time. I've watched a gynecologist video on Instagram today reassuring about pregnancy and the virus (as much as they can at this stage). But given my situation of recurrent, I feel OK with putting things on hold for a while.

I'm pleased you have a meeting @Mumlili9 I hope you get some answers ❤️ ❤️ how was your first day?

2 of dh's friends who both work in his industry have been put on unpaid leave. Watching the news now and relieved to hear the updates regarding covering 80% of people's salaries.
We managed to get some basics today, I was shocked to see the shops and town still so busy. Good to hear that they're more enforcing people not to use bars and restaurants and that there's support for the staff. It's very scary though. Hope all is OK with everyone 💕💕

Update on my care regarding my lost baby. I have been asked to go to the hospital on Tuesday to talk about what has happened.

@VenusStarr oh that's gutting. I understand that the new biopsy would be cancelled but not even getting the results from the other one... I hope you get them soon. This is awful time for all of us undergoing investigations because it just means more delays... but you can't even try - I really feel for you xxx

@Mumlili9 I guess this throws your following up on your miscarriage investigation into chaos too :( that is truly awful what happened to you and they didn't even have coronavirus as an excuse at the time..

sending strength to all of you who are having to put things on hold atm xxx

@Mumlili9 I hope he stays safe

@clitterratti Thank you. I’ve had a few weeks of feeling a bit crap but generally I am ok

@Mommybear05 I’m sorry you find yourself here

@VenusStarr I’m pleased you’re home safe. My friend flew out to Portugal on Monday (well at the weekend she was saying she plans to go so I’m assuming she went) so I hope she is ok too. I hope your appointment goes ok. Fingers crossed

I’m feeling a bit better since yesterday. I went out shopping to try to get the house sorted since we’ll be home for weeks / months and then it might not be possible. It felt good to get out and have a reason to go out other than food shopping.

I am trying to get my home office set up and that might help me with working from home.

I am feeling a bit more positive. It seems a lot brighter out, like we are in Spring, and I think I’m going into my fertile period. I feel a bit more upbeat.

Also worried about what TTC means right now but haven’t made any decisions either way there.

I hope everyone is ok physically and mentally

💕

Not unexpected but my biopsy is cancelled until further notice. My first set of results are delayed because the lab staff have been redeployed.

Dh doesn't want to try as he doesn't want to put me at risk. So that's that. Forgot to mention that he works in hospitality, so I'm also worried about his job.

Ugh, this is shit.

Hi everyone 👋 ❤️ thanks for asking after me. Our holiday ended early and we got home late last night. Really thankful they brought us home. Shocked to see how things are here. We were in Portugal and everything was pretty much closed down, but here seems normal, apart from the shops, which I need to brave today. Really scary and surreal.

@Mumlili9 all the best for today. I hope it goes OK for you. It's normal to feel nervous but I hope you settle quickly. Are you recovered physically now? Take it easy today xx

@BunnytheBee I'm sorry to hear you're finding things tough ❤️ it's very stressful times, coupled with other worries and concerns, it's hard to not let that get on top of you. I've seen some helpful things onlibe about trying to maintain a routine when working from home which makes sense.

@Mommybear05 I'm very sorry for your loss, welcome to the group :) my first mc was at 9 weeks too.

Sorry to hear about your work situation @MOGMOGMOG85 ❤️ it's such an unknown time, it's like it's not real. Accept it is and it's affecting all of us :(

I am sorry to hear about Ezra ❤️ @clitterratti sending lots of love to you

I've still not had my biopsy results but the hospital are seeing me today for another biopsy (brought forward from Monday) and I've got a consultation so might get them then. I'm going to ask whether he thinks ttc is OK right now. My dh is cautious that maybe we shouldn't. I'll report back later.

Sending lots of love to you all today, sorry I didn't tag everyone ❤️ ❤️

I'm back to work tomorrow ladies, I'm really nervous about it though. First AF due around Sunday / Monday. Anxiety is my controller right now.
How are you ladies holding up?

@clitterratti - I'm sorry for what you've gone through. This whole journey just seems to make us all feel so very alone - that's why we're here I think xx

@Mommybear05 - I'm so sorry for your loss :(

@Mumlili9 that sound scary with your husbands work. It sounds like his lung condition would qualify as a disability in which case they can't force him to take on more hours? It's awful that vulnerable people are being forced to work unprotected... our boarding house in the school went into quarantine today as the kids have been going down left and right with the symptoms. They sent up the cleaner to decontaminate the surfaces, only she has really bad diabetes... I hope she's going to be ok.

@BunnytheBee glad its not just us crumbling under the stress (we seem better today though luckily), its obviously affecting everyone. OMG you're both lawyers though - I bet you know how to argue! Since my bf did the bar course he's become super annoying in arguments, trying to use his lawyerly tricks on me! I won't put up with it though and I hold my own :) since you know this stuff the important job interview I was talking about was for pupillage at a really big chambers - he got through to second round and last year (which was his third year of trying) he was first reserve at the same chambers which was heartbreaking. So now it's looking like the whole process might be called off he is devastated! Plus pupillage time is always a nightmare anyway, it's so stressful for him and it affects me. Ho-hum. Is there any way your mum can work from home??? My mum is a social worker which you'd think they can't work from home but her office are making sure she stays home, she's doing all her client calls on speakerphone to families! I forgot we're cycle buddies this month - we better get busy!!! Best of luck xxx

Hello everyone. Can I just say I’m so sorry for your losses. I’m reading your stories and they are so sad. The loss of a pregnancy or child is absolutely devastating. I really hope you find healing and go on to have healthy babies soon.

Just had my first mc at nine weeks on Saturday. I hope I can conceive again soon.

@84TinsOfBeans Thank you for sharing, Lilwen sounds beautiful and whimsical. I love it. What does it mean?

I was taken care of well during the whole ordeal but it was all so foreign for those around me to experience this. For some reason, the midwives and doctors I was with during my experience said that in 35 years they had dealt with stillbirth 20 times...so it wasn't something they were used to. This made me feel incredibly alone. I am an ordinary woman, with an ordinary life and I have always wanted to feel specialbut thisthis made me feel cursed.

@BunnytheBee I'm sorry to hear of your loss, a cruel and horrible experience beyond comprehension. It's not fair and again, I am sorry you went through this only to face miscarriage...I hope you have recovered well and that you get your rainbow soon.