TTC after pregnancy loss - Thread 33- huddle up and bring on the BFP's

Thanks everyone!

I'm 12-13 DPO today and had a far stronger line on an FRER this morning along with a 1-2 weeks on a clear blue digital. I have 4 more of each in a drawer along with at least 20 cheapies so there will be plenty more POAS to come.....
Just gave myself my first enoxaparin injection, it stings a bit but I've managed to get over my needle phobia eventually. Need to ring the obstetrician / haematologist tomorrow to kick that process off yet again, along with the fertility clinic and also my GP.

Hope you're all ok. Appreciate that sharing this kind of news may be triggering for some and will hopefully hop over to the 'graduates' thread soon. I'm confident that this year is going to bring so many BFPs on this thread, even if I'm not active I will be watching eagerly as I'm rooting for each and every one of us x

Thanks ladies! 🥰 I probably need to go to the dr today for a blood test for hcg, which is triggering as my hcg was so low last time (obviously not good). I actually don't think it will be the same this time as the line is strong, but I just hope the hcg will double every 48h as recommended.

Anyway this is still way early so let's hope 🤞

How are you ladies getting on? Any fun plans for the weekend? Back to work (and the grind) for me today, I'm so tired 😴 Weekends are never long enough...

@SunStruck congratulations! Hope the little bean sticks 🤞🏻

@Avocuddles saw your BFP post! Massive congratulations! Hope the line progressed for the past couple of days 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻

Congratulations @SunStruck that’s lovely news x keeping everything crossed for you x

Congratulations guys, lovely to read some good news

@SunStruck @Avocuddles congratulations ladies, so pleased for you both! Lots of love and fingers crossed for sticky beans 💕

@SunStruck yaaaay that's a lovely strong positive girl! Here's hoping we have sticky beans and all goes well for us, third time lucky I hope! X

@bunnythebluewhale thank you! 🥰

@avocuddles thanks, I'm feeling fine - I had the worst 'period cramps' and back ache for a few days but it completely disappeared yesterday. Must have been implantation. My boobs are really heavy and bigger though which is a good sign of hormones.

I'm just glad it's very different from my last pregnancy, I had a really faint line from 12 to 18 DPO (and blood tests showed a very slow hcg rise). This ended in an early miscarriage at 6 weeks. This time around at least the line looks strong and the boobs are different, so fingers crossed! How are you feeling? When are you testing again?

Yes very similar dates! 😄 my app says due date should be 29 September if it sticks...

@SunStruck Congratulations! xxx

@SunStruck congratulations, what a super clear line! I really do hope this is a sticky one for you. How are you feeling?
I'm going to test again tomorrow to hopefully see a stronger one. Our dates are exactly the same!

@sunflower1608 thank you 😊 I'm hoping for BFP:s for all of us soon... sticky ones!

@venusstarr I'm so sorry to hear that you're so down 😔 I completely understand where you're coming from, the advice from the last appointment you had just have shook you to the core. Definitely right to take a bit of time off and look after yourself - maybe get a second opinion, and if that's the route to go, I know you'll be very well taken care of and monitored, so your chances are really good. I really hope to see you back at MN again when you feel stronger ❤️

@lasandotto oh definitely tell your colleague, need all the support you can get! You must feel super anxious if you've always found out when you're away, you know you have the MN support here and we understand how you feel ❤️

My DH's reaction was an anticlimax "oh okay that's good, let's not get our hopes up yet." I get where he's coming from but still! The poor guy thinks he's the unlucky charm as he's never been to a scan with me when we've received good news 🥺 I've been to one good scan myself (first scan ever, the first time around when it ended in mmc) when I saw the heartbeat at 6.5 weeks - He wasn't there as he was traveling for work. Next time he came with me the baby was gone at 10 weeks. I'm hoping this will be a sticky one...

Massive congrats @SunStruck x

Sorry I meant my luteal phase is 10 days... early morning here 😴

So I was hellbent on not testing until Monday (which is 14 DPO) although my luteal phase is 10 DPO to not get my hopes up... but DH wanted me to test today as it's our weekend (back to work tomorrow), so he can join in and to process the good or bad news!

This is me at 12 DPO 😳

@JuniperAndRose Thanks for your reply. It is strange and I know feelings can change. My DH is very guilty of making comments like that based on just having a bad day so I’m hoping it’s that and more so I’m hoping we can have a baby naturally anyway. We had never discussed IVF but he was one who always thought having a baby is easy and nothing would go wrong. The other day was the first time I’d brought up IVF. We discussed adoption and went to a meeting about it a few months ago and concluded we are not ready for it but we knew we’d want to try having a baby dust now just because it could get harder as we get older.

Good luck with TTC. I’m not tracking either since last month and I don’t feel like going back to it. I know roughly that I’m going into FW and I might be able to tell when I’m close to ov but I don’t feel like tracking atm. You might have seen from my earlier post (maybe on the other thread) that DH and I were getting a bit stressed about it this morning... but I feel fine now!

I'm just catching up on this thread, so apologies to anyone that I have missed. Thank you so much for all of your kind messages and tags after our second loss at the end of last year, I really appreciated each and every one of them.

DH and I are tentatively back to TTC. At the moment we have agreed that we won't track cycles etc but will just see how we go. Obviously that is much easier said than done and I can already feel myself getting stressed about this.

@BunnytheBlueWhale I've just seen your comments about your conversation about IVF with your DH. Oddly enough we had a similar conversation a while back. We had always talked about IVF as an option (I have endometriosis which was diagnosed before I met DH) but when I mentioned it again after we lost DD1 he said that he did not think that he would be up for IVF. I was really upset and did tell him this. We had also always talked about adoption as an option, but DH mentioned it to me recently after our loss of DD2, and even though I had always thought I would be open to it, when I did some further research I just felt overwhelmingly sad. I don't know why, I don't think that there is any logical reason for it, I just felt like it wouldn't be something I could do at the moment. I think it's just so hard to know how you would feel about something as personal as this, when you go from considering an idea in the abstract to actually taking steps in your real life.

@VenusStarr I can completely understand where you are coming from. I hope to see you again on the healthy thread, and in the meantime am sending you good thoughts.

@Avocuddles gentle congratulations. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you.

I’m sorry you are feeling that way @VenusStarr but it’s important to do what feels right for you. I hope perhaps you will stay with us on the other thread if we keep that to diet and fitness and no TTC talk but understand if that’s too much also xx

I think I need to step away from here for a while. I am genuinely so happy for all those with a longed for bfp, I hope these are your rainbows and I wish each and every one of you on this thread happiness and that you also get your rainbows.

You ladies are so supportive and I can't thank you enough but I need to protect myself for the time being. Best wishes xx ❤️🌈

@VenusStarr I understand what you say about feeling lost not knowing why the previous pregnancies failed - I'm working on the assumption that this pregnancy will fail really as I have no positive experience to draw on.

@LASandOtto mine both started at 7 weeks too. First time round I really struggled with the injections but second time round it was ok. Do you have to take them for the duration or just for the first twelve weeks?

Sadly I don't think that will be for me @Avocuddles I just don't have that optimism anymore. Everything is triggering for me, even having hope. I'm not confident that ivf is right for us without understanding why the other pregnancies failed and no one is willing to help us with that so I need to think about what next but I don't have the headspace or energy to begin.

Hope this is your rainbow 🌈 x

@Avocuddles yes give them a call! See what they say and what their suggestions would be?

I don't find these injections very easy. I am not a needle phobic (thankfully as doing blood tests every 48 hours currently) but when you have to do it yourself, it just becomes really strange. I've got bruises all around my stomach by now.

The first weeks are really awful. I have a terrible fear as I'm on a work trip the week after next where I'll hopefully be 7 weeks. That's the week I always have started spotting with my last two pregnancies and it was always whilst I was on a trip - once work, once on holiday. I'm thinking of confiding in a close colleague if I make it to week 7 fine and as she knows about my past MCs I know she will be a good support, she has two kids of her own and never had to deal with a MC but she had endo and other issues and had been told she'd never have kids.

I really hope our supportive thread here with all these wonderful women will see more sticky BFPs in the coming weeks and months and that we continue our journey together. I cannot imagine doing it without any of you!

@VenusStarr I hope we get the same from you too. Each of my BFPs has been when I've been preparing for fertility treatment and taken the pressure off myself (no temping, just opks in this case or nothing at all previously) - hopefully the same might happen for you now that you have a clear plan in place.....

@LASandOtto I'm going to give it a few more days then will start the injections on Monday if there's clear line progression. I think have a full box left from last time but will give the hospital a call as know they'll want me in for (clotting related) blood tests ASAP - probably next Friday as that's when the specialist clinic runs. The fertility clinic said they would scan me at 6 weeks if I got a BFP so I'll give them a call next week too and broach the subject of progesterone / other support. I'm working away on Tuesday night and was dreading trying to stick to dry January during a big team night out but I guess it'll be easy now!

I'm on the exact same page re scan anxiety as I've never had a positive scan experience - the one time I did see a heartbeat the pregnancy was measuring a week behind and clearly following the same path as the previous one. There's also a particular room at the EPU where I've received the bad news on both occasions. The thought of returning there fills me with dread but I'm trying to be stoical and think whatever will be will be. Hopefully we'll both be in a position to join the 'graduates' thread soon, but for now I'm glad you're on the scary early days journey with me...

Great news @Avocuddles think we'll be getting the same news from @SunStruck soon too.